Chapter 4: The origin of pain

Su Yutan's problem caused Zhou Feng to fall into his memory.
He stood up slightly, leaned his back on the back of the chair, and said coldly, "My mother is a woman with a water-borne poppy. She hooked up and down everywhere, and once my father found it, he hit her once ..."
Su Yutan thought to herself: your mother really gossiping? Is it because your father is suspicious, suspicious, or even engaged in domestic violence?
"What happened later?" She asked softly.
"Later ..." Zhou Feng said quietly, "Later, the woman left me and my father and ran away with the wild man ... ran away!"
Su Yutan thought: Regardless of the truth of Zhou Feng's mother being accused of "going three-on-four," she left her young son to a husband with a domestic violence record, which is extremely irresponsible.
The rational approach of a normal mother is to call the police, accuse her husband of domestic violence, prosecute divorce, and bring her child to start a new life.
Even if she doesn't have a job, she doesn't have to worry about living with her children after the divorce.
Because of the divorce in this case, the court will order her ex-husband to pay a high amount of punitive maintenance each month, the maximum amount can reach 60% of the ex-husband's total income.
She doesn't have to worry about the ex-husband's account, because the court can enforce it and automatically transfer money from her ex-husband's account to her account every month.
If the ex-husband is unemployed and loses income, she can apply for social assistance, which is enough for her and her son's basic expenses.
She also has no need to worry about her ex-husband's entanglement.
Because her ex-husband was sentenced to divorce in this case, the child's custody was deprived, and a court injunction was ordered to prohibit her from approaching her and her child.
If the man violates the prohibition and tangles with her, she can call the police and put him in jail, and then apply for identity change and protection, so that the man and her child can no longer be found after being released from prison.
Under such a social system, Zhou Feng's mother still left her son and walked away, which cannot be forgiven.
Su Yutan sighed, wondering secretly: Does Zhou Feng's mother also suffer from subconscious trauma syndrome?
The most painful and worrying part of this disease is that it will be "intergenerational."
People with this disease, because of the impact of the disease, often make choices that ordinary people cannot understand at critical moments, leading to greater tragedies for the next generation and themselves.
"She's gone, is your father angry?" Su Yutan asked Zhou Feng.
"Yes! He's furious! He gets so drunk every day and takes me as a punching bag. He punches and kicks lightly, and hangs up with a whip ... it really hurts! Many times, I feel like I'm going to be Killed. "
When speaking these words, Zhou Feng's body shivered slightly. It seems that memories alone can make him feel terrified.
Upon hearing these words, the pain of being beaten by the whip immediately emerged from Su Yutan's memory. She couldn't help but tremble slightly.
"Doesn't anyone find that he treats you like that?" Su Yutan said quickly, diverting Zhou Feng's attention as well as his own attention.
"My father runs a farm. Except for the robots on the farm, only I and him. He has a bad temper and has no friends or relatives. He also excuses the inconvenience of transportation and does not allow me to go to physical schools, but only lets me go to online schools Learn. So no one has noticed for years. "
Su Yutan sighed again. Although the online school is convenient, everyone's image in the school is virtually generated.
When going to an online school, you only need to select the "fixed avatar", and the actual physical condition will not be reflected; naturally, his injury will not be discovered by teachers and classmates.
Zhou Feng hugged the gun tightly. I don't know if he wanted to find a sense of security or to control his body's tremor.
He continued his vision blankly and said, "I have no one to rely on to talk, but to desperately please him, hoping to be beaten a few times ..."
Having said that, he choked a little and stopped talking.
Su Yutan was afraid that he would indulge in negative emotions, and quickly said: "It is not easy to please him, is he?"
After several seconds, Zhou Feng said, "It's not easy. It can't be pleased at all. Because he demands too much of me."
The choking sensation in his voice had disappeared.
"I studied hard and was the first in the class every time I took an exam, but he was never satisfied.
"He said that the first place in the online school class is nothing. Just rely on this ability, don't think about standing out in the future. Standing out ... Is everyone like it?" He asked Su Yutan.
Su Yutan smiled gently: "Not necessarily. Everyone has different pursuits."
"But he doesn't think so. He wants me to stand out as soon as he thinks about it. Oh, he didn't stand out. Why would I want to stand out?" There was a repressed anger in Zhou Feng's tone.
"Some parents like to impose their dreams on their children."
"Is this right?" Zhou Feng asked Su Yutan, seeming puzzled and mocking.
