Chapter 91:

Qi Xiao remembered the tombstone.
Tombstone of Grandpa Shen Yan.
When Shen Yan and him went to sweep the grave of the old man that day, he remembered that he had glanced at the inscription. The inscription is engraved with the names of all family members ... but "Shen Yan" is missing.
He also remembered the album.
There are no photos of Shen Yan when he was a kid.
Except for Shen Yan in his youth, there are only one old man in the existing photos; and there is no smile on the face of Shen Yan from beginning to end.
When I was young ... the living environment was not very good.
I want to overcome something.
Even if the content is not what you want to hear?
Suddenly realized.
"what……"
Qi Qiao suddenly moved her lips, and when she recovered, something unconsciously fell in her eyes, and he hit him on the back of his hand that covered his mouth.
The man's deep muttering call hit his ears again. There is always a bitterness in the voice, and an almost humble uneasiness.
Qi Qi, don't go.
Qi Qi, what do you do to make you need me more?
Qi Qi, this game ... I want to ask you to listen to the whole process--
"Because this is ..." All of you. Suddenly the voice was sore that he couldn't even finish the sentence.
The last piece of the puzzle is also the most embarrassing piece that can't be replenished—the person chose to put it in front of him.
Qi Qi couldn't even talk.
He finally knew why.
He finally knew the reason why the other party couldn't let go of his heart even at the moment when the two were closest.
Those pasts buried between words and sentences, which were not clearly stated, were carved into the heart with a knife. The glass wall between him and Shen Yan collapsed, and his hand could be stretched over to grasp the other side, but he must first experience the pain of being cut by a glass crack.
It turned out that from the beginning, there was only one "listener" for this game-Shen Yan was confessing to himself in this way.
"Woo ..." Qi Qi couldn't catch her breath, choked in a hurry, her shoulders trembled slightly, and she suddenly tightened her hands, trying her best to suppress the choking so that the person could not hear. Realizing that there is another meaning in the lines of "Shunyanghou", the desolation Shen Yan just expressed pierced like an awl, and slammed open the gate of his feelings, unable to stop the tears from flowing The more fierce.
This feeling is like watching a movie in a college media class.
The story in the film is murky and heavy. In the center of the viewing process, it is only dull and astringent, but it is not so sad. But when he later learned that the content was not fictitious, but a documentary, the pain of being hit hard in the chest could not be described in words.
right now.
Two people, one story and two stories combined into one by the lines, that weight ... he can't bear it.
Tears are nothing but a form of catharsis.
"Enough ..." Shen Yan, enough. "I already understand, don't read it anymore ..."
Qi Qi begged softly and hoarsely, hoping that the performance would end.
But the performance continues.
"Big Brother," suddenly a cold and hard voice came out of the headset, unlike the "Shunyanghou" who was calm and self-sustaining on weekdays. It seemed like a double-edged sword that could sting others, but also stinging himself. " You misread me. "
"Hmm--" Qi Zi's eyes widened subconsciously.
Due to the role of "Changdi", he is very sensitive to the personal pronouns in the lines.
What's more, this dialogue is one of the few in the original. "Shunyanghou" showed his true heart for the first time in front of his brother-the last forced palace, the former emperor's desperate end, and the younger brother supported by the rebel When he appeared in front of himself, he lost all reason and humiliated him and his birth mother.
"Shunyanghou" kept frowning and silently listened to him scolding.
"Emperor Chang" was dying, and after a short curse, he was breathless and had to stop. At this time, the anger was very sad, and he turned from scolding his brother to scolding himself, hating himself for being deceived by this kind of emperor who was abandoned in the folk for so long, so deep. The arrogant nature of the emperor made him feel that he had put his trust in vain, and he was humiliated.
[... I actually thought that you were loyal to me and would never betray me, nor betray me--]
[Brother, you misunderstood me. 】
This is the first time the "Shunyanghou" in the original work interrupted the emperor face to face.
The verbal insult that just took place reminded me of the old and bitter memories deeply buried in my heart. Ten years of military experience and the National Society have buried that little pain of that year for too long, and when he grows up, he can hardly remember the gray thread he had.
But now.
After a lapse of many years, when these emotions were dug out by his own brother, he was shocked to realize that gray had become black, and it was so dark that it was almost dark.
At this time, the lips next to the microphone lightly ripped and laughed twice, but the smile was as bright as it should be.
"Actually, you know nothing about me--"
In terms of tone, these two lines are very consistent with his reversed first act.
Same cold.
The same hate.
However, coherence is sometimes not a good thing.
Perhaps realizing this, a word suddenly appeared on the public screen that has been calling for support: "... Actually, I can't agree with Father Cat.
The speaker is a veteran original book party. As a fan of the series of "Zhu Tianling", she is very familiar with the lines of the two characters in this scene. She is also very familiar with the mentality of the characters throughout the book.
After she spoke, many original parties who felt the same were also cowardly.
