Chapter 46: Wait two years

The Qi family is a house full of people, and the change in atmosphere between Shu Zimu and Qi Yan can't escape their eyes. However, no one broke it, but after eating the dinner with Shu Zimu's participation and praised them warmly, Bai Xinlan rarely did they do more to retain, and even the reluctant Qi Yun was also stopped, as if urging them to hurry home.
Qi Yan and Shu Zimu left a little strangely. Bai Xinlan looked at the car's buttocks and went to text Aunt Zhang immediately.
[There may be major revolutionary progress today, pay attention to observe and report at any time! 】
When Qi Yan and Shu Zimu returned home, they met the cheerful Aunt Zhang.
Aunt Zhang is also one of the members of the Qijiahuo eyes team, seeing Shu Zimu and Qi Yan enter the door. When Shu Zimu bent over and changed shoes, Qi Yan helped him a bit, and then they looked at each other, and looked at each other... Qi Yan I didn't laugh, but the look was unusual.
Aunt Zhang touched it and suddenly understood what progress the two men must have made. No wonder his wife said that today's revolutionary process may have moved forward.
Thinking of the things that were prepared before the marriage is likely to have a place to use, Aunt Zhang smiled and said to the two of them: "The weather is hot, Master and Zi Mu should take a bath first."
Qi Yan and Shu Zimu did not interpret Aunt Zhang's connotative eyes, and went upstairs according to words, preparing to take a bath.
"Master, I have something to deliver to your room later." Aunt Zhang shouted to Qi Yan, Qi Yan wondered, "What?"
Aunt Zhang laughed twice and said, "It's nothing. Madam asked me to prepare a little thing before."
Qi Yan didn't ask again after hearing the words. Bai Xinlan often gave him some inexplicable gadgets. Although she felt that Aunt Zhang's attitude was a little different, Qi Yan didn't think too much. It was just that Bai Xinlan wanted to send something bad this time. Stronger. But it's better not to let Shu Zimu see such things, so as to preserve the image of him and Bai Xinlan in each other's hearts.
Thinking of this, Qi Yan said to Shu Zi: "You first."
Shu Zimu didn't refuse and quickly entered the bathroom.
The sound of water sounded, and when Qi Yan was about to fall into imagination like yesterday, the door knocked.
"Aunt Zhang," Qi Yan opened the door, "just give me something..."
It’s not an imaginary toy, Aunt Zhang’s hand holds a small box with a unique shape. The lid of the box is fully opened, and the contents inside are unobstructed. There are no hidden organs and sudden strange sounds. But the shock and shock that Qi Yan brought to Qi Yan was much greater than any scary and tricky design.
"I didn't have time to give it yesterday, and I finally gave it to you today. There are all the necessary things, basically all kinds of brands and models. You and Zi Mu can choose what you like. If you run out of it, talk to me Just say hello." Aunt Zhang smiled and handed the box into Qi Yan's hand, and then waved his fist up and down at the end: "Master, you cheer, but Zi Mu is still young, don't be too fierce."
Aunt Zhang completed the mission, smiling downstairs. Qi Yan was holding the box standing on the spot, staring at the things in his hand with a complex complexion. After a while, he couldn't help but picked up a few and looked carefully.
Um, ultra-thin, strawberry flavor... Shu Zimu seems to prefer oranges? Orange flavor... found! Lubricants... so much? Which one is easier to use?
Qi Yan held the box for academic, and from time to time uncontrollably extended to the association of the senses, even if he had tried to refrain from thinking of the completely naked body of the person who was constantly drifting into the bathroom at the moment, he quickly uttered his tongue. Dry.
When the sound stopped and Shu Zimu came out wearing a bathrobe as usual, Qi Yan quickly put down the box and rushed into the bathroom. After closing the door, he looked down at the position where the pants bulged. Confirming that it should not have been found, Qi Yan was relieved at the same time, there was a little regret. I always feel that this is a bit of a runaway meaning.
But soon Qi Yan comforted himself. Shu Zimu was only eighteen, a little too small, and it was not yet time for him to actually go into battle with a gun.
Qi Yan's shower was a little slow this day, but Shu Zimu didn't feel it. He stared at the box of things that Qi Yan left unintentionally or unintentionally, and fell into silence and entanglement.
