Chapter 1990: face

"Are you financial and accounting?"
Ding Ning asked.
"She's a certified public accountant."
Xi Lin rushed to introduce her proud of her girlfriend.
"I remember when I was studying, Shanshan's grades were first in grade every time."
Diba highly admires and admires that she has always been admired for her academic achievements.
"That ’s all the old yellow calendar. You did n’t know if you went to school in another place. If Shanshan had an entrance exam because she had a high fever, she would be the science champion in the province. First, it's enough to make a heavy copy. If it wasn't for the uncles and aunts who were restless, she chose the local ebony university. Otherwise, her life would not be like this now. "
Xi Lin greatly respected Yuan Shanshan and made Yuan Shanshan feel warm. For the first time, she felt understood and valued. It turned out that she was not useless. At least, two girlfriends admired her academic achievements. of.
"It's so amazing, I didn't expect that Shanshan was still a great girl."
Ding Ning was slightly moved, but he did not expect Yuan Shanshan to have such a side, sincerely praised it.
"How can I be a talented woman? Before, I felt that grade was everything, but after working, I realized that grade is only an acceptance criterion in school and it does not solve my employment or even food and clothing problems."
Yuan Shanshan said with a slight ridicule.
"Society is a very complex and wide-ranging discipline. If you can mix a well-known society in society, that is what you really learn. Although grades do not represent everything, at least, your starting point is higher than ordinary people, just , You haven't encountered a stage where you can show your abilities. "
Ding Ning said meaningfully.
"Thousands of horses are common, but Bole is not."
Yuan Shanshan said with resentment and self-esteem.
"No, you are wrong. Bole is everywhere, but Maxima is not often seen by Bole. Maybe you have the talent to match Maxima, but you haven't made Bole feel amazing."
Ding Ning's tone of seriousness poured cold water on her: "What you are most wrong with is not only thinking about your own mistakes, but resentment against the sky, and you feel that God is not fair to you, society is unfair to you, and you break the jar. Don't be aggressive, you will pass. "
What this said was very serious, and the tears of Yuan Shanshan's grievances were almost flowing, choking and choking, "You are not me, how do you know that I have not worked hard?"
Diba and Xilin looked at each other, wondering how Ding Ning would say such a heavy word, and was about to murmur for Shan Shan, but only heard Ding Ning's voice sounded in his head: "Don't talk, I'm treating her."
The mouths of the two women opened, and when they reached the mouth, they swallowed back again, revealing a thoughtful look.
"Perhaps you think you worked hard, then I ask you, you said that once you lose your work and home, you will face a situation of rice-free cooking, then why did Diba and Xilin want to introduce you to good work, but you refused? "
Ding Ning's tone was aggressive, pointing directly at Yuan Shanshan's most sensitive heart, his face turned pale and bloodless, his mouth opened but he was speechless. How do you say? You can't say you don't want them to give themselves up because of sympathy.
Although Yuan Ye was a little distressed to her sister, she was in awe of Ding Ning and did not dare to argue with him, but her face became a little unsightly, and her lips were sulking.
Ding Ning didn't wait for Yuan Shanshan to reply, and continued to be bitter and bitter: "Knowing that the boss has a bad heart towards you, but you would rather reject the goodwill of your girlfriend and stay in the company to continue working, why? I tell you, not you How great is not your ridiculous pride
, But you are intoxicated, intoxicated by the kind of being loved and pursued, even if the other party is a fat pig that makes you sick, you are still intoxicated by this feeling of being stung, with this alternative Way to prove your presence and charm. "
"Don't tell me this is not true. You can't hide it from me. I can see all your thoughts. Any subtle activities of your mind can't escape my eyes. Yuan Shanshan, you ask yourself, am I wrong? "
"Don't run away, don't be afraid to face, only face your true inner world bravely, you can walk out of the psychological shadow, Nirvana rebirth, break the cocoon into a butterfly, live a new self."
"People are not afraid of facing despair, the most fear is not being able to face themselves. You have gradually lost yourself in the cruelty of reality. Your heart has been covered with thick dust. If you do n’t have major surgery, you will only Living in a humble self, is this really the life you want? "
"If you want to fight against fate, you need to defeat yourself first. If you do n’t even have the courage to face your heart, your life is completely over. In the illusory dreams. "
...
Ding Ning resembled a knife, relentlessly torn Yuan Shanshan's scars one after another, exposing wounds, making her whole body tremble with pain.
"Ding Ning ..."
Diba could not bear to interrupt.
Ding Ning said seriously, "If you don't want your best girlfriend to live like this in an illusory dream, it's best not to intervene."
"Oh!"
Diba closed her mouth obediently, and grumbled her mouth slightly. This was the first time that Ding Ning was angry with her, which made her feel a little uncomfortable.
