Chapter 33:

"I" are afraid of support? Not afraid of him, what is that? Yes, I'm afraid of him, but it's not all. If you want to be clear, this is not even Cobb's emotions.
"Cobb," the icy cold wrapped around Cobb's name, he slowly said, "Do you want me to hurt?" It was just a simple question, and the tingling in Cobb's heart couldn't stop spreading. Cobb's eyes made Cobb panic and watched him turn and leave. He wanted to keep the support, so urgent and needed. I ca n’t let down my self-esteem to pray for him to stay, but in a cruel way, he wants to anger the manager, he wants the manager to see himself, and wants him to stay with him: "You go, go, why do you think I am Will I come out to chase you, just to fight with you? If you can, even if it ’s just gentle, what are you angry with? It ’s me who should be angry. I gave you the cake kindly but was pushed to the ground and came out to chase you. I was ridiculed by you, saying that you were yelled at just two sentences, should you deserve to be mean? What do you think? At least, at least Xia Gazzo will praise me for being cute and gentle. Give me the cake and he will tell me what is in my heart. It makes me very happy. He is so kind. "What he was talking about in his mouth, even Cobb's own ears could not be heard. He hoped that Zhili would come over and hold his own. The collar punched himself fiercely, telling himself that things were not what he said, so he hoped to refute himself.
Zhili stopped and didn't look back, just stopped, the sound rushed over like sulfuric acid, and he was full of corrosive wounds: "Since he is so good, do you want to try with him?" This time, I really left.
Hey, you won, you won again. If you want to use cruel words to force you, you will get even more cruel words. This is the result that Cobb can't bear. The pain, which should have been this feeling, has turned into a real shape, tearing and roaring and breaking in the body.
怎么 How did things develop into such a result, and how long haven't they argued with the manager? This is a kind of uncomfortable feeling that you can't get used to. Coordination exists so naturally in his life. Cobb did not even imagine for a second that without council. If there is no council in this world, Cobb will not be Cobb.
It was Ming who had made a mistake first, and what he deserved was his apology. But Cobb didn't wait for anything. There was no discourse between the two. Except for attending classes, they didn't even intersect. Zhili ignored his existence, ignored his waiting, and ignored his pain. It's so easy to hurt yourself, it's your responsibility!
The base is one more and one more. The atmosphere is changing. Although everyone smiles on the surface, Cobb always feels that the atmosphere is very depressing. Cobb sat in the seat of the manager and looked out of the window. Was that guy watching these paintings every day? Xia Jiazuo sat next to Cobb: "What are you thinking?"
"It's nothing?"
"Have an argument with Zhili."
Cobb didn't say a word, Xia Jiazuo continued to say, "Cobb, how do you think I am more than a manager?" Cobb shook his head and answered honestly, "I don't know."

