Chapter 123: Are you hiding from me?

"Miss Shi, your heart already belongs to Xi Zhan, you just can't find a way to cut off the relationship with Gu Tingchen."
　　 Song Yiran's voice reached my ears and said, "Your love belongs to Xi Zhan, so you can only refuse Gu Tingchen!"
　　 I will definitely tell Gu Tingchen clearly.
　　 I sighed and said, "Xi Zhan doesn't love me."
"Miss Shi, you misunderstood!" Song Yiran squeezed my palms and smiled warmly: "No man will be like him to a woman who doesn't care. You are just a fan of the authorities, and I am a bystander Qing! Especially for a man like Xi Zhan who doesn't care about anything but stubbornly protects you, his love for you may be deeper than you think."
　　 I asked hopefully: "Then why did he refuse me? And he made me forget about the two of us last night."
　　 Song Yiran looked at me with transparent eyes and asked, "Then have you ever thought it was your own problem?"
　　 I was surprised and asked: "What is my problem?"
"Xi Zhan is a typical domineering president, he has his pride and self-esteem in his heart, and you...you have a scandal with Fu Xi, you have a relationship with Gu Lan, and you are Gu Tingchen's ex-wife, plus you said last night He also heard the conversation between you and Gu Tingchen..."
　　 I asked expectantly: "He is jealous?"
Song Yiran smiled softly, and guessed: "You said you succumbed to the warmth of reality. You like Xi Zhan because he gave you that warmth. Then have you ever thought that what Xi Zhan needs is your life, only What about this one? Have you ever thought that he was actually angry, helpless, and disappointed by doing this?"
　　 She thought for a while and then said, "You may have hurt Xi Zhan inadvertently, but you still expect him to treat you in the same mood... Maybe he understands your hesitation and didn't promise you."
　　 Song Yiran's analysis made me think that what she said was true, but it was her guess after all.
　　 But what she said is right. What Xi Zhan wants is this one person in his entire life, because Yuanyou said that the love he wants is unswerving until death, and I suddenly understood why he stayed away from me...
　　 Xi Cham is angry with me.
　　Because I have been hesitant.
　　 I am also angry with myself.
　　 Just then Gu Tingchen sent me a message.
　　 He said, "Sorry, I hurt you last night."
　　 This should be normal for him.
　　 I replied: "It's okay, don't blame you."
　　 I can no longer blame him.
　　 Because he saved my life.
　　 Xi Zhan also rescued me in the snow.
　　 My originally peaceful life has been violent recently, and has been hovering between life and death, but fortunately, I was rescued every time.
　　 "Sheng'er, I miss you."
　　 Gu Tingchen said, he missed me.
　　 seems to contain countless grievances.
　　 I did not reply to this message immediately, but thanked Song Yiran gratefully, and drove away there.
　　After I returned to the apartment, I held my mobile phone and hesitated for a long time before sending a message to Gu Tingchen, "Sorry, I have my heart."
　　 Gu Tingchen is smart, he must understand what I mean.
　　 And he didn't reply to my text message again.
　　 I stayed at home for the next three days, drinking Chinese medicine seriously, thinking about the affairs between me and Xi Zhan.
　　 Actually, there are very few memories between us. When I found out my affection for him, I didn't have a few days.
　　 I've been very active these days, and I can't stop talking.
　　 Because I can no longer love someone and follow him for nine years like I was young, what I want is true warmth.
　　 Ke Xi Zhan rejected me.
　　 didn't even give me a reason.
　　 Just when I was living at home, Song Yiran had a problem. The assistant called me to go to the hospital.
　　 At the end of September, the sky was a little bit cooler. I hurried past wearing very thin clothes, when I saw Shicheng also.
　　 I was surprised and asked: "Why are you here?"
　　 Shicheng lost his senses: "Come and ask her forgiveness."
　　 I asked curiously: "Did she forgive you?"
　　 Shicheng shook his head and said, "She resolutely refused."