Silence is due to the sheer quantity and variety, tangled in Qi Yan's thoughts and circumstances.
Is Qi Yan cold? It shouldn't look like it? Is this some kind of suggestion or even explicit? If yes, do you agree? I always feel the same day I confess...cough, a bit wrong?
Various thoughts flashed through Shu Zimu's mind, and then he suddenly remembered: Aunt Zhang just said that there was something to give Qi Yan, wouldn't it just be...this thing?
Shu Zimu felt that the possibility was above 90%.
If this was given by Aunt Zhang and not prepared by Qi Yan himself, then the question is whether to go back to the original one again?
So, is Qi Yan cold?
He had already done the preparations before, but there was nothing unacceptable. It's just that if it is, the box is a bit prickly.
But if it is not, then...
Shu Zimu remembered the feeling of being close to Qi Yan when he took a wedding photo before, and the body just after taking a shower soon evaporated. As a magician who lived to 28 years old in his previous life, and now he is at the age of blood, Shu Zimu's concentration will definitely not be better. After a while, he also faced the same problem as Qi Yan. He glanced contemptuously at the bathroom door and hid in the quilt.
calmly. I want a new story.
When Qi Yan finally came out, he saw Shu Zimu sitting on the bed with a serious face, a laptop on his knees, and a soft light reflected on his face, which seemed to have a nearly transparent beauty. Although the expression is very serious, but because of the excellent hardware conditions, it suddenly shows a cold and proud feeling. However, he was wearing a cartoon fat cat pajamas, which immediately gave a great contrast. Eye-catching, seemingly opposite but actually very harmonious.
Qi Yan paused for a moment, and then walked over pretending to be calm. "Hair wasn't blowing?" He noticed that the other party's hair tail was a little wet.
Shu Zimu froze for a moment, then grabbed a handful of hair and smiled, "Forgot, but it's almost done."
When he said that he saw Qi Yan wiping his hair with a towel. The bathrobe opened and widened with the movement of his arms, revealing a tight and fit chest and the top two abdominal muscles, exuding the male hormones coming from the face. .
"I help you blow your hair?" Shu Zimu felt trapped by the other party's breath, and relied on the revival of her work and suddenly swept through the sky, so she quickly changed her eyes.
Unexpectedly, there will be unexpected surprises. Qi Yan will not refuse, and feels that Shu Zimu's hand is gently fiddled with his hair, and he is very satisfied. Then he glanced at the box on the bedside table again. The originally satisfied mentality began to become empty again, and he couldn't help but imagine that Shu Zimu's hand wouldn't fiddle with hair, but something else... what would it feel like.
Shu Zimu was actually looking at the box, but what he thought was not as dirty as Qi Yan. After all, there are still questions about whether the other party is cold.
Shu Zimu feels that since he is already a lover, then communication is definitely very important, and this aspect... is actually very important, so it is really necessary to confirm it. How to confirm this... a little awkward.
Shu Zimu pondered for a long time, and finally he could only turn around and ask, "Is the box that Aunt Zhang gave you just now, is that box?"
Qi Yan heard the remarks, and his heart had passed by thousands of horses and horses, but on the surface it was still very calm, and he replied: "Yes."
"Oh..." After hearing the expected answer, Shu Zimu responded, but the key point to ask was still unable to speak for a while, and then returned to the state of quietly blowing Qi Yan's hair.
After Qi Yan heard that "Oh", she lost her words, but she felt a little nervous in her heart. The things in the box should be obvious enough? Shu Zimu...what would be the reaction? Will it not be acceptable? After all, he is only eighteen years old, and they are officially together today.
When Shu Zimu was silent for a second, Qi Yan thought about one more layer. Until Qi Yan's short hair was completely dried, Shu Zimu didn't speak again. Qi Yan had thought a lot in a short period of time. Suffering and suffering, he suddenly realized that he should take the initiative instead of trying all the time.
Qi Yan finally decided to take the initiative to promise Shu Zimu.
"Aunt Zhang cares about me, so I'm in a hurry, don't mind." Qi Yan paused, looked at Shu Zimu, and said: "You are still young, those things are temporarily unavailable. Almost two years, wait until you are full How about twenty?"
Shu Zimu was stunned. After a while, he clarified the meaning of Qi Yan's words, and suddenly raised his mouth, "Okay."
