Chapter 108: the truth

Bai Luoluo sat in a dormant warehouse for a while.
The nutrient solution had been drained, and he woke up from his sleep, but he still sat motionless and his mind was chaotic.
The memory before his death was that clear, Li Qianshao's shivering, Medog's roar, Li Guanshan's silent tears. In front of his eyes, there appeared the rose that had frozen time, and the dunes and the sporadic green on the dunes that could not be seen. His tree had not yet become a forest, and he had left.
Bai Luoluo didn't know how long he had been sitting until he knocked on the door softly outside.
"Who?" Asked Bai Luoluo.
"Luo Luo?" It was Li Qian's voice. He was in charge of logistics in the bureau and bureau, so he knew that Bai Luoluo had returned from the mission world.
"You." When Bai Luoluo heard Li Qian's voice, he barely developed a familiar feeling about the world. He reached out and wiped his face, and said lowly, "Is there anything ..."
Li Qian said, "You haven't taken a bath yet?"
Bai Luoluo said, "No ..." He slowly got up from the dormant warehouse and walked to the bathroom, "I'll go."
"Okay, I'll wait for you outside." Li Qian said.
The warm water poured from the top, warming the cold skin, Bai Luoluo looked at himself in the mirror, suddenly felt a little strange. He reached out his hand and touched the cold mirror, feeling cold at his fingertips.
"Am I really coming back ..." Bai Luoluo asked, and then he suddenly turned back, his face became extremely pale-he realized what kind of question he had asked.
After quickly taking a shower, Bai Luoluo got dressed and went out, and saw Li Qian waiting by the door.
Li Qian looked at Bai Luoluo's face, worried: "Roluo, are you okay?"
Bai Luoluo shook his head, he said: "I'm fine."
Li Qian said, "Are you hungry? Let's go eat something?"
"No," said Bai Luoluo, "I want to go back to sleep first." There was no expression on his face, and the whole man was showing a strong tiredness.
Li Qian opened his mouth, but did not persuade him.
Bai Luoluo returned to the dormitory of the unit by himself, but he was still very uncomfortable sitting on the bed.
He got a score for this task, but when the system was announced, he found that he felt not joy but sadness. His memory is still covered by the sadness of that world. With his eyes closed, he can even recall the distressed expression of people in that world when he was facing his death.
And this world is just the tip of the iceberg.
Bai Luoluo remembered so many worlds he had been to. Although the memory of those worlds has been blurred, he can still vaguely feel that he has forgotten something important.
The next day, Li Qian came to Bai Luoluo and asked him to do emotional separation.
After a few moments of silence, Bai Luoluo firmly rejected Li Qian's proposal.
Li Qian was obviously a bit surprised, he said, "Rollo--"
"I don't want to do it," said Beloro.
"What did you encounter in that world?" Li Qian said, "you ..."
Bai Luoluo originally sat down on the bed and looked up at Li Qian's questioning. He said, "Li Qian, you tell me, what is the bureau?
Lee talking stuffed.
Bai Luoluo said: "You told me to bring love to other worlds, then what happened to those loves after I left?"
Li Qiandao: "Rollo ..."
Bai Luoluo said: "Let's go, I want to stay alone."
Li Qian frowned. He was restless, but finally said nothing.
Bai Luoluo was supposed to do emotional separation, but he didn't, not only he didn't, he didn't plan to do it either. Although he is a gentle person, he also has his own persistence.
Bai Luoluo took a breath and turned out a phone number from his mobile phone. Without hesitation, he dialed out.
The call was quickly connected and Yang Yedu's voice came over.
Yang Yedu said, "Hello."
Bai Luoluo said, "Hello ..."
Before he said anything, Yang Yedu said, "Your mission is over, the rating is a."
Although Bai Luoluo was a little surprised, he still answered.
"Come here." Yang Yedu said an address, his tone was full of carelessness, "pay attention to safety."
Bai Luoluo hung up the phone, got dressed and went out.
The place Yang Yedu told Bai Luoluo should be his residence. In the outskirts, it would take almost an hour and a half even if he took a taxi.
Bai Luoluo sat in a daze in the taxi, probably because his face was too ugly, and the taxi driver also asked him if he was uncomfortable.
Bai Luoluo said, "No, I'm fine, but I'm a little tired."
"Oh, you young people," said the driver. "Don't patronize making money, the body is the capital of revolution."
Bai Luoluo should be smiling.
Where Yang Yedu said was a villa district, Bai Luoluo found the house number that Yang Yedu said. His brain was a bit chaotic, but deep down he felt he had touched something crucial, and Yang Yedu could certainly solve his doubts.
