Chapter 447 - I Lost My Heart

Chapter 447: I Lost My Heart
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En!
Wen Moshen nodded. He sat on the one-seater sofa, gazing at Lin Nuan’s tranquil little face, then smiled gently.
The doctor said that my eyesight might be affected because it’s too near the optic nerves. Worst case scenario, I’ll go blind entirely, so… I wanted to see you again.

Lin Nuan’s petite hands clenched.
It would be a lie to say she wasn’t worried.
After all, there was their friendship growing up together. What’s more, he was someone she once fancied.
Lin Nuan didn’t make a sound. She had never been good at consoling people, so she just sat there quietly, not knowing what to say.


Perhaps because it was too quiet in the ward—so quiet that it felt awkward—Lin Nuan finally spoke up slowly, saying,
Is the risk high?


It’s not too bad!
Wen Moshen smiled.
Then it was back to silence again.
After a long while, Lin Nuan spoke again,
You were fine after a plane crash, so your surgery will definitely be a success! You’ll be fine for sure…

Wen Moshen nodded and gazed up at the glorious sunshine outside the windows.
After the plane crash, I wasn’t fine, Nuan Nuan… I lost my heart!

The golden rays seemed to have shone right into the bottom of Wen Moshen’s eyes. He was smiling, but there was an unparalleled bleakness in his eyes.
His heart had been taken away by Lin Nuan.
After he lost Lin Nuan’s love, he lost his heart too…
Only with her by his side would Wen Moshen feel the beating of his heart, the warmth returned into the blood flowing in him, an increased temperature in his chilly fingers.
Lin Nuan merely smiled lightly.
Brother Moshen, once upon a time when you went missing, I too thought I had lost my heart. But it was only after meeting Huai’an that I realized what I thought previously was wrong.



Look at how clever Lin Nuan’s reply was; she didn’t leave Wen Moshen any room to fantasize at all.
She was able to face up to the fact that she once loved Wen Moshen with ease, so she was telling Wen Moshen honestly… that her heart only had a place for Fu Huai’an now.
He didn’t dare to turn around and look at Lin Nuan, so he continued gazing at the warm and glowing sun outside, his lips more arched than before, his gaze sadder than ever.

Get a vase for those flowers, they’ll keep for a longer time…
Lin Nuan suggested as she looked at the fresh flowers on the coffee table.
Wen Moshen shifted his gaze to the white and purple bouquet, then said softly,
Lilies and forget-me-nots…

Wen Moshen’s thoughts returned to Lin Nuan’s 16th birthday…
He gave Lin Nuan a necklace and a bouquet of lilies. Lin Nuan was ecstatic when she received those flowers, but when she looked up the meaning of lilies, the smile in her eyes was visibly less vibrant than when she received them.
He smiled and explained that he only gave her lilies because he liked them and that he didn’t have flower meanings in mind. The next day, when he saw Lin Nuan, he told her that he had spent the entire night looking up flower meanings—lilies symbolize many things; some people said they symbolize friendship, while others said they symbolize purity.
Even back then, he was subtly beginning to reveal his fondness for the 16-year-old Lin Nuan…

Forget-me-nots symbolize friendship, as well as everlasting love and everlasting memory.
Wen Moshen tried testing her response.


Lin Nuan’s grip on her glass of water tightened. She smiled as she nodded, quick to respond.
En, the florist said that it also depends on the gifter’s identity. I’m not Brother Moshen’s lover, so forget-me-nots symbolize… friendship and memory in our case.

Memory?
That meant… their love was a thing of the past, only to be stored in memories?
Wen Moshen self-mockingly smiled. What right did he have to anticipate today?
If not for the fact that he would be on the operating table tomorrow, Lin Nuan probably wouldn’t even be there…
Even though he knew Lin Nuan was already married, even though he knew it was no longer possible between the two of them…
Originally, Wen Moshen had merely wanted to see Lin Nuan. He didn’t know what he was trying to test right now!
What if, after he stepped off the operating table, he found himself blind? How could he bear to encumber Lin Nuan?
Seeing Lin Nuan lower her gaze and gently take a sip of her water, he let out a long sigh, then scooped up the bouquet on the coffee table.
I’ll go look for a vase for those flowers.


