Chapter 679: Encounter in Lhasa (November)

Chapter 679 Encounter in Lhasa (11)
"Farewell? Where are you going?" Fang Zhiqiang asked, his eyes widened.
"Australia." Wang Yaxin said directly to Fang Zhiqiang.
"What? Going abroad?" Fang Zhiqiang was shocked.
"Well, yes. Xiaoyu is everything to me, he is my most important thing. For him, I can do nothing, as long as it can make him healthy and let me do whatever I want. It is me who decides to go abroad. After looking at a few psychologists and discussing the results, Xiaoyu needs an unfamiliar environment, a completely unfamiliar environment for him, because he is afraid of getting tired of these people in the current environment, so there is only a new unfamiliar environment , Will let him have the confidence to contact the outside world, only contact, coupled with my slow care, he will slowly get better, and this is a long process. And going abroad is the best choice. So many Only Australia is easy to emigrate, and the conditions are good in all aspects, so I chose that.
Wang Yaxin explained to Fang Zhiqiang.
"Hey, I said why did you suddenly call me today and ask me to eat? It turned out... It turned out to be saying goodbye to me." Fang Zhiqiang had very complicated thoughts in his mind, even he couldn't explain it clearly.
"I'm sorry, Zhiqiang, please don't blame me." Wang Yaxin nodded and said to Zhiqiang.
"Have you... already decided?" Fang Zhiqiang asked Wang Yaxin after a long time.
"It has been decided, and all the visas have been processed. On my side, I have transferred the office to someone else, and I have sold the house and car. This matter has been in preparation since the beginning of the year. It's been more than two months now." Wang Yaxin said.
"When are you going to leave?" Fang Zhiqiang asked again.
"tomorrow."
"Leave tomorrow? To Australia?" Fang Zhiqiang was surprised again.
"Yes." Wang Yaxin nodded.
Fang Zhiqiang looked at Wang Yaxin blankly, then laughed at himself, took a cigarette out of his pocket, lit it, and smoked it quietly.
Wang Yaxin didn't speak either, just watching Fang Zhiqiang sitting in a chair and smoking a cigarette quietly.
Two people sat at the table. The table was full of dishes, but the two of them just sat around the table, and none of them moved their chopsticks.
"You tell me that you have to go abroad because of Xiaoyu's illness or because you want to avoid me?" Fang Zhiqiang suddenly asked Wang Yaxin.
"Why do you ask that?"
"It's nothing, I just have this feeling, it feels like you are trying to hide from me." Fang Zhiqiang shook his head and said.
"Yes, I admit, it is indeed, not only for Xiaoyu's illness, but also to escape you." Wang Yaxin nodded and said, then tears came out again, looking at Fang Zhiqiang, and said: "In Sichuan, Your home, in the hospital, I have made up my mind that I will never see you again in this life, no longer have any contact with you, I want to forget you, completely forget you. Because we will only encounter pain and limitlessness when we meet again You don’t know how much courage I need to be so unsympathetic to you. I deleted your number and added it to the blacklist. Packed, and drove your car over, and put all of them to Liu Yan, so that I won’t see you again, because I’m afraid that when I see you again, you will not be able to control your emotions. I'm afraid that I will be influenced by emotion again. That way, it will only harm you and me."
"But it's easy to say, but difficult to do. In the past two months, I have been thinking of you all the time. I have called your name in my dreams countless times, and I am scared and awakened when I watch you leave me. Later I found out that I and you are already strangers. Many, many times, I can’t help but want to find you. Sometimes, I control myself, and sometimes, I don’t control myself. I have Many times I drove my car to the foot of the building where you lived, and I was downstairs looking at the lights in your house. The longer the time, the more I cannot control myself. I miss you and I love you. Especially when After these things happened to Xiaoyu, I was hesitated and helpless. At this time, I couldn’t control myself to find you. I wanted you to hold me. I just wanted to be with you. Lean on your shoulders, because I'm so tired and tired, the more this is the time, the more I miss you."
"It is said that the longer the time, the easier it is to forget a person, but for me, the longer the time passes, the more I miss you. I feel more and more that I am about to lose control of myself. But I also know that we can't be together anymore, even if it's a little bit of ambiguity between each other, we can't have it, because you and I know the ending. For us, the ending is painful. Especially Xiaoyu now In this way, he regards you as an enemy, and he can't let you meet him again. This is what the doctor said. How can you live together even if you can’t even meet? Even during this period, I gave myself a lot of comfort in my heart. I found many excuses for myself to remarry with you and be with you, but this one, I will never get around. He is my son, I can’t want him, I can’t ignore him. That’s because of this, we will eventually Cannot be together."
"I started to fear, I was afraid, I was afraid that I would be uncontrollable to find you, and the consequence could only be that you and I fell into endless pain again, the pain of dilemma. Therefore, I want to escape, escape, escape This city with you, escape this environment, just like Xiaoyu, I want to start again, because I am tired, this relationship makes me so tired, I also hope to start again, I can’t stand this relationship I'm going to a place where there is no breath of you at all. Only there can I be reborn. The current life makes me feel uncomfortable and suffocates every day. This relationship is too painful, you and I love too much Tired is too tired, even if you have separated and divorced, it is not easy at all." After Wang Yaxin finished speaking, tears were already streaming down his face.
"I originally thought that I would be rational, but facing you, facing this relationship, my rationality was completely defeated. I never thought that one day I would be like a teenage girl. A man is tortured by a relationship, it is better to die." Wang Yaxin looked at the world outside the window quietly.