Chapter 41: Hard to recite

Chapter 38
No one objected to my move back to Shenyuan this time. I kept saying that it is not safe to live alone. I have to let Qiao Si personally protect me. Is it safe now that the wolf cub has entered the room?
I exercised vigorously during the day and was forced to soak in a medicated bath at night. It is said that Yan Wu intends to make me an invulnerable female King Kong. I don’t think... it’s really unnecessary. They all like me playing softly. It doesn't matter.
I have soaked in the medicinal bath for a long time. The master has already bathed, wearing a white loose nightgown leaning on the soft couch and looking at something, but I see his frowning look, I guess something is in my mind, so I didn't look into it.
I nestled in the arms of the master and stuffed the dry towel into his hand. He naturally took it and dried my hair with gentle and moderate movements. I sighed comfortably. Exciting with Tang San, and being with the master is like soaking in warm water, that's relaxation...
After wiping it for a while, I guessed it was almost dry, I thought about it and opened my mouth. "Master, wow, I want to tell you something..."
The master gave a hmm, put the towel away, and followed my hair for a while. I squinted and curled up in his arms, smelling the clear but warm breath of his body, and almost fell asleep. . No way! Don't forget the business!
"Just talk about it." The master smiled faintly, and gently squeezed my earlobe.
Ding--
Master, are you molesting me!
Putting away some irregular thoughts, I said seriously: "I have been having nightmares lately." I narrowed my eyes and said, "After waking up, I don't remember much."
The master's movement paused, it was just a moment. "I can't remember, how do you know it's a nightmare?" He asked softly.
"I still remember the feeling, and after waking up, I was always flustered." I buried my face in his arms. "Master, my heart is always empty."
The master kissed my lips with a faint pity in his eyes. "Don't think about it, is it caused by the restless sleep these days? Let Yanwu prescribe some medicine for concentration."
I shook my head and collapsed my shoulders in frustration. "Master, it's not like this. Actually, there are some things. I said in my heart, if I don't remember it, nothing is more important than the moment, but..." I lowered my eyelids, a little sad, "In the past and now, it can't be so. Simply divide into two. There will be no future without the past."
"Yu'er, don't think about the past again." The master's fingers gently pressed my temples and rubbed them slowly. The temperature of my fingertips was also faintly cool. I closed my eyes and leaned against his chest, and hummed, "I didn't want to remember anymore..." I embraced him with my hands, and said coquettishly: "Now I have you with me. The side is enough. It's just..." I opened my eyes, "If the presence of some people will endanger you, I can't ignore it. Master, what did Liu Che say to you?"
The master's movements stopped, and the surroundings seemed to be quiet for an instant, so quiet that only each other's breath and heartbeat remained.
"Yu'er." The master lowered his head to look at me, and asked softly, "Are you worried that he would harm Li Mansion?"
I nodded, stepped a little away, and looked directly into his eyes. "Did he threaten you with something in his hand? Does the departure of Tao Er and Yan Wu have anything to do with him? Who is he?"
The master still smiled faintly, "No, he didn't threaten me."
I took a deep breath, "Then it becomes clearer. If he is not threatening you, he has grasped your weakness so that you can't refuse. Master..." I sighed helplessly, knelt down in his arms, and hugged me. Holding his neck, he slowly said, "Yu'er has been dependent on you for ten years. I always know your ambition and heart relationship better than others. If he didn't threaten you with me, he would Take the family, the country and the world to persuade you, in your heart, "My palm is against his heart, and my heartbeat is gentle and strong under my hand. "I am not alone."
He took my hand and put it to his shallow lips to kiss, with a smile in his eyes: "The size of a fist in a human heart, how big of a world do you think it can hold? I have chosen you, so why are you worried?"
Hearing what he said, my heart was so numb that I was stung by a bee. "When I was young, I felt that one day you would abandon me because of this world." I said dullly, "I know that your ambition is to become the eternal name, assist Mingjun, and create a peaceful and prosperous world, compared with this world. , I am very small."
