Chapter 158: life experience

College entrance examination, examination room.
The moment Tang Jinyu sat down, her energy was highly concentrated, with only the test paper in her eyes, she lowered her heart to answer every question seriously.
He completed the exam in two days smoothly.
The head teacher was worried about these top students. He called a few good students in the class to give them a correct question. After assessing the score, he was relieved. This time the question is relatively more difficult, but Tang Jinyu answered a few of them. Both are good, especially for the last two big questions. Tang Jinyu is the only one who gets them all right.
The head teacher said to him: "Relax, the grades should be good. After three years of hard work, you can completely relax during this time and have a good rest."
Tang Jinyu nodded, but after packing up his things and returning home, he did not rest.
Grandpa Tang’s body weakened day by day. Tang Jinyu ended the college entrance examination. It seemed that the string supporting the old man was stretched to the extreme. After a silent scream, it broke apart. However, within two or three days, the condition worsened. After a lot of trouble, I was unconscious once.
Tang Jinyu was panicked. He stayed in the hospital with his grandfather. He waited at the door of the treatment room. The attending doctor came out wearing a mask and didn't talk to him. The doctor had been treating the elderly for several years. There was really no way at the moment. Pat the boy on the arm for comfort, "Wake up, pay more attention later, there is no other way."
Tang Jinyu refused to let him go. She grabbed the doctor's sleeve and begged him, "There is always medicine available? I beg you, give my grandpa some medicine or do some other treatment... Just give up like this, please!"
The doctor said: "If I found out a few years earlier, I still have some certainty of treatment. Now... your grandpa can last for so long, he is already very good, stay with him more, time may be running out."
Tang Jinyu stood in a daze. It took a while before he realized the meaning of this sentence. He closed his eyes and rolled his throat a few times to suppress the sob.
He went to the bathroom and flushed his face with cold water for a while, practiced the way he laughed in the mirror for a long time, felt better, then went back to see the old man.
Grandpa Tang has been sent back to the ward. He looks tired. He has two pillows behind him, lying there and resting with his eyes closed. Recently, he can't lie down and feels (chest xiong) breathless as soon as he lies down. He also refused to take oxygen all the time, and felt that it was too expensive. In the end, he was not willing to spend more money on himself.
Tang Jinyu used to sit on a stool next to the bed and gently shook the old man's hand, but in just one month, the old man lost a lot of weight and his eyes were sunken and somewhat (tuo)-shaped. As soon as he reached his hand, the old man woke up. The eyes looking at him were still peaceful and loving. Tang Jinyu carefully held his hand on his cheek, and the old man (touched Mo) (touched Mo) his face, smiling Said: "It’s vacation, don’t stay here all the time, I can’t run, you go out to play with your classmates, grandpa still has five dollars in his pocket, you can buy popsicles to eat, the weather is too hot, don’t get heatstroke ."
Tang Jinyu shook her head and refused to go.
He stayed in the hospital to accompany his grandfather. He bought immunoglobulin for injections for the elderly. The price of one is 1,500 yuan. Because nutrients improve immunity, Grandpa Tang looks a little bit more energetic. But this kind of injection is not covered by the medical insurance reimbursement. The money they have on hand is about to bottom out. Grandpa Tang refused to get a second injection. Tang Jinyu went out to work during the day and came back to accompany him at night. The old man increases immunity, so that his condition can be better.
In fact, he knew that this medicine would not cure the disease, but he just wanted to make the elderly (body shen) physically comfortable, even if (sleeping Shui) had a good night's sleep.
Tang Jinyu thought of many ways. He only had the money he earned when he was a tutor. This was far from enough. He tried to contact Song Yi, who had previously awarded him a scholarship through the school, and wanted to ask for help, but he passed on the news layer by layer. It will take some time in the past. His college entrance examination scores have not yet come down, and there are few people looking for him to take over tutoring, and he has not given up. He has interviewed wherever he can go, and even went to the piano shop. Fortunately, he spent more than ten years solidly in the book, and his kung fu playing the piano is not unfamiliar. After running in a few times, he became very smooth.
The person in charge of the music store admired him very much and offered a fairly high salary price, but he had to wait for the boss to come and then interview and appraise him, saying that he would be informed next week.
"Don't go to other music shops during this period. You can pay you 1,000 yuan in advance. Our boss Guo cherishes talents. Although our music shop is newly opened, it is also the largest in the city. I can guarantee that there is none. People will be better than the conditions we give."
