Chapter 35:
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My Feelings Can Wait
- Min Ran
- 2212 characters
- 2021-03-04 09:57:48
After Jing Xiu left, Ji Youyan was stunned for a while. She reflected that she had made a mistake.
Regardless of the work perspective, she and Jing Xun are both mentors, each has its own style of guidance, or from a personal perspective, she and Jing Xun care about Ruan Ningwei and each have their own thinking angles.
She has no right to demand or even blame Jing Xuan in this way.
Because Ruan Ningwei's cowardice and sensitivity made her see who she once was, she instinctively understood and understood Ruan Ningwei. But what Jing Xiu said was not wrong, blindly indulging in his own emotions, not only making himself painful, but also making people around him suffer.
Just like in her relationship with Jing Xiu back then, if she could be more honest with Jing Xiu, maybe they wouldn’t end up so tragically; if Ruan Ningwei could untie this knot, she wouldn’t have to bear the verbal abuse from the public like in the previous life, maybe She won't go to the end in the end?
Jing Xiu said that she was accusing her of being unkind, and asked herself. For a moment, she had such a thought. Jing Xiu has always been so confident and brave, Ji Yueguang wind, so all the dark and humble, it seems that she has been isolated from her body.
However, even if others can misunderstand her in this way, only oneself, Ji Yuyan is not qualified to accuse her like this.
When the competition ended that year, neither she nor Jingxun entered the debut position. Jingxuan had no intention of forming a group, so according to the original plan, she signed a contract with the prestigious Guangyu. At that time, Jing Xiu suggested to her that if she wanted to, she could sign in Guangyu with her.
But for the sake of self-esteem, Ji Youyan rejected Jing Xun's proposal and accepted the olive branch extended by Dingfeng.
In order to take care of Ji Youyan's self-esteem, Jing Xun hardly interferes with her career planning and development. But many years later, when she broke up with Jing Xuan, Wang Junchan warned her that this is different from the past, and when she was repeatedly coerced and lured to accept the unspoken rules of the high-level and investors, she knew that Jing Xun had been silently taking care of her behind the scenes. By yourself. Without Jing Xiu's protection, she would have no way to walk cleanly under the hands of a ludicrous villain like Wang Junchan.
But Jing Xiu never mentioned this matter. It's like she didn't understand why she gave up singing but still supported her acting. She didn't like her hype but kept silently enduring it. Jing Xiu had also empathized with her pride, understood her cowardice, and gently embraced her.
She clearly knew that Jingxuan was a proud person, but not a self-man.
But she just interpreted her like that for a moment. Ji Yuyan clenched his fingers, his nails sinking deeply into the palms of his hands, his regret overwhelming his heart.
Lin Yue called and urged her: "Sister Ji, Teacher Su is here, are you and Teacher Jing not over yet?"
Ji Yuyan bit his lip, and answered Lin Yue in a low voice, "I know, I'll go over immediately."
In the evening, Chi Dongqing arrived at the airport. Because Chi Dongqing had to play with Ruan Ningwei at night, for convenience, Chi Dongqing did not stay in the five-star hotel where Gu Lingfeng stayed last time. Instead, he stayed in the presidential suite on the same floor as Ji Youyan and the others.
The dinner was set up at an old restaurant in Lingzhou which is only a five-minute drive away.
The rehearsal work was over. Ji Yooyan pondered the improvement of Ruan Ningwei’s script in the lounge. Lin Yue helped Ji Yooyan take a cup of hot water to moisten her throat and asked Ji Yooyan: "Ji, I will let Brother Li drive the car to the door to wait for you?" The work group informed that it was almost time to leave for dinner.
Ji Youyan paused, then hesitated: "No need."
"Huh?" Lin Yue's eyes rolled, and then he said clearly: "Oh. I see, Sister Ji, do you want to ride Teacher Jing's car again."
