Chapter 660: confused

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Sophia stood in front of the window, looking at the beautiful scenery in the fairy city outside the window, slightly lost in thought.
Her expression was lonely.
She thought of the days she spent in Zerowan Castle, the knowledge she had seen in the castle collection, and the honor of the nobility taught by her enlightenment teacher...
She always thought that nobles were glorious and great, kind and wise.
She has always believed that the church is just and holy, and the empire is prosperous and strong.
It is described in the book, and the nobles in Zerowan Castle also flattered and flattered it, and she herself was proud of it and set it as her future goal.
However, the decay of Hewan Town is constantly emerging in my mind, the dead baby discarded in the gully, the magnificent aristocratic villa in Morningstar City, the hypocritical and abominable smile of Duke Rosen, and the Bishop Tees’s indifferent attitude...everyone tells her a cruel fact--
Perhaps she has always been too naive and wishful thinking.
Perhaps, what she sees is what others want her to see.
Perhaps, she didn't really see the world clearly at all.
The world is not so beautiful, and the world is not so kind.
At this moment, Sophia suddenly remembered the words that Elven Life's family member Zero Moonlight said to herself before she left Grey Harbor for River Bend:
"You have never got out of the castle since you were a kid?"
At the time Sophia didn't know why the other party asked.
But now, she knows.
Nobles are not the benevolent and respectable lords in the eyes of common people.
Civilians were not regarded by the imperial aristocracy as objects that should be protected and protected.
Even the church is not completely sacred and objective.
Her cognition of the world is like a fairy tale, a fairy tale imagined from the exaggerated description of the book, a colorful water bubble...
However, when the fairy tale is exposed, when the bubble is burst, only a cruel fact is left for the girl, and a completely shattered future.
At this moment, Sophia was lost.
She raised her head slightly and looked at the blue sky, at the slowly moving white clouds on the horizon.
The cotton-like cloud is constantly drifting and changing, like an aimless traveler, wandering in the sky with no end in sight.
Inexplicably, Sophia felt like a cloud on that day.
There is no power, no direction.
She suddenly didn't know where she should go from now on...
It wasn't until a steady knock on the door came that the girl was awakened from the daze again.
"Miss Sophia, this is Li Mu, can I come in for a while?"
A respectful and gentle voice came.
Sophia glanced at the door and said tiredly:
"I want to be alone and don't want to see anyone now."
"But at least I have something to eat. You haven't eaten for several days. We made your favorite pastry, and eat some pads for your stomach. Don't starve your body."
Li Mu's voice came again.
"No, no, people like me deserve to be hungry."
Sophia replied without interest.
The voice outside the door quieted down.
But after a while, there seemed to be a faint commotion.
In the next second, with a "clang" sound, the door was kicked open from the outside, and the girl sitting in front of the window was startled.
She frowned and turned her head. When she saw who came, her face instantly became cold:
"Didn't I tell you? I don't want to see anyone, why should I break in."
It was Demacia who was standing at the door.
After hearing the girl's words, Demacia suddenly smiled.
A touch of sarcasm rose on his expression, then he folded his hands on his chest and said with his mouth curled:
"Hey, who did you show this dead face? Where is the once-in-a-lifetime Viscount Lady? Aren't you the one who mocks me the most? Why did you go to Morningstar City and fight with Shuang? Like an eggplant? Don’t you want to inherit the territory and grow the family?"
Seeing Demacia's contemptuous expression, Sophia's face became paler.
"Are you here to mock me?"
She clenched fists with both hands and said with a trembling voice.
"Sarcastic? Is it worth it?"
Demacia shook her head.
He glanced at the girl and sneered:
"I'm not in the mood to ridicule a little girl who gave up on her own when something uncomfortable happened."
"you……!"
Sophia glared.
"What am I? Am I wrong?"
Demacia snorted and continued:
"It’s not that you’re sad here to save you. I thought you were one of the few human nobles with a conscience. Although it’s a little naive, although it’s a little stupid, at least there is still a passion. My heart... As a result, I didn't expect that you would be able to endure this point. Do you want to rejuvenate the family?"
After hearing Demacia's words, Sophia's shoulders trembled.
She suddenly raised her head and stared at Demacia.
"What are you staring at? Whose eyes are bigger? Otherwise, do you think the big sister will give you the goddess's summoning idol! The big sisters hate human nobles the most, even if you have a little elven blood!"
Demacia glared back and continued to curse.
"you……!"
Sophia gritted her teeth.
"What am I? Even though I have a problem, I am better than you! At least I have never given up on the goal I decided! No matter how difficult it is! I will try my best to accomplish it!"
Demacia snorted and said.
"Why do you think we treat you so nicely? In the final analysis, isn't it still based on your high morale and kindness in your heart? The result? If you suffer a blow, you will give up yourself? Even starving your body deserves it? You are Didn't you think that you are a child, and acting pitifully will win the comfort of adults?"
He looked at the girl with a sneer on his face.
Seeing Demacia's disdainful gaze, Sophia almost bit her lip, her chest rising and falling with anger.
"Go out..."
The girl said with a trembling voice.
"Get out? I'm not. I just saw you upset today. If you don't accept it, you bite me! Isn't it a bad tongue? Come on? Why not come?
Demacia sneered.
Sophia's eyes breathed fire:
"You give me out!"
This time, her voice was loud, and Demacia was taken aback.
However, Demacia quickly adjusted, and then his nostrils turned up:
"Why do I want to go out? This is my hotel, do you know my hotel? All the properties of Amway Firm are made by me Demacia for nothing! I'm not a trash like you, I just talk about it, something happened I'm tired!"
