Chapter 103: Sending a small blessing to the allure (middle) (1)

I was sitting in a bumpy carriage. This is the most common carriage. It has blue curtains and a birch board, but it is strong and durable. I never thought that such a simple thing would exist in this palace full of splendor and luxury.
It was not until a long time after I got out of that huge palace gate that I realized that I had really left the cannibalistic place, even though my heart was filled with infinite sadness and sadness, but, Deep in my heart is joy.
I think I am not suitable for the battle of the palace after all. My temperament and wisdom are incompatible with it. I just want the most peaceful life, and this is precisely what the palace cannot bring to me.
I carefully opened the corner of the curtain, the vermilion door was magnificent, but gradually disappeared from my sight.
The rain has stopped and the moon is coming out. In front of me are the trees under the breeze and bright moon. Although they don't have the luxuries in summer, the yellowish leaves still on the trunks seem so clear under the moon.
I felt a little tired, the nerves that had been tense for a long time were completely relaxed at this time, and after that, only fatigue remained.
I leaned on a cyan package on the side of the carriage and fell asleep. Although it was so bumpy, I finally got a peaceful sleep for a long time.
There is no comfortable bed here, no agarwood to help sleep, and no optimum temperature. There is only a stool and a fox fur cloak... But in my eyes, they are far better than the delicate palace. More precious.
In the deep sleep, the interruption that happened before flashed before me. I couldn't help but marvel at how unpredictable the changes in this world were. Even when I didn't react at all, I had already embarked on this road.
But, even if I know everything, whether I like it or not, I have no choice, right?
"The Ai family can't let you ruin the two sons of the Ai family." After the queen mother said, she turned her back gently and stopped looking at me.
I opened my mouth, and my heart suddenly filled with grief. I understand what she meant, but I can't explain it, and I don't know how to explain it. Even, pride makes me unwilling to argue.
"The Ai family originally chose you to enter the palace because the Ai family believed that Ling Xiang's daughter would not be inferior to any other woman."
The Queen Mother turned her back to me, looked at a landscape on the wall, and slowly said: "Although the Aijia knew that the emperor would not accept my arrangement easily, and thought it would be like pushing the boat along the way, she did not expect him to resist so much. So much so that your beauty is just in vain."
The queen mother turned to me: "But the Aijia did not expect that his feelings for you after seeing you have completely exceeded the limit of the feelings that an emperor should have for a woman. If he is just an ordinary citizen, then such feelings are worthwhile. Praise. But he is an emperor and such feelings cannot exist. You will become a weakness for him, and as an emperor, there can be no weaknesses, which will ruin him."
The Queen Mother looked at me as she spoke, her eyes deep in her eyes.
She went on to say: "But fortunately, your character is mostly forbearing and incompetent, quiet and gentle, which fits the mindset of a queen. From your attitude towards Linglong and those concubines, the Aijia can see that you She is also a strange woman. That would just avoid a lot of entanglements. But..."
The Queen Mother paused for a long time when she said the following words, her eyes drooped, and there was a helpless light in her eyes.
She said slowly: "But what Aier’s family did not expect is that another son of Aier’s family is also deeply involved in feelings for you. Although Aier’s family does not fully understand where this feeling came from, it’s I know, he even has some crazy ideas. This idea is something a courtier can't have."
When the Queen Mother was saying these things, I kept looking at her, her face didn't show too much emotion, but I could clearly feel her pain, and a trace of regret.
I gritted my teeth, turned over and got out of bed, and knelt in front of the Queen Mother before she fully recovered.
"Mother's queen, son-chen embarrassed the mother's queen, son-chen is guilty."
My head was buried deep in the middle of the loose hair, my heart was beating violently, and finally the most critical time came.
The queen mother did not speak for a long time and did not express anything.
I have been kneeling there, and the hard marble floor hurts my knees with only thin clothes, and a cold feeling is spreading up. I gritted my teeth, my body ached, but I still didn't move.
"Get up. You just had a miscarriage, so it's not good for your health." The queen mother's voice came out faintly: "In fact, what is wrong with you? It is the son of Ai's family who is wrong. But, where is they wrong again... …"
The Queen Mother's voice was completely helpless, and there was also a kind of frustration.
I think that when she asked me to enter the palace, she probably didn't expect such a development at all.
I still knelt there, just raised my head and looked at the queen mother. Her ears were wearing a pair of golden butterfly pearl earrings. My eyes were fixed on the three drooping pearls that swayed slightly, watching them in the candlelight. Under a soft light, waiting for the final words of the Queen Mother, which is also the most important thing.
Now, my child is gone, whether Shen Xiyao really just left me for the child or trying to protect me, but now the situation is that everything is up to the Queen Mother.
She has already said that I can't let me kill her two sons. So, if I was kept for the child in my stomach, Daxi's emperor, then all my functions have been lost at this time.
I know that I won't live like this again. I just want to know what the queen mother really wants me to do.
