Chapter 199: Qin Jiu must love others

At that time, she was still too young.
"If, at that time, I let you elope with me, would you like to leave everything behind and go with me?" she asked gently.
"Yes!" Yan Su said without hesitation.
Qin Jiu raised his face to look at him. In the dim cell, his face looked like a natural jade carving. Although pale and thin, he was still handsome.
This is the man she once loved deeply, and he has given her the best love in the world.
"Liancheng," she called him softly. This title made the two seem to return to their once beautiful relationship, "There are some things, maybe I should tell you clearly. You and I..."
"Susu, can you talk about it later!" Yan said gently, "Let me take a good look at you."
Since that day, after knowing that she was Susu, he had long wanted to take a good look at her, take a good look at her, what did her girl look like, and how did she become like this?
He stretched out his hand and slowly stroked her cheek, rubbing his fingers gently and gently on her face, and finally came to the mole under her eyes. He leaned down and kissed her teary mole lightly, as if trying to smooth the scar. He may have seen other scars on her body by no means, but he can only see this mole.
His black jade-like eyes suddenly turned red, and he suddenly hugged Qin Jiu in his arms, his arms were so hard that she almost choked her. He pressed her head to his chest, his chin rested on her shoulders, hot tears rolled down her hair and into her neck.
Moist, piping hot, endless.
Qin Jiu didn't expect Yan Su to cry, and crying for her. It is said that even if a man is crying, he would not want a woman to see it. But he cried, cried in front of her, if it weren't really unbearable, with Yan Su's character, he would never cry in front of her.
Qin Jiu didn't move, just let him hold him silently, feeling the burning sensation of his tears falling on her neck. She knew for the first time, and never knew it, that a man’s tears would fall like rain, so hot, it seemed to burn her heart.
I don't know how long it took, he finally let go of her and asked cautiously: "It hurts, right?"
Qin Jiu took a deep breath. She heard her dry and hoarse voice, "It doesn't hurt anymore!"
Yes, it doesn't hurt anymore!
All the good times he gave her, as well as the purgatory pain, have passed.
Yan Su moved his lips, and finally said nothing.
His feelings were too complicated and too bitter. There were many things he wanted to say, many, many, but at this moment, he couldn't say why. Seeing this face completely different from before, looking at the thin calluses on these slender fingers, he didn't want to say anything. All the explanations would only seem insignificant in the face of her suffering.
Even if he is excusable, no matter how many reasons he has, the harm has been done, and he can no longer make up for her pain.
There was silence in the cell, only the fierce heartbeat of each other.
Yan Su took a deep breath, took her in his arms, and said calmly: "Now, tell me what you want to say!"
He seemed to know what she was talking about, so his hands shook.
Qin Jiu's tears filled his eyelashes, his voice was soft and slow, but he was extremely firm, "Liancheng, I have loved you, I have loved you deeply and deeply. I was crazy enough to be your woman even if I eloped. But the world Unexpected. All that has passed after all. If time can go back and everything can go back, I’m still Bai Suxuan, I think I’m still willing to be your woman. However, time is like flowing water, it will not go backwards, it will only flow forward. You It’s no longer the Liancheng who released the deer for me, and I am no longer the Bai Suxuan who only knows how to embroider the piano. Everything has changed. Liancheng has changed everything.
Yes, everything has changed.
They can never go back.
Yan Su looked at her quietly, without speaking. In fact, he knew that they could not go back.
Qin Jiu raised his hand and took out the Jinpa from his sleeve to wipe away the tears on Yan Su's face, saying word by word: "But, Liancheng, I hope you can live, and you must live well. What you gave me I will remember the most beautiful time in my heart. In my heart, there will always be a place for you."
Yan Su looked at her and said nothing. Finally, he finally nodded and said: "Okay, I get it!"
Qin Jiu finally glanced at Yan Su again, and then she gently closed the cell door and walked out.
The slender figure quickly disappeared into the dim light and shadow of the tunnel.
Yan Su watched her away quietly, slowly closing his eyes with his back against the wall.
For such a result, he had no other way except to accept it quietly. Even, he has no right to pursue her at all, the only thing he can do, perhaps, is, silently-love her.
He knew that she had let go, and for the relationship between them, for him, she had completely let go. However, he can't let go, and in this life, he can't let go.
He wanted to say to her: Susu, loving you is my right. You can no longer love me, but I can no longer love you. My love for you, once it occurs, will never stop, even you have no right to ask me to stop loving you. As long as I live one day, I will love you one day.
