Chapter 190: : Their past

Chapter 190: Their Past
However, this time Qin Yue waited for a long time, until the time seemed to be freezing, and did not wait for Jian Ran to appear again.
Qin Yue didn't want to wait silly again, he began to search, not letting go of every corner of the room, while turning over and calling her name: "Jian Ran, Jian Ran--"
He searched it over and over again, and he called her name over and over again, but she still couldn't find his Jian Ran.
"Qin Yue, I am here, why can't you find it? When did you become so stupid?"
Jian Ran's voice sounded behind Qin Yue again, and he immediately turned his head back, but the room was still empty, where was her shadow.
"Jian Ran—" He lay on his hips, picked up the pillow she often slept on, and sniffed. The fragrance of her hair still remained on the pillow.
Because he hadn't rested for a long time, Qin Yue fell asleep in a daze.
When he was sleeping soundly, someone poked his face with a finger: "Qin Yue, God is so unfair. He gave you such a good family background and gave you such a beautiful face."
"Jian Ran, don't make trouble!" Qin Yue stretched out his hand to grab the hand that was making trouble on his face, but once again grabbed it.
Qin Yue woke up suddenly, he was the only person in the room.
Can't see Jian Ran, he just feels that his heart is empty, with cold wind blowing from time to time.
He got up, walked over to Jian Ran's desk, next to it was an easel, which was an unfinished picture of her.
Qin Yue picked up the paintbrush, trying to complete her unfinished painting, but he painted and painted, the more he painted, the less he knew what he wanted to paint.
"Mr. Qin, why are you so stupid that you ruined all my paintings, so I hate you."
"Jian Ran, I—"
"You are so stupid, don't talk to me."
"Jian Ran, don't hide, you come out and let me see you."
Why can he hear her voice, but can't see her, where is she hiding, why he can't find her.
"Qin Yue, this place is too big and it is not convenient to live. Why don't we move back to the original place."
Jian Ran's voice sounded again, and Qin Yue suddenly thought of something, and rushed out madly and drove back to Mengke Jingcheng where they lived when they were newly married.
Open the door, there are two pairs of couple slippers on the shoe rack, one big and one small, the big one is his and the small one is hers.
This was what she chose when they were visiting the mall. At that time, she blushed and said to him: "Mr. Qin, would you like to wear couple slippers with me?"
At that time, he didn't speak, but just nodded.
Although he doesn't like to wear that kind of childish shoes, she likes it. He is willing to accompany her because she is his wife and he wants her to be happy.
Because the house is often taken care of by special personnel, the house where no one has lived for a long time is still clean and clean, as if the two of them are still living here.
After stepping through the hallway, he looked at the kitchen for the first time. Every time she came back from work, she was always busy in the kitchen. When he heard the sound of him opening the door, she would stick her head out of the kitchen and greet him: " You are back. The food will be ready soon. Go and wash your hands."
"Okay." Qin Yue nodded, fixedly looking at the direction of the kitchen, as if Jian Ran was still busy in the kitchen, making her good boiled fish, adding onions that he couldn't eat to the boiled fish.
"Jian Ran—" He called her name, but he dared not approach her again. After several disappointments, he knew that as long as he approached, she would disappear from his eyes.
"Mr. Qin, why don't you stand still, go and wash your hands, you can eat immediately." She turned around and said with a smile to him.
"Okay." Qin Yue still nodded, but still did not move. He was afraid that when he turned around, she would be gone again.
"Mr. Qin, I want to give you a baby monkey."
Jian Ran in the kitchen was gone. She stood at the bedroom door, looking at him nervously and shyly.
Qin Yue also remembered this sentence. It was what she told him when they came back from the hospital that night. She became his real wife that night.
She obviously has such a shy personality, but she did such a bold thing to him.
If she didn't want to be with him forever, she wouldn't do it because of her character.
"Jian Ran, do you really bear it?"
After she burned the traces in his life that could no longer be erased, she disappeared from him in such a cruel way, pushing him into the hell, and savoring the pain of worms.
He doesn't want any children, he doesn't want any woman, he only wants her, Jian Ran is the only one in the world-his Jian Ran!
"Qin Yue, will we keep going? We will not separate, will we?"
Some time ago, she always asked him such questions, and her expression was so sad every time she asked him.
She was such a confident person, and she always said that she believed him, but she was so unconfident about their future.
She must have encountered something to make this happen, and he didn't even see anything.
Why didn't he see it?
If he had guessed her thoughts early, wouldn't it happen today?
What happened to him that he didn't know?
Qin Yue walked into the room where they lived for a few months, and he seemed to see how she looked when she helped him wear a tie for the first time.
She flushed with shame, her head hung down, and she helped him nervously and attentively.
He hid in the room, looking everywhere for the traces left by Jian Ran, and he didn't know how many days had passed.
"Wow -" the baby's crisp cry suddenly came from outside the thick door, Qin Yue's body stiffened suddenly, but he quickly reacted.
He hurried to the bathroom to wash his face and tidied his clothes. He felt that he didn't look so vicissitudes of life, and then went to open the door.
"Wow -" Outside the door, the baby's cry continued, but Qin Yue's hand holding the doorknob did not move.
Qin Yue closed his eyes and took a breath before turning the doorknob to open it.
Outside the door, Jian Ran was holding their baby and looking at him with a smile, but he only blinked, and the people in front of him became Qin Xiaobao and a strange woman. The strange woman was holding a baby, and the baby was still big. Crying, it seems very sad.
"Brother, this is the little baby, you can hug her." After Qin Xiaobao finished speaking, he motioned to the newly invited nanny to hand over the baby to Qin Yue.
Qin Yue looked around, but didn't look at the tiny milk doll. Again, he still didn't see the person he wanted to meet.
Finally, he retracted his gaze and looked at the milk doll held by the strange woman. It was his and Jian Ran's child, and was the only thought she left for him.
He stretched out his hands and tremblingly embraced the child.
I don’t know if it’s telepathic. He just stopped crying when he was holding the crying milk doll, but kept sobbing, as if he was wronged too much.