Chapter 370: Why are you afraid of me hurting you?

"You need to care! It's not your business to kill you!" Li Shengxia returned to her senses, biting her lip, and still speeding up.
"Listen, this song..." Mo Nianchen ignored her refusal and put one of his earphones into her ears...
She was going to dodge...
But his driving skills are so good that she can't avoid him anyway.
The scent of lemon on his face made her unable to resist for a while.
The song from the headset is "one/more/time/one/more/chance"...
This song comes from an anime short story "Five Centimeters Per Second". He watched this anime with her back then...
At that time, she was crying after reading it.
And he just looked at her coldly, called her an idiot, and shed tears for others' lives when he had time, it would be better to smile for his own life!
She scolded him for not knowing how to appreciate, love is sometimes just a beautiful fantasy, you like someone but you may not get it.
He sneered and grabbed it if he wanted to. What's the point to cry.
She was speechless about his robber logic!
Then, she was so angry that she didn't say a word to him all day, and vowed that she would never watch anime with him again!
Because he is a bastard, he doesn't know what love is, he doesn't have a lover, he doesn't know what's on her mind... He doesn't know anything!
but……
At this moment...
He suddenly put this song, together with those long memories, into her ears...
Does he remember the past?
A long time ago, remember?
Repeatedly knocked on her heart, but after coming in, she always turned around and left. She was already afraid of him like this!
The length that memories can carry, she can no longer use the future to bear.
Li Shengxia lost consciousness for a moment, and soon recovered, took off the headphones, looked at him coldly, and asked, "Aren't you taking a taxi!?"
"Can't you not sit down?" He raised an eyebrow.
She bit her lip: "Then why do you want to ride a bicycle!!"
"Exercise!"
嗞
She braked suddenly, looked at him coldly, and said, "Mo Nianchen, don't always remind me of the past, they are all over."
Mo Nianchen's back stiffened slightly, and he pressed the handlebars with both hands, and said, "I didn't put the past to my lips. It was you who mentioned it."
"..." What does he mean.
"Come and listen to the next song..."
He didn't seem to care about her indifference, and put the headphones into her ears again...
What suddenly sounded in her ear was Qin Jibo's "Rain"
In addition, Mo Nianchen's faint, shallow, magnetic voice is hard to resist. He said: "It's a song that you only heard after you left. I don't know if you have heard it..."
"Mo Nianchen."
He didn't seem to listen to her at all, and hummed to her gently...
After separation, now, I don’t even have the strength to hold the sky that seems to be crying bitterly, only in the bottom of my heart that has not changed, thinking about never hurting you again.
...
Li Shengxia stepped on the bicycle again, and he followed.
His voice is in her ears...
Keep haunting...
Like a curse...
Beautiful, yet ruthless. I want to push away, but I can’t push away, the curse...
...
'I don’t care even if it is pouring rain, even if I get completely wet, I am chasing you while whistling, and I know you well, but still like the night of the first argument, don’t go, don’t go, Just shout...'
...
Li Shengxia's heartbeat froze for a moment, as if tears were about to fall. However, she knew she could not go on like this.
can not hear……
can not hear……
can not hear……
Too long to stay here...
Every time after being injured...
I was too late this time...
Already, I can't go back.
Li Shengxia didn't understand why he could always appear by her side like this casually.
What happened that night, she could not easily forget like him. She can't do it, just like him, get along with her pretending that nothing happened...
This is too difficult for her, he doesn't know how he exists to her.
He is the kind, even if she is a little inattentive, she will inexplicably make herself forget the pain she has endured, and desperately walk towards his existence...
She must be vigilant, stay awake, and constantly remind herself not to make mistakes every minute and every second of her time with him.
Every minute and every second spent with him is very hard for her.
Pretending not to care about him, it was very hard, not letting myself get close to him again, it was very hard and very hard.
That's why I want to get rid of him.
Li Shengxia thought of this and suddenly speeded up.
The headphones slipped from her ears...
The singing is also drifting away, she only knows to step on the pedal madly, forward, forward, forward.
This time, Mo Nianchen didn't catch up. He stopped his bicycle and looked at Li Shengxia's fading back.
‘Xiaxia, what are you afraid of? Are you afraid that you will follow your heart again and come back to me? Why don't you dare to come back to me, because I am afraid, am I hurting you? ’
‘Why are you afraid of me hurting you because... Do you still love me? ’
‘Although I can’t hear your answer...’
'but……'
‘No matter how much time it takes, no matter what method is used, no matter how long it takes...’
‘The same as ten years ago. What I want, I will not cry, it will be missed or lost by me, I will only keep fighting for, keep working hard, and take back you. ’
'just……'
‘This time, I really don’t know what way I need to get closer to you, closer to you. Because I have always been used to plundering, like you said, I haven't considered your feelings. ’
‘So, now I have to bear any kind of loss, and I can’t make the same mistake again. ’
‘Actually, nothing is needed. You don't need to respond to me. You don't need to forgive me. You don't need to love me. ’
‘Before, I thought I’d been acting a one-man show, unrequited love for you, but I couldn’t catch up with you. Haven't been chasing you for ten years. ’
‘My dictionary did not give up. ’
‘I don’t know how hard it is to make you fall in love with me again, is it much harder than just falling in love with anyone. However, you have loved me before, so if you love it again, it shouldn’t be impossible...’
‘Compared to Situ Ye, shouldn’t you be easier to fall in love with me? ’
‘Xiaxia, what you want me to do, I can learn for you, but can you give me time and opportunity to learn, at least, until then, don’t accept others...’
‘After meeting you, there is only one thing in my life, and that is to be with you. ’