But this kind of love is no longer a requirement to stay together every day.
This kind of love is for your happiness. For the rest of my life, I will live for your happiness.
In the twelfth lunar month, the weather is getting colder and colder. The government and the public were calm inside and outside, but just as people were preparing for the upcoming New Year, Bei Yeguo suddenly changed in Northern Xinjiang and sent troops to Dayu country in a few days.
One by one, the urgent military newspapers from the northern border border flew to Lijing City like snow flakes.
This incident caused the situation that had just calmed down to become turbulent again. Qin Jiu was also extremely surprised at the sudden change of Bei Ye Kingdom. Although Dayu and Bei Ye Kingdom have not been in harmony for many years, such a large-scale offensive has not occurred in recent years.
The prince Yan Yi called a group of ministers to discuss countermeasures, and finally decided to reactivate the second prince Yan Su who was still in prison.
Speaking of it, treason is a big sin, and it was originally unforgivable. But that night, when Tianchen Sect conspired to rebel, Yan Su had already done something, and Yan Yi knew that Yan Su did not seek rebellion for the throne. Finally, after several discussions with the ministers, it was finally decided to let Yan Su betray. In fact, this is Qin Jiu's intention. She couldn't keep Yan Su in prison for the rest of her life. He belongs to the battlefield, and he should make contributions so that he can get out of prison.
A few days later, Yan Su led a large army to the northern Xinjiang, and the prince Yan Yi and the prince Yan Yu of the country sent them to the city of Lijing.
On that day, Qin Jiu stood on a high on the outskirts of Lijing City, watching the army go further and further away. Finally, the man in the white armor looked at her in the distance, and she couldn't see his expression clearly because of the distance. She stretched out her hand and made a victory gesture toward him, her eyes slightly moist. He seemed to smile at her, and then he pulled the horse and left with the army.
A young soldier walked towards Qin Jiu and handed a letter to Qin Jiu, "Miss Qin, the second prince sent me to give it to you."
Qin Jiu took the letter paper and saw Yan Su's familiar handwriting on it: Bai Suxuan loves me enough, Qin Jiu, please love others and be happy!
The day was fine and the sunlight was flowing like broken gold. Qin Jiu raised his head and squinted as he watched the figure gradually melt into the team, slowly disappearing between the sky and the earth, his eyes were moist.
"Man has gone far. I hope he can regain lost ground as soon as possible and return to Beijing as soon as possible." Yan Yu's voice sounded from behind, still so low, still so charming.
Qin Jiu looked back and smiled at Yan Yu, "Yes, he will definitely come back!"
Yan Yu nodded, staring at her deeply from a short distance away, the long and deep affection in the dark eyes like midnight. After a while, he suddenly said, "I want to go too!"
Qin Jiu looked back at him in shock, as if he was suddenly caught by someone, and asked, "Where are you going?"
"It's been a few years since I left Linzhou, I should go back and have a look." Yan Yu said with a light smile.
Qin Jiu didn't expect that Yan Yu would be so decisive, that she would leave as soon as she said, which made her extremely surprised. She whispered: "But, the prince still needs you."
Yan Yu raised his lips and smiled, "The prince has grown up, he is humble and upright, he will be a good emperor. Besides, you and the veterans, I am just a decoration here."
Qin Jiu suppressed the swelling soreness in her heart, and moved her lips. She actually wanted to keep him, but what about staying? Maybe he left is the best choice. She finally smiled, and looked up at his deep eyes, "Things are busy these days, and the prince is going to be enthroned, I may not be able to send you off. I wish you a good journey."
Yan Yu sighed and stared at Qin Jiu closely. The light in his eyes was like the moonlight in the long night, seeming to be able to absorb her whole person in. He said jokingly: "You still... don't want to keep me at all!"
"I just want to stay, I'm afraid I can't keep you." Qin Jiumei smiled like a silk, but when he turned his head, the ink-colored phoenix eyes passed a sadness.
"You haven't tried it, so how come you know it's not working?" Yan Yu's voice was as thin as the wind.
"In case I tried, if you don't stay, wouldn't it be too shameless." Qin Jiu continued to tease.
However, in these jokes, Qin Jiu felt that his heart had been swallowed by sorrow, and it was painless.
A few days later, Yan Yu finally left Lijing City, but Qin Jiu did not go to see him. She was afraid that she couldn't help it, and when she watched his back move away, she suddenly rushed to keep him. She is not qualified to stay with him, nor is she qualified to go with him, because she has not finished her business.