Chapter 88: Don't ask the past, don't ask the reason

Xi Zhan's sudden awakeness frightened me, and I retracted my gaze with a smile. There was no silver three hundred taels and explained: "I can't sleep and just woke up, it seems to be bright, I will go downstairs to make breakfast."
　　 I hurried out of bed and left after speaking.
　　 Downstairs, I kept patting my hot face with my hand, thinking about not going back to the room even if I sleep on the sofa tonight.
　　 I sat on the sofa for an hour before getting up and going to the kitchen. I didn’t know how to cook, so I made a pot of rice porridge.
　　 After drinking a bowl, I sat on the sofa in a trance, after which Xi Zhan came down from the upper floor, still in a black suit.
　　 He didn't go out during the day, he kept sitting on the sofa reading books, and he went to the kitchen to cook at noon.
　　 The maid did not come, I rubbed Xi Zhan's lunch.
　　 Xi Zhan stayed in the study in the afternoon. When it was almost evening, I opened the door and asked him, "Second brother, what do you want to eat tonight?"
　　 At that time, Xi Zhan was writing with a brush, and a block of regular script was written densely on the white rice paper. Hearing that he put aside the brush and asked me in an indifferent tone, "What do you want to eat tonight?"
　　 I can only cook instant noodles and porridge.
　　 I thought for a while and said: "I'm not hungry yet."
　　 I said I’m not hungry because I want Xi Zhan to cook.
　　 There was a slight rain outside the window. I went in and stood by the desk and saw that he copied Shen Congwen's "Xiangxing Sanji", which is a classic literary work.
　　 Xi Zhan’s writing is very beautiful, and it is a bit like a one-man product with those hanging on the wall.
　　 Are all these on the wall written by him?
　　 I am not stingy and boast: "Your calligraphy is very beautiful, your brushwork is steady, and your brushwork is smooth. At first glance, you are a master."
　　 Hearing this, Xi Zhan raised his eyebrows and asked me, "Can you write?"
　　 My dad is very good at writing calligraphy. He cultivated me from this aspect when I was very young, but I really don't have that talent. I always write big characters in a mess.
　　 Later, my dad gave up on me.
　　 I smiled awkwardly: "I practiced as a child, but the writing is terrible, but I can see it clearly. At first glance, my second brother is a master!"
　　 Xi Zhan did not accept my flattery. He turned back a little and told me, "You write it."
　　 I wanted to reject Xi Zhan, but when his faint eyes looked over, I did not dare to speak.
　　 I used to stand by his side properly, picked up the writing brush and stopped on the white rice paper.
　　 Xi Zhan's voice asked Shen Ling, "Why didn't you write?"
　　 I gritted my teeth and wrote the word Sheng.
　　 is as immature as a child just learning to paint.
　　 Terrible mess.
　　 Xi Zhan didn't comment on the I wrote, he suddenly raised his hand to hold the back of my hand, and wrote the word Sheng stroke by stroke.
　　 His breath fell on the side of my ears and it itched my heart, and his breath filled my whole body and made my blood boil.
　　 I want to avoid him, but my body is stiff in place.
　　 Somehow, the sheng written from under his hand is very beautiful, as beautiful as he is.
　　 I seemed to be charmed and said: "Second brother is really handsome."
　　 Hearing that Xi Zhan quickly let go of my hand, his cold palms withdrew, I looked at him in a daze, and the moment I raised my eyes, I ran into his cold and cruel eyes.
　　 I heard him warn me word by word: "Yoona, I'm not what you can think of."
　　 He still calls me Yoona.
　　 I was shocked, did he misunderstand something?
　　 I shook my head and said, "I just praise you for being handsome."
　　 Xi Zhan didn't answer me, he turned around and left the room. I sat in the study and stared at the Sheng he wrote.
　　 Was he warning me just now?
　　 asked me not to hit his idea.
　　 But from the bottom of my heart, I never thought of anything to do with him.
　　 I just think he is handsome.
　　 Suddenly, I understood a little bit of what I told Ji Nuan to say-even though I am boring to Xi Zhan, he is a person who is good enough to break the rules of the game after all, and it is difficult not to make people's hearts move.
　　 When I realized this, I felt like I was leaving.
　　 left here and returned to Wucheng.
　　 When I left the study and went downstairs, I saw Xi Zhan cooking in the kitchen. Simple meals were all light.
I went in by myself and found a bowl of white rice, then I sat on the sofa with some dishes and started to eat. When I finished eating and washing my bowl, I said calmly to Xi Zhan, who had not eaten yet. Brother, I want to go back to Wucheng tomorrow."
　　 Xi Zhan's waveless voice said: "Yeah."
　　 "Thank you for saving me that day, and thank you for curing my cancer. From now on, my life is yours."
　　 My verbal expressions seem insincere.
　　 I thought for a while and said sincerely: "Whenever, wherever, and whatever I am doing at the time, as long as your second brother finds me, I will put all people and things to your side."
　　 I looked at Xi Zhan, who looked indifferent, and said with a smile: "Maybe you don't need it, but this is all I have! Brother, you are the second best person to me in this life, thank you very much."
　　 As long as Xi Zhan needs it, I will give him my life.
　　 "Well, a good journey."
