Chapter 90:

--Start……
At the beginning, where were you and what were you doing?
He thought in a trance.
As before, he turned off all the light sources in the room, leaving only the screen glowing coldly. The words that were cobbled together as if they were written on the paper seemed to be wetted with ink, blurring one by one between the light, and gradually becoming white, and nothing could be seen.
He slightly raised his hand on the table, and released the button pressed under his palm.
And, just like to make sure that you ca n’t help but stretch your hand to get the button, even move your hand gently for a distance, and then slowly make a fist.
The light in front of him flooded him like water, sinking and floating. Consciousness was carried on a small boat, drifting back to the starting point of his memory-he had always chosen the starting point that was deeply enclosed at the bottom of the memory; now, he took the initiative to dig it up.
The beginning was the rental house.
There was rust on the door, and a stale "Fu" word stuck on the doorway. He and the woman sat in the door.
He was sitting on the ground and playing, the woman was sitting on a wooden chair in front of him, with a look on his face and two traces of dryness on his cheeks. The phone microphone just hung up was not put properly, and it was crooked to the side, and you could still hear the long "beep-beep" prompt tone after disconnection.
There will always be a few days every month, every time the woman does not say who called the phone, but he knows.
Is it dad, he asked.
The woman's eyes moved slightly, looking down at him, and the angle of her drooping mouth lifted up. The smile was dismal and dismal.
It was dad, she answered. This answer brightened his eyes.
--When does he come back.
He will not come back ...
--why.
--because……
Suddenly, the woman's voice came close to her ears when she met again today: "Shen Yan, he didn't want you at all."
The countdown on the screen suddenly jumped from "120" to "119" at this moment.
A one-second jump made him tremble deeply, and his fingers subconsciously held down his throat—the throat seemed to be held firmly by the woman's hands, not just the sound, but his breathing stopped.
118.
117.
Blank for three seconds.
His hands trembled slightly, his mouth wide open, and he heard the struggling gasp from the microphone in his headphones. Fortunately, it's very light, and I can't hear it if I don't listen carefully. There was a moment when he wanted to grab the button, but after holding it down, his fist still pressed against the table.
He took a long breath and closed his eyes.
The moment when the sound appears is like the water surface is broken, and the process of hearing the sound is sinking.
Qi Qi also felt herself sinking.
Shen Yan's voice was like a cold iron hook, which hooked his hearing at once, and even went deep with the people.
"... what do you want to know?"
Half is breath, half is real voice.
The former is fake, the latter is real, but slightly hoarse, forming a very unique sound quality. Just as the silt at the bottom of the quagmire was hit by a stone, the sediment was slowly rising and turbulent at the bottom of the water.
And the water temperature is terribly low-
Then, the person in the headset suddenly smiled lightly. There was only one sound, and there was also a sense of hollowness like walking dead.
"Before the Emperor Xian ... I didn't mention me once, because he didn't want the world to know that I existed," he said, speaking slowly. As if walking alone in the water, every step forward is heavy, "My mother and I have been wandering outside for more than ten years, and even the capital ... has never taken a step.
"what--"
Qi Qi took a breath unconsciously at this moment, and seemed to be drowning if she didn't react like that.
He shivered fiercely, and a deep chill came from his arms, and he couldn't help but cover it with his hands. Before Shen Yan finished reading the first line, he felt that he was sinking in a dark and deep water.
Sinking to the end.
Because there is no bottom.
Even the game of "Bai Ke" did not give him that feeling.
The only similar feeling in the impression is that after returning from the hospital, he looked at Shen Yan's eyes and wanted to read the other party's thoughts from those eyes. At that time, Shen Yan's expression of alienation was exactly the same as it is now, as if it were a dark sea, making people lose the courage to leap forward.
And the phrase "what do you want to know", sounds like ... it's simply answering the question you asked at the time.
But in fact, this sentence does come from the line of "Shunyanghou".
The object of the speech is an old minister who has been following the first emperor since the time of the first emperor and knew the hidden feelings of that year. He knew the life experience of "Shunyanghou", so he found each other in private, persuaded him to restore his royal status, and rebelled in the name of the brother of the emperor, to stun the king.
This dialogue is "Shunyang Hou" reviewing his childhood experience.
but……
"But it's not right." The tone is wrong and the feelings are even more wrong-they deviated from the beginning, and they deviated completely.
Qi Qi murmured the exit, and the spine was cold up and down.
The tone prompt clearly reads [slightly bitter smile, but calm tone].
According to the description in the book, although "Shunyang Hou" lived very hard as a child, he was supported by many kind-hearted people after he became an adult. He entered the army and was recognized by others as a brave and calm leader. He was born as a general, and his temperament is different from that of ordinary princes, and often gives people a sense of courage.
