Chapter 59: shadow

The next morning, when Sha Jun came to Su Yutan again to chat, her eyes were a little red.
He said, "Last night, I dreamed about my sister. I dreamed about our childhood ... and dreamed of her asking me: Why kill her?"
Su Yutanke did her part in the conversation and asked, "How do you answer her?"
Sha Jun exhaled very slowly: "I said: I'm just ending her pain and ending the pain she has brought to others."
Su Yutan continued to chat: "What is her reaction?"
"She crouched on the ground and cried, crying very sad, crying for a long time. Then she asked me: she just loves one person, what's wrong?" Sha Jun looked at Su Yutan and asked her, "Do you think this problem What should I answer? "
Su Yutan sighed: "There is nothing wrong with loving someone, but she loves her in the wrong way."
Sha Jun shook her head: "I didn't answer her like this. I said: We are all evil spirits crawling out of hell, they will only ask for their lives, they will not love others. She delusions to pursue human love as evil spirits, It's true. People can only love others, how can they love a demon? "
Su Yutan was silent, and for a moment did not know how to take his words.
He sat on the couch with his head down, and murmured with a clear expression: "I was wrong too. He is obviously a wicked ghost, but he wants to pretend to be a man who maintains light and justice ..."
Su Yutan looked at him with anxiety.
She felt that since Sha Jun reported the three "good news" to her, his whole temperament was different.
The former Sha Jun felt contradictory to her, but she still had vitality and fighting spirit. After Cui Linlin's death, he seemed to have lost that vitality and fighting spirit, and the whole person was abnormally lost.
Dreams are often a reflection of one's spiritual world. Sha Jun would have that kind of dream, and he would say that kind of thing in the dream because he already had that kind of thought.
It seemed that the killing of his sister by himself had dealt a heavy blow to him-although that was his own choice.
Su Yutan wondered in his heart, what should I do in this case? Should I encourage Sha Jun, don't let him be so mournful?
She didn't care about Sha Jun, but was afraid that he couldn't think of it, so she pulled her and the pigeon together.
"Do you know why I became a serial killer?" Sha Jun asked her.
Su Yutan said, "Because you want to purify the global environment?"
This is what Sha Jun himself said. He said the scum exhaled the stench.
Sha Jun nodded: "Yes! My mother told me a lot about the earth when she was young. In her description, the earth is like heaven. There are not so many killings, not so many injuries, the social system is perfect, and the civilization is very high. high……
"For many years, I survived every day relying on all kinds of beautiful fantasies about the earth. I want to come to the earth and see what it looks like, so I will die unwillingly.
"But when I came to Earth, I found that there are a lot of scum here. It's not as good as I thought. I thought: Clean up these scum, will this planet be a little cleaner?"
Su Yutan did not speak, she was pondering Sha Jun's mental state.
She felt that Sha Jun seemed to be at a critical point and had to pull him in the direction of positive sunlight, lest he really couldn't think of it and pulled her to death with the little pigeon.
Sha Jun also said, "But recently, I'm a bit tired. The scum can't be killed. Because of selfishness, greed, jealousy, vanity ... these weaknesses in human nature will never disappear."
Su Yutan enlightened him: "These weaknesses will certainly not disappear, but the flash points in human nature will also not disappear."
Sha Jun looked at her with deep eyes, no words, and no expression.
Su Yutan continued: "Like me. For an extremely remote opportunity, I sat desperately into the flying saucer to rescue the little pigeon ... Didn't it touch you?"
Sha Jun nodded and said abnormally, "Your choice did not disappoint me."
Su Yutan quietly breathed a sigh of relief: "If you pay too much attention to the weaknesses of human nature, you will feel that everyone is abominable; if you pay more attention to the highlights of human nature, you will find that the world is actually very beautiful."
"Like what? What human flashes do you see?"
Su Yutan racked his brain and started to give examples.
For example, her adoptive mother not only does her best to treat her, but also adopts her, loves her, takes care of her, and helps her solve all kinds of problems and troubles in her growing up. She never finds trouble and never asks for returns.
Brother Brother Lu, for example, has taken care of her and his patients all these years. For so many years, he has been so busy that he has no time to make a girlfriend.
For example, Chen Ruoshui was madly obsessed with Yue Yue, but willingly stood in front of a spare tire, and also made an idea and pulled the red line to help Yue Yue pursue his sweetheart without return.
Avril is also respectable. Before Cui Linlin escaped from prison, she wanted to accept Anuo sincerely.
However, this example of Avril Lavigne may stimulate Sha Jun's emotions, so she will not mention them.
After giving the example around her, seeing Sha Jun's indifferent look, she added, "Like your mother again. Your father treats her like that, but she doesn't blame you, right?"
Sha Jun's eyes flickered a little, a little moist in his eyes, and he nodded very lightly.
