Chapter 2091: Way out

"Joan, your beautification of human nature and human society is just wishful thinking, essentially out of fear."
"You are afraid of your own animality, you are afraid that you cannot restrain your anti-social instincts, and you are afraid of becoming a destroyer of the human social order, even though this order is far from perfect."
Professor Moriarty held the pipe and said as he paced back and forth in the laboratory.
His gaze has long since moved away from Qiao An, staring at the void in a daze, as if he is talking to his own soul. The one who is really trying to persuade is not his student, but himself.
"Why don't you consider other ways? You must know that saboteurs can also become revolutionaries, disrupt the unreasonable order in your eyes, and rebuild a set of social order that is more in line with your ideals. This is the driving force behind the progress of human society."
"If you really don't have the courage and determination, and don't want to participate in the torrent of social change, at least you can choose to escape. If you don't see it, you won't be upset, and be a hermit away from worldly disputes."
"When we talk about solitary living, Joan, you must know that wild beasts are not as lofty as gods, at least not more despicable than gregarious people."
Finally, he took a deep breath, and Professor Moriarty suddenly turned around, his deep and scorching gaze fell on his student's face again, looking extremely solemn.
"Joan, we must not have prejudices and prejudices in our learning. We must examine every possibility on an equal footing. Have you ever seriously considered such a possibility that you, Joan Vader, will no longer be a human being. Live in this world?"
Give up human identity?
Professor Moriarty's words echoed in Qiao'an's ears like the devil's persuasion, touching his heartstrings, and at the same time arousing his defensive instincts, like being pierced by a red steel needle, and he couldn't help shaking.
Taking a deep breath, Qiao An tried his best to keep himself calm, sternly refuting the absurd suggestion that the tutor had just put forward to him.
"Being a human being is not the result of my free choice. It is a priori fact and an immutable prerequisite. I cannot fundamentally deny'I am a human'. I can only work hard under the constraints of this premise. Live like you are!"
Professor Moriarty smiled weirdly when he heard the words, approached Qiao'an, and asked in a low voice: "My student, think about it and face yourself honestly. For you, "born as a human", this really is Is it true?"
Qiao An was stunned for a moment, and then subconsciously raised his right hand, tightly covering the deformed eyeball behind the neck, and the bitten lips, already losing their blood.
Professor Moriarty saw that he looked strange, so he stopped continuing this overly sensitive topic, chatted a few words, and left the laboratory and went to the stock exchange.
Qiao An was confused and had no intention of staying for a long time, so he said goodbye to Doer.
"Dr. Vader, were you quarreling with your master just now?" Doer asked worriedly when he sent Qiao An out.
Qiao An stopped in front of the door, thought for a few seconds, and then said to her: "It's not a quarrel. It's just that on some issues, I have disagreements with my instructor. Both are trying to persuade each other to accept my views."
"Then the result, who of you was persuaded?"
"At present, there is no real consensus." Qiao An hesitated for a while, and then said: "But I have to admit that the questions raised by the instructor are very sharp, which touched my thoughts a lot and made me realize my past. The idea is indeed a bit naive. This is not only due to lack of experience or insufficient knowledge accumulation, but also mainly due to weakness in character, always deliberately or unconsciously evading reality and not dare to face the true self."
Doer held his hand, sympathy and fear intertwined in his eyes.
"Dr. Vader, the true self, seems to be the focus of your dispute with your master. This topic makes me very uneasy."
"What does this have to do with you?" Qiao An asked in surprise.
"The master once asked you if being a human being is an undisputed fact. Of course, you can confidently answer in the affirmative, but I have no such confidence, because I know very well that I am not a real human being, just a For the doll made by Gu, I have always pretended to be a human being and imitated the human lifestyle."
"Most of the time, I can trick myself into not caring about this, and even forget the fact that I am not a human being, but the host's question to you just now made me feel the same, as if those questions were also directed at me..."
"Duoer, I care about my identity because I have been working hard to integrate into the human society and eager to gain public recognition, and your life is very simple, almost no contact with outsiders, no need to deal with any complicated social relations, as if Living in a vacuum test tube, is it a human being, does it make sense to you?"
"Dr. Vader, your question can actually be asked in a more straightforward way-do we live in the world mainly to satisfy others or to make ourselves feel at ease?"
Duo'er gave a wry smile, her burgundy eyes revealed misery.
"If I live for others, then it doesn't matter whether I am a human or a doll. Anyway, as long as I can satisfy the people I care about—that is, the owner and you—the existence value will be realized."
"On the contrary, if I live for myself, I should look for my own existence value outside of you and the master. If I find it, I will have an independent personality and free will. A doll in human skin."
"So did you find it?" Qiao An asked without thinking.
"You see, the key lies here." Duoer smiled bitterly, "As long as I still live in this laboratory, my mind will be completely tied to you and the master, and all my thoughts will revolve around you. Son, it is impossible to get rid of your influence, it is impossible to develop independent thoughts."
Qiao An nodded thoughtfully.
"It makes sense, Doer, have you considered leaving here and living elsewhere alone?"
"When I was arguing with your master just now, I had the idea of ​​leaving for the first time in my life, but it was quickly dismissed by myself.
"Why?" Joanne asked wonderingly.
"Because I don't have the courage to step out of this small world. As you said, this is mainly a defect in character."
Doer sighed quietly.
"When I realize my weakness, I can still say that I was created by the master, and the master did not design a strong character for me. My weakness is mainly due to congenital deficiencies, which is understandable."
"As for you, Dr. Vader, you are not a doll designed and manufactured by someone else. We have a similar dilemma, and you have no excuses for self-comfort, so I know... your pain is above me."