The breath that Shen Yan just exhaled also has a compelling courage, but the nature is obviously completely different.
The courage of "Shunyanghou" is like the midday sun, bright and solemn.
And Shen Yan's courage ... but the ash burned out by the sun, it was not warm at all, but there was a needle-like, gloomy cold like the winter water immersed in the body.
Shen Yan, why are you doing this?
Listener 1: ... Why on earth is this cat father ... [Kneeled]
Audience 2: What a joke, don't say the tone of the cat's father is compared with other players, it is completely different from the official line description! ! Completely detached! ! 【Keep silently following together】
Listener 3: ┭┮﹏┭┮ isn't it ... what's wrong with cat dad ... how can you make such a low-level mistake? ?
Listener 4: ┭┮﹏┭┮ This kind of mistake can't be recovered.
Listener 5: ┭┮﹏┭┮ How is that! I did n’t wait so long for such a show!
Listener 6: The father of cats is Jiang Lang before he runs out ... (lighting candles)
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Qi Chen couldn't persuade him not to look at the worrying remarks on the public screen, because his heart was also tightly tucked into the air. And their evaluation took him to another level.
Jianglang only exhausted?
Everyone knows that no one is perfect, although Shen Yan is very powerful, but it is impossible to be perfect in the performance-but this kind of completely derailed major mistakes, he never expected to appear on Shen Yan.
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In this special environment of the game, some players will choose to win unexpectedly and strive for high scores with novelty through different performances from others.
However, novelty is novel, and it must always be the same as its sect.
Shen Yan has always been faithful to the original work. He can even say that this is already his "signboard". How could he create a difference from other players in order to match the wrong direction deliberately? How could it be turned upside down?
It's abnormal
Qi Chen began to regret not following the advice of the fifth old man, and then pulled the people back.
"And ..." If you match the emotional tone set in your first sentence, how do you follow up the lines?
Qi Qi didn't turn his eyes, staring straight at the lines in the announcement.
[What do you want to know? Xian Di did not mention me the previous time because he didn't want the world to know about my existence. My mother and I had been wandering outside for more than ten years, and even the capital did not take any further steps. He may really be a man who abandons his wife and son, but in my opinion, he is a benevolence. 】
"You can't justify the last line, Shen Yan," Qi Qi said hardly.
"Shunyang Hou" has nostalgia for his homeland, even after experiencing such a bitter childhood, he can still focus on the overall situation, let go of his own self, and praise the father's wise virtues before others. And the official line prompts more clearly pointed out that the feelings of the last sentence should be "candid, with respect", because the old grievances and complaints are not as important to him as the common people.
Qi Qi read the original work, Shen Yan also read it, and even read it longer and finer.
The book really describes the mood of "Shunyanghou". If he remembers all these things, it is even more impossible for Shen Yan not to remember.
At this time, a soft laugh came from the headset.
Different from the previous one, it is closer to the depressed and sharp sneer before the emotions are out of control. His voice had now floated up from the bottom of the memory, and the sorrow in his tone was washed clean at the moment when the water broke out, and was replaced by a piece of hard ice-the ice that the water condensed after reaching the freezing point.
"He may ... really be a benevolent prince," at this point, his voice lifted slightly ridiculously, and suddenly sharpened when he finished, "but in my opinion, he is a man who has abandoned his wife and son."
what--
Qi Zi's head was stunned, feeling that his heart had been hit hard, and then he was beating wildly.
It turned out to be this way.
It can be like this!
The number of words in the lines has not changed at all, and even one word has not been changed. Only by changing the position of the first and second sentences, the original emotions can be carried out so smoothly and naturally.
Audience 1: ...! ! ! !
Audience 2: ...! ! ! ! He changed his word! No, it should be said that he changed the position of the line! In this way, a word can be connected without any increase or decrease! Amazing!
Listener 3: Ooo, Ooo, suddenly I hate Xiandi! ! Yes, what if he is Renjun, for Hou Ye, he is just a man who abandons his wife and son! ! In fact, such a performance is very convincing. Obviously being treated like this, there is no reason not to hate at all ... qaq
Listener 4: To be honest, I really felt he made a mistake when his first line came out, but after listening to this last sentence ... I think he should have done it consciously, not by mistake. [Thumb, really amazing]
Listener 5: It should be a +1 to do so consciously. He did not follow the script at all, and even reached the point of rebelling against the original, but I actually ... was shamefully persuaded! ! ┭┮﹏┭┮
Listener 6: Me too ... If I were Shunyang Hou, I would certainly recall the past with the cat dad's present tone, because Xiandi was too scum as a father! ! Although this kind of performance will not be accepted by the government, right? So worried, so worried, can cat father really be promoted? ? (tears)
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Everyone was holding their breath and holding their breath, and the man's sharpness gradually converged back.
