Chapter 141: 【One hundred and forty-first

Qiu Tianyang buzzed in his head.
The line of tears of the person in front of him was sharper than any question, and a heavy cone tapped on his chest. A sour and bitter taste overflowed from there and poured into the throat. The strong sense of guilt made his eyes gradually Red circle.
"... No one will touch that house again." He said in a dumb voice, "Never will--"
Shen Yan shuddered slightly when he heard this sentence, and he took a long breath before slowing down. His hands were loose and Qiu Tianyang fell back to the sofa.
After the accumulation and outburst of emotion just now, Shen Yan seemed to have been hollowed out once, and his feet seemed to step on the swamp. With both hands pressed on it, he wiped gently for a long while without saying a word.
Qiu Tianyang was just rock-free during the whole journey. His tie and neckline were messed up. He looked like a desolate man, and he didn't organize it. He looked at the nonexistent point on the ground for a long time.
"In those days ... the letter I sent to you, you never opened it, right?"
He asked suddenly.
Shen Yan's hand stopped abruptly, and there was no sound.
At that time, he locked himself in the empty room after the old man left, saying nothing and seeing no one—especially the Shen family.
The telephone line was unplugged, and the sk and qq software on the computer were all uninstalled, completely shutting myself in a closed world, silently facing the old man's relics day by day, and my heart was ashamed.
He knew that someone outside had been rushing to knock on the door, and knew who it was, so he wouldn't open it at all.
He knew that after the telephone line was picked up later, there was a Beijing area code number that was called every day, and he would never pick it up.
He knew that one month later he finally opened the letterbox downstairs again. Among the thick letters was a heavy letter that he sent to him. The letter that would be sent here was always sent to his grandfather. There was almost no second person who knew that he lived in this place and would write to him, so he knew who this letter came from, but so far It has been several years since it was locked in the drawer before it was opened.
"You really don't even want to tear it down." Qiu Tianyang grinned wryly, raised his head under the light, and grabbed his hands into his hair in disorder, making the already decadent look even more decadent, "... don't you want to Seeing the content inside, don't want to see the three words 'I'm sorry', don't you think it's hypocritical to say these things so far? "
The answer was too late.
More or less can guess the letter content, more or less there will be those three words. However, it was not because he felt hypocritical, but because he no longer wanted to have any contact with his father.
"If you didn't take me to the hospital without you, I didn't know that Grandpa was in critical condition. If you didn't pull those people away for me, I might not really see Grandpa's last face ... I must thank you for this matter. "Shen Yan spoke slowly, and her voice was as dry and astringent as it was rubbed by gravel." If it's hypocritical ... it won't behave in action at all. "
When Qiu Tianyang heard this, the tearing urge that he had just been able to endure did not know why he couldn't stop it suddenly, and he dropped a star out.
He took a quick breath and wiped two of them.
"Because, uncle, he told me personally." His breath fluctuated irregularly for a while, and finally he calmed down a bit, sniffing his nose. "He found that when I secretly drove you away with my aunt's partnership plan, He came to his own door ... and told me the truth of the year. "
The man is a very arrogant person. Arrogant people often disdain lying.
Men are also the protagonists of all things.
So what the man said ... is the truth.
"When I know that your mother is not a third party, when I know ... you are innocent and you are a bastard. It's too late."
At that time, Shen Yan was an intern in the field alone. The old man was unwilling to tell his grandson about his illness and serious illness, because once he died, his grandson would be helpless and helpless. And none of the Shen family went up and down to inform Shen Yan. The man ’s yuan even wanted to use Shen Yan to be out of the country, and the old man was dying out of control.
Hearing the truth from the man, he flew over from Beijing in a hurry, asking people over and over again in that strange city, looking over and over again, and finally found someone at a local veterinary quarantine.
However, this is tantamount to confessing his true identity.
"When you know who I am in the hospital, you look at me like that ... I will never forget it in my life."
I remember the mistakes I made in my life.
All his life is destined to live with guilt.
He smiled miserably: "I thought you would never talk to me again."
The door was tightly closed even if I went many times; even if I couldn't get through the phone or how many times I made the call; I didn't receive a reply even if I left many comments on sk and qq; even if I sent it in panic After seeing the letter, it would eventually sink into the sea.
