Chapter 541: Green childhood (6)

She didn't turn around again, only to say that she broke up in the past because she found that Ye Haowen didn't love her.
I can't help but open my eyes, how is this possible! The only girlfriend he has publicly admitted for so many years is her. If he has not loved her, who has loved him? !
I still want to ask what, I heard her say that her husband is back, I understand that she did not want her husband to have any misunderstanding, I do not want to make any gap between their husband and wife, they did not ask more, stood up and walked away, And at the counter, tell the lobby manager to let them have a free list.
The girl’s flower has been hovering in my head for several days. I still can’t think of Ye Haowen. If he didn’t love her, then who did he love? Is there still another person in his heart, so he has been so many years. I can't accept my confession and go especially close to other women.
Thinking about me, I cried inexplicably. For the first time, I felt so tired. I was rejected once and for all. I have been obsessed with a man for so many years. I have never seen other boys around me, and suddenly realized that maybe The person who likes it is hiding a figure that cannot be erased. Even long-term persistence and hard work are futile.
This kind of consciousness hit my heart and almost collapsed me.
I was sneaked into the room and cried when I was seen by the blind. She asked me what happened.
When I was wronged in my heart, I told my nephew that I had persisted and wronged for so many years.
When the blind man said that he was tired, let go, let me not grieve.
Let go, I never thought about letting go, I know my feelings about Ye Haowen, not so much, I think it is more love.
It can be said that feelings are two people's affairs. It is impossible to rely solely on unilateral efforts and efforts. To love a person is not to pay for the other party. It is not just to confuse him and to grieve himself. He said that he has never received a response. It is not necessary to consider letting go and not insisting.
However, my love for Ye Haowen from eight years old to sixteen years old, and now twenty-five years old, for seventeen years, such a love almost became part of my life, nearly 20 years of feelings, just like this Let me let go, I really can't do it.
But the last words of the scorpion made me change my mind. She said that if I had a woman back with a woman, what should I do? The scorpion really asked me, I never thought about it if he I really got married when I was looking for a woman. What should I do at that time? I always thought that we were between us and we were seven years old, but we never thought that it was really a love that was between us. Woman, then, do I still have a chance, then is my joke and so hard for so many years of hard work and persistence?
My nephew told me to let me try to let go, at least not letting myself chase after him, and then like it. If he really doesn't give us a chance, then why bother, because the feelings can never be forced to survive. s things.
I thought about these two words of Xunzi for two days. I finally felt that she was right. At least I should not let myself follow him. I have been running behind him for 17 years, and the distance should be too far. It is.
In the end, I decided to gamble and bet that he had me in my heart. I bet that he really didn’t have any feelings for me. If I win, I think I won the love. If I lose, I think I should see it. Whether persistence and persistence for many years is really worth it.
Regardless of the results of the two, I think it is good for me.
For this bet, I told myself that I had to quit the habit of calling him. I no longer took the initiative to look for him, nor did I create an opportunity to find him. Let me work hard only when he was a normal to stranger. Even deliberately eat with other men, shopping.
But at first I was really not used to it. Every time I picked up the phone, I wanted to call him. After I pressed the number several times, I realized that I quickly pressed it.
For a week in a row, I didn't pass a phone call with him, and I didn't see him returning to me. I felt a little uncomfortable. I wonder if he was happy this week because he didn't receive my call. Fragrant.
After waiting for ten days, he still didn't find me once. I think my gambling should have a result. The result is that he really doesn't have me in my heart, and I don't have any feelings for me.
This result is what I guessed before, but it still makes me feel bad.
I gave myself a vacation - a love affair holiday, all the work of the hotel was given to Manager Zhang, and then I went out with my own bag. I went to a better place and went to those who had not had time to go after chasing Ye Hao. The place.
I took this trip as a healing symbol, as an end sign of my feelings about Ye Haowen. After I came back, I will forget all of him and start my new life again.
Standing under the blue sky of Greece, I once again took out my mobile phone and wanted to call Ye Haowen. When I was aware of it, I was too unexplained. I directly dropped the mobile phone to the Aegean Sea.
My behavior scared the American foreigner who stood next to me and took a photo with the camera.
He came forward to say hello to me, I don't want to take care of him, one is because I am in a bad mood, the other is because my English is very bad!
When he saw that I didn't talk, he switched to Japanese.
When I heard it, it was on fire. I turned to glare at him and said that you are a small Japanese!
He squatted and said in Chinese that you were Chinese.
I didn't pay attention to him, turned and left.
I just didn't expect that I would live in the same hotel with him, and his room was so coincidental that it was right next door to me.
When I was drinking at the bar in the evening, I didn't expect to meet him again. This time, he didn't fear my white eyes and coldness came up to talk to me, saying that he and I must have a fate, otherwise how could you encounter so many? Times.
I drank a drink and sneered in my heart. A foreigner told me about fate. He was learning Chinese for a long time. He knew that he didn't know the meaning of the two words.
I often met him in the next few days. I know his name. His name is JOHNSON. He is a photographer. He takes pictures all over the world for more than half of the year.