Audience 1: ... Actually, I can't agree with Father Cat. _: 3∠_
Listener 2: ... Actually I also ..._: 3∠_
Listener 3: As the original party, I have always liked the role played by Cat Daddy, and believe that "highly restored" is his greatest feature and appeal. But here, I have to say weakly that I regretted supporting him in the first act to change the character's mood. 〒 ▽ 〒
For some people who haven't read the original work and just come to appreciate the cv performance, this kind of opinion seems very incomprehensible.
For the first time, there were disagreements among the supporters of "猫咪 の 爸爸".
Audience 4: Σ ° △ °

︴Student upstairs, why do you say that? ? I think the feelings and the changed first act are connected, and the first act is very real and very contagious! !
Listener 5: Yes, yes, although it does n’t match the original, it deeply moved me ... ┭┮﹏┭┮
Listener 6: However, this treatment method is already very controversial ...
Listener 1: Not because of the problem of infectivity, or because of the problem of non-conformity with the original. The problem is that the first act is reversing, but the second act chooses to continue, and I feel that the characters have not changed ..._: 3∠_
Listener 2: Tears flow upstairs! ! Hou Ye's moods in the early and late stages are very different, and they have progressed with the progress of the story. Once this transition is gone, it is impossible to express the process of the character's inner deterioration! !
Listener 3: Hey, "indifference" and "hate" should have appeared at this time. The first act of Cat Dad was completely changed. As a result, there is no way to produce a comparison between before and after. A routine is a big voice. Taboo and taboo ... Daddy Cat's performance is really unsatisfactory today. [Agree that some people said that the first scene is very contagious, but it is good to listen alone. Listening to the two scenes together does not reflect the fate of the character.
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Qi Qi suddenly thought that the scene of this scene had arrived here, and there would be an action in the following "Shunyanghou"-the action of grasping the shirt of "Changdi" fiercely and pressing it against the wall.
If he is well-cultivated like Shunyanghou, he will make such a move, proving that he is almost out of control.
Then he heard a "bang".
It was n’t that something really hit the wall, but the sound of the man ’s hand sinking on the table. Although there was a distance from the microphone, it was loud and hard enough to make him shocked, and for a moment he forgot how to breathe.
The place where Shen Yan's fist fell was next to the button.
And he just clenched his fists tightly, without touching the buttons, even if only a little.
"Have you grown up in the deep palace since you were young ... Do you know what it's like to be alone and homeless?" His voice trembled slowly, asking a word.
Rather than asking questions, it is better to say "forced questions" more in line with the tone, and the words are strong and forceful.
Qi Qi could not help but step back. This is a subconscious response. Even if you know that the line is not directed at you, the strong sense of oppression in the line is still on the face. You ca n’t move, you can only sit and stare. People, when they hear such questions, their hearts cannot be shaken.
From the beginning of the second scene to the present, all the people present seemed to be walking on the blade.
auzw.com The deeper the hatred in the tone, the deeper the foot gets into the blade, and the voice guides you to the next step toward the blade. When Shen Yan's sense of persecution was raised at once, everyone seemed to slide to the tip of the knife, and I didn't know when it would be given a fatal thorn by the standing knife—
Shen Yan stopped and began to breathe quickly, seeming to be suppressing his emotions.
The statement was suspended for two or three seconds.
Despite the disagreements before, the audience was still firmly grasped by such performance tensions and held their breath, not daring to breathe out, fearing that they would miss something if they took a breath.
Qi Qi's heart was pounding, and her fingers were shaking.
"Shen Yan ... Hurry up."
He stared at the declining numbers on the timer one by one, and he couldn't wipe away the tears on his face that were half wet and dry, and there was a layer of cold sweat between the temples.
Perhaps few people noticed that it took a little time for Shen Yan to change the emotional tone of the first act, slowing down his speech to reflect that sadness, which made the lines that could have ended quickly. So, when he arrived at the second act, the time was already very tight. If he pauses like this ...
"Your time will not be enough--"
Qi Qi's heart was messy and couldn't help blurting out.
Surprisingly, Shen Yan suddenly made a slight pumping sound at this moment, like sighing and sobbing.
The huge oppressive force just now began to soften at this moment, and the sand like the base slowly collapsed, and I felt a bit unbearable.
The illusion of the audience walking on the blade disappeared, and the soles of the feet fell to the ground, as if a heavy mental shackle was removed, and everyone felt relieved.
"Do you know ... what is the taste of never being able to recognize your loved ones?"
His voice was very low and thick, and after a bitter cry in front, his throat became rusty, and it was easier to bring out a bitter taste when speaking. What's more, his sentence was almost completed intermittently.
Although the sentence pattern is exactly the same as the previous sentence.
Although it is also questioning each other.
However, the hatred disappeared-rather than hate, it was better to say that hatred is a frustrating feeling of hatred, and even ... a sense of relief.