Tang Jinyu accepted the money, simply signed a two-month contract, and agreed to the other party.
He pooled up the remaining supplementary tuition in his pocket with these, and handed them all to the hospital for the elderly.
There are still two weeks before the results are available. During this time, Tang Jinyu found another part-time job on the construction site. Although it is hard work, the salary is settled daily. Sometimes he can come back early in the afternoon and he can go to the hospital. Take care of grandpa.
The old man saw that his grandson had lost weight and got tanned in the past two days, and he was very distressed. Although Tang Jinyu said he went out to play basketball with his classmates, but Grandpa Tang was too old to tell, it was obviously tired.
Sometimes the old man feels distressed, so he gets down by himself and insists on letting him (sleep in Shui) the single bed.
Tang Jinyu refused: "Grandpa, when I (shen) is in good health, you only need to rest."
Grandpa Tang said with a stern face: "I lie down all day, and I feel uncomfortable. Go up (sleep in Shui) for a while and let me come down and rest."
No one can convince either of them. In the end, Grandpa Tang gave in and said, "Then I will sit, and you will come up too, (sleeping Shui) there is my feet, we can both lie down."
Tang Jinyu hesitated, seeing the old man about to lift the quilt down again, and immediately lay down obediently.
He was at the construction site (dry gan) last night until more than three o'clock in the morning, and he carried a lot of paving slabs, one weighing twenty or thirty catties, three pieces on his shoulders, it was really hard. The old man gave him a pillow, and Tang Jinyu stayed (sleeping Shui) shortly after touching the pillow.
Grandpa Tang gave him (take off tuo) socks, rubbed his feet for a while, and listened to the child (sleeping Shui) sinking, and then went down to the hospital bed lightly and took a cup of water to give him a cup of warm water.
The old man walked slowly, holding on to the wall and walking back to the ward little by little. As soon as he got to the door, he heard a nurse blaming inside.
"What kind of bed are you a family member? Where is your escort? The patient doesn't know if he is gone, you are still here huhuhu (sleeping Shui)..."
The old man heard that he was walking a few steps quickly, and when he went in, he saw Tang Jinyu putting on shoes in a panic, with an anxious expression. When he saw him, he didn't have time to put on his shoes. He stepped over and took the water glass while saying: "Grandpa, You want to drink water and call me, I'll fetch water."
The little nurse is new, and she is still angry when she sees it: "You are taking care of this now, what did you care about (gan gan)?"
The old man looked after his grandson and was a little anxious for the first time: "Girl, don't talk about him. My grandson is already very tired. Let him rest. It took him a few minutes to sleep (Shui) just now."
The little nurse looked puzzled. After checking the bed and delivering the medicine, she went back to the nurse’s station and told the head nurse about it. She was still weird, "How strange is the grandfather of bed 5? Grandson (sleeping in the Shui) hospital bed, too doting on the child..."
The head nurse knew a lot about the grandfather and grandson. He lowered his voice and told her a few words without exaggerating or saying much. Just a few words made the new nurse face (color) flushed, and then Listen, the circles under my eyes are red.
At night, Tang Jinyu served the old man to cook a meal. After returning, she saw two oranges in the small cabinet next to the bed.
He wondered: "Grandpa, where did the oranges come from?"
Grandpa Tang smiled and said, "The little nurse brought it here, saying that you were violent during the day, and I will compensate you with the oranges."
Tang Jinyu thought for a while before remembering that he had forgotten this long ago.
Grandpa Tang (body shen) is in poor health and eats very little. He ate half of it and gave the rest to Tang Jinyu.
Tang Jinyu ate slowly. When he was young, he liked oranges the most, but he ate very few with his grandfather. When he went there, his parents loved him and bought more. Uncle Xia next door often prepared small oranges. Walking over the wall, knocking on the door, the other party will carry him into the room and reward him with a small orange.
In winter, Uncle Xia was afraid that his stomach hurts when he eats cold, so he would put the oranges on the radiator and heat them up a little bit before giving them to him. In fact, the oranges are not very tasty when they are warm, and a little sour, sometimes they will There was a little bitterness, but he never said that he ate happily every time, and the whole family saw him happily, and they were also happy.
Tang Jinyu finished eating the last orange, was silent for a moment, got up to clean up the orange peel (gan).