After all, I have done something to hurt Shen Xiyao again. As a mother, the queen mother must not tolerate such a thing. Wu smiled, and suddenly thought that there is one of the most readily available reasons to explain to the world.
Quite simply, the queen died in a miscarriage. And what was given to me was either San Chi Bai Ling, or a glass of poisoned wine.
I waited quietly, and the surrounding was quiet, only the wind, still the wind, knocking on the window lattice. It seemed that after a time of reincarnation, the voice of the queen mother seemed to be coming from a very remote place.
"You go out of the palace."
According to the Queen Mother, she could not live up to my father's entrustment, but she did not want to harm her own children, so the only way was to let me leave quietly and then fend for itself.
I am already grateful for her doing so, not to mention that I myself feel unable to survive in this palace.
I am totally incompatible with here.
In accordance with the order silently, I kowtowed to thank you.
The queen mother's eyes stayed on me for a long time, she suddenly turned around and shouted outside the door: "Zhilan, come in."
"Queen Mother, you call me." Zhilan walked in slowly, but didn't look at me.
I smiled, in fact, Zhilan was arranged by the Queen Mother on the island.
Shen Xiyao built Pengdao Yaotai, even if the ban is imposed, it is impossible to never let anyone in. This is special. Other concubines must not be able to arrange for people to come in, but as the real master of the harem, the queen mother is absolutely possible, "You go to Kunning Palace quickly and pack some clothes for the queen." The queen mother said lightly.
A trace of surprise flashed in Zhilan's eyes, but she immediately retracted, and then silently retreated.
The room was very quiet, and the Queen Mother and I had been sitting quietly opposite each other. She no longer looked at me, but fixed on looking at the pot of peony flowers under the window. Although my gaze fell on a western self-ringing bell on the shelf, my gaze was completely out of focus, and there was no thought in my head. I was completely unable to make any plans for my future. I don't even know whether going out of the palace is good or bad for me. Or, I looked at the Queen Mother carefully, her face was calm, as if she was just here to visit me, but I still shivered slightly, maybe I won't see the morning light of tomorrow again.
When the night was dark, I took a boat with the Queen Mother, left Pengdao Yaotai, and in Ci Ning Palace, I changed to a carriage that was bought out of the palace. There are already packages prepared for me on the carriage, not many, and I am not in the mood to check it.
When the door curtain of the carriage was lowered in front of my eyes, when I was completely retracted in the carriage, my heart began to sink a little bit.
I listened to the rumble of the carriage on the broad roads of the palace, but I didn't have the courage to open the curtains to take another look at the night of the palace.
In fact, what about watching, what about not? Didn't I want to escape long ago?
With the token of the Queen Mother, going out of the palace becomes extremely easy.
I covered most of my face with a hood with a black shawl, and no one else could see my face in the dark night.
I lowered my voice and said to the imperial army at the door: "Leave the palace by the order of the Queen Mother."
The leader only looked at no one else in my car, and with a big wave of his hand, I left the cage.
In the bumps of the carriage, the fatigue and discomfort of the body slowly attacked, and I gradually became sleepy, but everything in the palace appeared before my eyes. I was so tired, finally, leaning on the package and finally fell asleep completely.
The Queen Mother ordered the coachman to take me one hundred miles outside the city to a place called Hanyang, which is the only place to pass to the capital. Naturally, if you want to go to other places in the picturesque mountains and rivers of Daxi, you must Left here. After I got there, I went on alone. The queen mother didn't ask me where I wanted to go, but after she said she would let me out of the palace, I immediately had an idea in my heart.
There are beautiful mountains and clear waters, flowers and trees help sparse, peaches and plums, smoke and water misty. Thousands of miles of warblers sing green and red, water villages, mountains and Guojiu flags. It is the place I have always been yearning for.
I don't know when the rain started again. It was approaching early morning. Although the rain was fine and the sky was dark, it was faintly visible.
I woke up in the bumps, not long after sleeping, and my body was exhausted and unwell. It seemed that the cold autumn came with the rain overnight.
After all, the carriage was still ventilated, and it rained all night, and it was a bit cold in the morning.
I shrank, and Zhilan's clothes were a little bigger. Because the autumn clothes had not been changed in the palace, she only hurriedly found out the clothes in the early autumn of last year. At this time, she felt a little colder.
I looked at the package around me, thinking that there seemed to be a thicker cloak inside, but after thinking about it, I finally decided not to open it. I just tightened my clothes and planned to wait for the carriage to reach Hanyang Town before making adjustments.
I thought that when I was out of the palace, the queen mother would surely release news of the death of the queen. Since then, there is no Ling Xuewei in the world.
Money is necessary for my future life. There is a banknote in my luggage, I flipped through it a bit, there are a lot of them, enough for an ordinary person in his lifetime. After all, the queen mother said that after leaving the palace, she also hopes that I will live a good life.
There are also some jewelry, simple and exquisite. The person who picked it deliberately chose something that was not made by the palace, so that I can safely out when necessary.
Being alone, women's clothing is naturally inconvenient, and I have to find a set of men's clothing.