Qi Qi couldn't feel her heartbeat for a moment. The heartbeat disappeared, freezing between the choking throat that the man gently passed into his ear.
changed.
The lines in the second act suggest that this is where the trend turns again.
[You who grew up in the deep palace from the age of childhood ... Do you know what it is like to be alone and homeless? 】 (Interrogation tone)
[Do you know ... what is the taste of never being able to recognize loved ones? ] (Interrogation tone deepens and sharpens)
Afterwards--
[You are obviously the only relative in my world, but I hate you very much in my heart-]
The tone of the three lines of speech is advancing one after another, obviously going in the direction of "increasing hatred".
But Shen Yan reversed it completely.
"I know ... I hate you very much ..." The voice trembles like a fist pressed on the table. When the voice reaches the hoarse limit, the hand is suddenly released, and the button next to it is touched, as if grabbed. This kind of salvation rushed into the palm of the hand, and finally laughed and lost his voice, "But, you are my ... the only relative in the world."
-"So, I still have no way to retaliate against you, leave you alone".
This is his turning point.
Seeing that it was about to attract a storm of wind and rain to slowly disperse, the clouds turned into the sun. The sunlight that has not been seen for a long time quietly spilled over the ground, as his true id implies, winter is full and spring is solstice.
The audience was silent.
Qi Qi heard him take a slow breath and blinked his eyes blankly. Spring came so unexpectedly, there seemed to be something melting in my eyes, the faster and faster, almost overflowing.
At this time, he heard the man at the end of the earphone gently smile, Shen Jingran.
What was more unexpected than the turning point was the man's next words.
"Okay, stop here--"
So far?
What does it mean so far?
The public screen was finally broken by this sentence, shocked.
Audience 1: qaq! ! !
Listener 2: qaq ... what's the matter ...
Listener 3: What did qaq say suddenly when I silently shed tears in front of the screen! Cat father!
Listener 4: qaq ... my eyes hurt ... the following paragraph can't help it all at once ... tears burst into tears ...
Listener 5: The turning point of the qaq cat father is too unexpected and too exciting! ! Unexpectedly! ! Don't stop! ! please! !
Listener 6: Do n’t stop qaq, do n’t stop here! !
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"I know I don't have enough time," Shen Yan's voice returned to his most natural state. Just listening to it, I can feel a warm sea across the beach, and the indescribable stability is gentle. At the beginning, I only intend to complete the first two acts. "
Only the lines of the first two acts are enough.
He lowered his eyes slightly, looking at the hand holding the button.
"I had planned to give up this role from the beginning-I'm sorry, I abstained."
Everyone at the scene was shocked for a while, and after turning around, their faces changed a lot, and the scene was a bit out of control.
Listener 1: 〒 ▽ 〒 No, no! ! !
Listener 2: 〒 ▽ 〒 abstain? ? ? Do n’t be like this! ! !
Listener 3: 〒 ▽ 〒The heart broke apart in an instant, and the whole person is bad! ! !
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"Sorry." Shen Yan apologized softly. However, it did not change the meaning of the decision, "I know that I have violated the line prompts and the original work-this is a taboo in the voiceover, and I am not qualified to continue."
Speaking of which, he smiled faintly.
"I'm sorry, only this character ... please forgive me for being selfish, please let me be selfish for only once. Only this time, I totally dedicate myself only, and perform only for myself. I also gave up everyone's expectations for me ... but I don't regret it. "
The scene gradually settled down, and everyone listened to him with mixed feelings.
Because you give up early, there is a little time left. Shen Yan lowered her head and gently stroked the button on the palm of her hand. The button reflected a subtle light in front of the screen and flashed quietly.
"There is a person," he said suddenly. "The one who made me take the first step and overcome the pressure to sign up for the competition. He is here today."
Qi Xiao's lips were slightly thin, unable to speak, and choked.
At this time, Shen Yan had fixed the object of his speech on him alone: ​​"Are you there? I know you are, because you have always been with me."
"Um ..." Qi Qiao bit her lip and responded dumbly to the computer.
The tears that had been stopped could not be controlled again, and hurried down silently, dropping one after another on the keyboard.
Shen Yan whispered: "I want to tell you that without you, I wouldn't have been here from the beginning, nor would I have the courage to complete these two acts according to my own ideas. I think you should have guessed ... The reason why I did this. I do n’t know, and I do n’t know what you think. "
Stopped, the sound was lower and more astringent.
"Maybe you will be disappointed, or regret being with me ... or something. But—"
Qi Qi held her breath gently, motionless.
The countdown is almost over, and the last five seconds have begun to drain.
"But," Shen Yan's hoarse words came from the headphones, with emotion hidden in each word, "Please stay and accompany me to the end."
He lowered his head while raising his hand, his lips slowly pressed against the button, and a kiss was faithfully printed.
"I love you."
The author has something to say: ┭┮﹏┭┮ Actually, I really want to hug the cat father, but I still leave it to you.
Actually, I do not regret the arrangement of the plot.