Chapter 151: Fallen Pear Flower and Moon West (2)

I don’t care about them anymore. I eat for myself. I just think this is the most beautiful meal in the world. All the delicacies in the past are no better than this vegetable, a piece of tofu, a piece of meat, or a bite of rice...
Haoyue wiped her eyes and tried to pretend she didn't care: "Next time I come, I will bring some snacks for the young lady. Your favorite lotus root powder sugar cake, and sesame biscuits with hawthorn stuffing."
With food in my mouth, I can't talk, just shaking my head.
"It's best not to come to such a place." I swallowed a bite of food before saying: "Lenggong is ominous. You will only hurt Fuzuo if you come."
"Does the young lady blame me for not finding you here early? How can I rest assured that you are here alone?" She defended, seeming to be sad for not letting her come.
I gave her a reassuring smile: "Why would I blame you?" I stretched out my hand to pull her hand, but when I saw my dirty hand and her green fingers, I finally let it go.
"Miss," Haoyue didn't care, she took my hand and said, "I will come to see the young lady often, and the young lady must never drive me away."
There were tears in my eyes, and my eyes and nose became sour.
"You know," I lowered my voice: "The emperor wouldn't want people to know that I am here."
"Miss, I'm very careful every time I come, so I won't let people find it." She looked at the broken objects around, and her tone was pitiful: "Where is the place where people stay? It's okay now, what can I do in winter? Do?" She glanced at me: "At least, let me bring some clothes and food for the young lady, so that she can make her a little better." She got up and knelt in front of me: "It's just like Haoyue repayed her for her kindness."
I hurriedly stretched out my hand to help her get up, and reproached: "You are a noble person anyway. It is a violation of the rules to salute such a cold-hearted person like me."
"In Haoyue's eyes, the young lady is the young lady. No matter what we are."
She was sincere, and there were tears as bright as crystals in her eyes. I placed my hands on our hands and nodded.
"Be careful! Harem, be careful every step."
"Don't worry, miss, I know."
I looked at the sky and said worriedly: "You go back soon, it's already late."
"The young lady is very healthy these days, I will come again." Haoyue got up and said to Brother Zhao: "I have to trouble you to take care of it."
Brother Zhao hurriedly gave a salute: "Don't dare to be a good man."
Haoyue took another deep look at me and finally left.
I see Brother Zhao standing there, neither walking nor staying. I tidied up my mood and sat up straight, with a gentle but serious tone.
"Brother Zhao, I have a few words to tell you."
Brother Zhao nodded repeatedly: "You say, you say."
I smiled lightly, picked up a glass of water on the side, stroked the rim of the cup, and slowly said after a while: "You have been here before, I think, from my conversation with Yue Guiren, you may have guessed my identity. ."
I glanced at him, he wanted to say something, but I lowered my eyes and interrupted him.
"Whether you guessed it or not, I only hope that you have seen me, and you never knew what happened here. But you led the team in to catch snakes, died two brothers, and made merit , Nothing more."
Brother Zhao looked at me with caution in his tone: "You are really..."
I shook my head: "I'm just a deadly dead person." I looked at him with a solemn tone: "Remember, the emperor would not want anyone to know that I am here. If anyone knows, then he will let this person. Shut up forever. So..." I looked up at him and saw his heart go: "You understand?"
Brother Zhao nodded: "I see."
"From now on, if nothing happens, you don't want to come here anymore." I returned the rice bowl in my hand: "Thank you for the meal. I can only pray for blessings every day, please be safe as I said before."
Brother Zhao laughed: "Because of the snake hunt, I was promoted to the team leader. In the next ten days, I will be responsible for the guards of several inner courts, including Fansi. So, if you have any needs, you can call me. made."
I held down the surprise in my heart and looked at him: "Can you tell the prince of the moon about this matter?"
He shook his head: "I was only promoted by Director Zhang when I returned to my life today. It is not actually a promotion. However, I changed from a deputy to a principal position. But when I change guard here, others may think it is a rise and a fall."
I pondered for a moment: "Then don't tell her." I smiled slightly at him: "I have nothing to do. Just do your own thing well, don't remember me."
I looked at the thick porcelain teacup, and there was a thin paper woman in the slightly swaying water, with dim eyebrows, where is there still half of the original brilliance?
"Then I'll leave first." Brother Zhao rubbed his hands, as if held by my former identity, he said a little nervously.
I looked up and gave him a soft smile: "Thank you for taking care of it these few days."
In the next few days, Brother Zhao will quietly give me a bowl of food and medicine every evening. Although they are the simplest dishes, the taste is not ordinary, but for me in the cold palace, it is As precious as delicacies and delicious.
Thanks to the wound medicine he sent, my feet gradually improved. Brother Zhao said that I was lucky and my ankle was not broken. Otherwise, there would be no doctor to treat me in such a place, and even if it was better, I would inevitably suffer from lame disability.
And those meals have also made my body getting better day by day, at least I no longer look dishevelled and skinny.