It seems that Qi Yan is not cold, and the rumors of his last life are no longer credible. Qi Yan itself is completely different from the eyes of those who are not familiar with it. Shu Zimu thought it was funny, but more of it seemed subtle but converging but almost majestic and truly moving.
Wait until he is twenty... Shu Zimu's eyebrows are curved, he doesn't think he is just eighteen years old, whether he really waits for two years, depends on the situation.
On the day when the mind and heart communicated, they reached a consensus on major issues. Shu Zimu and Qi Yan felt that their concepts and habits were more in line with each other. Afterwards, although they did not complete the major revolutionary progress as Aunt Zhang wished, they also leaned on the bed together and were intimate. Midi watched and did some entertainment.
At the same time, three guests greeted the night bar 20 kilometers away.
Yeshi Bar is one of the most prestigious bars in Beijing. Because of the good wine quality, the high quality of the service staff, and the relatively high consumption, it is regarded as one of the most high-end bars in Beijing. The place where the younger brothers often go for fun.
However, Qi Yan did not like the noisy environment of the bar, so he and Xu Chi Jianhongshen's small group of three did not come here very much.
Xu Chi is not too interested in the bar itself, and Jian Hongshen is even less like a person who likes it. However, this night, these two people did indeed sit in the night bar, watching the colorful night signs in front of them. Cocktails "Rainbow at Night", each silent.
Jonathan, who proposed to come here, watched the atmosphere that they were out of tune with the whole bar, could not help but snorted, took the initiative to clink their glasses with them, and asked Xu Chi: "What's going on? It's better to bring Jane to relax Yeah, why did you make yourself fall in love one day? Do you want me to enlighten you two?"
Xu Chi heard Yan Jianshen, who had become more and more silent recently, and sighed without traces, still trying to make a mental smile: "Nothing, there is something wrong with the family, but the problem is not big. It is fun tonight."
"Isn't it really a problem?" Jonathan raised an eyebrow, looking sad at Xu Chi. "It's nothing to admit if you really fall in love. Who hasn't fallen in love? Handsome is like I was dumped, and it's more normal for you to fall in love."
Jonathan seemed to comfort with a long heart, but actually turned around and boasted, but it did have some effect. Xu Chi frowned slightly, shook his head, and smiled: "It disappointed you, it's really not a broken relationship. It's normal for you to fall in love Yes, I haven’t."
Xu Chi said that he went to see Jian Hongshen again. When he saw that his face was still cold and cold, he was drinking one by one, and the feeling of lightness was heavy again.
Xu Chi did have something wrong at home, but it was nothing else, it was about Xu Lan, so he was not good to say more in front of Jian Hongshen. Thinking of this, Xu Chi frowned again.
After the wedding of Qi Yan and Shu Zimu yesterday, everyone went back to their homes. Xu Chi felt that it was all here, and Xu Lan should be put down completely, so after returning to Xu's house, he talked to Xu Lan and talked about it, preparing to enlighten him. But he didn't want Xu Lan's reaction to be completely unexpected.
Instead of responding to Xu Chi's persuasion to let go, Xu Lan asked, "Brother, why did Shu Zimu change his surname and have a bad relationship with the Xue family?"
Xu Chi raised his eyebrows, "How do I know about other people's family affairs? Anyway, Qi's family and Xue's family agreed. Why do you ask this?"
"I'm a little curious." Xu Lan gave him a cute and playful smile. "It feels that the Xue family is not a good person, that Xue Lin is so stupid, will this family cause trouble to the Qi family? Uncle Qi and aunt. Why would they agree?"
When Xu Chi heard the words, he felt Xu Lan's mentality was a bit wrong, and said with a smile: "It was Ayan who picked him, why did his uncle and aunt disagree? And he married Shu Zimu, not Xue Lin, nor the other Xue family, Shu Zimu. Isn’t it stupid?"
Xu Lan's face did not change when he heard Xu Chi's words, but he was already anxious in his heart. He said that Xu Chi was not standing on the same line as him, and he really turned his head! Xu Lan never gave up and continued to look like innocent: "Zi Mu is really not as stupid as the Xue family, probably following his mother. By the way, he is bigger than the pair of dragons and phoenixes, should Xue? Isn't his wife actually a third child?"
