Chapter 55:

Losing hearing is no different for Bai Ziren and living in the vacuum world. It is also blurred with other senses. It seems that everything is not real, like being trapped in a dream, feeling that he will wake up, but I don't know when.
In the past, she liked to put a book by her ear, and her fingers slid gently over the thick pages of the book, and then I could hear the sound of the wind. Now it is quiet, and only such a detail change makes her infinitely lost.
I saw the nurse in the hall strolling over and hit a box. The stainless steel plates on the car landed in a mess, and the distance was so close. A little noisy voice was not transmitted into the ear. She was lonely when she lost.
When I was a child, I didn't want to be disturbed by others. I liked to stay alone in the room to play with puzzles, but I ignored the background sounds in that picture. It was the midsummer time, overlapping and overlapping.
If you can't feel your heartbeat after jogging, it's too horrible.
Within two days of losing his voice in the ear, Bai Ziren’s thoughts became very active. He always wanted to think about the future, and it seemed that he could only avoid the situation at hand.
When I went to the bathroom, my footsteps were very slow. I always felt that someone was calling her behind me. I would stop inexplicably and look back. Until my mother gestured to her, she only returned to God and said that she had no problem.
Liu Xinyu has been blushing, as if she will cry out in the next second. Bai Ziren has not seen her mother's fragile side for a long time, and she is somewhat sad.
She apologetically watched Uncle Mu running in the hospital, carefully reading Muzi North on the small whiteboard to paint and change, wrote three sentences, and tried to guess what Dr. Cheng and his mother said, the nerve is not a second. Relaxed, do not dare to close your eyes to sleep, fearing that the world will have other changes when you wake up again.
She didn't dare to go to the phone again. She was afraid to see his missed call and was afraid to see the information he sent.
After a while, Dr. Cheng came over and looked at her with a smile, reached out and posted a sticker on her forehead, and then signaled her to go to sleep.
She nodded and closed her eyes, but secretly left a gap.
I am afraid that everyone is worried about her, she has been sleeping, but actually did not sleep for a minute.
Early the next morning, she was placed in a double ward. There was a curtain between the bed and the bed. Her position was near the window. She could see the gray-blue sky. One or two pigeons flew over the wings and stopped at the wires. On the pole, rest after a while, she lay on her side, with one hand on the side of the pillow, one hand on the side of the pillow, eyes squinting at this small piece of autumn scenery, after a long time, the field of vision is gray It was drizzling, and the poles were empty. Soon the rain became bigger, and the rest of the room was not there. She stood up and didn't have to take one step. She just reached the window and moved away. Blowing in, the stars rushed to her face.
It turned out that the rain was so big, she couldn't hear the sound, only to understand it.
Somehow, she remembered a poem she had read in a book.
"Night mountain autumn raindrops empty corridor, the light shines in front of the church."
Everything was very artistic, just too cold. She couldn't arbitrarily blow her hair, increase her condition, and after half a minute she closed the window and lay back to the hospital bed.
It was just too late, and the forehead had some pain. She coughed a few times and drank half a cup of warm water and closed her eyes.
This time may be really tired, she fell asleep.
One sleep is three hours. When I open my eyes, the curtains have been put down. The temperature in the room is suitable, and the smell is good. It is like who is licking her when she falls asleep. The fragrance is looming.
Although I still couldn't hear the sound, I could understand what was in the room. She thought of a possibility between the electric and the Flint, and turned her head quickly, and she saw him.
He sat in a chair, dressed in a light gray shirt, staring at her, the coat hanging on the back of the chair, and the shoulders were still stained with fresh rain, it seems that it was just arrived.
Seeing that she woke up, turned like a child, and the sloppy eyes crossed a touch of surprise. He began to smile, his face was gentle and indulgent, slowly lowered, holding his hand on the edge of the bed, observing her face and discovering that she was slimming back to the summer vacation. The former appearance, the eyes are somewhat helpless.
"You..." She wanted to talk, but she quickly dismissed her thoughts because she had no ability to talk.
He probed her forehead and scraped her nose with her index finger.
Even if she couldn't hear it, she knew that her heartbeat was accelerating, and his clean air was so good.
After watching it for a while, she turned out to be the first time she saw him. She was embarrassed to remove her eyes and think about a childish problem that she never minded. At this moment, it would be too embarrassing, it seems a bit ugly. ?
She hates her sick, her eyes are not god, her skin is not light, and she is certainly not as good as before.
I also thought of the good times with him in Jishan County. Although people were fat during that time, they were healthy and energetic and more beautiful.
She is tangled, he has expressed his feelings with practical actions and kissed her forehead.
In response, her empty hand grabbed his hand and placed it on his lips, stealing the back of his hand.
He held her up, straightened the pillow behind her, arranged her hair, and fed warm water to her.
When she was drinking water, the feathers of the ink color slowly glimpsed, and it fell into his eyes and was no different from an innocent child.
When he finished the water, he fed a little more fruit to her. After a while, the nurse came in and changed the infusion bag. He talked with him a few times. She looked at them seriously, but it was hard to guess what they were saying.
When the nurse left, she asked him what you were talking about. He took the paper and pen on the bed cabinet and wrote two lines of dialogue.
She knew at a glance that the nurse asked who he was and he replied that it was her family.
She didn't want to talk anymore, she wrote with a pen: "Why don't you say that you are my boyfriend?"
He looked back and replied to her: "The boyfriend's three words are too superficial."
She scratched her head and wrote: "But I like it. If someone asks you next time, you have to say this."
"no problem."
"Right, isn't Dr. Cheng telling you?"
"Correct."
"Are you coming soon after you know it?"