After all, a well-recognized, well-educated man who, after realizing his gaffe, has become accustomed to restraint and will not allow his wound to continue to bleed—at least, not in front of others.
Even the next topic is just as sad.
"I didn't mention anything at the end of my life, just to say one thing over and over again ... that is to keep me secret."
Speaking here word by word, the sound is interrupted for a moment, and it seems that no one can continue to suppress his emotions. Qi Qi could hear the man breathing heavily in close proximity to the microphone. After a while, he finally took over: "So I treat myself as a dumb ... only to live until now."
Dumb.
Suddenly, the word was slashed in Qi Qin's heart, like walking in the mud for a long time, and finally stepping on a piece of glass buried under the mud. Unpredictable, straight into the flesh.
For a moment, there was an illusion in the heart that was unclear.
He felt this was not "Shunyang Hou", but Shen Yan himself.
Because the keyword dumb connects them together.
Once the two overlap, he will carefully appreciate the character's resentment and hatred for his father in this sentence, as well as the bitterness and miscellaneousness of not mentioning a word for so many years, which makes him feel particularly distressed.
But what hurt him most was the last sentence of this scene.
[Even so, if I tell you, I do n’t feel sad, would you believe it? 】
The original line of the line was that "Shunyang Hou" confessed to the other party that he had no grievances against the emperor after recalling all the past. He said what he had said for a long time. At this time, the tone should be a slight feeling of relief and relief after letting down the burden.
"Even if you don't believe it, I don't really feel sad", this means.
But Shen Yan is different.
When Shen Yan read out this line, there was a depressing smell in his voice. Even if he didn't look at him, he knew that his fist was clenched, and he shivered slightly because he was too hard.
"Even so ... if I tell you, I don't feel sad, would you believe it?"
The stress was placed on the last four words.
Turning a calm and declarative statement into a rhetorical question that makes people voluntarily shake their heads irresponsibly, or even question—
I said I do n’t feel sad, would you believe it? Of course not, how could you believe it? -"
Listener 1: ┭┮﹏┭┮I do n’t believe me or I do n’t believe me! ! 【The horse-master roaring body】
Listener 2: ┭┮﹏┭┮ Lord Hou, ah, ah, ah, ah, hurry, let the emperor's brother heal you! ! 【what】
Listener 3: ┭┮﹏┭┮Although I want to line upstairs, but I have been abused to cover my heart ... I have no strength to succumb to the brothers. [Hey] ... I am full of heartache ...
Listener 4: He completely overturned the original ..._: 3∠_
Listener 5: Even if the original work is completely overturned, feelings can be achieved in one go without any violation ... _: 3∠_
Listener 6: ... I ... I prefer this Shunyang Hou ... [Sorry I am sorry to say that I am the original party, and I should clearly criticize him. I am an unqualified original party and a qualified cat daddy brain fan. …… qaq】
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Yes.
Shen Yan did not match the original work at all, but his feelings were still true.
Or ... this expression is more real.
Compared with the open-mindedness of "Shunyanghou", the character has risen to the written role of the selfless state. The man in front of him is not perfect and noble at all, but he is closer to an ordinary person who will be hurt and suffering, and has more practical significance. Persuasive.
Qi Qi suddenly paused at this moment, as if she thought of something at once, and covered her mouth gently.
The author has something to say: _: 3∠_3D on weekdays is still very cruel, try weekends ...
And, I believe that seeing this, the meaning of the previous chapters should be clear. Regarding the "Shunyanghou" event, I originally had two plans: 1. Nothing happened between Cat Daddy and Eryan, and I ran directly to the game. As a result, the old symptoms broke down completely during the game; 2. I dug myself 'S wound overturned the original (but it can be sustained because of the second word).
In fact, it doesn't matter if I write the former one, but in view of the fact that what this article wants to express is cure, I chose the latter. Of course, because of this, many different voices were triggered in the front. What I want to say is that I will still write it down according to my own ideas. I might say sorry for some pure competition parties. After all, I have never thought of focusing on competitions (so there is never "sports" in the text of this article. Or "Keyword Shuangwen" this keyword). Although it is the stage of the game, of course, we will still do our due diligence to write the game, but once it has passed, it is past ...
I heard that there is another author girl whose situation is somewhat similar to mine. The business warfare is very good. As a result, when writing back the story of the two protagonists, readers have asked to write back the business warfare quickly, and then the story of the two protagonists is cut off. To be honest, I think it's a pity ... I don't want to face such pressure one day. Especially this is a vip article. I think the only way to be responsible to all readers is to stick to yourself and stay fair.
ps: So I still like to see emotion-related comments in the emotion chapter, and competition-related comments in the competition chapter ~ ^^