Chapter 31: Published manuscript ending

Chapter 30 Publication Manuscript Finale
My nickname is Hongdou, but it was originally called Black Dou. Because my father said it was not good, I changed my name to Hongdou.
My mother said that when I was first born, I was black and small, just like black beans. She said with great emotion: "Your five fathers and I are both white and tender. Why did you give birth to the black skin? Not to mention, I almost thought you were the product of my red apricot coming out of the wall."
I:"……"
Our family is very complicated. My mother is Empress Chen, and my father is the prime minister, who is directly responsible for all major and minor matters inside and outside the court. The third father is a prodigal son. There are always three or four months away in a year. After Wei Wei, the fifth father is a judge from the hospital. Although he has superb medical skills, he only treats a few of us.
I also have a second dad, my mother said, he is our town house general, I have never seen him, although my mother said, when I was born, he hugged me.
The story of the second dad, I can only inquire about it from the palace population. The four dads don’t say it, as if it is a taboo topic. Although I am young, I vaguely noticed something. I rarely ask my second dad in front of my mother. , But she didn’t seem to care, she often took my hand and pointed to a maple grove in the imperial garden and said: "Doudou, look, the maple leaves are red again, so beautiful? Your second father’s Baihong Villa, Yuan There is also such a maple forest, no, it is more beautiful than this."
When I was three years old, my third father secretly took me out of the palace to play around. I stayed in Baihong Villa for several days, but after searching all over the villa, I didn't see the Fenglin in my mother's mouth. I think my mother must have premature dementia. She often said some inexplicable things, and the third father often said to me mercilessly in front of her mother: "Your mother's mind was caught by the door. Don't listen to her."
At that time, my mother would hide aggrievedly and draw a circle, looking at the sky... and then the third father followed her to coax her...
I asked Lian Gu: "Is my mother split in personality?"
I originally thought, how could a person like her be regarded as "Wenzhi Wugong, one emperor through the ages" in the common people's mouth. Sometimes she is more like a child than me. She blames me for "too early maturity, no innocence," They were all broken by her father’s teachings"... But there were a few times when she hid behind the palace and watched her go up, she was a bit prestigious. I heard that she had also fought wars and brought down the chaos. The three armies scolded Xu Lida to death General, it's really not a good person...
Gu Lian said: "She is not a split personality, she just talks to people and talks to ghosts."
I thought about it carefully, and it was the same. She was very obedient in front of father and fourth daddy, hippie rascal in front of third and fifth daddy, domineering in front of me, and sometimes acting like a baby...
I often wonder what she would look like in front of my second dad.
My second dad left for the expedition the day after I was born. My mother held my hand and stood at the highest place in the capital, pointing to the endless northern sky and said to me: "Doudou, your second dad is there, guarding My mother’s thousands of miles away."
"When will the second father come back?" I asked her when I looked up.
She lowered her head to look at me, smiled and said, "Alright, almost..."
Maybe the sun was too dazzling that day, I actually saw the sparkle in her eyes.
She said "almost", which means three years.
All I know is that the second father is a great hero who stands up to the ground, he guards Chen's northern borders from Liang Guo. In the second year of Qianyuan, Emperor Liu Che died and Liang Guo aggressively invaded the border. That war lasted for a long time, and finally Bai Deng fought tragically. Liang Guo was completely suppressed and surrendered to Dachen. When I heard that the soldiers of northern Xinjiang wanted their class to return to the court, my mother threw the report in ecstasy, and when she turned around, she ordered people to sweep the court and personally supervise the work. !"
But after all, he didn't wait for him, waiting for three years.
His mother and him still exchange letters, one half a month, from full moon to full moon, and from full moon to full moon.
On the night of October 10th, she always sat alone in the maple forest and had a drink. The four fathers were afraid to disturb her. She was thinking about being alone. At that time, I was still young and ignorant. I secretly entered Fenglin and made a sound. I heard her trembling voice and asked with a cry: "Second brother, are you back..."
I took a step back in fear and saw that she was already drunk, leaning against the maple tree, staring in my direction in a daze. After a long time, I slowly sighed, smiled, and waved at me: "Doug, come here. ..."