　　 Fortunately, Song Yiran is just the physical discomfort caused by the anger and heart attack, there is no big problem, but the doctor said that her continued pregnancy will cause a fatal threat to her body.
　　 I asked the doctor worriedly, "What's the longest time?"
　　 "At most half a month."
　　 He was stunned when he heard this. He didn't dare to enter the ward at all. When I went in, I saw Song Yiran staring out the window dullly.
　　 I reminded her: "Shicheng is at the door."
　　 "Well, let him go."
　　 I sat beside her and said, "He wants to be forgiven by you."
　　 Song Yiran resolutely said: "Impossible."
　　 Her expression is firm, she seems to have no discussion.
　　 But she told me the other day that she loves Shicheng.
　　 "Can you tell me the reason?"
　　 "Miss Shi, I love him right, but in life there is not only love, but also self-esteem, principles, bottom line and self-love. My self-esteem and principles tell me that I cannot forgive him."
Suddenly she turned her eyes to me and said: "I can't succumb to the warmth of reality like you do to forgive the hurts. Miss Shi, if I have been hurt like this, I can go back to the past. You said that the sufferings I have suffered. Isn't peace with pain a joke?"
　　 I panicked and said quickly: "You are right."
　　 Song Yiran is right. There is not only love in human life, but also the so-called self-esteem and bottom line in our hearts.
　　 Shicheng trampled on her self-esteem, so she couldn't forgive him anymore, and I once felt softhearted to Gu Tingchen.
　　 I suddenly realized that the one who loved the most among us was Song Yiran, and she was the only one who saw the most clearly from beginning to end.
　　 I left the hospital in relief, knowing in my heart that I and the past have really become the past, and Xi Zhan has nothing to do here.
　　 I can't move him.
　　 I can no longer confide my feelings to him.
　　 I suddenly remembered what he said in the villa some time ago, he wanted me to be worthy of the feeling in my heart.
　　 Xi Zhan has been teaching me how to complete it.
I took a deep breath, and when I was about to leave, I saw the man in the hospital parking lot with his head slightly down and smoking a cigarette. When he was wondering why he was here, Yuan You's voice came from behind." Yoona, why are you in the hospital?"
　　 I turned around and shouted in surprise, "Brother San."
　　 Looking at the bruise on Yuanyou's face, I asked worriedly, "Why are you hurt?"
　　 Yuanyou twitched the corners of his mouth and said indifferently: "It's okay, so I had a fight with someone in the hotel. I happened to meet my second brother who was talking about business there, so he sent me to the hospital for a dressing.
　　 Yuanyou climbed my shoulders to Xi Zhan's side, and said in amazement: "Second brother has been very kind recently, and even promised to take me to the hospital personally. I thought this kind of welfare is only for you."
　　 I am not a special person like Xi Zhan.
　　 Yuanyou called the second brother. I bowed my head and called the second brother. Yuanyou patted my shoulder in surprise and asked, "What are the family members so restrained for?"
　　 I didn't speak, Xi Zhan gave a faint hum, I pointed to the sports car beside Xi Zhan, and said urgently: "This is my car. I have to leave beforehand. See you next time."
　　 Yuanyou organized the game and said: "It's almost noon, everyone has a meal together, the three of us have not eaten together yet."
　　 I quickly refused to say: "I have something to go to the company."
　　 I calmly took a taxi from the door and got into the car, and heard Won-yo's suspicious voice: "Yoona is hiding from the second brother."
I:"……"
　　 I want to make a perfunctory sentence, when Xi Zhan suddenly spoke, and asked in a cool voice: "Yoona, are you hiding from me?"
　　 I looked at Xi Zhan in shock.
　　What does he mean by this? !
　　 He explicitly rejected me but still said such misleading words. I retracted my eyes and pursed my lips, "I don't have one."
　　 I must miss him if I haven't seen him for a few days.
　　 But between me and him...
　　 It's hard to get closer.
　　 He excluded me from his world.
　　 I promised that he would never pester him again.
　　 I can no longer take the initiative to lick my face.
　　 "Yoona, we don't have to be so strange between us."