Chapter 387: I seem to have lost the ability to love

I like you, I don't care who you like, I don't care if you have me in your heart, but you can only be mine.
Why not mind and body? He wants both.
If he can only choose the same of the two, it must be the body.
Wanted the body, people are around, water dripping through the stone, time is grinding a little bit, sooner or later, you can be my person.
Yue Tingfeng is different from everyone else and different from everyone else Yan Qingsi met. She doesn't know how to say Yue Tingfeng.
Sometimes like a child, sometimes like a bitch, sometimes she can help her carry everything, she hated him, used it, and now ... I don't know how to feel how he feels about him in his heart.
Yan Qingsi has been holding the line of defense in her heart tightly. She clearly understands her situation, knows what she should do, and knows what she will face after everything is done.
She won't have any good endings ...
She is not qualified to love others and dare not accept others' love.
In the eyes of Yue Tingfeng, Yan Qingsi has mixed feelings. If she is just a simple office worker, just an ordinary girl, how good!
Yue Tingfeng saw Yan Qingsi's eyes struggling, and her heart was tormented.
Yue listened to the wind and gritted his teeth. He relented hard and did not interrupt her. She almost wanted to say: forget it, don't know how to answer it.
But he thinks about He Lanfang's New Year's products, thinks about Qin Jingzhi, and thinks about Jin Xuechu, alas ... Uncle's!
Yan Qingsi's hand clutched at the corner of her clothing, sweating from the palm of her hand, her throat was hot.
Yan Qingsi wanted to see her heart clearly, but she couldn't see that she seemed to have lost her heart, and that piece was empty.
Yan Qingsi was flustered. For the first time, she was in a panic in front of Yue Tingfeng. Her eyes were inexplicable panic, and her lips trembled slightly: "I don't know, I look like ... I ... may I don't know how to love being ... "
After witnessing the death of the biological mother, Yan Qingsi said goodbye to her childhood at that instant. In her world, there was no excessive puberty, and she instantly matured in the blood and corpse of her biological mother.
At that time, she knew: I don't want others to love me, I don't need to love others, I want to be strong, I want revenge, I want to be cold and ruthless.
Because she is so humble, so small, she can be crushed to death by anyone.
She didn't dare to move or have friends. She was afraid that if she was inadvertent, she would lose her life.
When a person is really indifferent for a long time, ruthless for a long time, maybe, he really loses his ability to love others, because he can't find where his heart is.
It's like a habit. It can't be developed overnight, but once it is established, it is difficult to change it.
Yan Qingsi is like this. Before, she didn't think there was anything wrong with this. She felt good. She could ignore everyone.
But ... now, when someone is different to her, tell her, do you want me to give you a lifetime? Bringing Yan Qingsi a strong shock, she suddenly realized that she couldn't find where she was.
but……
Yan Qingsi's eyes were dry. She didn't shed tears. She opened her mouth and said, "I don't want to refuse, what do you say?"
Yeah, she didn't want to refuse.
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