Ok!
Lin Nuan nodded and set her glass on the coffee table, then grabbed her bag.
Then, Brother Moshen, I’ll get going first. I hope everything goes well tomorrow. When you’re out of the operating theater, Huai’an and I will come to visit you again.



As she finished speaking, Lin Nuan lifted her bag and prepared to leave.
Wen Moshen’s hands clenched around the flowers, veins visible on the back of his hands.
In such a hurry?


En!
Lin Nuan smiled as she nodded, her bag slung over her shoulder by now.
I need to attend to some matters at the station later.

Wen Moshen’s throat vibrated slightly.
I want to…

See more of you…
Those words didn’t leave Wen Moshen’s mouth.
Wen Moshen’s thin lips were pursed into a straight line, his deep gaze following Lin Nuan’s footsteps.

Brother Moshen, I’ll get going first…

Before Lin Nuan could finish speaking, she felt a pain in her arm as she was pulled into Wen Moshen’s embrace, knocking right into his chest.
Lin Nuan’s shoulder bag fell onto the marble ground together with the flowers in Wen Moshen’s hands, the pearl-like water droplets on the fresh flowers splattering all over the ground.


Lin Nuan struggled.
Brother Moshen!

With the disparity in strength between man and woman, how could Lin Nuan be Wen Moshen’s match when it came to strength?
Her wrist felt like it was about to snap from Wen Moshen’s firm grip, her slim frame held solidly in his embrace. No matter how much she struggled, she couldn’t manage to push his chest away from her.

Wen Moshen!
Lin Nuan was furious.

Lin Nuan, just for a little while! A little while will do!

Lin Nuan stomped on his foot, not caring if Wen Moshen was still a patient in a moment like this.
Wen Moshen held Lin Nuan tighter in spite of the pain, almost as if he was trying to massage Lin Nuan into his own bones and blood.
Wen Moshen’s mother returned after she had her wound dressed. Seeing what was going on inside through the glass windows of the ward, she covered her mouth with a hand, tears in her eyes.
She was Wen Moshen’s mother. It wasn’t that she wasn’t aware of Wen Moshen’s fondness of Lin Nuan in the past.
In fact, at the very start, Wen Moshen’s mother did like Lin Nuan very much, even more than she liked Gu Hanyan. She had even wanted to pair up Wen Moshen and Lin Nuan, for it was beneficial for the Wens to become in-laws with the Lins too.
But all along, Lin Nuan had a marriage arrangement with the Gus. Then later… Wen Moshen went missing, and Lin Nuan turned from a phoenix to a pheasant.
Then much later, when Wen Moshen returned, Wen Moshen’s mother was afraid the pheasant that was Lin Nuan would get together with Wen Moshen.
Never mind Lin Nuan’s parentage, just based on the fact that she had a mentally-ill mother, how could Wen Moshen’s mother have dared to let Lin Nuan marry into the family?
When Wen Moshen was hospitalized, she racked her brain to come up with ways to stop Lin Nuan from meeting Wen Moshen.
It was just as well that Lin Nuan didn’t turn up…
In retrospect though, she should have gone to Lin Nuan and asked her to visit Wen Moshen back then, to persuade her to get together with Wen Moshen!
That way, Wen Moshen wouldn’t have married that slut, Gu Hanyan!
If Wen Moshen was in good spirits all along, who knew, he might not have gotten an illness like this…
…
Inside the ward…
Lin Nuan’s clear voice was trembling and sharp.
Wen Moshen! Let go of me!

Trepidation seized Lin Nuan’s heart; she was quivering all over.
Once upon a time, Lin Nuan had anticipated Wen Moshen’s embrace!
But today, such an embrace instilled fear in her.