Not long after Bai Luoluo rang the doorbell, Yang Yedu came to open the door for him.
I have to say that Yang Yedu is a very beautiful young man, but compared with the mild temperament of Bai Luoluo, he feels more proud and harder to approach.
"Come in." Yang Yedu seemed to have just woke up, he yawned, grabbed his messy hair and sat back in the living room.
Bai Luoluo changed his shoes and slowly walked to the living room sofa to sit down.
Yang Yedu poured hot water for Bai Luoluo and said, "There is no drink at home, so I will just drink it."
Bai Luoluo didn't mind this, he hummed and held the cup in his hand.
"Did you just finish the task? Has the emotion been released?" Yang Yedu Road.
Bai Luoluo shook his head and said, "I haven't done it yet."
"Why didn't you do it?" Yang Yedu raised an eyebrow.
Bai Luoluo licked his dry lips, and there was an exhaustion between his eyebrows. He said, "I ... don't think that's good."
Yang Yedu said, "Are you planning to resign?"
Bai Luoluo did not speak for a long time, and finally nodded gently.
Yang Yedu said: "Very good."
Bai Luoluo said, "I have something to ask you." He said, "Can you give me an answer?"
Yang Yedu looked at Bai Luoluo and slowly said, "Know everything, and endless words."
Bai Luoluo took a deep breath and asked the question that had been entangled in his heart for a long time. He said, "What is the Social Peace Bureau?"
Yang Yedu did not directly answer Bai Luoluo's question. He said, "Did you know that a few years ago, there was a staff member of the Agency and the Bureau jumped off the building z-i \ 'sa because the difference between reality and mission world was not clear."
Bai Luoluo knows.
Yang Yedu continued to say, "This is the consequence of not doing emotional separation. Although the name of emotional separation sounds like extracting emotion, it is not at all, it is just a stupid method. Temporarily seal up memories related to emotions. Why do people have to pass Nai Heqiao and Meng Po Tang after death? Because people are a kind of fragile creatures, a body cannot carry so many intense emotions. "
Every mission is equal to a death, and the emotion comes out, which is a low-match Meng Po Tang, a reincarnation who cannot drink Meng Po Tang, and sooner or later is driven crazy by intense emotions.
Bai Luoluo was stunned.
"Shehe Bureau, as its name suggests, is an institution for maintaining social harmony." Yang Yedu continued, "There are some people in the world who are smarter and more capable than others, but they have incurable diseases-they feel No emotion, "he said, laughing," to put it plainly, we are their medicine. "
What Bai Luoluo thought, like a lightning strike.
"You can even say a little bit ..." His hand raised Bai Luoluo's chin, his eyes filled with pity, "We are not even medicines, just medicine residues after use."
Bai Luoluo's lips were pale and pale, and he had thought of someone from Yang Yedu's words.
Looking at Bai Luoluo's expression, Yang Yedu laughed. He said, "You are so cute ... Okay, I just made the situation worse. In fact, not everyone is as engaged as we are. To do the task. "
Bai Luoluo's expression was slightly better, he wondered, "What do you mean?"
"You can indeed play a role when you enter the mission world, but this role is not necessarily a lover." Yang Yedu sighed. "It can also be a parent, a teacher, a friend, or even a colleague. In short, everyone is different."
Bai Luoluo couldn't believe it, he said, "Not every world will love the mission goal?"
Yang Yedu said: "Of course not." He said, "Of course, there is an iron rule, that is, as long as there is a task evaluation above a, it must have a relationship with the task goal."
After he said this, his expression was a little strange, as if he smiled: "Well, you have so many evaluations of a ... very hard."
Bai Luoluo's face turned red. The worst thing is obviously not only known to Yang Yedu, but anyone who knows this criterion will know that he has done the task and the task target ...
Yang Yedu thought that Bai Luoluo was so cute. Even if he was in love, it was no wonder that someone could not wait to hit Bai Luoluo.
Yang Yedu said, "You have guessed who you are serving?"
Bai Luoluo nodded.
"Actually, I also served him." Yang Yedu shrugged.
Bai Luoluo said inconceivably: "You have also entered his world?"
"Yes." Yang Yedu's expression was not very good. He said, "Go in and fight with him, and then he was killed."
Bai Luoluo: "..."
Yang Yedu said, "Let me tell you so. Many people have taken over Qin Baichuan's mission, but you are the one who succeeds. The others die in a miserable way. He is not as polite as he is in front of you. Empathy. "Qin Baichuan was the hardest bone in the Shehe Bureau, and he didn't know how Bai Luoluo would knock him down.