"Good, it's not that I want to scold you, but that the most jealous object of Yuan Shanshan is you now. The more I behave toward you, the easier it is to make her jealous, which is not conducive to her recovery."
As Ding Ning's gentle voice sounded in her mind, Diba was relieved soon. Maybe Ding Ning spoke awkwardly, but in severe cases, she needed to use fierce medicine for Yuan Shanshan's goodness. What was wrong with her?
Yuan Shanshan held his head in a dull look, his eyes were dull and bewildered, and he fell into self-analysis.
Although Ding Ning said it was hard to hear, she said it accurately, even if she didn't realize it herself, this was her most real thought.
But when Ding Ning ruthlessly tore all the shrouds and exposed her dark heart to the sun, she was shocked to find out that Ding Ning was right.
Why should I reject Diba and Xilin's kindness? They are their best girlfriends. Isn't it normal for friends to help each other?
Knowing that the fat pig owner had a bad attitude towards himself, he was still willing to hold that meager salary and thought he was maintaining his ridiculous dignity.
In fact, she was trapped in self-doubt and self-denial. Her serious inferiority complex was frustrating, and she felt that no one hurts and loves, and there is no one who pursues herself.
So when it was discovered that the fat pig boss had a bad feeling towards her, she severely refused and even felt nauseous, but the subtle sense of self-identity that was recognized made her intoxicated, and he did not hesitate to reject the goodwill of her girlfriends and insisted Stayed in the company that was always in trouble.
Isn't this cheap?
The matter was thoroughly explained, but it was as simple as that, but she had been reluctant to face her true heart.
But once the real camouflage was torn apart and the darkest side of the heart was exposed to the public eye, things had reached the point where it couldn't be worse, and I felt relaxed.
Just like people often commit
After sinning, he ran away unwillingly, and lived a life of fear all day. Hearing the sound of an ambulance, he thought that the police had come to the door. He was as stunned as a bird of shock. Let people crash.
Therefore, many people can't bear this kind of mental torture, and finally choose to surrender and go to the trial of the law, even if they are in prison, they are better than living a life of hiding in Tibet all day long, at least, they are more at ease.
Yuan Shanshan was at this moment at ease, anyway, things have developed to a situation that can no longer be worse, has fallen to the bottom of the valley, and where else can it fall.
So Diba and Xilin were dumbfounded to see Shanshan's expressions calmly raised his head, calm and unusual: "Yes, you are right, I just humble myself ..."
"sister!"
Yuan Ye shouted in pain.
Yuan Shanshan took a deep breath and shook his head calmly and calmly. Yuan Dong shook his head: "Don't interrupt me. Ding Ning is right. I am too inferior and too weak. I never dare to face my true heart. I don't want to be aggressive, I always feel that I am Yuan Shanshan so good, so capable, and why I ’m not as good as others, so I hate, I hate God for being unfair to me, hate myself for being born in such a poor family, hate my father Why are you disabled, hate Xilin, why would you marry an outstanding husband who loves her so much, live a life of Jinyiyushi, and still be in a blessing, and hate Diba why she can become a big star, others mentioned me Yuan Shanshan would say that I am Diba's girlfriend, but no one would say Diba is my girlfriend ... "
"Shan Shan, stop talking."
Deba bit his lower lip tightly, with pain and pity in her eyes, and begged.
Although she knew Yuan Shanshan was a severe inferiority complex from Ding Ning's inference, when Yuan Shanshan said it herself, she still couldn't breathe. They are the best and best girlfriends.
"Duba, don't interrupt me? I finally had the courage to say the truest thoughts in my heart. If you still treat me as a girlfriend, will you listen to me?"
Yuan Shanshan's tone calmed people's hearts, and there was a kind of desolation.
Xilin sighed and shook her head at Diba, who still wanted to say something, and motioned for her to continue.
Yuan Shanshan's face showed nostalgia, and said leisurely, "Three of us are the same age. This year we are all 27 years old. We have known each other for more than ten years?"
"Duba and I have known each other since we were young. When we were playing with you, it was the first day. We were fourteen years old that year and it was thirteen years."
Xilin interposed softly.
"Yeah, time is passing so fast, we have known each other for thirteen years."
Yuan Shanshan sighed, and then laughed at himself: "Because I have a disabled father and a ragged mother, and still live in a shantytown known as a slum. From the age of seven, I have tasted all the indifference and white eyes, Being bullied, being abused, being laughed at, being bullied and not dare to tell parents, because that would only make them more painful and weak. "
Diba and Xilin's eyes are wet. Although they haven't seen them, they can feel the despair and helplessness.
Yuan Ye gritted her teeth and looked at her sister in tears, holding her hand tightly. It seemed that this was the only way to give her comfort and strength.
He was very young at that time, he was just two years old, where did he know his sister had suffered this way, and when he was older, no one had bullied him, but the sister always protected him like an old hen who protected the calf. Whoever bullies him, she dares to kill anyone.