"Not small." The master hugged me tightly, "My Yuer is all my comfort and sustenance. As long as you need me, I will always be by your side."
Yes, he said so.
Yu'er needs me, and the people in the world don’t have to be me.
But listening to him say this, but it gives me a vague illusion, as if his company is just to take care of my feelings and begs, I need him, and he does not need me.
Probably, women are always suspicious, even if they look at him with clear eyes.
Dongli, master, you are the most deceiving person, even yourself...
"At that time..." My eyes were a little astringent, "If my life were not hanging by a thread, would you leave me?"
The imperial capital met again that year. Even though he hid his emotions very well, he learned of the existence of Tao Qing and Tang Si, and the shock and sadness in his eyes at that moment were still deeply imprinted on my heart. My memory is always extraordinary in certain places, remembering all the sorrows and joys of those I care about.
The master is a person with a slight habit of cleanliness. Like Yan Wu, such a person is unwilling to share cups and bowls with others, let alone a lover who stays with him for a lifetime. I should have known that at that moment, he had decided to quit. If I hadn't called his name when I was about to die, perhaps at this moment, there would be no Shen Dongli in Li Mansion in Los Angeles.
I don’t know if my words hurt his heart, but he still looks peaceful, his fingertips rubbing the skin behind my ears unconsciously, "It was also at that time that I knew what was the most important thing to me. . Nothing is better than death, as long as you live and do what you want to do, I will accompany you." He smiled at me, but somehow made me want to cry. "Why I stayed is not important, the important thing is that I stayed. You know me, don't care about the process, only focus on the results."
Just like his way of being an official, he only wants the peace of the country and the people, and he doesn't care about getting his hands stained with blood and filth. This official cunning way, looking at the clear and breezy Dongli, but also enjoys it. He is so clean, as if deliberately trying to avoid his politically dirty side.
But how can it be the same for emotional matters?
What am I talking about...
This is the knot between us, and it has not been solved until now.
Is it to stay together or to share a partner with others. Is it hidden in the city, or the common people?
I am always afraid that one day he will leave me, and I have no reason to keep him.
"Liu Che is looking for you, it's a matter of national economy and people's livelihood." I forced myself to calm down, and asked him as calmly as possible, "Is it related to Minyue State?"
He nodded directly, "Yes."
"Fang Xiaohouye came for this too?"
"That's it."
"What about Tao Er and Yan Wu?"
"This is their affairs, I don't know." The master replied lightly.
In fact, the officials in the government don’t think much of the people of the arena. Chivalrous people are forbidden by martial arts. When I was a child, I heard from my master that those people of the arena often fight in groups and fight with weapons. .
Therefore, although the master did not have a famous saying about Tao Er, Tang San and Yan Wu, he was a little bit out of touch. Qiao Si was also half an official family, and the master treated him differently.
On the other hand, Tang San and others like Jianghu people are equally disgusted with the government. It's just that the master's virtuous name is outside, and they are regarded as keeping him away.
It seems that the specific situation can only be questioned after Tao Er comes back.
"Yu'er." I was lowering my head in deep thought, when I suddenly heard the master whisper my name, and raised my head to meet his eyes. "What makes you finally want to face reality and stop being drunk with dreams?"
"This..." I looked at his close eyes, his black pupils flickering against the candlelight, deep and vast, accidentally fell in, my heart shook, "Because...Lianer said, sir, I I can't be so degenerate and passive anymore, I have to be a good master and protect you..." My voice is getting weaker and weaker. Protect them. With me, can you?
The master laughed, the corners of his mouth raised, and the lip line was elegant, I could see the fluid under my tongue, and swallowed hard...
"What a silly boy." He sighed and rubbed my hair and kissed my forehead. "It's late, let's rest." He said again, "That's fine. If you have something to do, he will talk to the master. Don't hide it all in your heart."
