Chapter 130: He understands me

What I wanted from the beginning to the end was just a sure love. Holding my hand to grow old with my son, I never thought of such a hardship. I have experienced too much ups and downs and grief.
　　 I even chose between Gu Lanzhi and Gu Tingchen, and now I chose between Gu Tingchen and Xi Zhan.
　　 I am always making choices, splitting that determined love time and time again, but in the bottom of my heart, how can I ever want to? !
　　 Gu Lanzhi is just my young dream.
　　 This dream was awake nine years ago.
　　 and Gu Tingchen and I finally missed it.
　　 Now I only have Xi Zhan.
When we were together, I knew he had no intentions, but even then I still chose him and gave up the bold confession that I had tolerated. He never said he loved me, or even said he never loved me, but I was still with him. Together.
　　 I grabbed him, grabbed him tightly.
　　 Just like I held Gu Tingchen tightly three years ago.
　　 I want to be happy, I am working hard.
　　 Even if it didn't work.
　　 Facing Gu Tingchen’s questioning, I grinned and said,
Xi Zhan spoils me very much, satisfies me in everything, gives me stability and support, and I never worry about being bullied by his side!

　　 Although there is no blessing of love.
　　 The rain is getting heavier and heavier, Gu Tingchen asked me faintly, "Then does he love you? Shenger, no one knows you better than me. All you want is love, and I can give it to you."
I have worked with Gu Tingchen over the years and he has become the person who knows me best. I sighed deeply: "Tingchen, the love between us has existed, but we have experienced so many... Controlling, I regret the miss with you. I am grateful that you have sacrificed your life for me. If you have anything in the future, I can also help you with my life! But I can't keep my love with you anymore, because I gave it Another man! I can't shrink back to your side just because he doesn't love me."
　　 If this is the case, I don't bother to be such a self!
　　 "Shisheng, you will definitely regret it."
　　 Gu Tingchen dropped such a sentence and left.
　　 I stood there for a long time before driving back to the apartment.
　　I cried bitterly after returning to the apartment, because of Gu Tingchen, but also because of myself! I loved him once, and when I said those things to him, I felt bad in my heart, and I was afraid that he would be sad.
　　 But when the breaks continue, I suffer from chaos.
　　 After crying enough, I took off my wet clothes and went to the bathroom to take a bath. When I was in the bath, I received a text message from Gu Tingchen.
He said: "Sheng'er, you are the most stalwart woman I have ever seen to love someone. When you love someone, you can give them all, and even follow them without regrets! But you are also what I see I have hated the most determined person a person hates. When you hate me, you say forgiveness on the surface, but in fact, you have already cleared the line in your heart! In this world, no one has to do it, just like you choose now After Xi Zhan, many people can’t understand why you fell in love with him in the blink of an eye, but I can understand, because he gave you what I don’t have, firmness, protection and so-called strength! But I am not reconciled and still long for you. Want you...I can't lose you again!"
　　The person who understands me most in the world is Gu Tingchen.
　　 He knew the reason why I fell in love with Xi Zhan.
　　 is not groundless, just a whim!
I didn’t reply. After a while, he sent a text message again, saying: "Meeting you in this life is the joy and disaster of my life. No matter who you love in your heart, I will not admit defeat! Shenger, wait for me to cure the disease and give me one. The opportunity allows me to compete fairly with Xi Zhan."
　　Wait for him to heal...
　　 He has been insisting on fighting another personality.
　　 I hesitated for a long time and finally did not reply to Gu Tingchen's text message. I kept thinking about what the old butler said in my mind.
　　 If it is true as he said, I am not from the Shi family!
　　 Then who am I? !
　　 Will he be as full of lies as Xiao Wu?
　　 I suppressed the doubts in my heart and kept soaking in the bathtub without getting up. I suddenly felt lonely. I felt that having a man and not having a man were the same. I took my mobile phone and boarded WeChat.
　　 Yu Luoluo sent me a video.
　　 is a video of Gu Lanzhi's music accompaniment.
　　 And I happen to know the girl he played with.
　　 Tan Yang.
　　 Tan Yang in the video wears a white t-shirt and sings with a very pleasant voice. She is singing a song "The Wind Rises"
　　 She is not singing in Chinese.
　　 Instead, it was covered in fifteen languages.
　　 English, Japanese, Korean, Korean, Spanish, Italian, Persian, etc., among which French and Polish are superb. With Gu Lanzhi’s piano, it makes people tremble to hear, she is really a treasure girl!
I listened to the song three times and then sent it to Tan Yang. She disapprovingly responded to me and said: "I am a music student who is sick and has a hoarse singing voice. She heard that I was traveling the world and wanted me to top it. While she was going to sing, I thought this song was translated into many languages ​​and tried it out, but I didn’t expect the response was pretty good.

　　 I just finished reading this message, and she sent another message saying: "I also met Gu Lanzhi. The real person is more handsome than the video."
　　 Nonsense, Gu Lanzhi's handsomeness is beyond doubt.
　　 is exactly the same as Gu Tingchen.
　　 I replied to her: "You all know each other."
Tan Yang replied to me: "I don’t know, I went up temporarily, and I haven’t rehearsed before. I guess he looked dumbfounded when I suddenly appeared on the stage. After singing, I took a plane to Poland and planned to play for a few days. Just go to Venice, Italy."
"Enjoy yourself."
　　 Tan Yang did not reply to me again. I am not sure what Yu Luoluo wanted to express when sending me this video. After thinking about it for a long time, I sent a question mark in the past, "Why did you send me this suddenly?"
　　 "Sister Shi Sheng, I met this girl once. The last time I met her when I was skiing in Europe, I heard that she was underage."
　　 I replied and asked: "What's the matter?"
　　 Could it be that Yu Luoluo suspected that Gu Lanzhi liked Tan Yang?
　　 shouldn't be so outrageous.
　　 After all, Gu Lan's elder Tan Yang is fourteen years old.
　　 Besides, Tan Yang said that they don’t know each other.
　　 "She sings amazingly to me."
　　 I hesitated for a while and asked: "Why did you show this to me suddenly? Luoluo, do you want to say something to me?!"
After a long time, Yu Luoluo replied to me: "My brother is traveling around the world again. I am not chasing him all over the world. I just happened to see this video yesterday. I was a little envious, envious of the the stage, and envious of appearing in Everyone beside him naturally misses him a bit."
　　 Gu Lanzhi appeared in my life in just two months, and was rejected by me again and again. He knows how to advance and retreat. Now he is just returning to the state of his life.
　　 "Travel around the world and meet the powerful."
　　 I suddenly remembered what he once said.
　　 Gu Lanzhi, an elegant and gentle man.
I thought for a while, and seriously replied to Yu Luoluo: "I can understand you, but I am not Gu Lanzhi. I can't control his mind! Luoluo, if you really miss him, take advantage of the breeze that is not dry now, Sunshine just went to see him, regardless of the result."
　　 Now the storm is violent outside, where is the breeze and sunshine, I just borrowed a word from the Internet to comfort her.
　　 Yu Luo fell back to me, "Thank you, Sister Shi Sheng."
　　 After reading this message, I was about to put down my phone when Yuanyou sent me a text message, "Did you not come back to Xi's house with your second brother?"
　　 I replied: "Well, no."
　　 "It's silly, it's your heart."