Ji Yooyan put on his pen cap, stood up and tapped Lin Yue's forehead with a pen, and said with a grin, "You talk a lot." After that, she looked down again, changed her mind and sighed: "Let Brother Li Get ready in the parking lot."
A Xiu may not be able to let her in the car today.
She asked Lin Yue to clean up the papers, and then went to the parking lot to wait. She carried her bag and went downstairs to the entrance of the hall, waiting for Jingxuan.
When she reached the door, she discovered that the sky was radiant and snow was floating.
The first snow in Lingzhou. The roaring north wind in the morning did not seem to have blew in vain. Ji Yoo couldn't help but spread her five fingers upwards, watching the snowflakes fall on her palms. The coldness was the touch in memory.
If her mother is by her side, she should be scolded for not being afraid of cold, and she deserves frostbite. When I was a child, my health was bad and my father was strict in discipline. It snowed in winter, and my mother was afraid that she would be sick. My father thought that girls should be quieter, so she never allowed her to build snowmen and snowball fights downstairs like other children. Every time it snowed, she could only secretly open the window, watching the children frolicking in the compound, and reaching out to pick up a little snowflake. But every time, I was caught by my mother.
Yanzhou, is it snowing? I haven't seen the winter in Yanzhou for many years. Ji Youyan was slightly lost in thought.
Behind him came the sound of the elevator ding-dong opening. Ji Yuyan took the snowflakes in his hands and turned to look back.
As she expected, Jing Xiu and Yao Xiao had come down.
Ji Youyan breathed a breath of heat in his hands, watching Jing Xiu approach step by step, showing a soft smile and said, "Mr. Jing, are you going to eat?"
Jing Xiu couldn't hear her emotionally and responded, "Yeah."
"Today, is it convenient for you to ride in Teacher Jing's car together?" Ji Youyan expected.
Jing Xiu looked at the falling snow with a look as cold as the temperature outside, and asked her, "Did Lin Yue go to the emergency room again today?" She turned her head and stared at Ji Youyan faintly.
Ji Yuyan was guilty of being seen by her, and she couldn't speak any nonsense. She cleared her throat almost imperceptibly, and replied: "No." After a pause, she said anxiously, "I just thought it was snowing, and the snowy road was slippery. It is not safe to drive. If it is convenient for you, Teacher Jing , We can be together."
Jing Xiu's car has arrived. Jing Xiu watched the driver help her open the car door, and spit out a word indifferently: "There is a word in investment."
"Huh?" Ji Yoon was puzzled.
"Eggs cannot be put in a basket."
"..." Ji Youyan was choked.
Yao Xiao quickly reacted, "Bah, baah," said: "Teacher Jing, what bad words to say."
Jing Xiu frowned, and leaned on the door of the car to say to Ji You: "It's because my Chinese is not good, and I said something wrong. If Mr. Ji feels unsafe, you can consider walking over and be very close." After speaking, she closed the door. . Yao Xiao glanced at Ji Youyan sympathetically, and got into the car.
This time, the car really drove away without hesitation.
Ji Yuyan was stunned, looking at the exhaust of the car, feeling sad and soft. Who dares to say that Jingxuan's Chinese is not good?
The snow melted into water in the palm of the palm, and it was frozen to the bones. Ji Youyan gave a wry smile, wiped his hands and called Lin Yue, asking her to let the driver drive over.
In the car, Jing Xun looked at the street scene and was distracted. Yao Xiao sat in the passenger seat and looked at Jing Xiu from the mirror for several times, but couldn't help but ask carefully: "Teacher Jing, what happened to you and Teacher Ji?"
Jing Xiu recovered, and gently returned to Yao Xiao and said: "It's nothing." She looked at Yao Xiao's caring expression, paused, and asked Yao Xiao: "Xiao Xiao, in your eyes, what kind of person am I?"
Yao Xiao was stunned, and subconsciously replied: "He is a good person."
Jing Xiu's brows stretched slightly, and he laughed: "Is this a good person card you sent me?" She smiled, her eyes gradually darkened, leaning on the back of the chair, Xiao Suo said: "I'm just thinking, I In her eyes, what kind of person is it."