Su Yutan couldn't say anything against her, she could only answer: "This is wrong. From the moment of birth, a child is an independent individual, a life that should be respected and must be respected. They do n’t need, nor should they Responsible for the dreams of others. "
Feng Feng immediately said: "But he didn't think so! In order to make me stand out, he downloaded various papers from the Internet every three points and let me do it. If I make a mistake, I get a lash. Do you know how many lashes I have suffered? 2786 whip! "
"Did you count?" Su Yutan was surprised.
"I'm inherently sensitive to numbers. I don't need to deliberately count them. They are in my heart."
"Why are you so clever so many questions?"
Zhou Feng laughed with a smile: "If it was just a mathematics paper, I wouldn't be wrong with one question. But the paper he gave me included not only mathematics, but also many other subjects. How could I be so versatile?"
Su Yutan can only sigh.
Zhou Feng also said: "He also said: If I can't get ahead, I can only marry a low and cheap woman like him, and have a stupid and wacky child.
"Since he doesn't like that woman, why marry her? Since he doesn't like me, why give birth to me?
"Am I willing to be born of them? If I could choose, I would have never been born!" His tone grew more and more angry.
"How many years have you lived alone with your father?" She asked Zhou Feng.
"For almost four years."
"How did you get rid of him?"
"The teacher often says that if you encounter domestic violence, you must say it, don't bear it. At the beginning, I didn't dare to say it, because my mother didn't want me anymore. How would I live without my father? Then one day, I Finally, I could n’t stand it, so I told my teacher. The teacher called the police ... "
"and after?"
"My father was deprived of custody, and my mother came to fight for my custody after being notified. Although she was irresponsible for leaving me, she cried in tears in the court and hated herself for being too weak. Hope to give her a chance to compensate. The jury decided to trust her and gave her my custody. "
Su Yutan continued to ask, "Is your mother good to you?"
Would a woman who had lost her son to a husband who had a history of domestic violence, and left alone, really reflected on himself and compensated his son?
Zhou Feng was silent for a moment and asked her: "Guess?"
Su Yutan did not guess. She asked a different way: "How do you get along with her?"
"She doesn't hit me. That's fine. But she's very busy. She's busy at work, busy eating, drinking, and having fun.
"She talked to me about the conditions, as long as I cooperated with her to cope with social workers and do whatever she wanted. She gave me living expenses and pocket money every month. I would spend as much money as I want."
Su Yutan understood.
Zhou Feng's mother was fighting for custody, only for the support of her son. She didn't have much sincerity for her son.
Zhou Feng's face had a faint sorrow: "I think it's good to be in peace with nothing like this. Just act with her in front of the social worker and pretend to be very harmonious. Unfortunately, our acting skills were not good enough and were exposed by the social workers the truth.
"My mother was warned by the court. She was so angry that she didn't want to carry me as a burden anymore. She simply beat me up and was deprived of custody by the court.
"She told me that she never liked me. At the beginning, she was fighting for my custody, just to support her with a maintenance fee. I didn't expect my father's income was so low, which caused her to get a few troubles, but a lot of trouble. I regret it. Hehe ... "
There were faint tears in his eyes.
Su Yutan couldn't help sighing.
In this way, Zhou Feng can only be adopted.
"Do you have any relatives?" Relatives have priority to adopt.
Zhou Feng shook his head: "Later, I was adopted by a couple living in South America. The man who adopted me ... was rich and had social status, but he was a pervert who liked Asian little boys. That pervert ... Yes I ... did something unforgivable ... "
Unforgivable things ...
Su Yutan took a breath in her heart. If she didn't understand it wrong, then he was ... sexually assaulted? !!
Zhou Feng's breathing became extremely heavy, and cold sweat leached out of his forehead.
After a while, he continued to say, "My adoptive mother was the accomplice of the man. She helped the man control me and imprisoned me. They also colluded with the doctor and forged my medical report over and over again, making me disappear. .
"The man violated me again and again. I asked for help and had to pretend to be obedient and did a lot of disgusting things. Later, I finally found an opportunity to kill the dog and man and escape ..."
There was silence all around. Many hostages around him looked at him with sympathy.
Su Yutan also sympathized with him.
There are many people with subconscious trauma syndrome, but most of them are primary or secondary. The higher the level, the fewer cases.
Patients with grade 6 latent trauma are extremely rare. They have all suffered severe trauma, without exception.
One of the more common situations is being repeatedly sexually assaulted in adolescents and asking for help.
It destroys the spiritual world of a minor and is devastating.
Su Yutan thought: Compared with Zhou Feng, she was lucky. At least, she has a dad who loves her and a very good adoptive mother.
As soon as the idea appeared, she was a little stunned in her mind, and suddenly a word flashed: Stockholm syndrome.