Chapter 69: Extra

I didn't know if the risk was worth it until I got into the Chen Palace smoothly.
Freedom is behind, and a step back is a brighter world. But on the way to escape from Zhao Country, I accidentally heard about Su Yu, and thought that the stagnant water was in a faint heart, and once again felt uneasy.
My self-esteem makes me unable to admit that I came to Wucheng all the way to see him again, but hiding in a corner of the rockery, when he finally appeared in his eyes, he was walking slowly among the flowers, but a heart beat fiercely unconvincingly.
As the warm day melted, I saw his figure in black uniforms slightly staggered, revealing a section of water-red sleeves, and the girl’s childish voice sounded: "What a pity these flowers fall on the ground, otherwise I will clean up and I will make them for you. Dry flower pillows."
He tilted his head to look at her: "Oh? You still embroider pillows?"
The girl raised her head unconvincedly: "I know a lot! Xiaoyi said that I can do a great job! Only you will think I can't do anything!"
He smiled and said, "The capable Mrs. Su, tell me what to do with the dried flower pillow?"
The girl in the water-red dress lowered her head short of breath: "Just, just get the pillow ready, I just stuff the dried flowers in..."
He laughed out loud: "Oh, that's really capable."
The girl was annoyed not to begin, and said bitterly, "I'll add arsenic to your lotus soup later."
He lifted his hand to a beaded hairpin on her temple: "Are you willing?"
I can clearly feel the faint pain in my heart, enlarged bit by bit, like being bitten by a beast. I like Sue, I knew about it long before the knife stabbed him.
To this day, I don’t understand how I really succeeded. Perhaps I was so agile at that time, I just wanted to prove that I was a perfect assassin who would not be influenced by feelings.
And I really stabbed him, all he expected. A person like Su Yu is handsome, smart, and elegant, and few people can resist it. If he wants to lie to you, he can really do what you want to be so impeccable, so that you will be lost forever, so terrible, but Also addictive.
I remember when he was recuperating from his injuries in the small town near Bishan, he was half-wake and asleep with a purple smoke. Many times I feel that it is the purple smoke that makes it impossible for me to get out of this evil fate in this life.
But later I realized that it was because I was peeking out the window, and even that sound was a calculation. After assassinating him for a long time, I thought he really fell in love with me. Otherwise, how could the son of a nation be assassinated so silently? That should be a connivance to me.
But it wasn't until the girl named Jun Fu beside him was that he finally realized that he didn't do anything to me, but it was not yet the time he thought was right. In this game, he played more than anyone imagined. We didn't understand it before, and when we understood it, there was no resistance. And to him, I am nothing more than a chess piece from beginning to end.
I know that since ancient times, many kings have had the hardships of getting things done, and the throne is invincible. In fact, they also have times when they are bored with this lonely life. It is also a kind of self-injury to call themselves widowed.
These cognitions were only before I met Su Yu. If there is a person in this world who is naturally suitable for that position, that person should be him, enough iron and blood, cold enough, and patient enough.
I don't believe that someone like Su Yu will truly fall in love with someone. That day, he didn't hesitate to leave Jun Fu who jumped into the cave to rescue me. I told myself from the bottom of my heart that he was just acting. I accidentally learned that Jun Fu was pregnant with Hua Xuyin's secret technique, and I was relieved, thinking with satisfaction that he was indeed acting. Even maliciously guessed that he was actually following her all the way for Hua Xu, who had disappeared for so many years?
But if everything is as I wish, what is the point to me? After all, he didn't care about me. Even if he didn't care about other people as well, there was no opportunity to change between me and him. So what am I being complacent about, and what am I happy about?
I know what I should do, but what is painful is that this hopeless sinful thought cannot be removed no matter how restrained.
On the night I escaped from Zhao, I vowed that I would never get involved with Su Yu again in this life. This man only regards me as a in hand, if it is what he says, then what am I?
Besides, he didn't seem to say anything to me since the reunion. I can't ruin myself because of him.
Who would have thought of making such a determination so hard, yet fragile to a ridiculously fragile position, so vulnerable.
Since Zhao Guo was on the way to escape, I heard that he prayed for the new queen and issued three amnesties in a row in one month. The mood of being suppressed was like a hungry tiger, crazy at the moment when he did not know what to do. Counterattack. The so-called emotion is the most terrifying monster in the world. You think you have completely killed it, but in fact it only dormant for a while.
Once again, I didn't control my steps, and went around to Haocheng.
What do i want? Do you want to see him? Want to see his new queen? In the final analysis, am I just not reconciled?
What will be the woman he chooses? Is Fanghua peerless? Is it so charming?