Shen Yan has always been a man who has always responded. So when he doesn't "shall" anymore ... naturally it means breaking the knife.
Shen Yan was gone, and he did not have the courage to tell the truth to Yang Jie. They rarely appeared again. The dubbing team gradually loses the maintenance of the core members. In the situation where everyone has different life pressures, they still run their own things.
Even if he himself was picking up the drama in another network, the dubbing itself always aroused the guilt of Shen Yan in his heart, and over time nothing could be deserved, so he emptied everything and ended him The era of the "quick horse and light fur" once proud.
"Two years have passed since then ... Uncle he found me and asked me to give this to you." Qiu Tianyang murmured and slowly took out a bunch of keys from his pocket.
Shen Yan's eyes fell on the bunch of keys, frowning slightly as he did then.
"He said, you will definitely not see him, but you might still see me ..." Qiu Tianyang's thumb was polished on the key, and the notches on it were as embarrassed as he was at the time. Already standing at the door, but don't think you will open the door to meet me, but I was wrong. "
Opening the door is just opening the door.
In the short distance of ten centimeters, people who had not seen for a long time stood silently behind the door, and looked at the visitor and the bunch of keys in the visitor's hands coldly.
—You’re here to tell me, I ca n’t stay here, will I be rushed to another place?
No ...
-Then you go.
In just three short sentences, there was no room for him to plead, and the door closed silently.
"However, at least your attitude has changed from seeing nothing before, to becoming willing to see me," Qiu Tianyang smiled bitterly, "I think ... maybe one day, I can sit down and talk to you face to face."
Shen Yan said softly at this time: "Now I am willing to listen-you say it."
Qiu Tianyang was stunned, and then pursed his lips, as if to press the slight tremor in his voice slightly before speaking.
"I'm not here to defend myself today. Wrong is wrong, I have nothing to say."
"... You had your position, and you didn't know the truth," the emotion in Shen Yan's words was very calm, but calm. The intense feelings at that time just like the waves that hit the reef slowly recede, leaving only The next flat and flat beach, "Compared to me as a stranger, you will of course choose to stand with someone close to you. This is normal."
Qiu Tianyang didn't pick it down immediately, sitting silently for a while, and then reached out again to pour Shen Yan a glass of water.
His hands were trembling, but he still held the water bottle firmly and slowly filled it up.
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"That letter," he suddenly returned to the topic, and his voice was as light as the action of pushing the water over. "You go and take a look at it. There is a copy of it in addition to the words I wrote to you." ... a copy of the property certificate of the old house. "
Shen Yan was stunned for a moment, and suddenly looked up at him.
Qiu Tianyang smiled faintly: "After my grandfather passed away, the uncle ignored the aunt's objection and changed the name on the real estate certificate to yours-I just want you to see these. And you are still alerting me to the house issue. I knew you never opened the letter. "
Shen Yanding looked at the other party for a long while, and then he lowered his eyes slightly, speechless.
At this time, Qiu Tianyang put the key in his hand gently on the glass table, pushed it beside the glass of water, and displayed it in front of Shen Yan: "There is this. I could n’t make it clear to you two years ago, and ... … 80% of you two years ago would not accept it, so I brought it again today.

The key is an ordinary door key, which is duplicated, and it refracts the silver light under the lamp.
"In addition to the old house, this is also given to you by your uncle," he said slowly. "It was a house he bought in Beijing himself. Because he didn't want to let his aunt know, the uncle kept the house under my name. , I hope one day I can use my hand to quietly transfer it to yours. "
"I don't want it." Shen Yan's answer was light but firm.
He doesn't want it.
The only thing he wanted was the old house, that is, he could use the money earned from his hard work all his life to buy it from the people of the Shen family, but now he does not have to do it. Other than that, he does n’t need that man to give himself anything, especially materially—
Qiu Tianyang seemed to know what his attitude was from the beginning, and was not surprised, just sighed.
"Some words I want to say—"
Although I have no position to say, I am sorry if I don't say it.
"These may seem like your uncle is buying you up and giving you money, but, I want to say ... some things may not be what you think. There will really be some people in this world who don't know how to express their guilt , Especially someone with high spirits like uncle, in his conception, and in the values ​​of his generation, there is nothing he ca n’t say, but he has to use material to reflect it, does not mean that he thinks you are using money. A fair-handed person. He just ... never knew how to say 'sorry'. "
Time can change many things, many people. Sometimes when people reach a certain age, they will not look back at all the absurd things they have done in their lives.
