Chapter 2332: Hidden bitterness

Seeing Fang Zhiqiang staring at him motionlessly, Wang Yaxin could naturally see that his own answer obviously couldn't deal with him. After pondering for a long time, Wang Yaxin had to say again: "Isn't this kind of thing due to fate? Even if I am in a hurry, I can’t just pull someone out of the street and marry someone, right?
"I didn't mean to urge you. I just want you to know that you really need a family now. It's not a way to keep going like this. Isn't it often said that Xinhuan is the last way to forget old love?" Fang Zhiqiang said in a tone. Said very seriously.
"Do you think I haven't forgotten you yet?" Wang Yaxin suddenly looked at Fang Zhiqiang in surprise, said this sentence in a surprised tone, watching every expression and movement of Fang Zhiqiang.
"But have you forgotten that this is not important anymore. Only when we are well, will we both be able to let each other's hearts go, right?" Fang Zhiqiang continued to say seriously.
Wang Yaxin couldn’t help but was stunned. She knew what Fang Zhiqiang’s words meant. She was in this state, and when he saw him, he was also uneasy, as if everything in his current state of life was caused by him. He also had guilt and anxiety in his heart.
"Don't worry, the road is my own choice. I have the ability to bear the corresponding consequences, as long as you can live happily." Wang Yaxin sighed with a smile.
"Why are you so stubborn? Even if you don't think about it for me, at least you have to think about Xiaoyu and Xin Sheng? Are you really planning to pull the two of them together for the rest of your life?" Fang Zhiqiang said helplessly after he pondered for a moment.
"Very good, now Xiaoyu has also said, he thinks it is good, at least it is much better than watching me sad every day. As for Xinsheng, as long as I can be by her side at all times, when she grows up, I don't have to worry about it when I become a family." Wang Yaxin said disapprovingly.
"I'm not talking about this." Fang Zhiqiang did not hesitate to say, "If you don't have a family, you will get older and your health is getting worse, so you really intend to let the two children take care of everything? Wouldn't they have Is it pressure? Will there be no complaints?"
These words made Wang Yaxin stunned again. She has always been so rational. She had thought about this in the middle of the night. But at that time, she didn't know how far she was from her age. When she arrived at that time, Both children have already married and established a business, and it is a big deal for them to find a nursing home without putting any pressure on the children.
But now, Wang Yaxin knows about her sequelae, and realizes that her old age is coming quietly to her. Maybe after ten years, her daily life may need to be taken care of by herself.
But the future is so long, is it to live in this state forever? When Wang Yaxin thought of this, the corners of her mouth trembled.
"I know your temper. It's a big deal when the time comes to find a nursing home by yourself. Don't bother the children, not to mention whether you are used to living in it. Even if you are used to it, do the children feel good about it? They can really do it. You leave it alone in the nursing home?" Fang Zhiqiang continued.
"It's a long time from now. It's useless to think about it now. Just live the moment." Wang Yaxin's emotions seem to be a little out of control, she said blankly, as if she didn't want her inner emotions to be affected. Fang Zhiqiang saw it.
"In fact, you know very well that this is not the way to go. If you want to be a person with no desires, it will involve many people." Fang Zhiqiang continued to stare at Wang Yaxin and said word by word.
"I don't care what you think about it now. The two children will have a long way to go. Do you really think you can take good care of them by yourself? After all, you didn't grow up there. You are not familiar with many situations over there. When the children need their parents to solve some things, what should you do if you can’t do it alone?
Fang Zhiqiang said, speaking faster and faster, Wang Yaxin He kept going on like this, many times he wanted to speak, but every persuasion had no effect, and Wang Yaxin didn't seem to listen at all.
This time, before speaking, Fang Zhiqiang thought for a long time. What kind of words can make Wang Yaxin soberly realize that she is in this state, and she is not working at all?
After listening to Fang Zhiqiang's words, Wang Yaxin's mood finally gradually collapsed. She immediately raised her head again, looking at Fang Zhiqiang, and said blankly: "Then you tell me what to do? Should I insist on doing what I think I should do? Should I take back everything that once belonged to me? Xin Sheng is your biological daughter. If I want to give her the best childhood, should I win you back again?"
Fang Zhiqiang was stunned.
Looking at Wang Yaxin's panting, Fang Zhiqiang didn't know how to answer.
"All of you feel that I have been alone like this for the sake of anger and not to get out of the shadows of the past, but who of you has thought about what I think in my heart? Give my children a happy childhood, why don't I want to? Why don't you want to give them a warm family? But Qiangzi, not all men in this world are good men, and not all men can give us a warm family."
"If I find someone else, Xin Sheng and Xiaoyu are not his own. Even if he treats the children well, he is not his biological father. Haven't you ever worried that the children will be separated from her? The original good intentions will make things worse. The children can grow up happily and worry-free. The stepfather may make them feel that the family is more complete, or it may make them feel that the family is already broken!"