I thought about it a hundred times.
But in this hundred times, the possibility of correctness never appeared. Maybe I never believed that the right person should be right, Jun Fu, the woman he married as queen was actually Jun Fu.
Anger rose up at the moment she saw her eyes. Obviously, it is clear that we all have something he wants to use, why is it only me who is completely used? If he can choose her, why can't he choose me?
She does have the face of an allure, but besides her looks, what else does she have for that charming little girl! Nails hurt the palms of my hands. I hid in the dark, a hatred overflowing unscrupulously from the bottom of my heart, soaking in my throat and in my eyes.
I want to kill her.
Although it was only a momentary awakening, it seemed like someone had used a witchcraft, and it was stuck in the brain bit by bit and couldn't be driven away. It was like a raging fire, scorching the whole person out of reason.
Su Yu didn't stay with him for long. I recognized the maid who followed a man in white to accompany her, who was one of Su Yu's most trusted four shadow guards-Zhi Su. Three hundred shadow guards set up four envoys, only this one was a female envoy, and only this one lived in the light.
Even if I want to kill her, I should be cautious now. Jun Fu called the white man Jun Wei. Unless there are family members, there should be no strangers in the harem. Su Yu has only Jun Fu in the harem, so it seems that that person is probably her brother.
I leaned closer without being noticed by them.
Jun Fu held a bag of fish food in his hand, his face was pale, as in the rumored look of bad complexion, but his eyebrows were curved.
I don’t know what they were talking about before, but when I could hear it clearly, she was leaning on the beauty and said proudly: "I used to be very strange. The actors on the stage can cry all at once when they cry. Recently, please An actress who is very good at acting came to relieve my boredom, so I tried hard to learn that method from them, and found it not difficult at all."
The white-clothed man named Jun Wei took the fish food from her: "You don't sing, what's the use of learning that?"
She looked more proud, and the tone at the end of the line was picked up: "As long as I cry, Mu Yan will have nothing to do. After that, he will listen to me no matter what I say, and you know how he usually bullies me. Well, this time finally..."
The fingertips tightened unconsciously, and a pain came from the palm. The pitiful scheming of a despised little woman who thinks that a man can be chained with tears.
Jun Wei frowned and interrupted her: "Because he is worried about you, he can't do anything about you, he is worried about you, don't you like him? If you like someone, you should try to make him feel at ease instead of worrying him."
For a long time, without hearing any voices, Zhi Su said: "You Lord, you..."
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The unfinished words were interrupted by Jun Fu Rourou's raised wrist.
Although he was accused, there was a bright smile on his face that I had never seen before, with a bit of unworldly innocence, not so beautiful as to be true.
She spoke quietly and said incomprehensible words: "Every time he knows that I am pretending to cry, and he is happy to pretend to be with me. For him, I also know that if I make him angry, it means I am energetic. He I can rest assured that if one day I don’t even have the interest to make him angry, that’s what makes him worry. However, I am really happy to see him relying on me in everything."
There were so few moments, I was stunned in place, the last two words lingering in my ear repeatedly. "I can make him angry, so he can rest assured." Those things didn't seem to be what I thought, is it the so-called little woman's scheming? But the logic of going around like this, Su Yu really thinks so? Is what she said is true? But if it was true, how did she know?
The person Jun Fu outlined in a few words is a complete stranger, and one can't help but wonder whether all of my thoughts about Su Yu hidden in my heart are all fake.
Jun Wei sat for a while and left, and Su Yu went and returned only half an hour later. I don't know the meaning of hiding like this. I had a knot in my mind when I came, and the matter is still unresolved.
The moved the booklet of the courtier's memorial to the pavilion, and Su Yu accompanied Jun Fu to feed the fish for a while, and then opened the booklet with the ink developed by the eunuch. Zhi Su picked up the medicine pot and brought a bowl of medicinal soup, and placed it on the stone table. Jun flicked and picked up the medicine.
Thousands of emotions surged in my heart, like a fierce horse galloping in the Gobi, stirring up wind and sand in the sky. If it is wise, I should leave immediately. How neatly stabbed Su Yu at that time, and now I can't get him, even if it is let go alone, at least it must be free and unrestrained. Procrastination will only be annoying.
I understand all of these.
But there is no way, I can't help but wonder how he gets along with her, what is good about her, it is worthy of him to look at him differently, and if she makes a charming seduction to him, whether he has always moved forward and retreated well will eventually get confused. , Like all other men who are deceived by love? I also want to know what step he will do for her.
But in the pavilion, there is a peaceful silence. If you get close enough, you can definitely hear the brush strokes over the origami.