Sophia was scolded by Demacia in grief.
Her eyes were red, and tears gradually gathered in her eyes:
"Good... good..."
"If you don't go out, I will go out!"
After speaking, she rushed out of the room without looking back.
Seeing the girl rushing out of the room, Demacia quickly followed.
He stood at the gate and shouted to Sophia who ran out:
"Yo! Where are you going? I can't stand a few words? Still can't think about it? Want to find a short sight? If you really can't think about it, please run away, or the city will be dirty, and I will look down on Demacia. you!"
Hearing Demacia's words, the girl's back shook slightly, and then disappeared into the street at a faster rate.
After seeing Sophia completely out of sight, Demacia let out a long sigh of relief and sighed with emotion in Li Mu's stunned vision:
"It's so cool."
Li Mu:...
"Don't you say it's hard to say?"
He glanced at each other speechlessly.
"I didn't come hard either. I just can't stand it anymore. Here is an irony. Anyway, even if she becomes a faction NPC, I guess my goodwill will not be saved. Just stay with me to the end, if you can wake up. Her words are even better."
Demacia spread her hands.
Li Mu:...
"You are not afraid to play off, people really can't think of suicide?"
He twitched the corner of his mouth.
"No, absolutely not! She hates me, as long as I say this, she will definitely not do it, even if she is against me, she will not do it! And she is not stupid, just experience Xiaobai is a little bit, I guess she should know many things in her heart, just can't get out...If you are sober, you should be able to figure out many things."
Demacia shook her head.
"you sure?"
Li Mu raised his eyebrows.
"of course."
Demacia nodded.
But after speaking, he hesitated again:
"Uh, she should...not really miss it, right?"
At this point, Demacia subconsciously wanted to catch up, but after hesitating for a second, he stopped again. Instead, he called up the chat interface and quickly called someone to catch up on the guild channel.
Li Mu:...
"Sometimes I really don't know whether you have high or low EQ."
He shook his head slightly and rushed out of the room.
...
Sophia ran through the streets of Grey Harbor with tears in her eyes.
She felt grief and anger, and besides her grief and anger, she had a bit of hatred.
It is not hating Demacia, but hating herself...
She actually understood that many of the words the other party said were very ugly, but they were all right.
She is indeed confused, and indeed she shrinks a little.
However, although reason told her that she needed to be cheered up, emotionally, she really couldn't accept it for a while.
In the final analysis, she is nothing more than a sixteen-year-old child.
Not to mention, it is still a bunch of flowers that live in a greenhouse and have never seen wind and rain.
Run, run...
It seems to be venting all the anger in my heart...
Sophia gradually stopped until she ran far, far away.
She sobbed slightly, her eyes red and swollen.
The anger in my heart calmed a little bit, but what came to my mind was further dazed.
Sophia knew she needed to make changes, and she needed to cheer up.
However, how should I work hard?
Fallen nobles, corrupt churches, desperate people, dull society...
The entire empire is like an old man dying, and like a huge ship that has lost its course.
How can she change the future of her territory if she is a viscount who has no power and no power?
The persistence in her heart was gone, and her belief that was not firm at first collapsed completely. What should she do?
Before she knew it, the girl didn't know where she went.
This seems to be a relatively quiet residential area, the houses are newly built, with a strong traditional elf color.
The greening between the buildings is very good. It is located here, as if it is in a garden. There are green grass and flowers everywhere, which seems to be blessed by magic. Even in winter, the vegetation is still strong.
On the streets, there are some elves who come and go, with more traditional clothes.
They don't have the gorgeous equipment of Demacia and others, and they look simpler.
At the same time, they don't have the terrifying evil spirits of the "Elves Favored", they seem to be more approachable, simple and honest.
"Is it a civilian area of ​​the elves..."
The girl twitched her nose and said to herself.
She subconsciously thought of the human civilians she had seen in Hewan Town, and a trace of complexity flashed in her eyes.
"Popular areas? No, the elves have never been in civilian areas."
A gentle and pleasant voice came from behind, attracting Sophia's attention.
The girl turned her head and saw a female elf dressed as a druid.
The robes on her body have the level of gorgeousness of those "elves and gods", but the temperament on her body is more noble than them.
Seeing Sophia's gaze, the female elf smiled slightly:
"This is the residential area of ​​the returning elves."
"Return to the elves' residential area?"
Sophia was taken aback for a moment.
Reminiscent of some rumors in human society, the girl's eyes flashed clearly.
"The saved elves..."
She murmured.
Looking at the elves in the distance, what caught Sophia's eyes were their happy smiling faces.
The children were playing happily, and the old man was sitting on a wooden chair, playing leisurely war chess, which was also popular in the empire recently.
The grown-up elves perform their duties and are busy running around.
Their eyes were full of passion and hope, completely different from the elven slaves the girl saw in the human world and the human civilians.
They are not walking dead alive, but a truly free life.
"They... seem to be happy."
Sophia couldn't help but said.
"Of course, under the blessing of the goddess, all the elves will live happily, because there is no oppression here, everyone is equal, as long as you work hard, you will gain something, and you will have a better tomorrow."
The female elf smiled.
"There is no oppression, is everyone equal..."
Sophia's heart moved slightly, thoughtfully.
She suddenly raised her head and looked at each other.
"How do you call it?"
The girl asked.
The gentle female elf smiled slightly:
"wind."
"You can call me, wind."
She said gently.