It is self-evident who this "she" refers to. Yao Xiao kept silent and did not comment.
Jing Xiu didn't really ask Yao Xiao, nor did he expect Yao Xiao to give her an answer. She thought of Ji Yuyan's emotions and eyes when she defended Ruan Ningwei in the afternoon, and she felt tired.
In Ji Yuyan's eyes, what kind of person is she? Is he a person who cannot be trusted, is superior, does not know the suffering of the world, so he is not close to humanity? So, like Ruan Ningwei, she closed her heart tightly and didn't believe that she could find understanding and comfort in her lover, right?
It's ridiculous. For nearly six years of dating, Ji Youyan never even told her which university she graduated from and whose parents' names were her first names.
Sometimes Jing Xiu felt that she could truly touch Ji Yooyan's heart, and sometimes she felt that Ji Yooyan was far away from her. Since the reunion, her emotions and reason have been tearing at her. Every time she starts to feel soft, new questions will always pop up to remind her that those unresolved knots and unrebuilt trust still lie between her and Ji Yuyan.
How many times can they be lucky to start again after this end?
Jing Xiu closed his eyes and rubbed the center of his eyebrows.
After calming down for a moment, she remembered a serious matter, took her mobile phone, and dialed Tao Xingruo's number.
At the end of the conversation, the car just happened to drive in front of the restaurant. The restaurant is hidden in the quaint and elegant gardens, and vehicles are not allowed to enter, so diners can only get off at the door and walk into the garden. If you are interested, you can enjoy the scenery of the garden along the way, which is also unique.
Ji Yuyan didn't know which way he would go, the last thing came first. When Jing Xiu arrived, she was already standing under the signboard of the restaurant, under the garden arch.
Jing Xiu opened the car door, and the roaring night wind and snow flew toward him. Yao Xiao followed and got out of the car, and was about to ask the waiter who was guiding him if he could provide extra umbrellas.
Suddenly, the warm breath approached, and the shadow fell. It was a dark umbrella covering the wind and snow above Jingxuan.
Jing Xiu was stunned. Before he could speak, Yao Xiao was saved and said, "Ms. Ji, you haven't entered yet? The snow is a bit heavy. I would like to ask if there is an umbrella here." , Lin Yue also held an umbrella to cover Yao Xiao in.
Ji Yuyan stood beside Jingxun holding the umbrella handle, and said softly: "I'm waiting for you."
Cars whizzed by sporadically on the trail, and suddenly a dazzling light flashed in the distance, reflecting the light on the thin snow on the ground, shining brightly.
Ji Youyan instinctively squinted his eyes, and conditioned his hand to cover Jingxuan's eyes, and replied to Yao Xiao: "I think there is a tendency for the snow to fall, so I am worried that you might not bring an umbrella, so Yueyue took more."
Between the light and dark changes, Jing Xun opened his eyes, staring blankly at Ji Youyan's delicate right hand that stood in front of him. For a moment, she felt as if her surroundings had calmed down, and the sound of her heartbeat and the sound of the car running over snowflakes suddenly became clear and terrifying.
The car drove by in Jingxuan's slowness, and Ji Youyan naturally put down the hand that was blocking Jingxuan's eyes. As if afraid of being rejected, she smiled at Jing Xun and explained in a nervous manner: "Let's go? It seems there is a way to go in. Snow falling on her body will become uncomfortable."
Jing Xiu looked at her exposed outside the umbrella, with snowflakes falling on her shoulders, and followed her arms all the time, and saw her hanging down, the catkin that had just blocked her from the high light, and her throat choked.
"Yeah." Jing Xiu heard that he still agreed to her.
She heard the sound of falling snowflakes.
Cooperating with her, the sound of reason swayed again.
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Teacher Jing sat on the wheel of history and ran over mercilessly.
Sister Ji sits up stubbornly: I'm jio so I can rescue it! !