Jun Fu frowned and stared at the porcelain bowl in his hand. For a while, he moved to the pavilion with the medicine, and carefully placed the bowl on the wooden fence near the water.
Su Yu lowered his head while reviewing the booklet and said, "What are you doing?"
She shook her shoulder: "...It's too hot, let it cool down for a while."
He was noncommittal and continued to review the copy of the case. Zhisu brought the tea in, and was called by him to order how to classify the annotated books. Next to the wooden fence, Jun Fu kept his eyes fixed and stared at the brown medicinal soup in the bowl. For a long time, suddenly he stretched out his hand to serve the bowl very quickly, carefully. Pour the decoction into the water as much as possible.
The slight voice of conversation stopped suddenly, and he said in a deep voice, "Where is the medicine?"
She held the bowl and turned her head: "...It's finished."
He put down his pen: "What was the sound just now?"
The panic was fleeting, she turned her face away: "The sound of throwing fish food, I spilled all the fish food."
He stood up and looked at the lake calmly: "...The water is blackened by medicine."
The trick was broken, and she reluctantly murmured: "...why do I have to force me to drink medicine? Although it was made by the occultist, you also know that my body can't be conditioned by these things, it ...No more."
He frowned: "You are not afraid of hardship, why every time..."
But she interrupted: "But I have a lot of imagination. Even if I drink it, I won’t feel bitter, but it feels bad. Just like you know that big caterpillars don’t bite, and it’s not going to be good if you eat it. I'll make a plate for you, and you won't eat it, right?"
Zhi Su had already poured another bowl of the medicine pot on the stone case, and he raised his hand to take it. She tightened her brows, turned her face away, and leaned back even more, but he picked up the bowl and drank half of it.
When the remaining medicine was brought to her lips, she opened her mouth blankly, her eyes opened wide and drank half a bowl of medicine, she could see that her expression was very dazed. He stretched out his hand to help her clean the drug stains on her lips: "Is it better if someone drinks with you?"
She finally reacted, glanced at him quickly, coughed and lowered her head: "Slightly, slightly better."
He looked at her calmly: "Next time I dare to make trouble, I will feed it to you myself."
Her face was slightly red, and she couldn't hear what she was saying. The shape of her lips was: "What's so great, I'll show you something wrong next time."
He laughed: "Then add another caterpillar to make a drug guide, OK?"
I thought those soft feelings had frozen into ice flocs and shattered when they knew that they were just a chess piece in his hand. But watching him smile like that to Jun Fu, with his hand on her forehead, the kind of genuine tenderness made people feel a huge sadness.
This is Su Yu who I don't know.
The cherished Su Yu, who has always been unintentional, has never been merciless, seems to have added to your eyes, but has always grasped the right distance. At that time, he thought it was the authority of a high-ranking person. Now he wants to come because it is acting. stop? Of course, acting is a matter of course, every step is calculation, in fact, there is no real heart.
It turns out that he can laugh like that, even his eyes are happy; he can also be so diligent, as if she is the biggest thing in the world.
I stayed alone for a long time behind a bunch of huge flowers and trees that I didn't know, I seemed to think about a lot of things, but I didn't seem to think about anything.
When he heard the obvious sound and instinctively avoided the icy sword's front, he looked up and saw the face of Zhi Su, the sword tip was staggered by two feet. She stopped and said indifferently: "If your majesty hadn't prayed for his wife, and had stopped killing these days, Ms. Qin would like to know how many times she has died?"
I shook my head tiredly: "So, he found me early?"
She didn't answer, she just looked at me up and down: "The girl stabbed your Majesty that day. Your Majesty is kind and will no longer be held accountable. But Chen Gong is no longer a place where the girl can go. Please come back."
I really hope that Su Yu let me go because of his benevolence, and because of this, I can still hope that he will have a hard time with me, even if only half a point. But he and I were both cleared, only because when Chen Guohui was in alliance with Zhao Guo, I proved that Jiang Guo was the mastermind.
In fact, what's the point of not giving up or reconciling until now?
In this life, I did not think of two things, both of which are about Su Yu.
I didn't expect that after being around a man for so long, I didn't even see his real appearance.
I didn't expect that I was going to lie to a man, but in the end he was completely deceived.
Maybe one day, I will forget him, whether it is love or hate. At that time, maybe I can find someone who cherishes me in my heart. I want to find someone like that. In that case, you can definitely live a simple and happy life.
Take a last look at this majestic Chen Palace, which is full of brilliance under the setting sun, not a sight. Farewell, Wucheng. Farewell, Su Yu.
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