Xu Lan seemed to be casually gossiping, and he did not seem to speak against Shu Zimu. Instead, he guessed that Yao Yue was a small third. He seemed to be defending him, but Xu Chi’s face was obviously sinking, and he looked at him frowningly. Xu Lan. Under the stare, the other party still maintained the same look, as if really innocent and out of curiosity.
However, Xu Lanyue was more calm and innocent, and Xu Chi's face tightened. He looked at Xu Lan and said coldly, "Xu Lan, Qi Yan is married."
His words made Xu Lan's innocent look suddenly converge a little, and looked at Xu Chi with a deep voice, and said nothing.
Xu Chi continued: "If you still have a brain, you should know it's time to let go." He stared at Xu Lan's eyes, "Don't tell me, you plan to be a small third."
Seeing Xu Lan's words, Xu Chi emphasized first: "If you have this kind of thinking, it's too late to dispel now. Don't expect me to support you, this will never be possible."
Xu Lan was silent for a moment, and he looked at Xu Chi, and the depressed emotion in his eyes rolled up a little.
"Who said I want to be a primary three?" Xu Lan suddenly laughed. "After being a primary three, it's everyone else's laughing stock. I'm not that stupid."
Although Xu Lan denied Xu Chi's guess, Xu Chi looked at him but still frowned, thinking that Xu Lan did not really dispel such thoughts.
Unexpectedly Xu Lan said directly next: "But brother, do you really think Brother Yan and that Shu Zimu will last?" Xu Lan laughed, "Due to the stupidity of the Xue family and Shu Zimu's face, in the future It must be a constant trouble. I think the Qi family can’t stand it for a few years. When they get divorced, I will fight for it again. Can you say that I am a primary three?"
Xu Lan was laughing, and Xu Chi laughed at the same time, but he was angry, and his lungs exploded.
Xu Lan is actually quite favored at Xu's house. If the old lady who loves him the most knows that he is waiting for someone's newlyweds to divorce quickly, so as to intervene in other people's feelings, the two old men are estimated to be angry! Moreover, before the family members did not ask Xu Lan’s meaning to Qi Yan, even the old man had joked about the two marriages, but Xu Lan was afraid of being refused and pretended to be boring to Qi Yan, but now he is thinking about fighting again! Even disregarding the fact that the other party is already married!
He always knew that Xu Lan's thoughts weren't particularly correct, and some scheming likes to disguise, but Xu Chi only used to coax the old people to pretend to be good and harmless. After all, Xu Lan's ten-year-old lost his position and sent others under the fence. There must be a sense of insecurity, so even with some caution, Xu Chi always felt excusable.
Over the years, Xu Lan has not done anything excessively, so although Xu Chi is not very close to him, he actually takes care of him very much. camouflage.
As a result, Xu Lan was held up by the Xu family like a treasure, but instead of removing his mental defense, he became more intensified, and his tricks had to run from the harmless and trivial things to the crooked evil path that could not be touched.
Xu Chi thought that he was so angry that he didn't care about Xu Lan's strong words and only sneered: "Do you want to say this to Ayan?"
Xu Lan's face suddenly sank.
Xu Chi said, "It seems that you still know that that was just a shame? I also don't understand. You didn't even have the courage to confess before. How dare you say such a thing now?"
Xu Lan was severely trained by his tone, lowering his head, his eyes were red for a moment, "Before I always felt that the time is still long, so...I also want to put it down completely, but I can't do it...I just like him, there is What can I do? Brother, I know it’s not good, but I can’t help it. I like Brother Yan for at least five years. I’m the only one in my life. I really can’t let go..."
Xu Chi saw that he had changed his way of showing weakness if he hadn't achieved anything. He was judged as two in the same manner as before, and it looked helpless and pitiful. However, Xu Chi was not soft-hearted, but felt a chill. When did the seemingly weak but stubborn child become like this when they came to their house? Oh, this is quite weak and stubborn now. Unfortunately, the weak is pretended to be deliberate. The stubbornness is still justified in the feelings of married people.
It's ridiculous.
Xu Chi no longer wanted to talk to Xu Landuo who tried to impress him with Qiong Yao's lines, but heard Xu Lan whispered, "You are clearly my brother, don't you not only help me but also pull back legs?" And our family knows the Qi family well, and the relationship is better than the Xue family. If I can succeed, shouldn’t it be a good thing for our family and the Qi family? Even for the sake of Brother Yan, I know which option is better. Isn’t it? I’m your younger brother, Yan and you are iron buddies. Wouldn’t it be better if we were together?"