I stared at him with wide eyes and nodded again and again. He was on a soft bed, but he leaned over and picked me up again. I was not prepared, and I missed a beat in my heartbeat, and hurriedly clung to his neck.
Who says that novices have no power to bind chickens! My master can at least pick up my aggravated little chicken!
I widened my watery eyes and conveyed to him the desire for happiness. He laughed without saying a word and refused to give me an official response. Until I was stuffed into the inside of the bed, I realized that I was silently rejected...
"Master..." I crawled over again, fingers on his chest, and he grabbed it. "Your body should not be overworked. After doing it last night and running for a long time during the day, you will have a good rest tonight."
I was choked by his words, and the phrase "not overworked" could not be said.
If this is said, it would seem like I am ridiculing the master. However, the master is not Tao Er and others. He would think that I am aggressor, if it will be useful, I would like to try...
Alas...Is the master despising me, I have been used before, and I don't want to share it with others...
This thought came to my heart again, I silently retracted my hand, turned around, thought about it, endured the urge to hit the wall, pulling my hair...
"Ugh……"
I accidentally sighed...
No, it doesn't seem to be my voice?
"Yu'er, you are thinking about it again." The master used declarative sentences and put his hand on my shoulder, pulling me back to face him. The candlelight was dim, and there was a heavy curtain (oh the curtain). I couldn't see his expression clearly. I guess he looked vaguely at me.
"You dislike me..." I said sadly.
"I care about you." He corrected.
"Don't lie to others and yourself." I held back my heartache and tears, "You have been perfunctory me..."
I was entangled, and the master probably also entangled. He was silent for a long time before he sighed. "Silly girl, what should I do with you..." He leaned down and kissed my eyelid gently.
This time, I didn't move, I didn't move, and put on a steadfast appearance of "I am angry in my heart, but let me pick it up".
The master laughed, his hand slid off his shoulders, and landed on the ribbon around his waist, rubbing ambiguously back and forth a few times. "Can your body bear it?"
At this time, let Zhenzhen go to hell!
I nodded vigorously!
"Then what, life lies in exercise, especially in bed!" I coughed dryly, and my voice went out of tune.
So I understood, what to do with whoever, and what to do with the master, then you have to use bitter scheming, to retreat for progress!
After the ribbon was removed from the waist, the large nightgown was pulled open. Fortunately, the medicinal bath smell was not strong tonight, and there was a slight astringent fragrance.
I endured the urge to fight back against the master, and my whole body was tense, holding the sheets tightly with both hands, even more nervous than the first time...
The tip of the master's tongue swept across the scar on my chest and looked up at me. His voice was already low and hoarse, and he smiled: "What are you nervous about?"
I took a deep breath: "Master, don't hurry up, Yuer will become a big bad wolf!"
He looks like he starts slowly, but I don't know I have been thinking about him for a long time...
After hearing what I said, he was still not in a hurry. He was really a patient man. He could bear it for ten years, and he was not in a hurry at the moment. My hands were walking on my body. I bent my knees and separated my legs to lead him. Entering, he only teased my ears with his lips and teeth.
When I sit in his arms and practice calligraphy, he likes to touch my ears with a brush, so he knows how sensitive my ears are. Didn’t he want to knock me down at that time... Ahem, is I too evil or you are too evil... I feel a little hot thinking about this... (Actually, it is stipulated that you can only write above the shoulders, and you cannot kiss deeply _~)
This foreplay was so long that it was boring. I gasped and nudged him for pleasure, but he was afraid of hurting me. It really left a shadow on him for the first time. I am not afraid of what he is afraid of? What's more, looking at his skills, he clearly learned a lot without telling me!
As a result, my endurance was not as good as him, so I groaned and threw him down, and then he threw him down again...
Finally I fell asleep in his arms. He wanted to pull away. I hugged his waist tightly. My tongue was a little knotted and said, "Don't go, let's give birth to a little jade..."
Unexpectedly, these words almost made him lose control again. After a long time, he kissed my heart, hugged my hand tightly, and whispered softly: "Say it, it's fine."