Chapter 186:

Human touch is what Li Yi lacks most. In fact, sometimes there are ways to save others, why not do it? Although it will be harder and time-consuming, the heart will be satisfied, and the heart needs light to fill it, at least he is.
Li Yi forcibly blocked his rescue, and let Tom carry on the cruel drama, which deeply stabbed his heart, just as he himself contributed to this tragedy, indulgent inaction, and killing with his own hands There is no difference.
He decisively abandoned the dark Li Yi to find his own light.
But where is the light? What is illusory is more like a symbol, just like the sun in the sky, the plants and animals on the ground have not touched it at close range, but they can feel the warmth of the sun, let everything germinate, let the frozen river flow again, let the world Brightened, the darkness and cold were dispelled.
"It’s ridiculous. In the past, I definitely wouldn’t think that way. It was Li Yi who taught me how to think, how to use my brain, but now I’m carrying him away, maybe people with different beliefs will eventually Parting ways, in fact, I always wanted to accept, but after all, it did not change to the way he hoped, the kind of strong mind." Wrapped in a gray coat, there was no Dior accompanied by Li Yi and Andrea Nisos, with a somewhat sullen look, a lonely life without friends, is simply unbearable for someone like him.
Loneliness is a kind of pain. There is no one to accompany, no one can talk, and the quiet surroundings want to drive you crazy. At this time, only by remembering the previous life and completely immersing the thought in the past can we alleviate the loneliness in our hearts.
Some animals are kept in cages alone, and they will die soon. This is the same reason.
"Alas, it’s useless to think so much. Let’s accept the second stage of inheritance first. My teacher, the ancient explorer Saint Roman, has been accompanied by ascetic all his life, abstinence and dieting, although it is not necessary to obey his inheritance. Doctrine, but each stage of inheritance has to go through some hard work to obtain." Dionysos said to himself, the first stage of inheritance is a library and a seal of the Sheepman Pan Youling, in order to get this inheritance He was bitten numerous times by the viper in the test, followed by the scorching sun, and then turned into the cold of the ice and snow. Various natural harsh environments tortured a circle and finally passed. These are the same as illusions, but give Human feelings are real, just to find people with strong willpower.
It's no wonder that if Li Yi left his inheritance, he would definitely set up a test to find someone with a personality similar to his own, like a fellow in the same way, but also hoped that he would complete his unfinished grand vision.
"What kind of person does this adult want me to be? What kind of wishes do I want to fulfill?" Dionysos once again crossed the Milassa Mountains in the southern part of the mainland and entered a valley that was always shrouded in darkness. The tall pine wood is several hundred meters high, and there are four or five people hugging together. The thick pine leaves block the sunlight. The ground is covered with yellow pine needles.
Dionysos carried a tinplate oil lamp in his hand, illuminating the forest that was dark even in the daytime, and there was no wind or bird song. The strong fragrance of pine mushrooms emanated from under the thick pine needles, pine leaves and mushrooms The smell of fermentation is a little bit steaming, making people drowsy, but Dionysus did not pick it, and he was very careful not to change any environment, because there is a person who is important to him. Teacher Saint Roman, even more important than Li Yi. In the middle of the quiet dark forest, a small tombstone was covered by fallen leaves. It read: There is an old man admired in front of him.
Yuan Zhong Changming is like Long Yin,
The mist is long and clear,
There is a hermit in the pine forest,
A stunned man with moon sleep.
I don’t know whether it was the tomb owner who set up for himself, or whether it was written by relatives and friends after death. However, in this dark pine forest, not only is there no eerie, but people feel the peace after death from the bottom of my heart.
When he walked into the tombstone, suddenly the earth quaked slightly. Of course, he was already mentally prepared. The soil around him cracked and three stone statues emerged from the ground.
The ear of the first stone statue is missing, leaving only two terrible voids, representing deafness.
The second stone statue, binocular, is indeed, still two terrible holes, representing blindness.
There is nothing in the mouth of the third stone statue, and of course there are no teeth and tongue, which represents the loss of taste.