Xu Chi was almost defeated by Xu Lanli's sturdy tone. He looked at him with surprise in his face. He couldn't believe that this was his brother who had been educated for more than ten years. How could their family teach such a person? It’s okay to use marriage as an exchange of interests. Although their family doesn’t admire this, it’s a common situation in the family’s rich family, but Xu Lan thinks it’s not enough, and thinks that Xu’s and even Qi’s are the same.
However, it is not. The Qi family has never been a family that uses marriage as a bargaining chip, because the Qi family is strong enough and does not need to sacrifice the happiness of its children.
In addition to Qi Yan's cousins ​​Qi Heng and Tang Sister Wen Qiuli, the Qi family is completely married. Others are mostly low-marriage or low-marriage. Qi Yan's aunt Qi Shulan does not say, including the aunts Yuan Manhuan and Bai Xinlan. They are all average, compared to ordinary people who can say a rich man or a scholarly family, but they are only acceptable, not top-notch, far worse than the Qi family.
Although not all of the Qi family can be called free love, they are definitely married only if they have an emotional basis. For example, Qi Heng and Wen Qiurui met each other on a blind date. They only got married after two or three years of love. It is definitely not a marriage without feelings. Qi Yan and Shu Zimu seem to flash marriage after a blind date. They have no feelings, but after all, Shu Zimu was chosen by Qi Yan himself. Even if there is no love, it does not exclude living with each other. And looking at the situation at the wedding, it may not necessarily be emotional.
In comparison, Xu Lan had not dared to confess before, obviously knowing that Qi Yan would not put him in the position that accompanied him for life, but Shu Zimu was Qi Yan taking the initiative to put it up, it can be said that he stood up. Xu Chi didn't understand where Xu Lan's self-confidence came. He believed that Qi Yan and Shu Zimu must not be long-term, and he must be able to successfully take over the position around Qi Yan.
Moreover, Xu Lan felt that the Qi family was as he imagined. After all, he didn’t know much. There must be many people like him. But he even thought that the Xu family who had stayed for more than ten years was like this, and it was also a kind of family whose interests were more important than everything, and he did not care about the happiness of his children!
Xu Chi took a deep breath and felt that today was really a "harvest". Otherwise, I still don't know that his family has been esteemed and respected for the past ten years or so, and actually raised an unreasonable snobbish eye!
Xu Chi did not answer Xu Lan's words, but instead said: "You didn't want to go abroad after finishing the college entrance examination. Then go next semester. It's too late to prepare for the application."
Xu Lan was stunned, and after a moment his eyes widened in disbelief. "Are you going to drive me abroad?"
Xu Chi sneered, "The major you studied was originally a foreign school with better qualifications, and our family does not lack the money you need to study abroad. Why is there no reason not to go? And you should change your environment so that you are sober now. "
Xu Lan exclaimed, "No! I won't go abroad!"
Xu Chi said blankly: "You must go. I will tell my parents about this matter. It's no use asking your grandparents."
Xu Lan was really panicked this time. He did not expect Xu Chi to be so cruel because he did not want to give up Qi Yan and immediately decided to throw him out of the country. Although his elders spoiled him, Xu Chi insisted that he could only go abroad. The nephew is definitely not as good as a pro son, and the adopted one is not as good as a grandson.
Xu Lan immediately wanted to ask for love, but Xu Chi no longer wanted to get entangled with him and turned back to his room. He was afraid that his blood pressure would increase when he stayed with Xu Lan.
The next day the servant said that Xu Lan had gone out early in the morning, and Xu Chi didn't care. It took a lot of effort to persuade the elders to agree to Xu Lan's study abroad, and he struggled with whether to tell Qi Yan one day.
If Xu Lan is quiet during this time, he will go abroad in another month, and he will be able to avoid some embarrassment without telling Qi Yan. But if Xu Lan did something during this time and angered Qi Yan, he would be a bit guilty of not reporting.
Xu Chi struggled for a long time, but still decided to find a chance to ventilate Qi Yan, but he felt very embarrassed in the end and was extremely disappointed with Xu Lan. When I took Jian Hongshen and Jonathan to the night bar according to the agreement at night, I thought that the person who caused Jian Hongshen to fall out of love was Xu Lan, and the mood was even worse.