The old man coughed badly during the day and night. Tang Jinyu stopped doing odd jobs and stayed in the hospital to take care of him.
Grandpa Tang was helped by him to feed a little water, and sat there and sighed, "It's really useless to get old."
Tang Jinyu said, "Don't say that. I asked the doctor. Slow treatment can get better. Now that a new medicine is released, it can be cured with a few injections. You also got a shot before, but you can walk down two circles. Will it be cured?" He didn't know if the last sentence was for the old man or for himself, the words were very heavy.
Grandpa Tang laughed, nodded, and said nothing.
After a while, Grandpa Tang said again, "Everything is fine in the hospital, except that there is no TV, Xiaoyu, why don't you go back to see for me at night, and tell me tomorrow? I was watching one before I came to the hospital. Well, I've been thinking about it all the time, and I can't let it go."
Tang Jinyu knew that the old man was worried that he would not have a good rest here, and felt sorry for him and asked him to go home to rest.
He agreed, but instead of going back to rest, he bought a second-hand smartphone. The guy who sold his phone was a boy in his class who bought scones for Tang Jinyu before. The boy (Guanguan) department and Tang Jinyu have been very good. After the college entrance examination, his family rewarded a new mobile phone. He went to the store to buy a mobile phone. Shell, just arrived at Tang Jinyu, immediately dragged him out, took out the old phone, removed the card and handed it to him: "Squad leader, this is for you. I just want to replace it with a new one. If you don’t dislike it, take this. Use it!"
Tang Jinyu refused to take it for nothing. The boy just wanted it and collected two hundred yuan.
Tang Jinyu stopped being polite with him, patted him on the arm, and said, "Thank you." He remembers this person's goodness, and he will definitely find a chance to return.
He took his cell phone back to the hospital and found the mediation program online to show his grandpa. The old man had never used a smart phone. After seeing it, he was very novel. After talking to Tang Jinyu, he saw his grandson and found out the show he had watched half of the time. After a while, he looked with relish.
Tang Jinyu was with him. The old man watched intermittently. His body was easily fatigued. It took several days to watch a program.
The program this time is a family mediation. It is about a woman who was almost beaten to death by her husband's family. The husband and the whole family favored sons. Not only beat her, but also her daughter. A seven or eight-year-old girl was beaten by (奶Nai)( Nai) A bowl thrown over broke his forehead, bleeding out. This moment also made the woman sober, she decided to no longer tolerate her children and insisted on divorcing.
The TV station who came to mediate originally thought it was just a conflict between husband and wife. After seeing the miserable situation of the mother and daughter, they couldn't mediate anymore and took them to a lawyer for consultation. The husband's reluctance to forgive, a contemptuous attitude towards the mother and daughter, and even a few insults, without regard to family affection.
As Grandpa Tang listened, he sighed: "This person will be punished sooner or later. He doesn't know how many people do not have children at home, how can they be willing to attack a child... Listen, he beats a woman, it's a brute."
The old man has a bit of presbyopia and is a little tired looking at the phone screen for a long time, so he closed his eyes and listened.
Tang Jinyu was holding her mobile phone and watching with him. Seeing that the ending was not good, she immediately turned off the volume.
The old man asked: "Why is there no sound?"
Tang Jinyu said: "There is a problem with the battery of the phone, but there are subtitles, grandpa, you can't read it clearly, I will read it to you."
The old man lay there, closing his eyes and listening to him carefully.
Tang Jinyu made up a particularly good ending, the kind that the old man likes most.
In the story he told, the woman didn't suffer any loss. She took the child and fled the house with the help of reporters and mediators, and then went to the police station to report the case. After the injury, her husband was detained. She finally got divorced and received a large sum of money. She took her children to a new city and lived incognito.
The old man listened attentively and smiled and nodded, "Okay, it's time to leave long ago. It's good to take the child away. The tree is moved to die, and people move to live. She is so young, she hangs on a crooked neck tree. Death is not worth it."
Tang Jinyu turned his hand off and let the old man rest for a while, "Grandpa, I'm going to cook a meal, you rest for a while, okay if you still eat millet porridge today?"
Grandpa Tang nodded and smiled: "Okay, I like to drink that. Go ahead."
I don’t know if I watched the TV show I’ve been worrying about, or the medicine that I used to increase (qiang) resistance had the effect. Tonight, the old man’s condition improved a bit. I sat there and drank a small bowl of porridge again. I talked a lot.