"After experiencing pain, I can gain strength. When I accepted the first stage of inheritance, I was temporarily deprived of hearing, and the world fell into silence at once. I also finally realized the pain of deaf people and could not communicate with others. I can’t tell if I think about it. It’s the second stage. According to the meaning of the stone statue, I will lose my sight. No matter how much, some things are better than wandering around.
Dionysus is not used to all day There are many colorful ideas in my head. Like Li Yi, the supporting head is full.
He occasionally thinks of Abby, just like suffering from a secondary disease, he always thinks that his future girlfriend is of course Abby, and even some self-righteous, and began to fantasize about the details of holding hands together, he thought of himself back Become a top explorer on the mainland, and be able to sit on equal footing with Li Yiping in the future, instead of being dragged behind him like a classmate. With the status of a top explorer and the qualification to match Abby, this is a little in the heart of the teenager Delusion.
Dionysus is only fifteen or sixteen years old, and this way of thinking fits this age.
What is maturity? Say a few beautiful words, have the courage to show yourself in front of everyone. If it is maturity, so-called maturity is too simple and easy to achieve. In fact, every move can reflect greenness or maturity, as far as women are concerned. , That is charm, as far as fruit is concerned, it is fragrance and color, as far as men are concerned, that is too much.
From the moment Dionysos left Li Yi's team, he thought he suddenly became independent, that is, mature, and can accept the next stage with his own ability, the inheritance of Saint Roman, and his gold-level primary spirit also let I entered the ranks of the middle-level explorers on the mainland, and then, I seem to be able to make my own ideas.
But now, in this quiet pine forest, in this secluded valley, there are so many ideas, like glass beads bumping in my mind, and my mind is being pulled into thousands of threads in an uninterrupted echo Ten thousand strands.
To be precise, it is confusion, because he does not understand himself, others, or friends. He is eager to be recognized, needed, and regarded as the center, eager to have in-depth communication with others, so that his heart can talk to him, especially Talking to those beautiful girls, such as Abby, he will not be ashamed because he is a man but exposes his weak heart.
"After accepting the inheritance, where should I go? Li Yi, I don't want to see him anymore, is this escaping? I don't want to go back to Sky Academy, there is nothing for me, even the memories are very weak. I think Go to Blackpool Academy to find Abby, but what should I say when I meet, after all, I don’t know her own thoughts. Will she be disgusted by such a hasty visit? Alas, forget it, wait for the inheritance to end before considering it There is no clue now." After all, Dionysos shook his head and put these things aside, there are more important things now.
"Dear Teacher Saint Roman, the first spirit I inherited from you and the first important companion in my life [豆豆小说www.thedu.cc], Pan, has reached the gold level and now needs The inheritance of the second stage was disturbed." Dionysos bowed deeply at the tombstone and said respectfully.
The tombstone was speechless, but the surrounding environment was distorted for a while. His eyes suddenly turned black, and he was temporarily deprived of his sight.
"My inheritors, hearing this recording shows that you have begun to accept the second stage of inheritance. Don’t be afraid, don’t panic. What you hold on to is your goal, even if it’s wrong, even if that doesn’t make you susceptible. People admire, even if it is a childish and ridiculous idea in childhood, but always follow the original heart, there will be no other regrets, always follow the original heart, you will not lose yourself, it is not easy to make regrets." After sinking, Dionysos felt that he was covered with a pair of stone shackles, with a full weight of more than one hundred pounds. He was overwhelmed by the pressure, and the rough stone was attached to his body, cold and hard. And in my mind, I automatically got the rules of this inheritance, or learned the procedures I had to go through.
Step by step, he walked in an unknown direction, with muddy swamps under his feet. The feeling of hunger and cold gradually spread from the stomach to the whole body.
Hunger continues to bite Dionysus, dark, muddy, cold is more like a hungry accessory, nothing is more painful than the lack of hunger, which is directly applied to the whole body, the most primitive human .
Darkness, coldness, and humidity made his heart burst with irrepressible fear. He thought he was mature before half an hour, but now, his legs are trembling, thinking about what is mature, has long been Throwed out of Jiu Xiaoyun.
