Chapter 173: Life experience ups and downs (3)

"Grandmaster Xie, Niangniang Xie." My voice could hardly come out. My subconscious mind told me that if I stay here again, maybe tomorrow I will be thrown into the mass grave.
"The emperor, go back quickly, I'm afraid this snow will be bigger." Yi Zhaorong ignored me and walked out of the courtyard holding Shen Xiyao's arm.
I almost cheered up and watched the two of them and the eunuchs disappear, and then I stood up slowly while supporting the trunk. My knees had been kneeling in the snow for a long time, so I didn't listen at all. It took me a lot of effort to endure the pain and numbness, tears almost gushing in my eyes, and finally stood up straight. But the moment I stood upright, I only felt as if I had been hit on the head. A strong dizziness made me almost fall on the snow again, and the severe headache made me have the urge to touch the wall with my forehead.
My heart was beating so badly, I was panting. I couldn't move my feet because of the freezing, and my body was so stiff. The internal organs also seemed to be frozen, and my stomach was so empty that a nausea suddenly surged. I could barely control the retching against the corner, ruining the beauty and mood.
After about half an hour, my body finally slowed down, dragging my weak legs back slowly.
When the sky was about to get dark, I finally saw the door of the coat bureau. At that moment, the old door almost brought tears to my eyes. I only know that I can at least have a bowl of hot water to warm my body when I walk in.
Xue was much younger, and a few maidservants in coats stood chatting under the eaves. I felt as if I was deaf. I only saw their mouths closed, but couldn't hear any sound.
"Xie Niang, what's the matter with you?" Xiao Rong was also among the group of people. She suddenly found me by the door and called out and galloped forward.
I couldn't even make a smile. Seeing her small body at this time, it was like seeing a life-saving straw. I also added some strength under my feet and staggered towards her.
"Xie Niang, where have you been? Oh, why are your clothes all ice!" Xiao Rong exclaimed: "Quickly enter the room, God, you are all ice." Her voice rang in my ears. I just feel harsh and confused.
"I want to go to sleep." My hoarse voice made Xiao Rong startled.
"I'll help you in." She carefully supported me and whispered in my ear: "How did this happen? Didn't you say that you will stay in the house today. I also said that there is so much snow to see the plum blossoms. Why don't you stay in the house."
I shook my head hard, not wanting to say a word.
Xiao Rong helped me change into dry clothes and helped me to lie down and cover the quilt. Then she went out lightly. Soon, she brought a bowl of hot rice porridge and fed it into my mouth bit by bit.
The hot porridge landed in my stomach, and I trembled, but I felt a severe pain in my stomach and my throat was aching like a fire. He ate a small half bowl with his will, and felt exhausted when he opened his mouth. He couldn't open his eyes any more, and he waved his hands weakly and lay back on the pillow.
This sleep seems to have been a long, long time asleep.
In the darkness, I only heard one voice, from far to near, calling my name one after another.
"Ling Xuewei, Ling Xuewei..."
A road suddenly appeared under his feet, with an infinite abyss on both sides, only a faint light in front. I took steps hesitantly, only to feel that all the discomforts disappeared. All the pain, fatigue, suffering, and hunger were gone. Every pore in my body was relaxed. Every step seemed to be on the softest blanket. It seems like stepping on flowers, I only feel that there is no uncomfortable, no uncomfortable, all the worries and worries no longer affect me. I have never had such a refreshing moment in my life.
That voice brought infinite temptation, like a mother's gentle speaking, and like a father's loving call.
"Vil, Weier, come, come, come here..."
Taking another step, the whole body seemed to bloom with flowers, full of fragrance and sweetness. In the dark, I feel that as long as you follow this path, you can reach a world full of flowers and no worries and sorrows.
The body walked forward almost uncontrollably, but there was a faint anxiety in my heart. I always feel that I have forgotten something, and there are still things I love behind.
I turned my head, it was pitch black there, like a monster with huge eyes staring at me in the dark. I felt that my hair was standing up, and I turned my head hurriedly, planning to walk on the wide and comfortable road.
"Don't..."
Whose voice, familiar and unfamiliar, rang in my ears.
"do not go……"
This is... Shen Xiyao's voice? I wondered in my heart, not quite like it. Xihe's voice is not real.
I looked back blankly, looking at the dark void, who was it, who was calling me?
"Don't go, come back..."
