Chapter 415: Strange sense of loss

The movie is so beautiful, it seems to have fulfilled a beautiful dream for her.
She wants to play, she wants to play this role. She even feels that she is this role, or that she wants to be this role!
Because I am not as lucky as her, I want this one to be perfect.
May I?
What Mo Nianchen said this morning came to her mind again...
Do you like filming? Or just like filming with Situ Ye?
She didn't know why he would suddenly ask her such a strange question, nor could she answer his question.
Because she didn't like filming so much, she couldn't even mention that she liked being with Situ Ye.
But if she insisted on filming and had to choose someone to partner with her, she would definitely... definitely choose Situ Ye.
Because he made her feel safe.
Because she knew that he would not hurt her.
At Shilihongzhuang that day, did you consider the question I asked you to consider?
Li Shengxia thought of these words and couldn't help but clenched a fist.
He said too much that day, she tried to sort out, but she didn't know it...
Sometimes it’s simple to forgive. Maybe it’s not about whether one person should forgive another. There are too many problems blocking them, she can't list them, but she knows that such a gap is difficult to eliminate.
Even if they are barely close to each other, the ending will definitely be unhappy.
He always appears in her dreams...
She wanted him to appear in her dreams, and she was afraid that he would appear in her dreams.
Because, she clearly knew that she could not afford another lost morning...again without him.
Situ Ye and I, who would you choose! ? Must choose one! Who would you choose! ? Would you choose Situ Ye?
Don't choose him.
You can make a film if you like filming, but don't film with him.
I don’t like Situ Ye!
You must not like him!
She was a little stunned to think about this, she didn't know why he had to say such a strange thing.
Why should she choose between him and Situ?
Situ is her friend, and he is the lover she missed...
She didn't need to choose anything, she didn't need to choose anything, let alone what to choose. She didn't even know how his multiple choice question came about.
What she didn't understand was why he coldly ordered her last second. In the next second, as if he had exhausted all his strength, he palely said sorry to her...
I just don't want you and Situ Ye to get too close.
I will not prevent you from having your friends, you have your hobbies, you have your life, I just...
You can do whatever you want.
...
What is he just? What does he mean when he didn't speak? In the end, did he let her go because of respect, completion, or powerless compromise and concession?
Pei Yunke told her that she saw Mo Nianchen standing at the door of the company watching her get off the Situ car...
When he got off work today, he was not as usual, he had to go home with her...
Where did the strange sense of loss in her heart come from?
Shouldn't she take this play?
He doesn't like her acting with Situ Ye...
but……
Why should she arrange her life because of his feelings?
Besides, she really likes this drama...This role seems to be tailor-made for her, she is reluctant to give up.
Maybe she likes acting?
Should she give up?
Why always think of Mo Nianchen, thinking of those words.
Constantly replaying his expression when he said those words...
As if a little weak, as if a little sad, as if... helpless.
Li Shengxia shook his head...
She didn't want to think about it anymore.
She rinsed and fell on the bed.
She closed her eyes, and Mo Nianchen appeared in her mind...
She opened her eyes and looked at the ceiling, and Mo Nianchen appeared on the ceiling...
He didn't show up tonight, did something happen to him? He stopped pestering her, is it just what she wants?
She checked her mobile phone, and there was no missed call or SMS notification.
She threw away the phone, and she was upset again...
Since when have I been disturbed by Mo Nianchen again! ? She couldn't remember anymore!
Why does this guy always show up in front of her, leaving her bored, and not leaving, also bored her, no matter what he does, she can't help but guess his mind! ?
Is she crazy? Why does she have to guess about him!
Is she crazy! ? Why should she care about his feelings!
She wants to do what she wants, just do it, right? ?
Why should she toss and turn because of his inexplicable words! ?
She thought of him asking Chi Su to stop, agreeing to get off the car, leaving her in the road, and leaving without looking back...
She remembered the sound of engines whizzing past, and the cold wind that seemed to carry his breath...
It was as if she was abandoned by her on the way, and she felt a little lost inexplicably.
And she didn't even understand where this sense of loss came from.
She must be a very strange woman, right? She clearly knows what is right and what is wrong, but she keeps making mistakes, keeps making mistakes, keeps making mistakes...
She knew what should be and what shouldn't, but she kept doing things that shouldn't be done, thinking of him over and over again.
at the same time--
Mo Nianchen's car stopped at Li Shengxia's door. He rolled down the window and looked at her room where the lights had been turned off. He was lost for a long time.
He lit a cigarette, but didn't smoke a puff, letting the circles of smoke circle his fingertips, obscuring his sight.
I always don't know what to do to save her, and what to do to save her.
She seemed to have exhausted all the means and played all the roles, but she still seemed unmoved.
Is this the saddest thing in love? When you are deeply attached to a person, you have deeply discovered that no matter how much you do for her, she will not stay for you for even a second.
In fact, he should have become accustomed to such loneliness.
However, he would still struggle like a madman at a loss.
He knew he should not embarrass her.
He just...
I don't know how to face this self who is at a loss.
As if in her life, the extra self.
He has been constantly looking for a sense of existence, trying to leave traces in her life, but every time he looks in her eyes, he will feel that he has never been in her world.
This feeling of loneliness continues to be repeated. He felt a little tired and tired.
Is it better to really give up?
Does she even want him to let her go?
Is this the best result?
Will not make her embarrassed, won't make her struggle...
but……