I hesitated for a moment before I walked over.
She hugged me and let me lie in her arms. She smelled a lot of alcohol, but it didn’t rush, and it smelled good. She was silent for a long, long time, and finally opened her mouth: "Doudou, do you want to see your second dad? ?"
I nodded.
I want to meet our great hero of Chen Guo, my second dad.
She chuckled softly. "When you grow up a little bit, I will take you to see him, he is in northern Xinjiang, in northern Xinjiang..."
"My second brother is in Beijiang..." She sighed, leaning weakly on the tree, looking up at the sky full of stars, "When... can I come back..."
Before and after that, I had never seen her so gaffe.
When I was four years old, I shook my head in the courtyard and carried the homework given by father.
"The poplar trees are tall, the banyan trees are strong, the pines and cypresses are dressed in green all year round, and the birches are cold-resistant and guard the northern border..."
She passed by, stopped, bowed her head and asked me. "Doudo, you read it again."
I repeated it obediently.
She was lost for a moment.
"The birch is cold-resistant and guards the northern border..." Then he smiled, "My second brother is a birch."
Later, I heard her say: "He is only cold-resistant, not cold-loving. Is it because he can bear it, so he has to bear it? It's not fair..."
"But, I forced him..."
I think that my mother probably understands something, but she has been lying to herself and refused to face it.
I heard that once, she told the second father in a letter that the maple forest of Baihong Villa was red. I found it strange because I heard that maple forest had already been burned out.
The second father said in his reply: When I go back, I will enjoy the red maple with you.
After the mother saw it, she burst into tears with a smile.
Father covering my mouth, standing behind the door, quietly left, and said to me: "Doug, as if you didn't see it."
I looked up at his sad eyes and nodded vigorously.
The second father once said that everyone is smart, and there are some things that do not need to be said too clearly, but they are hurt.
He gave his mother a dream, but she knew it was a dream, but she still refused to wake up, preferring to live in the drunken dreams he gave him.
When I was five years old, I went to Northern Xinjiang with my third dad. I saw the birch forest with my own eyes and touched the land guarded by the second dad. The tucheng fortress is full of dust and sand. When winter comes, the river will end. Ice will dry up. That is the most bitter cold place in the world, only the birch forest is blocking the wind and sand.
Vice-General Wang pointed to the mound in the forest and said: "That is the general's cloak."
When he said this, his eyes were red and his voice choked.
The third father took my hand tightly, walked forward, and said to me, "Doudo, kowtow to you second father."
I knelt down, somehow, I hadn't seen him, but I could see his smile, as if the temperature he had given me was still in my infancy. Drops of tears fell on the soil, splashing dust and smoke.
He said that he should protect his mother's rivers and mountains and give her a complete home, but without his home, it can no longer be complete.
My mother used to say that when I grew up, she took me to see my second dad, but in the end she didn't come either. She would rather stand on the tower and say to herself "Second brother is coming back soon" over and over again, and dare not come here in northern Xinjiang , Crying bitterly before his grave...
In the Battle of Baiden in the second year of Mingde, I lost my second father forever, my mother lost her second brother, Chen Guo lost his guardian, and even the body was not recovered. Set up a cloak...
Perhaps everyone has a belief that he is not dead.
But three years...
If he is still alive, why doesn't he come back to see us?
They said that he loves my mother so much, as long as he has a breath, he will crawl, and crawl back to us...
After returning to the imperial capital, my mother asked us nothing.
Aunt Lian said, in fact, mother knew many things, she just didn’t say, she was still smiling in front of her four fathers, but there were always moments when she suddenly felt sad and silent. At those moments, she probably was Think of a person.
I asked my father, why I am called red beans instead of mung beans...
Father smiled gently and rubbed my heart.
"Red beans are born in the southern country, and spring comes to send a few branches. Hope you can pick more, this thing is the most lovesick."
It was a sentence...Lovesickness...
One couple for a lifetime, arguing for two ecstasy.
Lovesickness and hope but not meet, who spring is the sky?
Another year of Maple Red, mother is still waiting, where are you second dad?
Soul, return...