Chapter 232: 《Livelihood》 (Large

"Lin Qin, there will be a city marathon tomorrow morning. Recently, your complexion is a bit bad. Let's exercise together?"
At 7 o'clock on Friday evening, my colleague typed the last text. After saving it, he kicked his legs and the work chair slid backwards. He came to Lin Qin's desk and discussed with Lin Qin about going out tomorrow.
"He can run a marathon? This big carrot is not like you. You are a single dog, but you are a single nobleman~ Some little sisters accompany him to fight until dawn. You don't want to think about it. People are holding white and scented girls. Is it comfortable to lie on the bed? Or is it comfortable to run a marathon with you under the sun?"
Female colleague Xiaomei interrupted, grinning, and her tone was a bit yin and yang, she pulled out the USB flash drive, carrying her own bag and preparing to check in and leave work.
"Hey! Xiaomei, don't you understand? I'm single and proud!"
"Xiaomei is right. I really can't go. I won't be dancing on weekends, and I will become on Mondays, okay? Would you like to cheer me up with me? Bring you a beautiful woman home to warm your bed?"
Lin Qin stood up, carrying a briefcase, smiling like a ruffian, lightly hammered the chest at the same time, and raised an eyebrow at him.
"Forget it, I don't like that kind of place, and you are 27 years old, and you are still a moonlight clan. You opened more than 30,000 last month, and you still don't have any money left. How can you do that."
"Yes, yes, you always say that, but it doesn't conform to my consumption concept. Money is a bastard. If we don't make it, let's make it again. Besides, I haven't saved money."
"Do you still save money? How much did you save?"
As soon as the weekend came, Lin Qin became energetic, bounced to the door of the office, leaned on the door frame, threw the car key, and thought for a while.
"Not to be spent...One thousand and five~"
.......
I ran into the elevator and reached the underground parking lot. I pressed the car key. The modified Camaro lights flashed. Then there was the roar of the engine in the underground parking lot. Yellow lightning rushed out of the underground parking lot. Drive home.
When I got home, I immediately took off the suit that restrained my body, went into the bathroom to take a cold shower, sang a light song with my toothbrush in my mouth, and put on a beige shirt with a white T-shirt inside, a pair of black overalls and a pair. Skateboarding shoes, styling the hair, looking at the handsome face in the mirror, nodded in satisfaction.
"Hey~ bang!"
I flicked my tongue, my hands clapped my palms, the sensor light on the mirror turned off automatically, opened the closet on the sink, took out a box of ten Durex, and tore off one. Thinking about it, it didn’t feel enough. He tore off two more and put them in his wallet. He took the car key and went out again.
The atmosphere in the bar has begun to become active. I parked the car, said hello to the booking manager I knew well, went to his fixed booth every weekend, opened a bottle of drink, and looked for today's prey.
At eleven o'clock, the DJ officially came on stage. The bar was full of deafening drums. Men and women began to secrete hormones. Lin Qin walked into the dance floor and got a conversation with the girl who was alone tonight. She seemed to be with her friends.
Looking at the three girls sitting on the scattered stage not far away, Lin Qin put her arm around her shoulders and took her back to her deck without hesitation. Then the three girls were hooked up by him, and the four girls yelled. Lin Qin did not refuse anyone who came to drink. Under the influence of alcohol, he wiped the four girls a lot of oil, and was easily let go.
After one o'clock in the middle of the night, he took the girl and left the bar and went to a nearby hotel. The two looked like a loving couple, but in fact, they didn't even know each other's real names.
After swiping the room card, there was still no electricity in the house, Lin Qin pulled her into the house, and pushed the girl against the door in the dark. Only two people in the room gasped with alcohol.
"You... take a bath first?"
"Whoever comes first, let's go together! Go!"
He often came to this hotel, inserted the room card in the card slot, pressed the light, and rushed into the bathroom with the girl. The girl screamed, followed by a string of silver bell-like laughter. It was not big to enter the bathroom. After a while, the glass vaporized mist, and with the heavy breathing of the two, only a woman could be seen on the glass...
.......
There is an old saying that the best plan for a day is the morning, but when the two woke up, it was already more than 11 o'clock in the morning. After waking up, they looked at each other, and the result was another thunder and fire.
After the incident, Lin Qin panted and leaned against the bed. The girl intimately wiped the sweat from his forehead, nestled in his arms, watching him smoke a cigarette after the incident, and took a cigarette in his mouth. Clicking on it, he was taken aback for a moment, and pointed at Lin Qin's nose.
"You have a nosebleed."
"Ah? Oh, yes, maybe you are too beautiful to take it anymore, your blood pressure is a little high, it's okay, I'll go to the bathroom, later... come again?"
"hate......."
I tugged a few sheets of bedside paper into my nostrils, put on a bathrobe and smiled at the girl, walked leisurely towards the bathroom, turned on the light, the bathroom was quite interesting, and raised eyebrows with the girl through the glass. He bent over and unscrewed the faucet, took some cold water and patted his forehead. The moment he pulled down the paper and sucked it, the blood seemed to be poured out, and the splashing sink was full of blood.
Unexpectedly, his bleeding volume was so heavy. Lin Qin was taken aback for a moment, then took a handful of water and wiped his nose, but the blood still didn't stop falling, like an unclosed faucet, ticking quickly.
He was a little panicked. Anyone in this situation would become rushed. The phone in the bathrobe pocket rang. He took it out and took a look. It was the colleague who asked him to run the marathon yesterday. Aside.
When I bend down again, a sense of dizziness comes up. It doesn't feel like fragmentation, but it becomes difficult to breathe. The scenery in my eyes loses color. Later, my vision begins to shrink, and it looks like a needle nose. In the end, it was completely dark before his eyes, his breathing was heavy and fast, and then... he fell to the ground.
The girl was playing with her mobile phone and chatting with the little sister last night about Lin Qin's kung fu, occasionally turning her head to look at the bathroom, she saw him swinging and falling to the ground.
"what!!!!"
.......
"Beep...beep...beep..."
Slowly opened his eyes, the ceiling was not suspended and it was white. Lin Qin glanced sideways at the surrounding environment, and instantly he understood where he was. He was in a large ward with people lying next to the bed. There are family members waiting around.