Xu Chi and Jian Hongshen got together in a bad mood, and the feeling of disappointment spread to a foot away. Jonathan tried to be active and the atmosphere was not active, let them pay attention to the handsome men and women in the bar. , The person who came to take the conversation was also taken away, and finally he was also frustrated. He simply asked for a lot of wine and took the other two people to play the wine table version of the truthful adventure.
I have to say that it really wasted the atmosphere of the night bar.
Probably that night's luck was sorted according to the level of frustration. Jonathan didn't get a turn at all. Jian Hongshen was the most unlucky.
He too, drinking directly no matter what the problem is, even drinking a few meals today, Xu Chi stopped and did not stop. After a while, the other two were still sober, and Jian Hongshen was almost drunk.
Jonathan looked at Xu Chi, shrugged, and said: "Jane like this character, no wonder he will fall in love." After thinking about it, he said again: "But this time love should be a good thing."
Xu Chi was stunned. For a while, he didn't realize the meaning of Jonathan. Jonathan had then wondered: "I don't know how Jane likes that person." Then he suddenly said again: "Would you like to ask? "
So another round of truthful adventures, Jian Hongshen was a little drunk, but still did not get rid of bad luck, and was quickly caught by Jonathan.
"Jane, do you have someone you like?"
According to Jian Hongshen's previous behavior, he was probably a glass of wine at this time, and Jonathan didn't expect much from him. Unexpectedly, Jian Hongshen, drunk and dizzy, rarely said a word: "Yes."
Xu Chi was surprised, but Jonathan was refreshed and asked, "Is the crush still confessed?"
"No...no confession," Jian Hongshen, who had not said a word, just answered questions at this time, and even generously presented additional content. "But he knows, he...has already known."
Xu Chi could not help but sigh, but Jonathan asked excitedly: "He knows, what do you think he means to you?"
"He... he doesn't like me, he likes others." Jian Hongshen picked up a glass of wine again, as if to suppress the bitterness in his throat and heart.
"Since he likes others, why don't you just change your personal preference? Why hang on a tree." Jonathan's Chinese is really good, and the saying goes.
Jian Hong smiled bitterly, "I can't change it. I always remember that I accidentally got lost once and bumped into a little boy who was crying behind a tree. He cried so pitifully that I was taken aback. Little The boy was found embarrassed by crying, so I stared at me and said I hated it. It turned out that after I got a little injured at that time, I was countless and fell down immediately. While trying to comfort me, I wanted to hand me the handkerchief that wiped my nose and tears. Wipe the wound. Then the reaction was that the handkerchief was dirty, and I quickly apologized, and wiped me with the cuff, and also blown me for a long time."
Jian Hongshen recalled the brightest scene in his memory, and he rarely brought a soft smile, "Then we sat under that very big tree and chatted for a long time. He said he missed his parents, He said he would have nightmares at night, and said that his aunt and uncle treated him well but he did not dare to cry in front of them." Jian Hongshen looked a little empty. "He looks like me, but he has no home. But he was more flattering than me. After a long time, he never hid and cried, but then I was injured, and he handed me a clean handkerchief. He was obviously younger than me, but told me he Will help me, and then give me an idea, how can I please the adults please."
Jian Hong closed his eyes deeply. "Although I can't use it, I always remember it. I remember it all."
Jian Hongshen seemed not to be drunk. The words were very clear. Jonathan didn’t respond. Xu Chishen listened to Jian Hongshen’s words, but he also outlined a little boy in his mind. That was Xu Lan and Xu Chi has always been In the past impression, Xu Lan, who would pretend to sell well but be kind-hearted.
But time is a good medicine and a poison. Everyone is changing, good or bad. Xu Lan is the one that has become unrecognizable.
Xu Chi smiled bitterly.
At this time, the cell phone in Xu Chi's pocket suddenly vibrated. He looked at it and it was a call from Xu's mother.
Xu Chi went to a relatively quiet bathroom, and when connected, he heard the anxious voice of the other party:
"Lan Lan didn't go home today, and now the phone is turned off!"
Xu Chi immediately frowned, "I will go back immediately." Then he calmed down the mother who was already crying out. "Don't worry, he is also a 20-year-old, and he won't lose it."