Tang Jinyu sat there chatting with the old man. Grandpa Tang (touching Mo) held his head and said with a smile: "We Xiaoyu has grown up and is eighteen years old."
"No."
"Why not, grandpa counts every day!" The old man held his hand, his expression relaxed a lot, "I have grown up, and I will be able to decide many things by myself in the future, you know?"
Tang Jinyu shook his head, he had a vague premonition in his heart, he didn't want the old man to talk any more. But this time the old man didn’t listen to him anymore. He spoke very slowly every word, and told him a little bit: "Grandpa’s illness, I know it in my heart, but it’s actually much better than what the doctor said before. Since last year, I’ve said few words. Month’s time, I was thinking at that time, I would have to grit my teeth until your birthday, and see with my own eyes that you are eighteen years old, so I don’t worry... I will grow up at the age of eighteen. If it were grandpa If you leave, you are not an orphan, and you can decide many things for yourself."
The old man shook his hand and whispered: "I watched you after your birthday, and I was still alive. I wanted to watch you finish the college entrance examination and see you take the notice with my own eyes. Grandpa knows that people are greedy. In fact, I still want to watch you go to university and stay with you all the time. How can this work? It's a matter of birth, old age, sickness and death, sooner or later."
"Grandpa saved 50,000 yuan for you. The money is in the small box under the bed at home. I'm afraid of walking in a hurry. I don't know when it will be gone. You can't get it out at the bank. It's all cash. Remember to go. Take it. Grandpa doesn't have much abilities in this life. Don't blame Grandpa for not saving much."
Tang Jinyu wanted to speak, but Grandpa Tang raised his hand to stop, "You are obedient, let Grandpa finish. There is one more thing to tell you. I have been celebrating your birthday on June 1st for so many years. In fact, your birthday is. Not that day."
The old man laughed and said, "He took it for you himself when Grandpa took you back."
Grandpa Tang shook his hand slightly and used some strength to tell him a story.
That was a decade ago. The old man lost his son, daughter-in-law, and grandson in a car accident, and all his relatives were gone.
The last sentence of the daughter-in-law was to ask him to save the child. She did not know that her child had been killed in the car accident. The old man grayed his hair overnight, and he was almost a dozen years old. On that day, the hospital rescued a child about two years old. The child was sitting there with dementia, neatly dressed, and a ribbon hanging from his neck. No one came to pick him up, no one wanted him—no one wanted such a sick child.
When Grandpa Tang saw him, he went to pay for his hospitalization and went through the formalities to adopt him.
Day by day, the child (body shen) is getting better and better, he can talk and laugh, he is clever, learns everything quickly, and he always yells "Grandpa" with his head up next to the old man. , Very well-behaved.
...
Grandpa Tang raised his hand (touching Mo) his head, and said with a smile: "The little one who carried him back then is so big in the blink of an eye."
Tang Jinyu wiped the tears from her face with the back of her hand, and hugged him and called to grandpa.
The old man patted him gently, coaxing him not to cry like he did when he was a child.
He gritted his teeth and insisted on living a few more days, just to arrange everything in order to find a good way for his only grandson.
He didn't want to send his children to an orphanage, but wanted to protect him when he grew up to be able to support himself.
This is the limit he can do.
Grandpa Tang wiped his tears, and laughed in a low voice: "You don't know, I privately hoped that your parents would not come to you at that time, and I don't know where you came from. The little one just sat there and was injured. I don’t know how to cry anymore. Grandpa lost all his relatives that day and raised you as the only child. When I later learned that I was sick, I didn’t feel much pain. This was originally a period of time I stole."
Tang Jinyu was still shaking her head, crying beyond words.
"Everyone is crying like a cat, stop crying, do you know why grandpa wrote you his birthday on June 1st? Because grandpa wants you to be a child for the rest of your life. He is happy every day and knows nothing. , I don’t know what to worry about, that’s good.
Grandpa Tang rubbed his head and sighed with a smile,
Unfortunately, Grandpa didn’t take you for a few days and almost missed your exam, but Fortunately, I’m here. Grandpa saved the little money for you, so you can study hard, and I’m relieved after college."
"I don't want the money, I'll use it to treat you..."