"I once asked Xiaoyu. Now Xiaoyu is very sensible. He said that it’s fine to do what I want. He doesn’t interfere with my decision. No matter who the man is, he won’t say much, and he will Try to get along well with him, but how do I feel when I hear this?"
As Wang Yaxin was talking, her eyes had begun to moisten slightly. Although her emotions were so excited, she still restrained her voice and did not disturb the people around her.
"Fang Zhiqiang, do you know women? Women are not only used to give birth to children, they also become mothers, and they have to watch their children grow up day by day. I gave birth to Xin Sheng, you can leave it alone , Do you think it’s fine as long as I can raise her as an adult, but have you ever thought about how anxious I am at night when my child catches a cold and has a fever? Have you thought about seeing other people’s children have a happy native family? , And when Xin Sheng was only my mother, how broken my heart was? Have you ever thought about how it feels to watch your children not go to school, but to watch other children’s children go to education one by one, How desperate is it?"
"Stop talking." Fang Zhiqiang stretched out his hand and motioned for Wang Yaxin to stop.
However, Wang Yaxin's emotions have begun to flood, and it is obviously not so easy to stop again.
"Your sentence is relaxed. Let me quickly find another one. Just like the previous Jiang Bing. I have been with him for so long. Can't I see that he treats me well? But every time he comes to my house, Xiao Yu always hides from him subconsciously. Even if he meets, he can't say a few words. Seeing the kid's disguised smile, do you know how uncomfortable my heart is?"
"Now you say that my children are thinking about it? The children have been by my side and inseparable from me. I know every emotion of them. If it is not for their healthier growth, why should I stay alone? I have been married to Jiang Bingjia for so long, Xiaoyu and him have never had a dispute, but do you think this is good? After all, Xiaoyu is still a teenager, and he has a lot of emotions. He can’t pretend to come every time. When dealing with Jiang Bing, I can see his restraint and disguise clearly. Do you think that even if Jiang Bing and I are really married, will I be able to live in the future? Will Xiaoyu be happy?"
After Wang Yaxin finished speaking, looking at Fang Zhiqiang's silence, she laughed at herself again, and then said: "I said, maybe I am destined to be a woman who will be alone for a lifetime, but at least, there are two children with me. , I should always be content."
"Yaxin...I know you are difficult..."
"You don't know! You don't know anything!" Wang Yaxin suddenly interrupted Fang Zhiqiang's words. This time, her voice was finally a little louder due to the excitement, and everyone around her also cast doubtful glances.
Noting the gazes of the people around, Wang Yaxin lowered her voice again, and continued: "When I left, I thought, as long as I can see you getting happier and happy, I will be satisfied. You really did not disappoint me. Although there are occasional conflicts with Xiaoxiao, your life is already happy enough in my eyes. However, when you are happy, how could you think of the sadness and grievance of a woman like me?"
"It's not to blame you, you don't have the time and energy to think about it, and you don't see what I have experienced with your own eyes, so you can't know."
The words fell, and the two became silent again. At this moment, Fang Zhiqiang didn’t know what he should say. He knew the truth: when things happened to others, he always had endless words to persuade, because, that’s not Own business.
"Perhaps, in your heart, a mature and rational woman like me will never have emotional breakdown at all? There will be no moments of crying without tears, or despair and helplessness." Wang Yaxin looked at the silent Fang Zhiqiang, and after pondering for a moment, he asked again.
When Fang Zhiqiang heard the words, he couldn't help but raised his head and glanced at Wang Yaxin. At this moment, Wang Yaxin looked tired. Fang Zhiqiang opened his mouth, but still made no sound.
"Sorry, I didn't control my emotions."
Suddenly, Wang Yaxin quickly processed her emotions, wiped her wet eye sockets with a tissue, then looked at Fang Zhiqiang again, and said with a smile.
Seeing Wang Yaxin's emotional change so quickly, Fang Zhiqiang was stunned again. How many secrets and bitterness are hidden in her heart for a woman who is good at hiding her emotions?
"This is the way I choose. No matter how hard I am, I should bear it alone. I shouldn't complain to you. Don't take it to heart. After a while, I will be fine."
Wang Yaxin's mood at the moment has returned to normal, always looking at Fang Zhiqiang with a smile, and uttering these words without delay.
However, Fang Zhiqiang couldn't calm down at this time.
What Wang Yaxin said is all right. Fang Zhiqiang has never had the time and energy to think about how difficult Wang Yaxin's life is. Just now Wang Yaxin just said a few examples, and Fang Zhiqiang has already found it incredible, let alone. There are countless examples that Fang Zhiqiang did not know.
Only now, having reached this point, Fang Zhiqiang also knew that he was powerless. Looking at Wang Yaxin's skillful smile, Fang Zhiqiang was at a loss.