　　 I have expressed so much, Xi Zhan said faintly on the road, he is like a killer with no emotions!
　　 I went upstairs very depressed, but Xi Zhan finally did not enter the room to sleep that night.
　　 I think he should be preventing me from taking advantage of him.
　　 When I woke up the next day, I went downstairs and saw him sitting on the sofa in good spirits and reading books leisurely.
　　 I didn't say exactly what point to leave, nor did he ask me. It seems that I leave when I want to leave from here, without telling him, and it is the same when I return.
　　 I drank a bowl of leftover porridge from yesterday and went upstairs for breakfast.
　　Because I am leaving, I still want to put on makeup.
　　I put on a very delicate makeup, painted brown eyeshadow, curled up my long hair and changed into a long skirt.
　　 When I went downstairs, I saw Xi Zhan was still in that posture. I walked to the door and shouted my second brother, "I'm going back to Wucheng."
　　 Xi Zhan raised his eyes and looked at him. There was a flash of surprise in his eyes. He squinted gently and said, "Be careful on the road."
　　 I nodded, and suddenly saw a very clear tooth mark on the side of his palm, which should have been bitten by me before. I didn't expect to leave a mark, and it was still on such a beautiful palm.
　　 After I left Xi's house, I took a taxi to find Fu Xi.
　　 He was surprised to see me in Tongcheng, and asked me if the person on the video was me. I curiously asked him, "What video?"
　　 Fu Xi opened the phone video and handed it to me.
It was the video of me begging Gu Tingchen to return home under the rain at the door of the church that day, and knelt before him cautiously. In the video, he cruelly said: "Shi Sheng, I will get married and have children sooner or later, I It’s impossible to die with you for a lifetime! You know better than anyone else that you won’t have children at all!"
　　 Yes, I know better than anyone that I can't have children.
　　 I returned the phone to Fu Xi and asked, "Are you blind?"
　　 The video is so clear, it must be me!
　　 He also deliberately asked me to make me feel bad!
　　 Fu Xi sighed and called me, "Where have you been this time? I can't reach you even if I call."
　　 Many people called me during this period, but I didn't answer them, and I didn't read WeChat, so I was too lazy to feel bad.
　　 Assistant Yin also said that this is good and suitable for healing.
　　I comforted him and said: "It's okay, I'm going back to Wucheng later, where is my Rolls Royce? You give me the car key."
　　 Fu Xi frowned and asked, "Way in such a hurry?"
　　 I smiled and asked, "Don’t leave and wait for your ex-girlfriend to beat me?"
　　 Fu Xi: "……"
　　 I drove back to Wucheng and got stuck on the highway during the period. I put my hand on the steering wheel and kept thinking about the video just now.
　　 My humble pleading for Gu Tingchen to go home looked like that embarrassing, as if it blocked all my dignity in this life but exchanged his sentence, "You can't give birth to a child at all!"
　　 When Sheng couldn't give birth to a child, I even made trouble at other people's weddings without dignity. Now the people all over the country know this!
　　 At this moment, my heart is like a heavy stone.
　　 I know, I can’t avoid these things.
　　 I know that I will face it after all.
　　 But Xi Zhan never asked me about it from beginning to end.
　　 He didn't ask me what happened.
　　 There is no ever caring about me.
　　 He didn't even blame me for concealing my identity from him. He still called me Yoona in his cold voice.
　　 It seems that no matter what the storm or the turbulence happens outside, Xi Zhan can stand firm as a rock in place, guarding me to return to his home at any time.
　　 does not ask the past, do not ask the reason.
　　 No matter what I make wrong, no matter who I like, no matter what kind of injury I suffer, he will guard me, as if he will never leave me in this life!
　　 Xi Zhan, he really gave me such an illusion!
　　 This kind of illusion makes people think that he likes me.
　　 Even I doubt it!
　　 But his sentence, "Yoona, I'm not something you can remember." He woke me up severely, and his words revealed my lowliness.
　　 I'm not something you can think of. In other words, I don't deserve to be concerned. If so, what is the reason why he is guarding me?
　　 just because I saved his life that night?
　　 But I didn't really help that night.
　　 I can't figure it out, so I don't think about it anymore.
　　……
　　 Due to the highway blockage, I returned to Wucheng very late. Instead of returning to the Shijia villa, I went to the apartment.
　　 It's too late to go home, I feel tired all over lying on the bed, get up and drink medicine after a short rest.
　　 The doctor said that I can stop taking the medicine for another month, and I will be a healthy person from now on.
　　 After drinking the medicine, I lay back on the bed and hesitated for a long time and sent a text message to Xi Zhan, "Second brother, I got home safely."
　　 He returned to me, "Hmm."
　　 An icy word ah seems to bring temperature.
　　 because he responded to me.
　　 I originally wanted to put down my phone to sleep, but I thought I had returned to Wucheng, so I clicked on WeChat slowly.
　　 A lot of news.
　　 Gu Tingchen is the only one.
　　 These news are looking for me.
　　 are asking about my trail.
　　 I sent a group message, "I have returned to Wucheng, don’t read it."
　　 I clicked into the text message again and saw Gu Lanzhi's.
　　 "Little girl, can you be well?"