32. Pain!
Xia Jiazuo was somewhat happy: "I wonder who is better with me?"
"No, I haven't compared it. Isn't it weird to compare your favorite person to an outsider? Who should you compare with him? There is only one favorite person." Cobb said his feelings, Let Xia Jia Zuozhuo: "I'm not a good person in your eyes?"
"Maybe." Cobb slowly turned his face and looked at Xia Jiazuo: "But did I say I like good people?" After he said, he stood up, and Xia Jiazuo also stood up, not in a hurry. Continue to ask this topic: "Are you back to the classroom?"
"Yep."
"Let's go, I just happened to be in your squad leader." Cobb nodded. He didn't want to talk too much. He always felt a waste of energy. Cobb thought that he wasn't a person who would wrestle without reason, but a glass ball didn't know. Where did I come from? When I was about to arrive in the classroom, when Yu Guang saw Zhili and a girl standing outside the classroom door, his body's center of gravity was unstable, and he was pinched by Xia Jia. Cobb did not panic, but just looked at Zhi Li, the girl seemed to hand a ticket-like thing, and then blushed and said, "Please come, thank you." After running away.
"Ke, Cobb, are you okay? Your face is ugly?" Xia Jiazuo's voice evoked Cobb's eyes. He stood firm and ridiculous. He simply pushed himself to others just to be beautiful. Girl go out straight?
"Oops, the story just made Zhili see it, Zhili, that's not what you think ..."
"This is not something that needs to be explained." Cobb stopped Xia Jiazuo, so he didn't care if he fell down or whether he was supported by others. Sure enough, Zhili didn't seem to be interested. He walked into the classroom with a ticket in his hand. Xia Jia left to catch up and was stopped by Cobb. Cobb bit his lip and shouted, "I don't see you Chased, so as not to be punched again for no reason. "Zhili's gaze turned to Cobb, shocking. Cobb couldn't dodge, returned to his seat, and buried his head on the table.
I hate, hate things like love, that too many emotions have nowhere to go. Obviously, in the past, I could ridicule things just now. The bitter and sour feeling is a sequela of love. All have the urge to manage, hate love, hate those who are insincere, hate themselves too much, and want to let the manager taste the pain, hate the lie, obviously love, love, love the temperature of the manager, like His personality, like his face, like his evil, like the incredible. Branch, my branch, my dear branch.
You so smart, can't you see? I like your emotion.
I wonder when Cobb fell asleep on the table. Wake him up at the end of the class bell. There is no class this afternoon. Cobb slowly packed his things and left. The book in his hand was knocked off by a male student who was rushing outwards. Cobb shouted, "Why? Ah. "The male student apologized hurriedly. Cobb only knew how to pick up the book, no one paid attention, buried his head and couldn't see his face, and muttered to himself:" Why, what is this? " There, in the end, I left, and there was no sound in the class. Cobb just crouched on the ground, said nothing, held the book in his arms, neither stood up, nor left.
怎么 "What? Cry?" Zhili's voice had no emotion.
Cobb raised his head and frowned. "Don't dream anymore, who do you think you are and I will cry for you? I won't cry for you!" Cobb threw the book to the manager, the book When he fell on Zhili's body, he scattered it all over again. Zhili frowned: "Are you enough?"
This impatient tone made Cobb think who had taken the air out and even had trouble breathing. Did he just make trouble in his eyes, Cobb smiled and picked up the book and held it in his arms: " Enough trouble, I'm so tired alone. "He was about to leave, grabbed the wrist by the manager, Cobb wanted to shake away but felt only pain from the wrist:" Let ’s go, I still have something to do. "
"What can you do?"
"Don't you try to follow Xia Jiazuo as you said?" Cobb's words in exchange for stronger force, Cobb was pressed against the wall, saw the angry branch, the branch's face was close to Cobb's Face, breathing spread out on Cobb's face: "It seems you really want to make me angry."
"Then you really lift me up, do I have that ability? Do I have the patience? I'm not a casual person in your eyes."
"Am I the one who casually compares with other men in my eyes?"
"Who would say that, let me try with Xia Jiazuo, so I can just give it to others? I am the one you like, am I still? I am not? You just leave me in this way There, let me try it with others, what do you think of my feelings, you should not treat me like this, I am sad, I am unhappy, I am angry, I hate you, support, I hate, then Easily say, I'm not willing, I don't even have the courage to see you with other girls, and you ... "Cobb pushed the support with one hand and pushed desperately.
"Can you just say that? Cobb, you can only brag about other men, only you can hug with other men there, you can't do it! Cobb, it's painful together." The lower lip, the pain from the mouth to the heart, Cobb's face pale and trembling, let go of Cobb closer to his ears, and whispered softly: "Cobb, be afraid of me, be afraid of me, be afraid of Don't dare leave me. "
Yes, the most important thing that made Zhili unable to calm down, he found that Cobb was afraid of him, and the moment he avoided his outstretched hand, Zhili heard a certain collapse in his heart. After staying with him for so many years, what is ridiculous is that in the end, what he returned was his fear of himself, like those in his childhood, those in the country, and others, looking at himself with that kind of fear.
The phone rang in the bag, and the manager looked at the caller ID to answer the call.
喂 "Hey, um, let's go. Do you have to go? I see."
吗 Is that girl just now? The two have already exchanged mobile numbers? The pain in Cobb's chest was so severe that he escaped, far away from the branch, he didn't want to listen, he didn't want to listen at all, why should he let him hear. He hated quarrels so much, how many times, he was alone in the room listening to the screams and slams from the parents outside, Cobb wanted to scream, you shut up for me, let ’s go, just go if you do n’t like it, go Out of my world, out of my home. But this time, he was in a quarrel. Who should he shut up this time, and where should he go? This world is divided into only two types, branched and lonely.
Hold this tangled thread, bind you, bind me, I will tighten you when I move, you will entangle me when you move. In the end, it will always become a dead knot, unable to break free, cannot go backwards, cannot go forward, and die in place. pain! It hurts!

33. Recollection 2: Your Existence
Cobb rubbed the test papers into a drawer, lay them on the table, his legs were shaking, it was so cold, why the ghost weather was so cold, I knew I would wear more. Cobb tilted his head out of the window, the leaves were scattered by the cold wind, the gray sky, the dark teaching building, it seemed that the whole world was shaking because of the cold, and turned gray. The two teaching buildings are connected by an overpass. Cobb's position is just to see the classroom and roof of the opposite teaching building. On the roof stands a boy whose hair is slightly blown by the wind. , The light blue jacket is so bright, looks better than the sky, and becomes the only color in Cobb's eyes. A girl stood opposite the boy, and the girl soon left. Cobb stood up and stretched.
"Cobb, where are you going?"
"Go around."