Chapter 58: Dead wife

Gu Chengyao didn't know what was wrong, and suddenly on this quiet winter night, he remembered his wife Gao Xilai.
Gao Xi passed away in December last year, which was also a snowy winter day. As soon as Gu Chengyao returned from outside, he was told that the concubine had gone.
What was his mood at that time? He can't remember, but he was shocked. He was prejudiced against Gao Xi because of Yupei's affairs, and later he didn't like her domineering character, so he didn't want to go back to see her. It wasn't until Gao Xi passed away on that heavy snow day that Gu Chengyao knew that Gao Xi's illness had already become so serious.
Prior to this, he always thought that this was just a coercion method by the inner house women.
Gu Chengyao learned that Gao Xi's news had passed through Bu's mother and Yunhui. He heard the most all day long. Probably, the concubine of the world bullied others and bullied the old servants of the mansion by his family background. Of course, a gentleman should pity the poor and cherish the weak. It is difficult for Gu Chengyao to have a good impression of his wife. Later, Gao Xi's news gradually disappeared. He began to think that Gao Xi realized that his tricks were useless. He knew that his tricks were useless and converged. It was a long time before he knew that Gao Xi had stopped the news and prevented people from passing it forward. However, Gu Chengyao never expected that he heard the news of Gao Xi again, it turned out to be the news of Gao Xi's death.
He was standing in the hall at the time, and white snowflakes kept falling from the patio onto his shoulders. Gu Chengyao stood in the wind for a while before slowly remembering that before he went out today, it seemed that there was indeed a maid who came over and asked him to see Seeing Concubine Shizi, he was anxious to go out at the time, and disliked Gao Xi's use of this trick to lead him back, so he didn't take it seriously and sent him away. It turned out that it was the last time he and Gao Xi met, but he still didn't go back.
Gu Chengyao finally went to the backyard to visit his concubine. Gao Xi's house was as quiet and orderly as before, and it was completely impossible to see that the heroine was gone. Gao Xi is extremely strict with his subordinates. Gu Chengyao has always felt that it is very bad for Gao Xi to punish him at every turn. But at that moment he stood in the house where Gao Xi was alive and saw the subordinates even with red eyes, no one dared to make noise. Although it was messy but not chaotic, Gu Chengyao was surprised that Gao Xi's prestige among the servants was so strong that even if she died, no one would dare to violate her rules before her death.
This is still the situation where Gao Xi was not favored and was seriously ill in bed for a year.
The maids who came and went when they saw him, all bowed their heads to avoid him, as if there was no one in the house. Some of the maids were probably Gao Xi's close attendants. When they saw Gu Chengyao, their faces were uneasy, and they were immediately taken by the people next to them.
Gu Chengyao felt that he should go to see Gao Xi for the last time. Those maids were very reluctant. One maid even said: "The concubine did not see the son come when he was very sick. Now the concubine's mind is gone. On the contrary, why is this? The concubine of the eldest son walks quietly alone, why should the elder son disturb her death?"
The maid dressed in silk was choked by someone next to her before she could finish her words. She could only reluctantly shut her mouth and bowed her head angrily. Gu Chengyao has been loved since he was a child, when was he hit by someone like this? Since learning of Gao Xi's death, the suffocation that has been lingering in his heart has been diminished a lot. Gu Chengyao wanted to turn around and leave directly. Who are these maids who dare to agitate him? But Gu Chengyao didn't do it at all. He let his pro-family pull away the white cloth, and after life and death, he saw Gao Xi for the last time.
Gao Xi was born so strong, even at this time, she cleaned herself up, showing no signs of weakness and sickness. Instead, she painted delicately and vividly, as if she was just asleep. Gu Chengyao only glanced at it, before letting people put down the white cloth and turned around and went out.
The impact left to him by this last side was far greater than Gu Chengyao's own imagination, and even greater than Gao Xi's imagination.
Since then, Gu Chengyao has deliberately avoided Gao Xi's death. His father-in-law in Gao Xi's hall, that is, Gao Xi's father, the British son, carefully proposed to remarry. Gu Chengyao agreed without thinking about it. He thinks he will need a wife soon, as long as there is someone in this position, Gao Xi's figure will soon fade. In fact, he didn't know which sister of Gao Xi was on that day, but later learned that it was Gao Xi's sister, Gao Ran.
As everyone knows, Gao Xi passed away and Gao Ran remarried. Gu Chengyao told himself that this was very good, all the mistakes were restored, and everyone was happy. That was enough. After Gao Ran got married, Gu Chengyao tried his best to be nice to Gao Ran out of a compensatory mentality that he didn't even know. Everyone felt that this was because Gao Ran pleased his son, and Gu Chengyao almost felt the same way. But on this cold and snowy night, Gu Chengyao heard the same wind as that day and realized that maybe it wasn't.