On the bedside is this instrument for measuring heartbeat and blood pressure, and there is an infusion bag hanging on the pole beside the bed. He doesn't know what it is inside, but the cold and painful hand is infused, and the whole blood vessel is stretched and painful when moved.
What's more terrible is that he was fixed on the bed sideways, and his back spine hurt terribly, as long as he moved slightly, it was like a needle in the joints of the joints.
As soon as he was sober, Lin Qin was sore and sweaty. Seeing that the nurse was piercing the old lady next door, he quickly asked as if he had seen a life-saving straw.
"Nurse, Miss Nurse! Excuse me, please...what's my situation?"
"I don't know yet. I need to wait for the examination results to come out. I will stay in the hospital for observation these few days. I will go to the hospital two days later. I will see it when the time comes.
"Which hospital is this?"
"Army General Hospital."
He pulled out the needle and threw it into the trash can of the drug cart. Without looking at Lin Qin, he pushed the cart and turned and left, leaving Lin Qin lying on the bed very uneasy and waiting.
He asked his family in the bed next door to help bring his own clothes. He didn't lose his mobile wallet and other things, just part of the money was missing.
He didn't complain that the girl left like this. After all, the two met just by the water, but they had spent the spring night together. It was all right to send him to the hospital, and the money in the wallet was probably paid for registration fees, hospitalization, and ambulance. The girl shouldn't take away the commuting expenses and other expenses. For a woman who is just a one-night stand, what can he spot?
He called his leader to ask for leave. When he heard that he had a cold, the leader readily approved the vacation. After all, Lin Qin was his right-hand man and had a close relationship with him. He couldn't make trouble with Lin Qin.
This period of time was destined to be tormenting. Lin Qin could walk down the ground the next day. Although his back was still severely painful, he was at least able to move on his own, wandering back and forth in the corridor wearing a hospital gown.
On the third day, the examination results came down. Lin Qin nervously walked to the clinic, knocked on the door, and heard the doctor in charge of him let him in, he pushed the door and walked in slowly, nodding politely to the doctor .
The doctor seemed to be about fifty years old. He raised his head and glanced at Lin Qin, let him sit on a stool, and then focused his eyes on the computer monitor. He should be looking at Lin Qin's examination results.
"Where are your family members?"
"I... have no family members."
"Then who was the girl who accompanied you on the day you were admitted to the hospital?"
Lin Qin remained silent, and the doctor was not surprised. He did not continue to inquire. People in certain occupations have been experiencing all kinds of things that ruin the Three Views. If they really mentioned it to others, what they knew would be almost three days. The night can't be finished, and it's all explosive.
The first is the staff at the entertainment venue, the second is the hotel front desk, and the third is the doctor, so the topic stopped here. The doctor took out a medical record from the folder and put it on the desk, and drank his tea in silence.
Lin Qin picked it up and took a look. He knew both the text and the English alphabet, but after the combination and arrangement, it really made his eyes dark, until the end of the medical record summary was like a train whizzing through his mind. ...
"Leukemia? No.... How is this possible? I have never been in Dalian hospital since I was a child. I have never had chickenpox except for a cold. This...this is impossible! It must be a misdiagnosis. Up!"
It seems that Lin Qin is about the same age as his own child, and it is indeed a pity that Lin Qin is a big, tall, talented person. Therefore, the doctor is not displeased with Lin Qin’s doubts. It is normal to be unacceptable, and it is not uncommon to be so angry that Lin Qin's questioning is reasonable.
"Theoretically, there is a possibility of misdiagnosis. After all, no hospital dares to say that the diagnosis result is 100% correct, but the possibility of misdiagnosis is really not large. From the diagnosis result of bone marrow puncture, plus the auxiliary confirmation of blood routine , Your spleen organ is indeed enlarged, it can basically be diagnosed as chronic myelogenous leukemia, and it has been sick for a period of time, and is about to enter the accelerated phase, you can go to other hospitals for a second check, but now you do need to take medication Control the condition."
"Impossible! I will go for an examination now. It must be a misdiagnosis. You are waiting for me to sue your hospital!"
After leaving the hospital, Lin Qin drove a taxi to 102 Hospital, which is famous for cancer. In the car, the shaking right leg can tell how much he is suffering, but he may have believed it, because... ...He was carrying three boxes of imatinib mesylate.
Came to the 102 hospital, which is famous for cancer treatment, for a comprehensive examination, and he has emptied all of his cash. As for the medical insurance, don't you have to wait for time to report.
Lin Qin took the last dozens of dollars to take a taxi back home with the pain after the anaesthetic was over. The room was completely dark when he opened the door. Only when it hurts can people remember the lesson. Lin Qin is also at this moment. In this way, he regrets why he didn't save some money, so that he can only rely on his credit card for the medical examination.
The results of the 102 hospital's examination were taken within seven working days, so he had to come to work as usual, but the original unrestrained spirit was replaced by the fear of disease, so that the efficiency of work was significantly reduced.
The people in the office are very well informed, and Lin Qin’s personality that likes to clubbing, so that the gossip reported that Lin Qin had AIDS or syphilis. Although he did not mention it in front of Lin Qin, his eyes were hidden behind his back. Lin Qin, who has always been well-connected, is very unacceptable with the figure that is gradually moving away.
The side effect of taking imatinib is a great loss of appetite. He hasn't had a good meal for several days, and chronic myeloid leukemia can also cause inexplicable night sweats and weight loss. This makes my colleagues more sure. Lin Qin got the kind disease.
Seven working days later, he took time off again and went to the hospital. The result was originally issued after two o'clock in the afternoon, but he waited anxiously in the hospital early in the morning, and...the result given by the Army Hospital was not wrong.
"Pack up things and be hospitalized tomorrow."
Doctors in well-known clinics are always colder than doctors in unpopular clinics. Facing this forty-year-old doctor, Lin Qin was completely stupid. He opened his mouth to say something, opened and closed silently, and finally just pinched the examination results. Tight, full of folds, slowly got up and left.