I took a few days off from school and discussed with another teacher about the tuition. I will come over when everything is arranged.

"Actually, you don't have to hurry, I'm fine, the doctor said it will be fine soon."
"There is me around, are you happy?"
"Very happy."
She fluently wrote three words and showed them to him.
The door was pushed open silently, and there was a head in the field of vision. When the children of Muzi North saw the brother-in-law, they flew past and spoiled, then pulled out the small whiteboard from the bag and placed it in front of him. sister.
Cheng Jingbo wrote a line on the whiteboard: "You are very sensible."
Muzibei was praised, smiled very sweetly, and other people were small, knowing that the lovers were not seen between the day, such as the reason of the three autumns, just waved for a few minutes and waved to the sister-in-law.
They continue to write whiteboard exchanges.
"I am beautiful now?" she asked.
He slowly looked at her and wrote the words: "You have always been beautiful, don't worry about this."
She took the whiteboard back and was a bit reluctant to wipe the line.
When he looked up again, he had already poured hot water in the glass, peeled off a few pills, and gave it to her when she was ready.
After she finished eating, he did not know where to change a piece of licorice and handed it to her mouth.
The weather outside is still very large, and the atmosphere in the room is comfortable and pleasing.
Liu Xinyu looked at the door silently for a while, then walked away. There was an unspeakable grief in her heart. The sudden prognosis was good, but there was more or less hearing loss. I don’t know what my daughter will do in the future. .
She used to think that her life was not good. Her parents were harsh on her. She didn't feel the feeling of being pampered. When she was 20, she encountered love in her life. She ignored her family's opposition to elopement. As a result, her marriage broke down. People took their children through hardships for several years. During this period, they did not ask for help from their families because of their dignity. One person was often bullied when working outside. The worst was once slap in the face of a female client, and finally waited for Mu Mingrong. There are five years to live without children, and life seems to test her all the time.
She has been living very tired and has been complaining in her heart, so that she ignores the feelings of the closest people.
Why did you scatter your subconscious grievances on your daughter before? Because I don't want to look back on the past life and don't want to face her, because I can't answer many real problems, and avoid communication with her, because her personality is similar to her father, and she is afraid that her life will repeat the same mistakes and insist on her life. Take the lead.
How selfish and absurd I want to come now.
"Please let me know." Someone came over.
Liu Xinyu took a step back and bowed his face to wipe the tears on his face.
Very late, Bai Ziren took a break, Cheng Jingbo left the ward and saw Liu Xinyu sitting in the doorway.
"Thank you." Liu Xinyu said to him.
"No thanks, everything is what I should do."
"And, sorry." Liu Xinyu was a little nervous when he apologized.
Cheng Jingbo looked at her politely and said softly: "You never have to say these three words to me."
He nodded and said goodbye.
Not long after Cheng Jingbo left, Bai Ziren woke up, quietly lit a light and read the book he sent.
The book "Too Lonely Solitude" is a novel by the Czech writer Herabar. He claims to be alive for this book and postpones death.
She read the early morning, and after seeing the ending, she lost her mind and silently closed the book.
This time is enough to make people sad. During the day, there are family members. Now there is only one person. Does she think there will be a very bad situation, and she will never hear it?
The sound of the wind and the rain, the flowers of the four seasons changed, the family called her name, his good morning and good night, if not, she dared not imagine.
I can't stand on the society like that, and I can't accept it myself.
She bowed her head, pressed her hand on her knee, and looked at her sheet motionlessly. The silent fear came from the end of the night, coming at a very fast speed. Her hand shook softly, and after a while she covered her face and tried. Control this sudden emotion.
But no matter how to cover it, there is always a heavy fact in mind. She is now a half-disabled person.
This may be a small accident in the long fate, but it is like a fatal blow at the moment.
The next day, Cheng Jingbo came very early, bringing a light and delicious breakfast to Bai Ziren. The porridge was cooked by himself. The side dish was bought at a nearby vegetable farm at six o'clock.
She has a good appetite. After eating it all, she is optimistic and confident, and she has no uneasiness on her face.
After ten o'clock, some people came to visit the disease, first of all, the first time, replaced the white robe and put on the suit. He looked handsome and neat. He brought a bunch of fresh carnations to Bai Ziren, plus a vase made of white porcelain.
A handwritten card is attached to the bouquet. It is a line of greetings. I hope she can relax and live each day.
Dr. Chen also wrote a sentence on the small whiteboard.
"I am not the first man to send flowers to you?"
Bai Ziren nodded.
Dr. Chen picked up his eyebrows and wrote a line: "I guess too, Mr. Cheng is a disdainful person. It’s been a long time with such people. It’s boring to have a boring life."
After he wrote it and turned it over to Bai Ziren, Bai Ziren shook his head and said that it was not in line with the facts. Cheng Jingbo on the side just smiled faintly.