He is guilty, he is making up for someone who doesn't know.
When Gu Chengyao was very young, she often heard from her mother about her encounter with her father. Almost every day, as long as the Shen family has time, he must recall with Gu Chengyao about King Yan’s life-saving grace and love for her. In fact, the details of the story told by the Shen family often change, and Gu Chengyao doesn’t know which ones are true. Yes, what are Shen's conjectures. His mother likes to read tales very much. She can hardly extricate herself from the stories of talented men and beautiful women, heroes and beauties, and often can't distinguish between reality and falsehood. Although Gu Chengyao felt that his mother was not so good, she was his mother after all. Gu Chengyao immediately felt that it was really unfilial to think so.
At that time, there were only grandmother, mother and his three masters in the mansion. Grandma would sometimes take him over and teach him, but not long after he sat down, Shen followed him and stood on the side weepingly, with good eyes. Staring at him, as if Gu Chengyao would be abused. Of course, my grandmother was very upset. She couldn't read a few words, so she could only ask Shen to take her son back. After going back and forth several times, my grandmother rarely took care of Cheng Yao and passed by.
The influence of childhood is always silent and everywhere. When Gu Chengyao grew up, he recalled the past and felt that his mother did not do well that day. The grandmother, Princess Laoyan, was the daughter of the family of poetry and literature in Beijing. She taught Gu Chengyao on the history and scriptures for the sake of Gu Chengyao's good, but Gu Chengyao was still unconsciously influenced by the Shen family. He subconsciously felt that the love of his parents was invincible, that gifted scholars and beautiful women could cross the class divide, and King Yan and Shen were together because of the life-saving grace, so when the same thing happened to Gu Chengyao, he fell into one unconsciously. This kind of deliberate hint. He told himself that this was right, so he wanted to marry a woman who had never known her identity, looks, conduct, and family. Later, it was discovered that this was the eldest granddaughter of the British government, who was worthy of the family of King Yan. Gu Chengyao was overjoyed and became more convinced that he was right.
Just like those words with some mystery, this is the marriage relationship.
Gu Chengyao and his wife spent the first month of their wedding, only to suddenly learn that he had admitted the wrong person. In other words, his destined marriage was deliberately replaced.
This may be a story with some ups and downs. If it is Shen's character, seeing this kind of plot will inevitably cry for the poor heroine and resent the vicious sister who replaced the heroine. Gu Chengyao's impression of Gao Xi also plummeted. Later, Gao Xi died and he remarried Gao Ran. If life is really a drama, this would be the happy ending.
In the first month of Gao Xi's death, Gu Chengyao always felt buzzing in his ears. He arranged the wedding very quickly, even if he knew it would offend his father. When Gao Ran entered the door in February, the shadow of Gao Xi's existence was quickly erased, and Gu Chengyao felt better.
Everything is back on track, this is the direction of development, but it is a pity that his father did not come to participate in a very important day in his life. One day in early spring, the ice and snow melted, and the air filled with a unique sense of moisture. His father, who had been away from home for many years, finally returned home. Gu Chengyao personally greeted his father’s servants. When he entered the door, he suddenly saw a slender quiet under the vermilion corridor 'S silhouette stood facing him, and at the same time, he heard someone shouting: "Sister Xier."
Gu Chengyao's blood froze abruptly, and then he saw the woman slowly turning around, her icy muscles and bones, her eyebrows were exquisite only in his life, and her eyes flowed with coldness and indifference. Gu Chengyao didn't know whether he was relieved or disappointed. It turned out to be Lin Weixi, a woman he didn't know.
From then on, Lin Weixi, this woman seemed to be alive in his life suddenly, and in the end it was almost everywhere. When Gu Chengyao entered the door, he always followed her unconsciously. He watched her change from plain clothes like snow to high bun with colorful clothes. She became his stepmother, the princess of his father.
Gu Chengyao knew that he had done so, but he couldn't control the absurdity in his heart. Her every move, her words and deeds, even raising her eyebrows and glancing at her, all brought him an unparalleled sense of familiarity.
"The son? The son!"
Gu Chengyao's mind suddenly returned. He saw Yun Hui looking at him anxiously, with undisguised concern in his eyes.
Gu Chengyao suddenly thought that when Lin Weixi was with his father in private, would he have such a gentle time? In his impression, Gao Xi has always been exquisite and decent, gentle and considerate to his husband-in-law, hesitant and warm, almost nothing.