In the hospital, there are always people crying silently in the corners, and there are also people crying at the door of the operating room. Scenes of sad and happy sitcoms are shown here every day. People greet the first cry here and take their last breath. Oxygen is like a reincarnation, white... it records everything here. In the end, the clouds are light and breezy, without sadness or joy.
"You don't have eyes? Can he step on me?"
A young man was sitting on the floor in the corridor eating a box lunch. It seemed that someone in the family was seriously ill and in a bad mood. Lin Qin was numb and stepped on the young man's seemingly expensive shoes.
The young man instantly threw the boxed lunch on the ground, got up and grabbed Lin Qin by the collar, and pushed him against the wall, looking fiercely at Lin Qin's out-of-focus eyes.
The people around came to persuade them, but they didn't take the initiative to pull them away. They just surrounded them and said, "Forget it", "Not so", "This is in the hospital", but they didn't have much effect.
"Are you blind? You can't see me as a big person? Believe it or not I'm the one who sucked you?"
"Sorry."
"Your uncle, I'm sorry now? What the did you do? I'm in a bad mood now, do you come here by yourself?"
"I'm dying."
"what.......?"
"I'm dying."
Lin Qin stared at the young man's eyes and said numbly. The young man was stunned for a moment, thinking about where this is. It is normal to meet someone who is dying. The original anger has changed somewhat from Lin Qin's desperate words. Not knowing what to do, his tongue licked around his teeth, and then lightly opened his hand holding Lin Qin's collar.
"Next time you walk, don't you know if you look at it? Not everyone is as good-tempered as me, so hurry up! Walk around!"
He pushed Lin Qin a hand, and Lin Qin nodded at him blankly, turned and left silently, and the people around let out the space and let Lin Qin go out. There were pity and indifference in his eyes, but all of this was similar to Lin. Chin has no relationship.
The young man put his hands in his pockets, turned around in place, raised the corner of his mouth to the left, revealing a gap, took a hard breath, and then hesitated to shout.
"Hey!"
Lin Qin looked back and looked at him...
"There is no hurdle in life! Live well! Definitely! All the fuck! Live well! Come on buddy!"
After licking his lips, Lin Qin wanted to say something, but he was stuck in his throat. In the end, he only held a mosquito-sized thank you, bowed gently to the young man, and turned away.
Staggering all the way to the parking lot, he was tripped by the green belt in the middle and almost fell. He pulled the car door, and as soon as he sat up, a drop of blood fell on the back of his hand. He panicked and opened the drawer. I took out the toilet paper and wiped the blood, but still wiped more, dripping on his body and in the car, watching the constantly losing blood, and finally awakened him who was numb, tears were constantly flowing, and he looked particularly horrified in the reverse mirror.
In the end, the paper ran out and his hands were stained with blood. Only then did he realize that toilet paper could not block the blood at all. The only thing that could save him was the hospital that had just come out not far away.
He got out of the car with his palm covering his nose. There was still blood dripping in the gap. The door of the car was not closed. He ran towards the hospital. Passing pedestrians looked at him in horror and kept moving back. Finally he reached the door of the hospital. , Shouting hoarse, with two words of deep despair.
"help me!!!"
.......
The next day, he packed his luggage and came to the company. He came to resign and asked for the salary that he had not received this month. Now he knows to cherish the money because it is life-saving.
Before the leader came, he sat in a daze at the computer, but not long after that, the leader came to the office and saw Lin Qin looking at the computer in a daze, frowned and walked over and patted Lin Qin on the shoulder.
"Lin Qin, what do you think? Didn't you sleep well last night?"
"I didn't rest well last night, I'm sorry Brother Zhang."
"Hurry up and cheer up, and after a while, check the report of Mr. Zhang in your hand and give it to me. Okay, you. It's another big list. Do it hard."
After the leader left, Xiao Chen, a single dog colleague, moved his office chair and sat next to Lin Qin. How about a long and not ugly high-paid person who could not find a girlfriend? The key factor is low emotional intelligence.
"Go to the hospital yesterday?"
"Ok."
"How? Are you okay?"
"It's okay."
"That's okay, I told you that your complexion is not good, and I'll be fine with fewer girls in the future. Be careful, I'll just get sick."
"What the are you talking about?"
Seeing Lin Qin's beating, the office was silent, but occasionally colleagues looked at each other, cast Lin Qin teasingly, and then snickered with other colleagues.
On the surface, no matter how good Lin Qin's popularity is, he is also the one who earns the most money in the entire office. Who can not be jealous? It's just that Lin Qin is also afraid, for fear that he will be infected.
All living creatures will become hostile and guard against things that threaten them. As a higher being, people are of course more cautious, and people also know that not only swords and guns can threaten themselves, but also their companions.
Lin Qin came to resign, but after all, the leader treated him not badly. Even if he resigned, he couldn't just quit. After checking the report, he got up and took the file and walked towards the leadership office.
"In."
"Brother Zhang, the report has been checked and put it here for you."
"Lin Qin, I didn't ask you when there were so many people just now, how did the inspection result? Isn't it..."
An AIDS patient can bring panic to everyone. Even if he knows that patting Lin Qin on the shoulder will not be infected, he still goes to the bathroom and washes his hands well. Now that Lin Qin is here, he has to ask. If it is true, then even if Lin Qin has a good relationship with him, he can only say sorry.
"The purpose of my coming is to resign. The job transfer has been completed and it is placed in the USB flash drive on my desk."
"So you really..."
"No, I am leukemia."
Just when he heard the denial, Zhang Ge was quite happy, but when Lin Qin said the real illness he was suffering from, his heart suddenly fell to the bottom. He didn't know what to say, and he thought silently for a while before nodding.
"That’s good, but don’t count as resignation. It’s a dismissal. You will be subsidized according to your working age. Brother can only help you here. After all, I am just an ordinary family, and your sister-in-law and your nephew need to be supported. Guess brother, I will contact the finance company later and urge you to get it in your salary card within three days. Although this disease is serious...but it is still possible to be cured. Don't despair and live well. "
Lin Qin suddenly wanted to cry, and his mood fluctuated more and more. Within two days, two people encouraged him and let him live. To him, who was extremely depressed, it was like a warm light, he didn't know. What he said, just resisting the urge to cry, bit his lip and bowed to the leader who took good care of him, and then left the leader's office, ready to pack his own things.