Bai Luoluo didn't know what to say.
"We still have many colleagues." Yang Yedu continued with Bai Luoluo Kepu, saying, "Most of their scores are below b, c and d are normal, but because of this, even if they come out of the mission world, they also There is no need to do emotional separation-because these emotions are not strong and will not have a great impact on their lives. For example, you and Qin Baichuan have been colleagues for a lifetime, will you miss him? "
Bai Luoluo seemed to understand.
Yang Yedu said too many things, Bai Luoluo had to digest all of them, I'm afraid it would take a lot of time.
"The person who jumped off the building was because there was no emotion." Yang Yedu said, "He can't forget the intense emotions in the mission world, plus a little accident in the mission world, so he died ..."
Bai Luoluo said, "I ... understand."
"Resign," Yang Yedu said. "You are still young and you have made enough money. There is no need to stay here anymore."
Bai Luoluo said, "Qin Baichuan ... until these things?"
Yang Yedu said, "Of course he knows."
The two were talking, but the doorbell rang suddenly.
Bai Luoluo saw a slight change in Yang Yedu's expression, showing a little helplessness. He waited for the doorbell to ring several times before he got up and opened the door.
"Dudu." Standing at the door was someone Bai Luoluo knew. He had met at Qin Min's wedding. The name seemed to be Yan Zuofei.
"What are you doing." Yang Yedu frowned, his attitude was a little irritable.
"I bought some vegetables for you to eat." Yan Zuofei's tone seemed to be coquettish, but he soon noticed Bai Luoluo sitting in the room, he said, "Yo, are you chatting with friends?"
Yang Yedu angered: "Don't appear in front of me, I don't want to see you—"
Yan Zuofei reached out and held Yang Yedu's wrist, he said gently, "dudu, don't make me angry."
Bai Luoluo saw the change of Yang Yedu's expression with his own eyes, and finally said nothing, and Yan Zuofei entered the room.
Bai Luoluo said: "Then I will leave first ..." He was about to leave, but he heard Yan Zuofei say: "I cook today, if you don't mind, stay here for a quick meal."
Bai Luoluo also wanted to quit, but Yan Zuofei said with a smile: "I don't have many friends in my family, should you be one of them?"
Bai Luoluo wanted to say that he had only met Yang Yedu a few times, but after thinking about it, he still didn't say anything.
At the kind invitation of Yan Zuofei, Bai Luoluo stayed and ate this lunch.
Yang Yedu's expression was not very good when Yan Zuofei entered the house. He went to the kitchen halfway, and his expression was even worse when he came out.
Bai Luoluo noticed a few red marks at the base of his ears, and some swollen lips.
Bai Luoluo quickly looked away and pretended not to see it, but Yang Yedu lit a cigarette and slowly said, "See?"
Bai Luoluo hummed low.
Yang Yedu said, "I and he have this relationship."
Bai Luoluo said: "Did you volunteer ...?"
Yang Yedu said: "It was involuntary at first, but it's okay now." He grabbed his hair and slackened. "At least he's alive and well.
Bai Luoluo was embarrassed.
Yang Yedu looked at Bai Luoluo's shy appearance and smiled. He said, "Well, I really like your type ..."
Bai Luoluo: "..." Don't make fun of my friend.
Lunch was very rich, and Bai Luoluo did not expect Yan Zuofei's craftsmanship to be so good. This table is obviously Yang Yedu's favorite dish, but he still eats some snacks.
Finally, Yan Zuofei put down his chopsticks and asked in a warm voice, "dudu, you have a bad appetite today?"
Yang Yedu said, "Well."
Yan Zuofei said, "What happened?"
Yang Yedu said coldly, "Nothing."
Yan Zuofei laughed and said, "Okay." He didn't even ask much.
Bai Luoluo at this meal was quite uncomfortable. Although Yan Zuofei didn't ask him any questions at the dinner table, his eyes kept on examining Bai Luoluo. Bai Luoluo didn't understand the meaning of this gaze at first, but when the meal was about to end, he suddenly realized. That's looking at the item, measuring the value, use, and value of the item. No wonder Bai Luoluo felt very uncomfortable.
After dinner, Bai Luoluo hurriedly left.
However, I don't know if it is his illusion. When he closed the door, he seemed to hear Yang Yedu's depressed snoring.
Bai Luoluo was going home, but he did not expect that he actually saw Qin Baichuan when he went downstairs.