Yun Hui also found that Shi Zi seemed to be thinking of someone else. She was carefully dressed up like this, and she also deliberately changed into light-chested clothes, and put perfume on her body. However, Shi Zi was alone with her, so she would be distracted? Yunhui felt ashamed when she was discouraged. Who is it that can cause the elder son to worry so much?
Gu Chengyao really didn't think much about Yun Hui. He suddenly remembered the meeting when he and Gao Xi were newly married. Yun Hui broke into their new house at night. Gao Xi fluttered his eyes lightly and said Yun Hui in a few words. There is no place to show himself, and he can't look up. The next day Yunhui naturally came over and cried to Gu Chengyao. Gu Chengyao also felt that Gao Xi was too tough, not like an ideal gentle wife. Now Gao Ran is in line with the ethics of a wife advocated by scholar-officials in all aspects, and even Yunhui is so provocative that Gao Ran can bear it. His wife is reasonable and generous. This should be a good thing, but now Gu Chengyao is suddenly thinking, if it were Gao Xi, what would she do?
She will definitely block the entrance of the study room early, not only will Yun Hui faceless, but most of all Gu Chengyao will not be spared. Gu Chengyao smiled at the thought of this place, and after he finished laughing, a long-lost, needle-like pain suddenly surged in his heart.
Another year of heavy snowfall, Gao Xi has been dead for a year.
Yun Hui saw Shi Zi staring still, obviously thinking of someone, and finally smiled slightly. Although it is a laugh, it makes people feel pale and sad. Yun Hui was surprised, what happened? She was in a panic when she suddenly heard Shizi say: "I don't need you here, you can go out."
Yun Hui’s drifting mind was immediately pulled back. She was obviously very surprised: "Earth son?" She saw that Gu Chengyao did not loosen, and immediately became aggrieved: "Earth son, the sky is already so dark. If the servants and maids go back, I am afraid they will A lot of people are disturbed. Besides, you can't have no one who is waiting for you. If the son doesn't like it, the slave waits outside the door. If the son has any instructions to the slave and maid to come in again, it will never disturb the son."
Gu Chengyao thought that it was indeed not early in the sky. Yun Hui was the one who grew up with him. Gu Chengyao couldn’t bear to let Yunhui blow the cold wind outside the house, so he could only say: "Then you wait outside the cubicle, I need What will take it by yourself does not need you."
Although he was kicked out of the room where he was studying, but fortunately, he didn't have to go back. Although Yunhui was reluctant, she also whispered. At this time, the inner courtyard has been locked. If Yunhui goes back now, she will have to alarm the maid who takes care of the door and the key. When so many people are clamoring, Yunhui will come and wait on the son, but he will be driven out. Spread all over. Fortunately, Shizi was relieved. Although he did not succeed in becoming Shizi's roommate, but the dignity was still there, Yun Hui was really relieved.
After Yun Hui left, he was the only one left in the room. Gu Chengyao sat at the desk for a long time without turning a page of the book in his hand. Finally, he couldn't bear it, put down the book and walked to the window, pushing the window open.
The cold wind whistled in immediately, and the air with snow foam blew the candle in the lampshade into a beating. Standing at the vent, Gu Chengyao stood still for a long time looking at the silent sky outside the window and the snowy ground with cold light.
The lights are on in Gu Chengyao's study. If you walk north from here, you will see the largest and most splendid courtyard in the Yanwang Mansion, which is also constantly lit.
"Taicuju Dui is the Taicumen, and Yindejugan is the Yindemen. The first general on the right, the line is water, the black flag banner, is for the Jingmen." After Gu Huiyan explained, he asked Lin Weixi, "Say like that. understand?"
Lin Weixi stared at her lips for a long time, and finally shook his head in despair, "No."
"Shoushan Pavilion's book involves ten volumes of plots, formations, sacrificial texts, and miscellaneous accounts. If there is no basis for Qimen Dunjia, listening to these is really difficult."
Lin Weixi thought to her heart that she was not only struggling, she couldn't understand it at all.
Lin Weixi has already regretted it. With this time, she and King Yan said something was wrong, why did she have to find her own guilt?
But King Yan is a man with careful planning and rigorous work. He feels that although the student foundation is a bit poor, he can change a few more methods to definitely understand Lin Weixi. So Gu Chengyao went to the bookshelf and picked up another book, intending to start with Qimen Dunjia and tell Lin Weixi.
Lin Weixi had a headache as soon as he saw the heavy ancient books. Seeing Gu Huiyan put the book on the table, he turned around and took another pen, in a posture that he couldn't stop talking about it. Lin Weixi panicked. She didn't care about her face, so she straightened up over the table and hugged Gu Huiyan's waist tightly: "Master, it's already dark outside. Shall we take a break and do something else?"