As soon as he entered the office, he could smell the pasteurized water...
"Um...Isn't it an influenza recently? The air in our office doesn't circulate. Don't mind Lin Qin."
A married female colleague smiled awkwardly, telling a lie that could be easily debunked, hoping that Lin Qin would not hate herself.
This group of people is already alive and full of oil, even if she thinks that Lin Qin is alive soon, she is not willing to offend people, at least Lin Qin is still alive now, if she uses violence to retaliate and hurt herself, it is not worth it. .
Looking at the female colleague indifferently, he walked back to his desk and packed up his things, because the working environment was good, he really put a lot of things, and he really couldn't take them away.
When I got off the elevator and went up again, I saw that the female colleague was still spraying disinfectant on the floor. Everyone put on masks or waited in the corridor. Who could stand their posture? This kind of look that is regarded as an outlier and despised can really easily penetrate everyone's psychological defense.
"Don't spray him! I am not AIDS! I am not! I am leukemia! Not contagious! Not to you! Stop spraying! I am not AIDS! I am leukemia! I really have leukemia! This is my test The result! Look! It's really leukemia! I am going to die! But I can't infect you! I really have leukemia! Look!"
Is there anything in the world that is more ironic, disgusting, and thing than letting a terminally ill person have to prove to others hoarsely that he really has a terminal illness? At least Lin Qin couldn't think of it now.
He could only burst into tears, walked in front of them with the test results, shouted in a broken voice, and showed the test results to everyone present. He is really leukemia and really not contagious!
What can be exchanged for... It's just that everyone's panic avoiding, and the indifferent, even disgusting look in their eyes after they have avoided it, can't have any effect except these.
No... can play a role, but it happens off-screen.
Lu Ze looked behind him, sobbing could be heard in his ears, and people's tears could be seen in his eyes, not even wiping, the red and swollen eyes that were always looking at the screen.
...
Lin Qin was hospitalized, but did not stay for a few days because he could not afford the high hospital fees. A box of domestically-made imatinib was 2-3, and the reimbursement was 75%. The bed fee was nearly 90 per day, subsidy. Forty-two, chemotherapy uses domestic drugs, more than 8,000 each time, and it is estimated that eight chemotherapy sessions, plus other drugs such as infusions, will be about 100,000, and the reimbursement is 35%.
He could only sell the car to a second-hand car dealership, but although Camaro’s reputation is so great, not many people would buy it, so much so that even if he even spent more than half a million on buying a car with modification, the result The money he got was just over 300,000 yuan, plus some odds and ends, and he raised a total of 350,000 yuan for treatment.
More than 300,000 yuan is a drop in wages for this disease. Now he has no job and must be able to save. He is not hoping that he can live longer, but that he wants to cure the disease.
But he inquired about the cost of bone marrow transplantation and surgery. The amount the doctor said made him desperate. He had only worked for five years, and he was left with more than 300,000 yuan. But this big hole is true. Can't fill in.
He also thought about asking the Red Cross for help, but there were too many leukemia patients, and the child was still at a high incidence of leukemia, and his application was quickly rejected.
Naturally, the house cannot be renewed. He can't pay the rent of more than 10,000 a month. The furniture he bought can only be moved to the second-hand market for sale. In the end, only a suitcase is left with a few clothes and a pair. Shoes, and a laptop.
.......
"Ha...ha...ha..."
More than a month later, when the late autumn arrived, Lin Qin walked into the alley near the 102 hospital with a suitcase. He lost a lot of weight, wearing a mask, panting and standing in a small hotel in the alley, looking down. Glancing at the humble paper business card, carrying the suitcase into the hotel.
It is very shabby, so old that Lin Qin would never come here. Pushing the door open, there was a board on the wall that was not acceptable to patients with infectious diseases. An old man was sitting on a chair in the reception room, listening to a small song. After hearing the bell on the door rang, he turned his head and glanced at Lin Qin.
"What are you doing?"
"Stay in."
"What disease?"
"leukemia."
"Let me take a look at the case, fill in the identity registration, give you the book, how long? Pay monthly, 300 per month."
"Let's live for a month, fill it out, and give me the case."
Lin Qin clamped the pen in the notebook and threw it on the desk in the reception room. The old man took off the reading glasses and returned Lin Qin's medical record to him. After receiving three hundred yuan, he held it up in the sun and checked it. After the money, he threw a bunch of keys marked 217 to Lin Qin.
Compared to the downstairs, the upstairs is even more outdated. The cement floor is already pitted, the white scraped on the wall has turned yellow, and the height of about 1.5 meters from the ground is painted with cyan paint. The lighting facilities are a The 20-watt light bulb looks like a haunted house with a musty smell.
Opening the room is better than expected. The windows are facing the sun and the lighting is very good. The room does not have the musty smell as big as the corridor, but the area is small, only three or four square meters, and one is placed against the wall. On the bed, there is a cabinet at the head of the bed, and there is a desk on the side of the door, on which is a table lamp of nine years old style. The clock on the wall is no longer running. The only household appliance is about 18 inches. Big tv.
The suitcase was stuffed under the table, he took the medicine and water out of the backpack, and after eating, plugged in the laptop and started to work.
Now he is doing online English translation of loose orders, but because his physical condition does not allow him to do high-intensity work, he can only choose some orders that are not so urgent in time. The income is about three or four thousand yuan, which is enough to buy medicine a month. If you save for a few months, it is enough for a physical examination.
The side effects of imatinib came up. After an hour, he began to feel dizzy, turned off the computer, lay in bed, felt a whirlpool, and finally fell asleep.
I don’t know how long I slept, and in a daze, Lin Qin felt that there was someone in the room. He hurriedly sat up and opened his eyes, pulled the light rope beside the bed, and under the dim light, Lin Qin saw a man quietly turning his bag. Take out his wallet from inside.
"Grass your mother! You put it down for me!"
Dare to live in this kind of place, he was mentally prepared, took out the swing stick hidden under the pillow, and slammed a stick against the man's back. It seemed that the man's body was also very weak and he was directly affected by Lin Qin. Smashed, lying on the ground and grunting.