Qin Baichuan's car was very conspicuous in both the license plate number and the model. Bai Luoluo couldn't admit his mistake, but he hesitated for a while until Qin Baichuan pushed the door out of the car.
"Luo Luo." Qin Baichuan called Bai Luoluo's name.
"Baichuan, you, how are you here." Bai Luoluo and Qin Baichuan were comfortable with him before, but after he knew that Qin Baichuan was his mission goal, he didn't know what to pose. Attitude.
"I'm afraid you're in trouble." Qin Baichuan said, "get in the car."
Bai Luoluo hesitated for a moment, or took the co-pilot.
The car was full of a strong smell of cigarettes. There were more than a dozen cigarette butts in the ashtray. I don't know how long Qin Baichuan waited for Bai Luoluo here.
Qin Baichuan didn't rush to drive, he said, "What did Yang Yedu say to you?"
Bai Luoluo narrowed his eyes and he said, "A lot."
Qin Baichuan said, "Then you know?"
Bai Luoluo said, "Well."
Qin Baichuan said, "Ruo Luo." His vocalization of Luo Luo was quite complicated, and it made Bai Luoluo's heart sounded like he heard it.
"Luo Luo, I really like you." Qin Baichuan said, "I don't like anyone and I don't know how to express it."
Bai Luoluo said, "Do you really like me?"
Qin Baichuan said, "Yes."
Bai Luoluo's eyes fell out of the window, but the light in his eyes was a bit loose. He said, "Which one do you like, the real me, or the me in the mission world?"
Qin Baichuan said, "I--"
Beloro interrupted him and said, "You don't have to rush to answer."
Qin Baichuan frowned. He felt that Bai Luoluo's mood seemed a bit wrong, and his eyes were scattered, and he didn't even want to look directly into his eyes.
"You can think about it, do you like this me, or is it only influenced by the mission world?" Bai Luoluo said slowly, but firm, he said, "In the real world, I am just nothing. The civil servants are only useful, very different from you ... "He is as ordinary as the flowers and plants on the street, not gorgeous, not special. He has not been able to understand why Qin Baichuan suddenly became interested in him, but now this doubt Untied.
The partner Bai Luoluo is looking for is not the kind of stimulating partner. The lover he is looking for is to accompany him for a long time.
Qin Baichuan understood Bai Luoluo's meaning. He pressed his hand on the steering wheel and did not speak. For a while, the atmosphere in the car seemed to freeze.
In the end, Bai Luoluo broke the silence and said, "Tell me to take me back."
Qin Baichuan silently started the car.
The interaction between them has always been full of tacit understanding. Never before has such awkward and almost desperate silence.
Bai Luoluo has a soft temper, but he does not compromise in certain things, such as choosing to accompany his life.
"The house has been renovated." When Bai Luoluo was about to get off the bus at the destination, Qin Baichuan said suddenly, "Find a time to see it."
Bai Luoluo nodded and thanked Qin Baichuan.
"Bai Luoluo," said Qin Baichuan, "I know you won't believe what I say now, so give me some time to prove it."
Bai Luoluo said, "Okay."
Qin Baichuan nodded and drove away.
Bai Luoluo watched him leave.
Real life is so bland, there are not so many thrilling adventures, and there is no love or hatred of those dog blood. So is the relationship going to be dull? Bai Luoluo can't think of it, so he doesn't think about it.
The next few days, Bai Luoluo stayed alone.
The subsidies in the bureau have also come down, and the amount is still large and scary. But Bai Luoluo also guessed the source of the subsidy. Qin Baichuan wanted to pay him labor costs through the agency and bureau.
After taking the money, Bai Luoluo gave the resignation letter to the bureau.
The director obviously did not expect that Bai Luoluo would resign suddenly, and the reaction was a bit surprised. He asked Bai Luoluo a problem in his work.
Bai Luoluo said: "Secretary, you told me at the beginning that I came to the mission world to spread positive thoughts, right?"
The director said, "That's right."
"I may not be able to do it now, because everything is wrong with my mind," said Bai Luoluo.
The director was stunned. He felt that Bai Luoluo was different from usual. He said, "What's the problem?"
"Want to kill the mission goal, isn't it a problem?" Bai Luoluo said coldly.
The director was stunned.
Bai Luoluo said nothing and turned away.
The director wanted to stop Bai Luoluo, but the words came to his lips, but he couldn't say anything. He hesitated for a moment, and still dialed a number.
The person on the other side of the phone heard his narrative and said calmly: "Don't approve the resignation letter first, let him go."
The Secretary can only say yes.