Next, something more uncomfortable and disgusting happened. Mud wrapped his body, and a cold snake crawled around his skin, making a second contact with him. The rough scales on the snake skin were on him. There were blood stains on his skin. Icy little toad, this brownish-black disgusting thing is drilling in the mud wrapped around the body, it seems to be regarded as a paradise, Dionysos can't see the eyes, but they hear the joyous song of their cooing. People are extremely sick.
For the first time, he found that he was still afraid of these things, in addition to human animal fears, hunger, darkness, cold, and all greasiness, snakes, toads, mud, swamps.
The more fearful things are, the more powerful he wants to escape. But he wants to escape, but this is not daily life. This is Saint Roman’s heritage. It is a test he voluntarily accepts, so he must suffer pain and fear, otherwise he will fail.
The taste of failure is very uncomfortable, the one who fails in the battle between the explorers loses everything, and the time behind Li Yi can appreciate this more, life, wealth, traces of existence, long-trained spirits, After defeat, Li Yi shot to kill or deprive.
Fear fails, and there is one more fear in the heart. Man is really a creature that is particularly prone to fear. Even he will be afraid, but if he is fearless, he will die quickly. This is also a kind of self-protection.
"I'm really incompetent, the weak is like a lady, no, I want to hold on, can't let others look down on!" Dionysus shouted in his heart, but there was no one around him except him. Sometimes, the sense of existence brought by the approval of others is that some people think that they are respected or relying on existence. This is because the weak people must rely on the strong to exist, and this feeling in the heart will generate dependence and become People who live in the eyes of others can continue their lives on the basis of pleasing others.
But why should we please others? From the birth, we are a unique life, a unique thinking, a unique action, I don’t know when to start, we pursue gorgeous clothes, in order to let others admire, we pursue noble temperament, in order to let others admire, we pursue Talent is also to let others admire, the self who seems to live in the eyes of others is the real self.
This is the biggest deception of the heart. I am a fragment of memory in the eyes of others, occupying less than one billionth of their memory, but I am the entirety of my own memory. People should live to please themselves. Live according to your heart, live selfishly.
The collective interest blinded the eyes, and the individual’s was bitten into the heart like a worm. The sublimely indoctrinated human moral code is a ridiculous continuation. The stones will fall. If the stones regard this as morality, they will be thrown into the sky The stones are evil.
Humans have been ridiculously and distortedly continuing their own morals. Often the most ridiculous thing is that they cannot be completed from one end. The positive and negative sides of a thing are advertised as morals at different times. Referred.
Dionysus thought about it, and finally discarded shame, cold, dark, wet, muddy, those are part of nature, people are born into this world, surrounded by various nature, early morning sun touches the cheek, Rain can wet your hair tips, the floral fragrance in the air, and the fine dust are all part of nature, just like fish living in water.
He was very surprised that he would have such an idea. The rough stone held in the hand will feel the natural hardness. The water flows through the finger joints. It is natural softness, endless change, carrying all human beings, just like a plant. If there is no nature and no world, human beings will be born in the vast void, even if they are born, they cannot think, because there is no reference, they cannot eat, because there is no food, they cannot communicate, because the air can transmit sound, how terrible!
A few hours later, there was no nausea in my heart, and I gradually got used to it, and the mud wrapped around him, gradually sinking, and my body was dragged to a colder place.
My eyesight was restored, and after the regained light there was no harsh feeling, because when I opened my eyes, it was a world full of blue light.
"What does Teacher Saint Roman want to tell me? Where is this place? No, I should still be in the valley now. This is a vision left by the teacher, an influence." Dionysos said to himself, he said The mud and small animals on the body were washed away by the flowing water, and the joy of cleanness came from every inch of the body's skin. He was suspended in the water, above which was black mud, and a cluster of white narcissus bloomed from the mud, struggling hard In order to penetrate the thick glue, go to the lake and look for the sun and air.
Underwater, it is an ugly blue toad, only three feet, the size of a room, with pimples all over its body. It is frightening that every pimple is a human face, and the toad also has a long Zhang is very human face. (To be continued.)