Chapter 42: I like him very much

The streets where the wind lives--
In fact, the wind never lived or stayed here. He just passed by. When you and I were both young, we took away our time. You left here after such a gust of wind, and I have been waiting in place, but the wind has already gone.
　　 I have been waiting in the same place for nine years, and the determined childhood and the determined love are all jokes today.
　　 I love the wrong person, my whole life is a joke.
　　 The familiar melody rang in my ears, lingering in my heart over and over again as in a dream, I sighed and stood up.
At the moment I stood up, the music stopped abruptly, and the man’s eyes passed through countless audiences and fell on me accurately and clearly. The light was clear and faint. It seemed that I really saw the touch of Gu Tingchen’s work. Said mercy.
　　 I smiled calmly. Just then, Ji Nuan and Yu Luoluo in the first row turned their puzzled eyes behind.
　　 When he saw me, Ji Nuan quickly got up and came to me.
　　 I calmly looked at Gu Lanzhi, he suddenly played this piece, and I hurriedly left the concert hall.
　　 Ji Nuan followed me out and asked: "Why are you here?"
　　 I pointed to the advertisement at the door and explained with a smile: "I wanted to listen to some music on a whim, but I didn't expect to meet him..."
　　 Ji Nuan knows everything about me and understands my feelings very well. She stretched out her hand and hugged me and said, "It will all get better."
　　 Thinking of Chen Chugang leaving her side, I patted her on the shoulder gently and said, "Everything will be fine."
　　 I don't know if this sentence is comforting her or herself.
　　 Ji Nuan suddenly said: "Come with me."
　　 "Well, has Chen Chu never contacted you?"
The wind in March was slightly cool. I tightened my clothes and heard Ji Nuan’s calm tone say:
No, I don’t want to miss him anymore. I don’t like this feeling of suffering from gains and losses...Chen Chu, he...I I thought that love could conquer everything, but I still couldn't conquer his inferiority complex. We lost in reality."
　　 It only took a few months to go from sweetness to happiness to reality. Ji Nuan was willing to let everything go to accompany Chen Chu, but the man could not live with the so-called self-esteem in his heart.
　　 I can understand that the humble feeling in front of the one I love cannot be easily erased.
　　 Ji Nuan understands his humbleness, so she didn't go to him this time, because it was useless to find him.
　　 She couldn't persuade the man just like she couldn't persuade him to forget him. Everyone has their own different obsessions.
　　 "Why would you give up so easily? Ji Nuan, you and Chen Chu, at least you two love each other."
　　 I don’t even know who I love.
　　 And Gu Lanzhi doesn't love me at all.
　　 Besides, Gu Tingchen is even less likely to love me if he loses his memory.
　　 And the faith of nine years ago was crumbling, my heart began to lean towards Gu Tingchen three years ago.
　　 "Sheng'er, love can't solve all problems."
I:"……"
　　 The two of us were walking in the alley. About half an hour later I remembered that the car was still parked in front of the concert hall.
　　 When Ji Nuan and I returned on the original road, we saw Gu Lanzhi and Yu Luoluo at the door. Yu Luoluo saw Ji Nuan hurriedly smiled and shouted: "Sister Ji, your bags are still here."
　　 Ji Nuan quickly went over and took it in his hand and said thank you.
　　 Yu Luoluo shook his head and said, "You're welcome."
　　 Then she glanced at the Rolls-Royce parked on the side of the road, and asked me expectantly, "Sister Shi Sheng, we didn't drive. It's remote and it's not easy to take a taxi. Can you send me and my eldest brother home?"
　　 This proposal is not excessive.
　　 I have no reason to refuse.
　　 I looked at the man who had been silent, and put my hands in my pockets and asked, "Do you want to go home? I will send you and Luo Luo by the way."
　　 Gu Lanzhi nodded, and the black hair on his forehead swayed slightly with the wind. He said in a polite tone: "Miss when I'm in trouble."
　　 I shook my head and said, "It's okay."
　　 Then I looked at Ji Nuan and asked, "Will you come back to Shi's house with me?"
　　 Hearing this, Ji Nuan shook his head and refused to say: "Your villa is too big, I am not used to living, you can send me back to my home."
　　 Although Ji Nuan followed Chen Chu to live in the town for a few months, she had a house in the urban area and had certain financial conditions, while Chen Chu had nothing.
　　 plus the man's self-esteem...
　　 I suddenly felt that he was not suitable for Ji Nuan.
　　 After all, the love between the right people is longer.