The old man shook his head, "Grandpa is getting older, and the loess is buried in his neck, and the disease can't be cured. Grandpa knows in his heart, leaving the money for you. I am very happy to watch you grow up. Now, my wish is half fulfilled." He held Tang Jinyu's hand, his eyes fell on his face with nostalgia, looking back and forth, with eyes full of dismay, "Grandpa just didn't see you in college, it's a pity."
Tang Jinyu hugged him without letting go, her finger knuckles were firmly clenched until white (color), her shoulders trembled slightly, and her teeth were clenched, and she could hear the sound of bumping up and down, "Yes, I can see it I want to take you to many places. I have been looking for you for a long time. You can't just leave me like this."
"Silly boy, when everyone is old, I just got off at the station early and you have to let go and go forward." The old man was held tightly by him, and his eyes were wet, "I bought it for myself. A cemetery, originally undesirable, it's not worth it. You can just throw your ashes into the sea. It's great to be free. But then you think, if you miss me and want to talk to me, there is a place to go."
He raised his arms laboriously, hugged his grandson with his big rough (gan) hands, and said dumbly: "Xiaoyu, when you go to college, come and tell grandpa, grandpa will be satisfied."
Two days before the college entrance examination notice came, Tang Jinyu sent off his grandfather.
The old man walked in (Shui Shui) dream, did not experience much pain, and his face was kind.
He couldn't wake up the old man, only to realize that he had left.
Tang Jinyu, a young boy and a half, had never experienced anything like this before, and he didn't know what to do, and stood there at a loss.
The head nurse pityed him and took him to go through the formalities. The hospital issued a death certificate. He took the certificate of death and went to the funeral home for cremation.
There were good-hearted people to help along the way, he followed in a daze, and brought back a small wooden box from the funeral home, which contained a handful of grandpa's ashes.
When I returned home, I only felt that the room was very quiet. He hadn't eaten anything for a day, only wet, but he was not thirsty or hungry. As if he couldn't feel it, he sat on the sofa for a long time. Heyi lay there groggy (sleeping Shui).
But at night, Tang Jinyu suddenly woke up in the middle of the night, as if having a big dream, suddenly remembering what happened during the day, tears rolling down, and crying loudly.
Grandpa is gone.
He has no relatives in this world.
It took a few days for Tang Jinyu to slowly recover a little energy. She lost weight and her smile disappeared. He pursed his lips and quietly packed up the old man's belongings, putting everything in order. Their grandfather and grandson had been poor all the time, but this did not mean that the old man had treated him badly. The toys he used when he was a child were made by the old man himself, small wood-carved pistols, and leathery rattles... Tang Jinyu put them in the same small box, and saw one of the red (color) blessing characters. When he was giving the kit, his hand paused and picked it up.
This kit seems to be a few years old, but when Tang Jinyu touched it, she suddenly felt a little strange, like something urging him to open the kit.
The urgency was so fast that his hands trembled, and he accidentally tore two tassel pendants.
The "Blessing" kit was opened, and inside was a piece of yellowed paper, folded into a small square and placed inside.
Tang Jinyu opened it and found that it was not a complete page, but an incomplete half, as if it had been torn off in half by someone accidentally. There were some unintelligible characters on it--or indistinct characters.
He watched for a while, suddenly his heartbeat quickened, stumbled into the room and took out the autobiographical book, turned to the last page, trembling his hands to match the half of the page that had been torn off, the one that was torn in the book As expected, the half of the page was tightly attached to it. The moment the pages on both sides were closed, they began to glue themselves, and almost merged into a complete page in the blink of an eye. The last page of the book was aligned.
The whole book was silent and automatic, and the pages of the book were flipped and rolled from the last page to the front. With so much strength, Tang Jinyu could hardly hold it. He barely saw the handwriting flashing on the pages of the book that jumped over. The words at the back of the book were no longer vague, and all became clear. He vaguely saw "Natsuno acquired overseas companies at the age of 78" and "Wine "Zhuang Mergers and Acquisitions"...and so on, before we can understand the words, the whole book closed with a "bang".
Tang Jinyu turned it hard and couldn't open it again, but a countdown appeared on the black (colored) cover of the book.
23:59:59.
The seconds began to decrease a little bit, the book was firmly in his hand, and the heavy feeling was really (touching Mo), and the feeling of vaguely connecting with the other side came back, Tang Jinyu's throat tightened, and he felt This feeling, if he guessed correctly, one day later is the moment when he makes the last choice.