Make more surprises for her.
Dr. Chen took a shot and patted the shoulders before leaving.
"It hurts you to work."
After a while, Xue Ling and Wu said that the two husbands and wives came together and each brought a gift. Xue Ling prepared a beautiful bracelet. Wu’s gift was simple but practical. It was a photo of Cheng Jingbo’s university, Bai Ziren Get the treasure, keep watching.
"We are ready to have a baby." Xue Ling wrote this on the whiteboard.
Bai Ziren is very happy and wish them all the best.
Wu said that he took the board from his wife and wrote a line.
"You have also hurryed up, give birth to a beautiful girl earlier, and give my future son a girlfriend."
Bai Ziren was hardly cramped, seriously thought about the picture and smiled generously.
At noon, Xu Laotai came over with Fang Rong. The old man took the hand of Bai Ziren and said it all the time. Fortunately, the granddaughter promptly reminded her that she stopped, remembered what it was, and told her granddaughter what she wanted to say. Fang Rong wrote it in a sentence.
Coincidentally, it didn't take long for Muzi to appear in the north. I saw Fang Rong very happy and shyly stretched her clothes.
Xu Laotai brought Baiziren’s hand-made buckwheat pillows, and several prescriptions for treating deafness. Fang Rong painted a portrait of Baiziren, which was vividly seen. Muzi went over and looked at it, and quickly made a request. : "Ronger, I will help you draw one later."
Bai Ziren thanked them and handed the painting to Cheng Jingbo, letting him hang on the opposite TV.
In the afternoon, everyone in the lab with Bai Ziren came to see her, and even Huang Xiaoling was there.
Probably because of guilty conscience, Huang Xiaoling stood in the corner from beginning to end and did not speak.
Several school sisters finished writing what they had to say on the board. When she arrived at Huang Xiaoling, she was so nervous that the words were written in awkwardness.
"Thank you." Bai Ziren smiled at Huang Xiaoling and seemed to have no idea what happened before.
Huang Xiaoling accidentally said that Bai Ziren’s attitude was that she did not dare to come, but she was afraid that the schoolmaster and the school sister felt that she was not close to human feelings. She had to reluctantly come over and prepare for being reprimanded by everyone. Who expected the baizi Ren is very easygoing. He did not mention what happened that day. Cheng Jingbo also went out to buy coffee and snacks and asked them to eat. It seems that he did not know.
She suddenly felt that she was really over-excited. She was lost in a kind of screaming emotion and made things that she felt that she would drop the price. It is obvious that she was not such a person before.
This day is very lively, even if Bai Ziren can't hear it.
The people who visited the disease left, Cheng Jingbo fed Bai Ziren to take medicine, and then read books with her.
On the board, Bai Ziren wrote down the book he had lent to her.
"The ending is too bad, I don't like it."
"Maybe, in that era, it was the best ending for him."

You mean sleeping with your favorite things in your life?

"Yes."
"But I think he is too lonely to live."
Cheng Jingbo wrote his own opinion.
"The mood is clear, there are people who like it or have something to do with it. This life is enough."
She snuggled in his arms, reached for the button on his shirt, and looked at the words he wrote, which made it very reasonable.
"What are you thinking about?" He looked down and reached over her hair.
When I finished, I remembered the fact that she couldn’t hear for a while, and my eyes were dark.
But as if there is a heart, Bo Ziren speaks: "If I can't hear it all my life, what should you do?"
He continued to write with his pen.
"I will continue to be with you, marry and have children, and everything will go as planned."
She looked up and smiled at him, letting him pat her head smoothly, bowing her head for a moment, and suddenly there was a hint of fear in her heart.
He seemed to feel her emotions, put down the board in her hand, lifted her chin, and the dark eyes fell on her face, saying nothing, just looking at her wholeheartedly.
Soon he loosened her chin, picked up her hand, kissed one by one, like treating her own treasure.
For a long time, there was no such interaction, which made her breath a little anxious. After he kissed him, she picked up the whole woman and put it in her arms. The hand that fell on her waist was some forcefully collected, and then took my coat and covered it. Her shoulders.
In this way, the tip of the nose is all his breath, so that she can not be distracted to think of anything else, to ease her uneasiness.
"Reassured, I won't let you keep doing this." He paused and said, "I am more sad than you."