Pulled off the man’s hat, he was a bald head. He obviously had received chemotherapy. He turned his back to Lin Qin and couldn’t see his face. Lin Qin had no mercy. He saw too many patients these days, even he himself was a patient. Everyone is dying, who the is used to?
He touched the man's pocket, pulled out about five hundred yuan, glanced at his empty wallet, checked the number, put it back in the wallet, checked the bag again, and did not lose other things before he paid attention. Put it on the man again.
"Steal my money? How did you get in!"
Holding this man by the collar, he slapped him vigorously. He held his head while he was beaten, but said nothing, allowing Lin Qin to continue beating him.
But then Lin Qin couldn't do it anymore. Under the light of the lamp, he found that the man with blood in the nose was beaten by him. From the face of it, he was about twenty years old.
"roll!"
There were a lot of people standing outside, men, women and children, all came out to watch the excitement. Lin Qin kicked the boy, but the boy still said nothing. It seemed that Lin Qin just beat him twice and let him go. Unexpectedly, he pursed his lips, bowed to Lin Qin, then turned and entered the next room next to Lu Ze.
.......
Early the next morning, Lin Qin held the basin and locked the door, went to the public toilet to wash, endured the pungent smell, brushed his teeth carefully, leaned close to the mirror full of toothpaste spots, and carefully looked at the yellowed corners of the eyes. After spitting out a mouthful of toothpaste foam, the toothbrush was quickly stirred in the tooth bowl, then dropped, and turned his head, only to find that the boy was standing behind him, seemingly startled by Lin Qin, and took a step back.
Lin Qin glanced at him suspiciously, touched his trouser pocket, did not have any money in it, turned and left with a strange expression, just about to open the door, he heard a man scream.
"Ah!!! Old Mrs. Shen is dead!!!"
When someone heard that someone was dead, all the cats waiting for death in the room walked out of the room, wearing a mask and walking towards the old Mrs. Shen’s room. A scrawny man sat on the ground, watching in horror as the door opened and lay down. The old man lying motionless in bed.
She has a big mouth, her eyes are not closed, her expression is very painful, her body is not covered, she wears worn-out shirts and panties, in a big font, everyone can feel the despair she experienced before she died, which made a lot of The soft-hearted people no longer bear the heart to watch.
The owner of the hotel, that is, the old man, carried a green one-shoulder army bag with a bright five-pointed star on it, carrying an incense burner and a basin in his hand, and slowly walked up to the second floor.
"Go back to the house if you are a chicken, or a horse! Don't watch! Get out of the way and I will go in."
Pull over the bench in front of the desk, put the incense burner on it, take out the incense wrapped in plastic sheet from the bag, put it on the stool, put the basin behind the incense burner, take out two dark waxes from the bag again, and light it. Put it on both sides of the incense burner, then use candles to light the incense and insert it into the incense burner.
Open the window to let the air fresher, the old man took out a stack of white paper money from his bag again, threw it into the sky, and then scattered it in every corner of the house, took out the Walkman in his pocket, changed a tape, and pressed it. The button was placed on the desk, and there was a little sorrow.
"Xiao Guo, bring up the dishes downstairs and put them up, as well as the paper money and shrouds from the cabinet in my room, and bring them up. Those who are forty years old and down, who have their birthdays before September, tie the filial piety belt. , Shouling, burn less paper, and replace when you are tired. The tall guy who came yesterday was born in March at the age of 27, right? You put a shroud on the old lady."
"I......."
"Don’t talk nonsense, don’t do it, do you think that when you die, no one will help you wear the shroud? They are all dying people. If you don’t let you take the money, just help. If you don’t want to, I will refund the money. Here you are, you move away."
Hearing this, what else could Lin Qin say, and waited silently until the man named Xiao Guo brought the filial piety belt, with a red rope tied to the tail, which means that this is the filial piety belt of grandchildren and the tail of the sons generation. The red string is not tied.
Picking up the navy blue shroud, Lin Qin swallowed, glanced at the old man, and put it on the old lady in fear. This was the first time he did this, and to be honest, he was scared.
After wearing the old lady's hat, I saw the old man holding a piece of yellow paper, squinting his eyes with reading glasses, and reading the words aloud.
"Shen Xiumei! People from Jiangyan in Sichuan Province! Passed away on September 17, 2016! He was seventy-three years old! The fare paid to me was 2,800 yuan before he was alive! Two hundred yuan for wine and food! Answer Five hundred yuan for friends and relatives! Two hundred yuan for your relatives! A total of three thousand seven hundred yuan! It will be spent on Shen Xiumei! Don't hide it! The dead return home, and the wild ghosts on the roadside must not interfere! Otherwise, you will lose your morality and harm your family. I have nothing to do with Wang Shucai! Knocking off your head! See you off to the Shen family!"
After reading it, the old man threw the paper into the brazier. The kid beaten by Lin Qin last night took Lin Qin's arm and pulled him over. There were three women and four men kneeling on the ground. With three beeps, accompanied by sorrow and joy, the oldest man lit the paper money and threw it into the brazier, watching the paper money quickly turn black and turn into a mass of ashes.
"You guys... keep doing this?"
Other people over forty years old came over and bowed to Mrs. Shen, or kowtow. After everything was over, Lin Qin stuck to the boy who beat him last night and asked.
"Well... I feel like I'm not doing it anymore, so I will give the old man money. I can bring you home or help you get into the soil. He won't hide it privately and use it on you.
Looking at this group of people and thinking about himself, Lin Qin suddenly felt very ridiculous. He died in a foreign country. Even the funeral had to be arranged by himself. Without relatives, he asked a patient living in a hotel to pretend to be, and it ended all his life. The taste... can't tell, the way is unknown.
"Dude, you can burn it, I can't do it, I have liver cancer, and it hurts badly."
The man burning the paper handed the wooden stick to Lin Qin. His head was sweaty and his face was very pale. Lin Qin did not refuse, took the stick and knelt in front of the brazier, and threw the paper money in the brazier.
The funeral of the old lady in the hotel did not last long. As it was dark in the evening, an old Wuling Hongguang drove to the entrance of the hotel. The black shroud was tied to the old lady and placed in the back row that had been removed. After the old man's money, the man who pulled the body at the age of 40 or 50 drove away.
