Chapter 181: This life, the only

The torrential rain seemed to be getting heavier. I don’t know if Xi Zhan heard what I said, because he was very far away from me. I tried my best to open my voice and said,
You give me eight months to give birth to this child. , If I can live then...I will come to you if my child and I are healthy? Will you let me be your wife then?"
　　 I love the arrogant man in front of me who has never hurt me, given me endless indulgence, reliance, and trust in me.
　　 I don’t want to miss him again in this life!
　　 I just want to be his wife in this life!
　　 I think I will never fall in love with others again!
　　 Although he is not the only man in my life, I can be sure that he will be the last man in my life!
Xi Zhan didn’t speak. It was like his character, but he made me sad because of him. I pursed my lips and said,
Xi Zhan, I am also very afraid. I am especially afraid of you leaving me and death! But I’m more I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep this child. I'm not as strong as I thought. I'm even cowardly, but this child is my only courage. Can you understand what I mean?"
　　 He suddenly turned around and looked at me with thin eyes.
　　 Xi Zhan’s clothes were soaked all over, and the white shirt inside seemed to be dark. Was he injured in prison?
　　 I asked worriedly: "Are you hurt?"
　　 He didn't respond to me indifferently.
　　 I suddenly realized that he didn't want to talk to me again.
　　 My heart was suddenly discouraged, Xi Zhan turned and left. At the moment he disappeared into the night, I seemed to see a ring on his finger, a familiar ring!
　　I went to Finland with a gift some time ago.
　　 is to give him his 27th birthday present.
　　 A wedding ring.
　　 But he didn't see me that day. Although he explained to me that Chen Shen was inside, I was still sad.
　　 Although he has a reason not to see me.
　　 After all, I severely injured him!
　　 I disappointed him!
　　 In fact, Xi Zhan is benevolent and righteous. He came to see me and said that he did not misunderstand me. In fact, he did not want me to have any psychological burden!
　　 He didn't want me to be sad about this.
　　 But his departure is doomed again.
　　 Looking at the pouring rain outside the door, I didn’t know that Xi Zhan’s life in the next year was perilous and embarrassed on all sides!
　　 did not know that he needed to reshape his power in Europe; he needed to solve those who secretly wanted to devour him, and this process was very difficult and very dangerous!
　　 He can't take me by his side!
　　 I can’t take the pregnant me by my side!
　　 Can’t bring me, who is pregnant and in such a bad physical condition, that I will soon have the power of the Xi family!
　　 Besides, his man is used to bear all the dangers alone!
　　 He never put danger in front of me.
　　 At that time, he was actually quite helpless.
　　 Xi Zhan finally left.
　　 Our breakup was very peaceful.
　　 is calmer than expected.
　　 But the process is so hard!
　　 I went back upstairs in despair, lying on the bed with my eyes open and thinking about what he had just said. He was so tolerant and so unfeeling.
　　 I closed my eyes and said softly: "Wait for me, Xi Zhan."
　　 During the time I was with him, I always asked him, and I never gave him anything to push him into desperation!
　　 If I give birth to a child in eight months and can live, I will be by his side, even if he won’t want me at that time!
　　 I can't imagine him not wanting me.
　　 But he doesn't want me now!
　　 How can Xi Zhan not want me! !
　　……
　　 Wucheng, the top of Wushan.
　　 In the city of Wucheng in January, the snow fell, and Xi Zhan put his hands in his pockets and looked at the continuous snow in the distance.
　　 And the man beside him asked him, "When will you leave?"
　　 Xi Zhan looked indifferently and replied: "I will."
　　He is composed, he has always been like this.
　　 Chen Shen handed him a lit cigarette, but Xi Zhan didn't pick it up. The latter threw it in the snow without the slightest mind.
　　 Chen Shen stepped on the cigarette with his foot, and asked in a low voice: "Then you are willing to stay with the woman in Tongcheng?"
　　 "What about reluctant?"
Suddenly, Xi Zhan said with a rare hoarse voice: "If she stays with me, her life will be in danger, and she will only take over the Xi family next month. She needs time to grow up alone. She needs to learn how to take care of a large family. It takes more time to give birth to that child..."
　　 Xi Zhan knew that having a child was dangerous for her, but he knew her too well!
　　 He knew that she would not give up this child.
　　 In that case, he won't force her.
　　 He was reluctant to force her after all.
　　 After all, he has softened to her.
　　 Since she wanted to fool around, he accompanied her to fool around.
　　 But now he can't accompany her by her side.
　　 He couldn't speak selfishly and told her to wait for him.
　　 Because he is not sure if he can return to Tongcheng alive in the future.
　　 Since this is the case, then give her no hope.
　　 Chen Shen has known Xi Zhan for more than ten years. He knows that the man next to him is in the same situation as himself. He has risen from the bottom step by step.
　　 He can feel the pain he has suffered, because of this they are both enemies and friends.
　　 "That woman is so worthy of your thoughts? How can you be worthy of your divorce or abortion?"
　　 Chen Shen deliberately said these words to pierce his heart.
　　Who told him to say that his woman was old last time.
　　 Chen Shen wronged Xi Zhan. In a Finnish prison, Chen Shen asked about Shi Sheng's age casually. Xi Zhan just replied casually: "A few years younger than your woman."
　　 But Chen Shen thought he was mocking his own woman.
　　 Hearing that Xi Zhan squinted at him, "What about you?"
　　 "She has never been married anyhow."
　　 This point also allows Chen Shen to find a sense of superiority.
　　 Two equally powerful men who have experienced the sinister world suddenly appear naive, as if they have a common topic.
　　 Xi Zhan said sternly: "You know that I only care about her, as long as it is her, everything else doesn't matter."
Chen Shen knew that he was the same. He didn't mention women anymore, but reminded him faintly: "Your future road is difficult and difficult, and I will not be merciful to you, and naturally I will not take advantage of others. , I promise you that I will give you a half-year repair period."
　　 Chen Shen will not target him for the past six months.
　　 Xi Zhan hooked his lips and said softly: "No need."
　　 "Oh, you are still so mad."
　　 Xi Zhan did not say anything, his character was more taciturn than Chen Shen, and he used to say nothing except for work matters!
　　 Until I met that woman that night...
　　 She chattered and thought he was cold.
　　 He began to learn to speak and be good at communication.
　　 The snowflakes in the sky fell on him one after another. Xi Zhan closed his eyes and wondered why he had to visit Wushan before leaving. Maybe this is her mother's site.
　　 Chen Shen stared at Xi Zhan's calm and composed look, and suddenly asked him suspiciously, "Xi Zhan, what exactly is love?"
　　 Chen Shen likes Ji Nuan.
　　 But he doesn't know what love is after all.
　　 I don’t know why that woman always rejects him.
　　Mingming once said that she is the one who likes herself.
　　 love...
　　 Once when Sheng asked Xi Zhan about love.
　　 At that time, he said that he didn't understand love and needed her to teach.
　　 Actually, it's not that he doesn't understand love, but doesn't know how to express it, so when Sheng asked him, he subconsciously didn't understand it.
what is love?
　　 No one knows better than Xi Zhan.
　　 "This life is the only one."
　　 Chen Shen asked puzzledly: "Is this love?"
　　 "Well, the only one in this life."