Chapter 161: Xi Zhan's Talk

Xi Zhan took off his clothes and went to take a bath. I lay on the bed and stared at the seductive back, reluctant to leave.
　　 After a while, he came to the bed in his nightgown and stretched out his hand to hold my wrist and stared at the wound on it, his eyes deep.
　　 "Did it hurt in the afternoon?" he asked.
　　 I said truthfully: "It hurts faintly. I forgot that I was hurt and hit the edge of the bed when I raised my hand. The pain was almost crying."
　　 I never conceal my vulnerability in front of Xi Zhan.
　　 I looked at him with a wronged gaze. He suddenly curled his lips and scratched my nose. He said with a soft voice, "It's so stupid. It's so careless even knowing that I was injured."
　　 I looked at him more aggrievedly, Xi Zhan sat on the side of the bed, I put my head on his lap and asked him, "Are you tired?"
　　 He lowered his eyes and said, "Not tired."
　　 There is no sadness in Xi Zhan's eyes, just like a deep pool of silence. He has always been like this, and he is calm and calm when he encounters everything.
　　 I stretched out my hand on his sleeve to comfort him, but I didn’t know how to speak, so I got up and knelt on the bed to hug him.
　　 I hugged Xi Zhan's neck and put my chin on his shoulders, he took advantage of the trend and put his face in my neck.
　　 Xi Zhan was silent, looking very stable, and after a long time he let go of me and got up and left.
　　 came back again with two bowls in his hands.
　　 So he knew that I didn't eat.
　　 After eating, Xi Zhan put the bowl on the table and went to bed. He lay on my side and reached out and took me into his arms.
　　 The tip of my nose was not very comfortable against his chest, but I couldn't bear to leave, and it didn't take long for Xi Zhan to fall asleep.
　　 He hasn't rested much in the past two days. I still feel sorry for him. I lifted my uninjured hand and hugged his waist tightly.
　　 I fell asleep after a while.
　　……
　　 When Xi Zhan woke up early in the morning, he was still lying beside me, his gaze staring at the top of his head in a daze.
　　 I rubbed my eyes and raised my hand to touch his cheek. The delicate texture rubbed comfortably in the palm of my hand.
　　 I lowered my voice and asked, "What are you thinking about?"
　　 Xi Zhan suddenly closed his eyes and faintly raised his eyes and said: "My three brothers and I were sent home by my father since childhood. Whoever returns to the Xi family first without any help is the successor of the Xi family."
　　 I know that Xi Zhan was sent home since he was a child, and his life in those years must have been difficult.
　　Hell also said that when he was about to starve to death on Finland Street, Hejia gave him a bite of food to survive.
　　 I kissed him distressedly on the cheek, and asked gently, "It must be difficult to go back, right?"
He hummed softly without telling how he returned to Xi’s house, but said in a slightly deep voice:
I admired my father since I was a child, even if he sent me home, even if he treated our four brothers indifferently. , But we admire him from beginning to end! Because he is so strong, he only covers the sky, he can protect all the people and things he wants to protect, he is an admirable father, at least among my three brothers I thought so before I died."
　　 I gently pressed my cheek against his cold cheek to give him some comfort and asked, "What then?"
　　 "I was the first person to walk into Xi's house. The three elder brothers fell behind me, and my father personally sank them into the lake in front of me."
　　 No one knows how the other three heirs of the Xi family passed away. I used to have countless speculations. I also thought about Tiger Poison not eating seeds, and this is the most accurate truth Xi Zhan told me.
　　 The kind old man who touched my cheek at the first sight of me really killed his son. He seemed to have no guilt before he died.
　　 Xi Zhan should have been around 20 years old. He returned to Xi's home with great expectation and was full of joy to see his father.
　　 But he saw with his own eyes that the person he admired the most killed his own brother.
　　 I tremblingly asked: "Which lake?"
　　 "The lake where you fell today."
The thought of three wronged souls at the bottom of the lake made me feel sad. With tears in my eyes, I heard Xi Zhan continue to say: "I want to save them, but I couldn't beat my father at the time... It is clear that the Xi family is a feudal and pedantic family, and sooner or later it will decline as he ages."
　　 Today's Xi Jia Xi Zhan doesn't plan to take it anymore, so sooner or later it will go down. The woman in this old house will either leave or stay here to provide for the elderly.
　　 No new people will set foot here again.
I kissed Xi Zhan's bright and clean forehead. He suddenly opened his eyes and said in a low and deep voice: "I have complained about him, hated him, and rarely even come back here. I won more of it in the next seven years. After leaving his power, he became a strong man like him, and naturally became a cruel man like him!"
　　 I shook my head and said, "No, you are different from him after all! Xi Zhan, you know what you want, you never wrong yourself, you are the same, you are different from him after all."
Hearing what I said, Xi Zhan suddenly got up and leaned against the head of the bed. He raised his hand and gently ran my tears with two fingers, then raised his lips and said, "Well, he and I are different after all. He has the Xi family and the responsibilities that cannot be erased, and I..."
　　 Xi Zhan paused and said for a while: "After all, I have nothing to do with the Xi family. The only thing I care about is you, nothing more."
　　 I have nothing to do with the Xi family. I didn't know the meaning of this sentence at the time, but Xi Zhan's eyes were firm when he looked at me.
　　 I seem to understand love from that. I learned from him what is firmness, what is consistent, and what is full of trust.
　　 The only thing I care about is you,
　　 That's all.
　　 I am Xi Zhan's and nothing more.
　　 This is just like a ray of spring light shining through the dark and damp earth deep in my heart. I suddenly understood why I had to choose Xi Zhan to follow him.
　　 Because he knows love.
　　He cherishes the one he loves.
　　 No matter where I go, no matter what danger I encounter, no matter what scenery I see...
　　 As long as I turn around, he will be there.
　　This life is all.
　　 I was moved and bent over to hug him. He put my arm around my shoulder and said softly: "Yoona, don't leave me in this life."
　　 "I will never leave you in this life."
　　 Unless he doesn't want me.
　　 Otherwise, why should I leave him?
　　 I can't bear it, I can't bear him in this life.
　　 The love he gave me is very different from the love Gu Tingchen gave me. I start to regret it in my heart. It would be great if I met him sooner.
　　 "Sorry for not meeting you earlier."
　　 His voice was dark, "It's just right now."
　　 I gave a low hmm, and suddenly remembered the words his biological mother said in my mind, I started to feel inferior.
　　 I have a little low self-esteem in front of him.
　　 I really don't deserve such a perfect man.
　　 But I am willing to trust him wholeheartedly in the future.
　　 love him with a whole heart.
　　 "Second brother, I want to marry you."