"The old lady is very generous. Two hundred yuan is given to relatives. You have seven cents. You will go back to the meeting and have dinner at seven. The old lady will thank you. You can't come."
A group of people nodded and went back to the room to rest for a while, but Lin Qin's heart was heavy, feeling very confused, he felt...it seemed to be sick, and what he saw was different, no The sun is shining, but it has become cold and full of decay. Perhaps in the near future, he will lie here, also looking for someone to recognize his relatives, and let these people who have no blood relationship with him put himself in linen and filial piety.
It's seven o'clock, Lin Qin went downstairs, and there were two tables of food at the door, two tables for 500 yuan. If you cook it yourself, the food is really good. The meal is not enough for the chicken, the horse, and the seven "sons and grandchildren." Sitting at the table with Old Man Wang, because Lin Qin is a newcomer, he had to introduce himself again, so that Lin Qin got to know this group of patients.
"Er Mao, did you go to Lin Qin's house last night?"
Old man Wang asked the child who had been beaten by Lin Qin and made him scratch his head embarrassedly, but he nodded and admitted.
"If you know this time, don't do it. If you steal someone, you can't steal someone who is sick. What's more, it's a family. You just came here. I won't talk about you. I apologize to Lin Qin. He was killed last night. You, if you die, you will die. At most, you will be dragged away with Mrs. Shen, no one will care about you."
"Brother Lin, I'm sorry, I was wrong, thank you for letting me go yesterday. I actually wanted to get some cash, bank card, and computer. I didn't move, but I took it. I was wrong. I kowtowed to you. "
The child got up and pushed away the plastic stool, knelt in front of Lin Qin and knocked Lin Qin three heads. Lin Qin had wanted to stand up to stop him, but was caught by the old man Wang.
"If you steal money from the patient, you will be struck by thunder. I will kowtow to you and apologize. You can afford it, but in the future you will stop worrying about it. This is the case. Come on, drink a toast, no Go back and lie down after eating."
Lin Qin took a sip of beer and looked at this group of people who were unfamiliar but unconsciously felt kind. He smiled from the bottom of his heart. Since his parents died, he has no sense of belonging anymore, so he will So indulgent, just to regain the sense of belonging, but after so many years of wandering, he still couldn't find it.
The ridiculous and sad thing is that he found it now, as if he had fallen into the dead. A group of dying people gave him a sense of home.
"I think which of us will die first, it's father who died first! If I die earlier than you, you have to kowtow to Dai Xiao and call me Dad! Do you dare?"
"Fuck! Who is afraid of who! Who is the first to die and who is the father, right? I am going to hit and die here now, okay, dear son? Hahaha."
The person at the table next door started a joke. The two men, one in their thirties and the other in their forties, joked as bastards, regardless of whether they were young or old.
"I said...what did you want to take the money for yesterday?"
"Brother Lin, are you still not satisfied? Then I will knock you three more..."
"Stop, stop, I'm not still holding grudges, I'm not that kind of person, just want to ask, what's the problem with you."
Ermao gave Lin Qin a twisted look, and pursed his lips, only to speak with a mosquito-sized voice.
"I want to... buy a wig and take a photo. This photo is too ugly. I want to be more handsome. My fifteen-year-old photo... looks like a monkey."
"Hahahahaha, how old are you this year?"
"Eighteen this year..."
"Ah...Is it enough for another photo? Five hundred is enough? Brother gave it to you. It's a pity that this guy is not dressed up."
Lin Qin smiled and the circles under her eyes turned red. She started preparing photos of herself at the age of eighteen. What day is he? He is only eighteen! How big of a wicked talent has been made in the last life? Now this end?
He felt sorry for himself at the age of twenty-seven, and hated God for letting him get leukemia, but what about this kid? I was just an adult, and I had never seen the flower world outside. I was waiting to die in a moldy place. I didn’t say anything when I was beaten like this for stealing money, just to make my posthumous photos more handsome... Yes, Lin Qin wants to kowtow to Ermao now, maybe he just took the five hundred dollars last night.
He took out five hundred and stuffed it into his pocket, but now the child was embarrassed to pick it up, and quickly took it out and returned it to Lin Qin.
"I can't ask for this money from Brother Lin. I was really wrong. I couldn't hold back it last night. It doesn't matter if I want to open it now. If I die, I can't see anything. Why do I have to take a photo."
"Ermao! Listen, take it! Is he handsome? It's a lifetime business! Your brother and I are like this, I care about my face! You learn from me, take it!"
The original lively atmosphere suddenly quieted down. This was the only person they had ever seen who was terminally ill and gave money to others. Lin Qin seemed to them... very special.
"Yes! Ermao take it! Is it handsome for a lifetime? Is the money enough? Your brother Guo doesn't have much money, so I can get you 100 at most."
"Auntie will also give you a hundred, beautifully dressed! Take it!"
"And me! Buy beautiful clothes with you! We're old, and it's good to wear shrouds. You young ones are fashionable!"
"me too......."
The scene was very touching, at least no matter whether it was others who moved or moved themselves, everyone was crying. No one knew how desperate they were, but we had to ourselves up!
.......
"I can't stand it anymore! No more, do you have toilet paper? Buddy give me two pieces, what am I... I'm so uncomfortable with me! I shouldn't come to this premiere!"
"Who said no! The point is that I come to work, I don't want to watch it, I really...have committed a crime! I might as well tell the editor to go to the premiere of "Happy Events in Flower Field 2020" Li, hey, I'm so uncomfortable."
Don't talk about others, just like the movie's creator and this group of people are crying and following their grandson, Wang Zhen cried loudly, without any image, even Zhuang Yu himself was wiping tears.
Lu Ze wiped his eyes with a tissue. He really did not expect that the film would be edited like this. The quarrel between the two directors on the crew did not affect the quality of the work at all. Instead, the two combined their respective excellences. It gives the work the thought and soul that Zhuang Yu has always emphasized, and it is also full of Guo Mingde's straightforward editing, without any muddling.
Everyone in this movie performed so well. Ermao is only sixteen years old in his life, because the children who didn't show up at school are really very spiritual, much better than the little ones in the news.
