Chapter 93: Find a reason to live

　　 Hiding in the bed, Lu Ze kept swinging, staring at the bedroom door, staring like this all night, he wanted to see Lu Weiguo, but he didn't dare to see.
From the first time he saw Lu Weiguo returning home covered in blood, he was frightened crazy when he looked at him from the door with one eye. Until now, he can often see his father, but he still feels scared. .
　　 But yesterday, Lu Weiguo grabbed his hand for the first time and prevented him from killing. For the first time, he had an intersection with his dead father, and he had begun to affect Lu Ze's life.
　　 Suddenly... he heard the entrance door being pushed open, and a footstep came towards here, his heart throbbed, and then Li Yumei entered the bedroom.
　　 "Mom..."
　　 "It's too cold in this room, I'll set a fire for you, mom look at your face."
　　 Li Yumei's rough hand touched Lu Ze's face. There was an obvious handprint on his face, and he didn't go down all night, which made her feel very distressed.
　　 "I'm fine, I'm going to make a fire..."
　　 It's been a long time since he was touched by his mother, which made him very uncomfortable. He quickly put on his shoes and hugged the firewood outside, and sat on the pony to light the stove.
　　 She brought a meal. In fact, the man was fine on weekdays, but he would scold Li Yumei when he was upset. He seldom beat her. It just happened to be hit yesterday and Lu Ze ran into him.
　　 She brought rice, braised saury, which was brought by Li Yumei after the man sobered up, because he also knew that Lu Ze only earned a few thousand yuan a year from farming, which he couldn't eat at all.
　　 Lu Ze accepted the man's apology. Otherwise, Li Yumei would not be well caught in the middle. He sat on the edge of the stove, lit the pure copper pipe left by the old Lu family, and smoked silently.
"Let's eat."
　　 What can a widowed second-married woman do? Even if she is beaten, she can only accept it silently. As a traditional woman, it is not a shame to be widowed, but it is just a divorce after the second marriage. In the village, she will be gossiped. Besides, her income is not high. Lu Nan goes to school, if divorce...Lu Nan will have no money to go to school.
　　 She felt that she did not feel sorry for Lu Weiguo, that man, or Lu Nan. The only one who owed him the most was this son. In the past few years since his mental problems, she has not fulfilled her responsibilities as a mother and failed to take good care of him.
　　 For a while, she was choked up a bit, Lu Ze didn't speak, but knocked the pipe and picked up the chopsticks.
　　 While he was eating, Li Yumei watched and reached out to touch Lu Ze's long hair, but Lu Ze avoided a little bit. He was not used to Li Yumei touching him.
　　 "I want to go out."
　　 Li Yumei didn't understand Lu Ze's words, and she was taken aback for a moment: "Where are we going?"
　　 "I want to go out. I am no longer in the village. I want to go out to work."
This is what Lu Ze thought this morning. He can no longer be in the village. He often sees Lu Weiguo appearing in all corners of the village. This makes Lu Ze even want to die. He thought, maybe change the environment, and Lu Weiguo did not go. Maybe he won’t show up wherever he has passed.
　　 "No, I don't worry if you go out, what can you do when you go out? Listen to me, stay in the village honestly."
　　 She is a hard-hearted mother, but she is not a big-hearted mother. It is a question of whether he can survive outside in his mental state.
　　 "Then do you want to see me hang myself in the house tomorrow?"
That’s what he thinks. If this continues, it’s better to die happily. Although he wants to live, it’s really better to die than to live. If you go out and see the outside world, you might be able to live. Reasons.
　　 "But what can you do outside? I'm afraid..."
　　 "At least I can live, I won't die from starvation, I want to find a reason for me to live, now it makes no sense to live."
　　 Lu Ze has made up his mind. He wants to leave. He finally has the courage to look his mother's eyes squarely, and he speaks categorically. He must leave.
　　 Li Yumei couldn't refuse because she was really scared. When she saw her son again, he would hang on the beam of the room and he had no breath. She didn't dare to bet on this kind of thing, because she also knew that her son had mental problems.
　　 "Then mom will buy you a cell phone another day, and then you will be outside and want to come back. Give mom a call, and mom will pick you up. Would you like it?"
　　 Lu Ze did not speak, but put the empty bowl on the stove and went back to the house to hide in the bedding. He became a tortoise with a shrunken head, avoiding all the concerns of his mother. He could not accept it.
　　 Li Yumei took an empty bowl and glanced at him who was lying on the kang, sighed, and left. She will go to town to buy a mobile phone for Lu Ze soon, and use the money she earns without spending others.
　　......
　　 It snowed in the afternoon. When Li Yumei came back from the town, it was already dark. She held the mobile phone left for Lu Ze to buy. It was not expensive, more than 600 yuan, and the cheapest one in the mobile phone store.
　　 "Son? Son?"
　　 There are no lights in the house, because Lu Ze never turns on the lights. This will waste electricity. His income is not high, and the poor even feel bad about electricity bills.
　　 called twice, no one in the room agreed. Li Yumei trembling hands, pushed open the door, still unlocked, this house that carries the memories of the four Lu family, there is no thief worth patronizing.
　　 "Pattern..."
　　 A tear fell to the ground because Lu Ze was not in the house. Although the bedding was dirty, it was neatly folded. When the drawer was opened, there was no clothing inside.
　　 Li Yumei has never regretted this. Her only son is gone. She knows that his son hates her, but she didn't expect him to say hello to herself the day he even left.
When she gave up Lu Ze, she had expected this day, but it came so suddenly... She still couldn’t accept it~EbookFREE.me~ sitting on a chair, she cried loudly. Starting today, she has no sons, no more...
　　 At this time, Lu Ze has already boarded the bus leading to Fengtian. His future, just like this bus, is running on the dark road, unable to see the road ahead.
　　...
　　 It was already ten o'clock in the evening when he arrived at Fengtian. He didn't have a tool to watch the time. He knew it when he walked the street and saw the clock tower.
　　 He was carrying a big snakeskin bag, and people passing by walked around him, because looking at Lu Ze like this, he did not look like a normal person.
　　 found a small hotel, thirty a night, he is going to sleep here for one night, and will start looking for work tomorrow.
　　 "Give me the money, register it in this book, and just follow it."
　　 The very fat hotel proprietress threw the registration book on the table and waited for Lu Ze to pay for it, but when he touched the bag, Lu Ze panicked.
　　 "I...what's my money? Where's my money? Money...the money is gone..."
　　 Lu Ze rummaged through his bag in a panic, and then he saw a cut in the bag. It was obvious that the more than 4,000 yuan he had saved for five years was gone! It was stolen!
"I......"
　　 "If you lose your money, go to the police. Go out and turn left diagonally across."
　　 The proprietress has opened a hotel for more than 20 years. This kind of thing is not uncommon. She also lost her sympathy in the years. She just pointed the way to Lu Ze, put away the registration book and continued watching TV and eating melon seeds.
"thanks, thanks!"
　　 Lu Ze picked up the bag and ran towards the police station. He hoped that he could find it back now while it was not long after it was lost.
　　"..."