"Uncle has more than 50 people this year, and he is already at the age of knowing destiny. Although he didn't say it clearly, I know he must have regretted it." Qiu Tianyang said slowly, "Of course, there is no" regret "in the world. A debt that can be written off is just a different way for everyone to repay. "
Shen Yan listened silently without saying a word.
Qiu Tianyang continued: "I ... I heard Mr. Pu mentioned to Ms. Yuan that she wanted to hire you to go to her school to study undergraduate. Then when talking with the return date today, he also said that he would transfer to Beijing to work early next year. You guys will surely ... then find a place to live, do n’t you? "
Speaking of Qi Qi, Shen Yan's expression slightly changed, but she opened her mouth but didn't say anything.
"Beijing rents a lot of money, especially in a location with convenient transportation. If you live far away from the city center, you are tired and commute every day. The location of this house is good. There is a subway station not far away. It ’s also in the urban area, and property management is perfect.
Qiu Tianyang said these words with sincerity and no compulsion.
If you are willing to accept ... even if it ’s just temporary acceptance, just rent one. A house that does not charge rent can also reduce the burden of returning him. "
Shen Yan's gaze rested on the bunch of keys on the table for a long time, and finally he slowly reached up and carried it in his hand.
But in principle things will not change.
"His internship period is three years. If I go to undergraduate school, I will graduate in three years." He said, "After three years, I will return the keys to you, and who you love to give to--"
Then, he gently picked up the glass of water, and drank up without a sound.
Qiu Tianyang watched the water in the cup disappear a little bit, and suddenly had some mixed flavors, staring at Shen Yan's movement until he completely emptied the cup.
After so many years, I didn't think that Shen Yan really had a day of "acceptance".
Accepted the bunch of keys.
Accepted that glass of water.
So, the third thing he hasn't handed over, will this person accept it?
"Shen Yan, I'm sorry." Probably because the psychological pressure on those three words was too great. In a word, the voice became more and more dumb, and only a slight choked voice remained.
The person who said it was the same, but the person who listened had the same expression, as if an outsider had no joy and no sorrow, and it was still like water.
He put down the glass in his hand silently. Letting go is a very simple action, but it is also something that someone needs to spend his whole life to complete.
There is only one life for a person, and it is too extravagant to use it all in this matter. and so……
"I forgive you."
He spoke lightly.
At the end, he sighed for a long time, closed his eyes, and as if his shoulders were unloaded, he slowly sank, leaning against the sofa in a very comfortable posture, his left hand was gently lifted up and placed in the middle of the collarbone The button is closed.
At this moment, he felt that the man next to him had come over and hugged him tightly, adding back the weight that had just been unloaded from his shoulder, but it was not annoying. Although the head buried on his shoulder shivered slightly and dropped some hot and wet things on his shirt one after another, it was so annoying.
And the man muttered tirelessly: "Thank you, thank you ..."
He also responded softly: "Well."
At this moment, the door of the box suddenly opened with a click, and the two people outside came in one after the other, and this was the first sight.
Qi Qi was stunned.
Shen Yan was startled.
Qiu Tianyang was also startled.
Tan Zixian did not stun, but raised his eyebrows diagonally.
...... This scene is so strange? ... obviously ... not ... catch ...
Qiu Tianyang stayed there for a while, his hands were too late to withdraw from Shen Yan, and he blinked at a loss.
Tan Zixian saw that he was hanging on Shen Yan like a koala. He didn't say anything. He just turned around quite gently, spreading his arms abruptly, and firmly hugged Qi Qi on his side. You can hold, I can also hold a straight and aggressive provocative gesture, and also generously put your head on your shoulders-deducing the word "throwing arms and giving a hug".
Qiu Tianyang's face suddenly turned white, a kind of injury that he wanted to call but couldn't call.
Qi Qiao was originally scared by Tan Zixian so suddenly, but he was shocked by Qiu Tianyang's collapsed face and couldn't help laughing.
Shen Yan was still stunned slightly, see Qi Qi smiled, a pair of eyebrows also gradually spread out, smiled silently.
Yes.
He has only once in his life, and it is better to be used for "letting down the past" ... for "cherishing the present".