So, with everyone in the audience running in tears, the story continues...
.......
In the next few days, the relationship between Er Mao and Lin Qin also got closer. The child often ran to Lin Qin’s room and used his computer to play single-player games when Lin Qin was resting. Occasionally, Lin Qin would also take out some Money, buy something delicious for this kid, but on the whole, he is still saving money, trying to get enough money for bone marrow transplantation, and waiting for the bone marrow to match himself.
"Brother Lin... do you look good?"
Ermao knocked on the door that day. Lin Qin opened it and froze for a while before laughing. Ermao's originally bald head had long hair, and the hair style was pretty handsome. He reached out and touched it. With several bags with clothes in them, it seemed to be a big purchase.
"It's really good. Where did I buy this wig? I also do chemotherapy. I will buy one when I lose my hair."
"It’s not far from the bus stop on Erdao Street to the west. It costs one hundred and fifty yuan, which is fine! By the way, Brother Lin, can you look at my clothes? The jacket is 80 and the vest is 30. One hundred pants, these shoes, I like them, eighty yuan, and this...can you take care of them?"
A box wrapped in black cloth was handed to Lin Qin's hand. Lin Qin opened it and saw that there were obviously traces of the P picture, which was much more handsome than the real Ermao. This child is also really capable of making trouble. The picture is no one.
But it’s okay to be happy.... Even if the posthumous photo is put on an explosive head, just happy.
"It's fun to watch. Do you play games? I turned off the computer if I didn't."
"Playing meeting...playing meeting..."
The kid smiled and sat in front of the computer. Lin Qin smiled and shook his head, pushing the door to go to the toilet. Recently, he began to have blood in his stool and his condition was developing in a more and more serious direction, but he still believed that he could survive. The mentality is very optimistic.
After peeing, he didn't lift his pants, and suddenly he was taken aback, then put his pants on quickly, and nodded to the person in front of him.
He has never seen this person before. It is estimated that he just came today. As for why Lin Qin would be stunned, because this woman is very beautiful and has a very good figure. Who can see such a beautiful woman in this place? Will be stunned.
She glanced at Lin Qin and nodded in response to Lin Qin. Then she twisted the key hard, but couldn't open the door. She was a little bit distressed for a while. She lifted the long hair on her forehead. Maybe it's because there are too many bald heads around her. He started to pay attention to the hair of the people around him. This woman's hair was real.
"Let me help you."
Coincidentally, she lived in Mrs. Shen's room. Lin Qin knew what was going on with the door. He pulled the doorknob hard, then turned the key, kicked the door, and the door was opened.
"Thank you......"
"It's okay. I live here. I'm all a family. My name is Lin Qin and I live at 217. Call me if I have something to do."
Do you think Lin Qin is not good at it now? Obviously not, Jiangshan is easy to change, and his nature is hard to change. Even if his hobby of sleeping girls is terminally ill, he still cannot change it.
In addition, he is skinny and unhealthy, and his face is very unhealthy, but he is handsome or handsome, and the cleansing is considered clean, and the girl can't hate it.
She nodded and responded politely: "My name is Shen Mengxi, I am glad to meet you."
"See you later, see you later."
The sun was good today, and the weather was neither cold nor hot. Lin Qin planned to bask in the sun and went downstairs to sit at the door and play chess with Old Man Wang.
"Hey? Lord, the woman who just lived in today...what's wrong?"
With a chess piece in his hand, Lao Wang took out one from the middle and placed it on top, making a popping sound, flicking the ashes of the old man's cigarette, and gave Lin Qin a happy voice.
"Stomach cancer is relatively mild at the moment, and it's also a sinful disease. I said you are going to die. Do you still think about women? If you cure the disease, what do you want to do in the future? Besides, people are dead. Married, you can’t do that."
"Heh, married? Where's her husband? It's really interesting. She has a husband and she can live here? Her husband let her come by herself without showing up? Really funny, after becoming a regular visitor in the hospital, what kind of people have you met? She is unlucky for such damage to the seed."
"You still see the truth in life when you see a doctor? We understand this truth, but you can't do this when she gets married. This is a matter of human character."
"Forget it, you, when I was not sick, I saw a lot of disharmony in the lives of husbands and wives, and women came out to drink and play. In this era, the marriage contract between husband and wife can't be restricted at all."
"Then you can't think too much about other people's wives..."
"Hey! Lord, don't blame me. I have never slept with other people's wives. I am afraid that my husband will come and be hacked to death. I am timid and cherish my life... Brother Zhou, what's the matter?"
After having a sense of belonging, he also became more cheerful and unruly again, as if he was not ill. When he was talking about the mountains with Old Wang, but when he saw Mrs. Shen died, he said to Old Zhao. Lao Zhou, who died first and who was father, came over.
"Prince, Brother Zhao...no, he said he has to go tonight, so he asked me to give you money and send him back to He Nan's hometown. The fare is two thousand yuan, one hundred. Ming paper vegetable money, two hundred thank you money, two hundred money for kissing...He asked me to tell you that he has no money, and he didn't invite you to eat well when he died, right. .... I'm sorry you guys."
Lao Wangtou took Lao Zhou's money, spit out the cigarette, threw the cigarette on the ground and stamped it out, and the chess piece was thrown on the board.
"Then I will go first."
Lin Qin also stood up in silence and helped to stack up the ingots, and another family member was about to leave, so he could spend more time on the road.
The last time Mrs. Shen left suddenly, she was still sane yesterday, and when she was given food the next morning, she found that she was cold.
This time Lao Zhao had a hunch that he was going to die tonight, so everyone wanted to accompany him and give him the last ride.
"Lao Zhao, this time you are a dad. It's okay. You are twelve years older than me, and you are a little bit older. If you call you dad, you won't suffer. You say... you are a bastard. It’s only a few days now."
Lao Zhou and Lao Zhao were originally patients in the same ward. The two went to the Ping An Hotel together. The relationship can be said to be very deep. How could they not feel sad to see him like this.
"Um...... Um......"
Old Zhao couldn't say a word anymore, so he could only lie sideways on the bed and hum. Everyone waited at the door who could still get up and watched. Hearing the two of them joking, they laughed with tears, and then agreed.
