Chapter 2554: Weakness (2)

Liu Jiaying has unknowingly lost to Fang Zhiqiang, perhaps even she herself did not realize that from the moment she first started contacting Fang Zhiqiang, until now, although on the surface, it seems that Liu Jiaying has been formulating various Such a plan to lure Fang Zhiqiang into the pit, but in fact, Fang Zhiqiang was able to resolve it every time according to his own ideas. Until the end, Liu Jiaying still played himself in.
After Fang Zhiqiang left, Liu Jiaying fell into entanglement again. Now she feels like she doesn’t want to delay Fang Zhiqiang anymore, because she wants Fang Zhiqiang to be her friend. Although she knows this is difficult to do, she still Want to try.
However, she was also afraid. She was afraid that after she gave up the cooperative relationship with Fang Zhiqiang according to what Fang Zhiqiang said, Fang Zhiqiang would never have any intersection with her again. At that time, no matter how eagerly she wanted to get acquainted. Fang Zhiqiang, but Fang Zhiqiang would no longer have the slightest enthusiasm for him anyway, that was also an extremely uncomfortable thing for Liu Jiaying.
This is how a woman like her is. She is very firm about what she wants, and can even be called stubborn.
What's more, Fang Zhiqiang's words completely hit her weak heart. Although she looks beautiful on the surface, in fact, who was not born a lonely person? When you are alone in enduring loneliness, those prosperous scenes in the past are not just a passing moment? Only the loneliness at that moment belongs to me.
And loneliness is the most difficult thing for a person to overcome, so so many people say that the strong can often endure loneliness.
When you realize that from the moment you are born, you must learn to taste loneliness. After enduring loneliness, you can still choose to live a positive and optimistic life. Isn't such a person the legendary heroism?
For Liu Jiaying, she is not a hero yet, unable to overcome the fear of loneliness, loneliness is also her greatest enemy at present.
In the past, she used all kinds of sensory stimulation to help herself forget about loneliness, but often in the middle of the night, the feeling will still run out as scheduled. Of course she knows how to overcome loneliness, but her past experience Restricted her and made her no longer willing to show her true self to anyone.
Because she is afraid of being deceived, afraid of being hurt, afraid of being laughed at.
Liu Jiaying doesn't deny that this is a kind of cowardice, but she just doesn't want to taste that kind of pain again, even if she lives another self, even if she is a heartless woman in the eyes of others, it is better than enduring that kind of pain.
But there are unexpected circumstances. She originally thought that she could continue like this. Even when loneliness struck, she would still be at a loss for what to do, but as long as she had enough time to forget loneliness, she would be able to dilute that feeling.
The appearance of Fang Zhiqiang completely broke Liu Jiaying’s illusion, and her original life direction was also completely disrupted, especially after Fang Zhiqiang said those things to her, she clearly realized that in Fang Zhiqiang’s eyes , I was no longer the one I had hoped for. Fang Zhiqiang saw through his own heart and weakness, which was dangerous and painful for Liu Jiaying.
She worked hard for so long, just trying to be a chic person in the eyes of others, but in the end, she was still discovered.
This feeling made her a little nervous and at a loss, but at the same time, her heart was extremely longing, longing for the long-lost, and even the happiness that only exists in the legend.
With this thought, Liu Jiaying shook her head in an instant. She couldn't believe that she would still be so naive. In this world for 31 years, she has tasted the ups and downs, which are eternal and which are. For a short while, Liu Jiaying was naturally clear.
Those so-called happiness are described as ‘eternal’ because they are too short.
The so-called pain is described as "will pass" because it will leave an indelible scar in people's hearts forever.
There are two evils, and Liu Jiaying decisively chose the latter. At the beginning, she no longer believed in happiness, nor did she believe that she could get happiness. Even if she did, it would be short and boring, because for her, From the beginning of happiness, she can see the end at a glance. Such a story is unattractive and a waste of time.
How can Liu Jiaying, who has figured everything out, be so stupid to waste time on those things?
She thought that she had seen through Hong Chen, and she thought that she would spend the rest of her life in ‘chance’.
The hateful thing is that Fang Zhiqiang's appearance broke her illusion. No matter how hard she tried to forget the word'happiness' at this moment, the pictures of the moments of happiness in the past still kept appearing in Liu Jiaying's mind. .
She knew that she was addicted to happiness again, and all this was because of Fang Zhiqiang!
For Fang Zhiqiang, what he wanted was such an effect. He knew that this would be cruel to a woman like Liu Jiaying, otherwise, after so long, no one would never have said this to her. if.
Cruel things can often have unexpected effects. What Liu Jiaying has done to her has made Fang Zhiqiang not care about so much. Just like Fang Zhiqiang himself said, she is a person who has been distracted every day. People who are forced by all kinds of things have no time to think about how they can be happy, and no time to think about life like Liu Jiaying, so all he can see is the present, as long as he takes care of everything. , Those things that are about to happen, or things that haven't happened yet, just leave them to solve when they appear.
This is not short-sightedness, but strategy.
In each period of time, people have things that must be done and can be chosen to do. If the former is satisfied, they can plan for the future, and even calculate every next step.
However, if even the things that must be done are not completed, then everything else will be meaningless.
Of course, Fang Zhiqiang knew that his actions like this could cause two results. If Liu Jiaying could figure it out and act according to her own vision, Fang Zhiqiang would naturally be happy to see it. Of course, there is another possibility.
That is, Liu Jiaying was hit by her own pain point, which caused her to become angry and her attitude towards herself would be even worse.
Of course, there are risks in everything. Fang Zhiqiang still dares to take on such risks. After all, in this situation, if he doesn't make a choice, Huaqiang's next road will be even more difficult.
Rather than endure Liu Jiaying's methods again and again, it's better to be straightforward. Perhaps, there will really be a glimmer of life.
But Fang Zhiqiang has counted thousands of things, but he didn't. Now Liu Jiaying has long forgotten how to treat a friend sincerely and how to get a friend with whom he can make heart.
Some people say that you deliberately pretend to be what kind of person you want to become. After a long time of disguising, you will become accustomed to that kind of disguise, so you really become that kind of person.
Liu Jiaying is in this situation. No one is born a bad person. Those bad people often become bad people because they encounter things that are unimaginable and unbearable to others in their lives.
However, once a person is broken, it is too difficult to get better again, and Liu Jiaying has truly experienced this.
She struggled for a long time. She wanted to be friends with Fang Zhiqiang. On the one hand, Fang Zhiqiang really made her feel curious, and most importantly, because Fang Zhiqiang was able to see through her heart. This feeling was like being her own most. Like a tacit friend, he doesn't need to say a word, and the other party already understands what he is thinking.
However, when she had this idea, she found that she had already forgotten how to get along with friends, and even more, how to make others be her friends.
This feeling made Liu Jiaying almost crazy. She hovered on the verge of collapse. The calm and calm she used to have already disappeared at this moment. In this private room with only her own, she showed the most true herself and the most Weak self.