　　Love does not solve all problems.
　　 includes the gap in reality.
　　 If Chen Chu wants to truly walk with Ji Nuan without any barriers, unless he wants to make changes and become stronger.
　　 Thinking of the man with clear eyes...
　　 I suddenly felt that he had his own plans.
　　 He may just leave temporarily.
　　……
　　 Ji Nuan is the nearest to here, I will take her home first.
　　 Yu Luoluo followed.
　　 Yes, Gu Lanzhi insisted that I send her back home.
　　 Even if Yu Luoluo kept to please: "It's so late, brother, can you let me go home with you?"
　　 Gu Lanzhi didn't say a word. I thought about it and hesitated to ask: "Would you like her to follow you? This way I can run less."
　　 There is no doubt in his voice: "Miss Shi, send her home review."
　　 I suddenly understood his unfeeling a little bit.
　　 As a last resort, I first send Yu Luoluo to review her home.
　　 I didn't drive the car too close. I stopped at a place 200 meters away from Gu's house. Yu Luoluo got out of the car and followed us reluctantly. I kept the smile on my face and responded to her.
　　 She sighed and said, "Goodbye, brother."
　　 Gu Lanzhi gave a faint hum.
　　 Yuluoluo looked at him dejectedly, then looked at me again, revealing an undetectable unwillingness in his eyes.
　　 I understand her thoughts.
　　 After all, the two people sitting in the car...
　　 At least in her eyes I am a threat.
　　 The little girl's mind is really simple.
　　 I grinned and said, "Luo Luo, goodbye."
　　 I started the car and left without asking Gu Lan's address, but vaguely remembered the community where he was sent back to last time.
In the car, because only I and Gu Lanzhi became silent, I saw through the rearview mirror that his eyes were staring at me. I retracted my gaze in a panic, concealing my panic and asked, "Mr. Gu, Do you have any concerts next?"
　　 "Gu Lanzhi." He said.
　　 I subconsciously asked: "Huh?"
　　 "Little girl, call me Gu Lanzhi."
　　 He would call me a little girl when there was no one.
　　 "Oh, um, good."
　　 I seem to be too nervous.
　　 "I didn't arrange a concert. I remembered it temporarily." He said with a soft voice, "Thank you for coming to my concert. This street where the wind lives...gives it to you."
　　The street where the wind lives...
　　 He said, for you.
　　The voice is low and tangled. Suffering.
　　 My heart trembled uncontrollably.
　　 I can’t describe the feeling...like the scene when I first saw it; like the time when I was young; like I waited for nine years and finally waited for a little response from that person.
　　 Even irrelevant love can make me ecstatic.
　　 I don’t like you anymore...
　　 The text message I sent the day before yesterday broke instantly.
　　 My heart tells me,
　　 I like him very very much,
　　 like him who used to play piano for me,
　　 I like him who calls my little girl.
　　 Even if I just felt that my faith was shaky,
　　 Even if I thought my heart was leaning on Gu Tingchen.
　　 But as long as he has a word,
　　 A word that is not sweet,
　　 The dam I hold on can be defeated.
　　 Yeah, how can you give up so easily?
　　 How could it be so easy to abandon him?
　　 I can't do it, but I dare not approach it.
　　Because I am a person who has no health.
　　My love will only be his burden.
　　 Besides, he doesn't have me in his heart.
　　 Not necessarily that I love him, he must love me.
　　 I swallowed the bitterness in my heart and said, "Thank you."
　　 Nine years ago, I heard him play this piece outside the classroom. I asked him about it the night before.
　　 also heard him play at a concert nine years later.
　　 even heard him play in that classroom...
　　 Did he play because of me?
　　 The car moved at the speed of a tortoise, Gu Lanzhi was very reluctant to talk, so I didn't bother him anymore.
　　 He and I can't coexist in the same space, because my heart has been beating wildly in my chest, but fortunately we will get there soon.
　　 I parked the car at the gate of the community, he opened the door and got off the car. Just when I was about to leave, he said gently, "Little girl, let's talk?"
　　 is a question, but it is affirmative.
　　 I pursed my lips and looked at him from the car window.
　　 This man is pure, gentle and unpretentious.
I wanted to refuse, he bent down slightly and whispered in my ear, "I know what you think of me. Some things should have been said nine years ago, but I have delayed until now... sorry girl , I came too late to hurt you so much."
　　 His meaning is clear, and immediately, I stared at him with moist eyes, and asked with a trembling voice, "What do you mean?"
　　 "Little girl, would you like to be with me?"