"Put on clothes..."
At 8 o'clock in the evening, Lao Zhao, who could only hum, uttered these words clearly. Everyone had accepted this fact. Lao Zhou got up and took out the shroud from the cabinet and put it on quietly.
Under the dim light, a person who can't open his eyes sits up and asks others to put on him a shroud. This kind of scene is really oozing, especially for newcomers.
Shen Mengxi naturally stood with Lin Qin who he still knew. Some did not dare to look inside, and grabbed Lin Qin's clothes in fear.
"Yes, fasten the filial piety belt."
"Huh? I...I won't, I haven't tied this thing."
"Come over, I'll tie it to you."
She put on the white cloth ignorantly, Lin Qin looked inside again, Lao Zhao had already put on the shroud and was supported on the bed, and his half-open eyes began to close...
"Those who belong to the cattle genus and the dog turn over! Except for Lao Zhou, those who are thirty years old and down come in."
Lin Qin pulled Shen Mengxi with a frightened face, and Er Mao followed behind him. There were only three of them who were thirty years old and down. The moment the sorrow and joy rang out, the cry came out.
"You won! You are my dad! My son kowtowed to you! The Great Western Road! Go all the way!"
"Zhao Fenghai! People from Zhoukou, Henan Province! Passed away on September 29, 2016! He was forty-four years old! The fare paid to me was two thousand yuan before he was alive! One hundred yuan for wine and vegetables! Two hundred yuan for relatives and friends! Two hundred yuan for acquaintances! A total of two thousand five hundred yuan! It will be spent on Zhao Fenghai! Don't dare to hide it! The dead return home, and the wild ghosts on the roadside must not interfere! Otherwise, you will break the yin virtue and harm your family. I have nothing to do with Wang Shucai! Knocking off your head! See Zhao Fenghai off!"
Lao Zhao was on the road much earlier than Mrs. Shen. After half an hour, the driver arrived. Everyone sent Lao Zhao to the car. After tossing for so long and suffering such a serious crime, he can now go home. .
The beginning of a relationship must be caused by one party coveting the other party's body. If two people have no desire for each other, there is no beginning at all.
Lin Qin is like this, he has already sensed Shen Mengxi’s fear, but because she is a gastric cancer patient, Lin Qin dare not give her food, verbal comfort... This kind of thing using verbal comfort can be a ghost. Up.
But in the end she cried out of fear, and she was only twenty-five years old anyway. Today, seeing Lao Zhao pass away and think about her condition again, can she be afraid?
The newcomers are afraid that it’s normal. Lin Qin’s performance is abnormal, and Shen Mengxi’s behavior is normal, because the old Zhao’s popularity is good, and it’s also because Shen Mengxi cried too sadly. The room rests.
Lying on the bed and brushing the group of leukemia patients, Lin Qin in this group has never seen anyone in this group. Everyone’s greetings are different from ordinary groups. Ordinary people say "morning" in the group. When people chat in the morning, they are talking...
"I am still alive."
There are already more than 500 people in the group, and hundreds of people who used to talk about tuberculosis have become "diving monsters", and even the group owners have changed three. The vice president of Imatinib comes up again. Look He glanced at Ermao, who was still playing games, and beckoned him to go back to rest quickly, and soon he fell asleep.
Later, Shen Mengxi got close to Lin Qin and Ermao, because the three of them were under 30 years old, they were still able to talk, especially with Lin Qin, they were only two years old, and there was basically no generation gap.
Often the three of them would come to Lin Qin’s house to fight the landlord, or watch the gun version of the movie downloaded by IFI at Ceng Hospital, and even Lin Qin and her chemotherapy time were scheduled together, and the two of them had chemotherapy together, and were hospitalized together. Hair loss, vomiting together, with this company, the difficult chemotherapy process is also much easier.
Looking at each other's bald heads, they will laugh at each other. The two of them have no hair. The man is actually not too handsome, and the woman is not too beautiful.
Only when he was discharged from the hospital... Another resident died. Lin Qin was very sorry that he didn't see her for the last time.
until.......
"One four, I'm finished."
"Er Mao, you care about him. He can't get out if you put up a seven. This is a very good card for me. If you put up a little, I will definitely be able to get out... Er Mao? What's wrong with you? not comfortable?"
Ermao and Shen Mengxi have a very good relationship. After all, women's hearts are soft. They have maternal love for this eighteen-year-old boy. Seeing that his face is particularly ugly, his heart suddenly hangs.
"I'm uncomfortable...I...vomit!"
As soon as Ermao turned over, he began to vomit. Lin Qin and Shen Mengxi hurriedly got up, and when they saw that he was vomiting a lot of blood on the ground, they immediately panicked.
"Go to the hospital! Hurry up!! There's anyone able to move!!! Ermao is ill!!"
A group of people rushed Ermao to the hospital. This group of people who had turned bald during chemotherapy naturally attracted the attention of many people. Also, because everyone’s health was not good, Lin Qin asked them to go back first, leaving only Shen Mengxi, who was reluctant to leave, waited with him before the operation.
On the way from sending Ermao to the hospital, Shen Mengxi kept crying, and she couldn't finish her tears. Lin Qin sat on the chair, also sinking like water.
He had anticipated this day, which was much earlier than expected. Ermao, a child who is unwilling to drag his parents to sneak out of the house, has any money to treat his illness!
"Where are the family members of Mao Shengjun?"
"Here! Doctor, how is he doing?"
"you are......."
"Am I his brother~EbookFREE.me~ an immediate family member?"
Lin Qin was stunned, and her clenched hand dropped weakly, and had to tell a lie that was not a lie: "He has no parents and grew up with me."
"For the advanced stage of rectal cancer, treat it conservatively. I don't recommend continuing surgery. Without the signature of your immediate family members, your signature will have no legal effect."
The translation of this sentence is, stop the operation, it is easy to die on the operating table after the operation, Shen Mengxi and Lin Qin both understood it, and their faces began to turn pale.
Lin Qin grinned and wanted to say something not to give up treating Ermao, but in the end, he just nodded.
"I see, thank you doctor."
"......"
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