Haoyue would see me at least two or three times every half month, but I didn't want her to come to such a place, and I was even more worried that she would be found out by others, and she would often be cold to her. But Haoyue didn’t seem to be discouraged. When she came, she brought extra snacks for a few days and some clothes to change. Although they were all the clothes of the old court ladies, I don’t know where she found them. They were all from a few years ago. It looks like, but it's better than I only wore one piece of clothing before, and I couldn't even wash it.
On the first day she brought it, I couldn't wait to wear it for a few months. I couldn't see the color or pattern. I threw away the tattered clothes and put on the skirt she brought. With the clean and soft cloth on his upper body, he suddenly felt relieved all over.
There is no partition in Lenggong's room, I can only change my clothes with my back to Haoyue. All the mud on my body fell in her eyes, and the moment I took off my clothes, I clearly heard Haoyue gasp.
Looking at my dirty and black body, I couldn't see the white skin that I was proud of, liked by Shen Xiyao, and proud of me. Haoyue wiped her eyes with her sleeve, and there was a nasal sound in her voice.
"Miss, how did you become like this?"
I touched the visibly protruding cheekbones on my face, and then looked at my legs and arms that were as thin as a bamboo pole, and smiled indifferently: "If you can live, you should be content."
Haoyue pursed her lips and didn't speak, she said after a long time, "Next time I come, let's bring some cleansing fragrance to Miss."
I put on a lake-green cotton jersey, the color that was as dark as grass only made my complexion more ugly. I didn't care, but I didn't intend to catch a glimpse of the complacency in Haoyue's eyes.
"In such a place, I just want to wash it, and there is no water in it, so forget it. In such a place, who cares?"
"Miss doesn't cherish herself so much?" Haoyue seemed a little angry, but her eyes quickly filled with pity, "Miss, let's raise her body first. The first time I saw you, it really scared me. A big jump. It's so thin that it can be blown away by a gust of wind. The emperor doesn't like women who are too thin."
I just looked at the sparse line of embroidery on my skirt, and I didn't even bother to wear a smile on my lips.
"What kind of woman does the emperor like? What does it matter to me." My hand gently stroked the embroidered pattern, and the pattern embroidered by the stiff cotton thread had a slight touch of the fingertips, soothing me from being touched. Peace of mind.
"I'm here, if I still count on Jun En, then I really should have the word'idiots say dreams'."
"Miss, don't you want to leave here?" Haoyue looked at me with urgency in her tone.
I just didn’t care, raised my head and smiled at her:
Leave? Of course I want to leave. From the first day I came in, I wanted to leave.
I straightened my loose hair and said,
But if you leave here, go back. It’s Kunning Palace, so I would rather live here."
My voice is absolutely like cutting a boulder with a sharp blade, without any room for maneuver.
"Miss, has the contradiction between you and the emperor reached such an unchangeable point?" Haoyue glanced at me in surprise: "Although you assassinated the emperor, after all, he killed you..." Her words stopped abruptly. With a bare hand covering his mouth, he realized that he had said too much.
There was no wave in my eyes, I just looked straight at her, as if unconsciously said: "In the palace, do you know it?"
Haoyue smirked: "I also learned about it by chance. How could it be possible for the harem to know such a thing."
I nodded and stopped talking, Haoyue sat for a moment, then found a reason to leave.
I watched her figure dangling by the door of Fanfare, disappearing in the soft sunlight, the calmness of forced work was finally unable to maintain, I could only close my eyes, for a long time, finally calmed down the violent mood swings, and then, As if hearing nothing, slowly gathered up the things Haoyue had brought me.
I believe that the word Haoyue didn't say was "killing his father's enemies." I also believe that Shen Xiyao will not let anyone know that I assassinated him, and only he and the Queen Mother will know. Similarly, even Haoyue, she could not have known that Shen Xiyao poisoned my father, but Steward Li told her? But Steward Li didn't even see her, so he committed suicide. How could there be a chance to tell her?
The only possibility is that she already knew these two things. However, I can't figure out why she would know.
All I can do is not to ask or think. Maybe it's because I don't want to know the truth subconsciously, or I know clearly that even if I know the truth, I can't make any actions now.
Therefore, when Haoyue visits me next time, I will not mention it at all. I will only listen to her gossiping about the concubines in the harem, who is favored, who is offended by Concubine Liu, and who is befriending Concubine Li, etc.
"What about you?" I peeled off a litchi she had brought and asked casually.
"I'm just a noble person, like a mustache. What's more, I'm a young lady, and I won't make friends with anyone." She handed me a peeled lychee: "This is a new tribute this year, and the emperor will give it to everyone. I have rewarded some from every palace. Miss try it. I remember you like to eat lychees."
I took it but didn’t eat it. I just looked at her and said,
If you were my person, it’s okay if you don’t befriend someone. But now, I’m no longer a queen. You’d better find someone you can rely on. The branches, at least have a foothold in the harem."
"Who does the young lady think is right?" Haoyue didn't seem to like this topic: "I am used to the young lady, and I believe in my heart that I will only be a young lady. Even if the young lady is no longer there, I can't make friends with anyone."
I sighed: "I made you tired."
Haoyue looked at me in surprise: "Why did the young lady say this?"
"You think you are my person, why are others? Therefore, they will not easily show you good. But Haoyue, listen to my persuasion, I may not have a bright future here. Save yourself."