Su Yutan also said, "When she fled, she brought you, too, not only with you, but also with your sister. Your sister is not related to her, or the daughter of someone she hates, but she does not. I'm saying something to you, right? "
Sha Jun said quietly: "I sometimes think: She takes us, maybe ... just afraid that we will tell you."
Su Yutan shook her head: "If she was just afraid of telling you, when she fled, wouldn't she just keep you in the cage where she lived before?"
Sha Jun did not refute her anymore.
Su Yutan sighed slightly: "She took you sincerely. She is about to take you out of the misty star field and let you start a new life on earth. If she succeeds ... you will all be completely different. life."
Sha Jun wiped a bit of tears from the corner of his eyes and weakly hooked his lips: "It's a pity that she failed! My sister and I, after all, can only grow up in the misty star domain, where they are slowly cruel, hatred, vicious, cruel The earth has become a ghost. I can't be like you ... in the end, I have the opportunity to rebuild my life.
"That's about ... destiny."
His tone was so sentimental that Su Yutan was a little depressed.
She cheered up and said, "It's not too late to start rebuilding your life now!"
Sha Jun smiled ironically: "How do I rebuild my life? I can't control my desire to kill, I can't control my jealousy of Wangchuan.
"My thoughts often change. I'm reckless when I'm angry, and I just want to be happy for a while; afterwards, I regret it later. But the next time I encounter the same thing, I may still be reckless and just happy. Then regret it.
"The shadows of the past have affected me and tortured me every night and night. I can't forget, I can't get rid of it. How can you make me start again?"
Su Yutan didn't want to say anything.
That's why she didn't want to be friends with Sha Jun before. He has too much negative energy, and it is easy to bring down her mentality that is not strong enough.
Two people inside and outside the glass wall are silently thinking about their minds.
After a while, Sha Jun said again, "Do you want to hug the little pigeon?"
Su Yutan immediately looked up, and said in a sullen mood, "Think!"
Sha Jun said: "You promise me two conditions, and I will give you a 24-hour reunion time."
Su Yutan quickly asked: "What conditions?"
"The first condition: don't tell me about irrelevant people. As for the Qiao family, you decide what you want to say and how much you want to say."
Su Yutan's mood immediately became excited, and nodded and agreed: "Okay! I promise you!"
Sha Jun's condition hides a subtext: he will let her and the little pigeon go home safely!
A bright smile was raised on Sha Jun's face: "The second condition: You say the words" I love you "aloud to me. Come! Say it! After speaking, I will let the nanny robot The pigeons come in. "
Su Yutan was so frightened that she was still a little bit annoyed.
"Those three words are meaningful only if you say them honestly, you know?" She said, staring.
"I don't care whether it's true or not. If you say it, I'll hug the little pigeon for 24 hours. Would you say it?"
Su Yutan struggled a bit, but finally decided to put away the exercises first.
"I love you!" She said to Sha Jun across the glass with no expression.
Sha Jun immediately laughed wildly and burst into tears.
After laughing enough, he asked the nanny robot to push the little pigeon and bring in the things the little pigeon would use. Then he opened the door of the glass house, sent people and things into the house, and locked the door again.
"You slowly enjoy the good time of reuniting with your daughter." Sha Jun laughed and said, "This game we will continue tomorrow. When you say enough for one year, I will give you a big gift!"
Su Yutan is so depressed: still have to say tomorrow? !! I really want to say a full year, these three words will make her vomit!
At the same time, she was a little bit scared: If Sha Jun was tossed about for a year, what would happen to her mental state?
Does she really suffer from Stockholm syndrome? Will she be brainwashed and really trained to be an obedient pet?
After these annoying questions circled her mind, she was temporarily left aside.
She took the little pigeon out of the stroller and put it on the bed, but she accidentally found a red rope around the neck of the little pigeon.
Pulling out the red rope, you can see a small wooden sign hanging under the red rope.
The wooden sign is about one finger wide and long. The words "Pu" and "Chao" are written on the front and back, and the number "Three Six Two Nine" is written on the back. There is also half a handwritten word on the left edge of the back.
From the front decoration and the back half of the word, it is obvious that this is one of a pair of wooden signs.
The half handwritten handwriting was too scribbled, and only half, she recognized for a while and did not recognize it.
"Bo, Chao ... what do you mean?" She began to group words, "Bodhisattva? Bodhi? Wait ... Bodhi ?!"
She suddenly remembered that Sha Jun said that he had stored Joanna's coffin in Bodhi Temple.
"Bodhi Chao ... Bodhi Chao ?!" So, this wooden sign is the storage card of that coffin, and is Sha Jun hanging on the neck of the little dove?
He told her about Joanna, and hung the wooden sign on the neck of the little pigeon. In this roundabout way, he wanted to explain to the Jo family and send Joanna home?
Sha Jun ... Isn't he going to recognize Qiao's family?
Su Yutan couldn't help sighing.