In an instant, the figure in the bamboo forest, the back figure in the fire, the man under the weeping willow, the man in the sedan chair by the long river suddenly rushed into my mind. How long ago was this? I have almost forgotten those who used to, the person who was sealed in my heart.
Are you calling me? Xihe? Or... I suddenly had a shock, Shen Xiyao?
I turned around blankly, looked at the darkness like the Nine Nether Abyss, and stepped out.
Going back is not as comfortable as before. I just feel that it is difficult to lift my feet, and I have to exhaust my whole body every step. The discomfort of the whole body is coming like a tide, and it is more unbearable than before. The pain in my whole body almost invaded my bone marrow, squeezing my fragile nerves a little bit, challenging the limit of endurance. There seems to be thorns all around, and if you step on this road, you will be torn to pieces.
Looking back, the broad road behind him was no pain, no suffering, no hunger and cold, and nothing that was unbearable.
"Vil, Weier, come, come..." Father's loving call. For a moment, I almost wanted to run towards there.
"Don't go, come back, come back..." A voice rang, full of anxiety and even anger.
I suddenly became frightened, that anger clearly belonged to Shen Xiyao, and when the emperor's thunder was angry, there must be a river of blood from the people. I shrank my shoulders and looked at the road behind me with nostalgia, hesitating in my heart.
"Vil, don't go." A gentle voice came from the dark void.
"Vil, come back, I am here waiting for you." The voice was full of nostalgia, and a figure appeared at the end of the darkness. It was like a light, illuminating all darkness, expelling all fears, defeating all demons, and guiding me on the right path.
He wins the snow in white clothes, with a warm smile between his eyes, his face is like a crown, his eyes are like stars, his elegance is extraordinary, and his tolerance is impressive. His voice and smile almost controlled my brain and led my actions, making me take the first step back regardless of the torture.
That is, Xihe.
Every step is like walking through a forest with the tip of a knife. Every step makes myself bruised and blood flowed. There was a strange cry from Ye Xiao, a poisonous snake "hissing" a letter, a beast with huge eyes in the dark, and ethereal white figures rushing towards me and wandering beside me. They have pale and terrible faces, I dare not look at them, but their muffled voices spread into my ears uncontrollably.
"Go back, go back..."
Looking forward, there was only a thin silhouette like starlight left of the banished figure, and I couldn't see it anymore. He turned around, as if there was endless disappointment, the shadow faded a little, then a little bit. I shook my head, trying to call his name, but I couldn't say a word, those ghosts had stuck my neck. I wanted to run forward, but the poisonous snake got around my feet.
"Don't go, don't go." My voice forced out of my chest.
"Don't go, wait for me, wait for me." I don't know where the strength came from, I struggled and broke free of those restraints in an instant, ran forward, and he turned back, although his face was blurred, but that warm His smile gave me strength.
No longer caring about the pain, I walked forward without hesitation, even if every step would consume my life's energy and inflict infinite pain on me, but Xi He was waiting for me in front, I want to see him again.
It seems to have ignited a raging fire, is it the karma of the eighteenth hell? Every inch of my skin is being burned, every drop of water in my body is drawn away, and everything in front of me floats.
I gritted my teeth and continued walking.
It seemed to have fallen into the deep sea of ​​Jiuyou, and the endless cold invaded the bone marrow, which was colder than the heavy snow that was covered with goose feathers in the snow that day. It was as if I had fallen into an unfathomable ice hole, and I was shaking with the cold, and my whole body was stiff.
Embracing myself with both hands, I continued walking.
Finally, I reached the end of the road.
"Xi..." I opened my mouth, and the man standing with my back facing me was within reach. I couldn't help but stretched out my hand, trying to grab a corner of his white robe, expecting him to turn back, with the most gentle smile Take me into your arms and drive away all pain.
I watched him slowly turning his head back with expectation, and the hand holding the corner of his clothes was shaking slightly.
He turned around, my smile froze on his face.
Not the smile I expected, his brows frowned, his face full of anger, like a plume cloud that blackened the sky in summer, and the thunder and lightning inside was less than one ten thousandth of his anger.
He took a look at the hand holding his clothes in disgust, glanced at me in disgust, and opened my hand with a raised hand. At that moment, it was as if a lone man climbing a cliff with his bare hands had grasped the last life-saving rope, and he could lie on the flat mountain top and bask in the sun as long as he tried harder.