Chapter 458: Everything she didn't know.

I received the first birthday gift you gave me in my life. It was a box of biscuits in the shape of handcuffs. I have never felt so happy. Will you handcuff me forever? Thank you for your gift, it is the best gift of my life.
I have a tumor on my brain stem. The probability of a successful operation is less than 10%. The cruelest thing is that even if the operation is successful, I might die. Even if I don't have surgery, my life may be in danger at any time... I just fell in love with you, why should I lose the qualification to love you?
While meeting with Ouyang and the others, a woman named Tong Lin wore an earring to make up a story. I suddenly made such a decision. I decided to give up on you. Although the heartache is dying, but you can't let you watch me die and suffer for a lifetime. Hate is easier to let go than love, and you hate me better than you love me. In this way, even if I die one day, you will be healed one day.
Xia Xia, I write this message now, how I hope you can open it and read it now. In this case, I can tell you, I’m sorry, Xia Xia, I didn’t mean to hurt you, I don’t like Tong Lin, she Nor is it the lover/person in my dreams. You were the one who saved my life when I was young. Even if you forget me, I will not forget you. But, I know, you won't see it. Because I know you can't see it, I will send you a message every day.
Xia Xia who said I would not hurt you, I hurt you again, why don't you leave me quickly, in this case, I can die safely. Why do you want me to hurt you over and over again, when will these days come to an end. I really think all of this is a dream, we are still happy when we wake up from the dream. I will not die, nor do I have to play a role that hurts you, let you leave me... I can hug you and say sorry to you, I love you.
Xia Xia, why are you doing this to me? I just... I just want you to leave me, why did you jump into the sea! How can you die!
Today I found your corpse, beside the crystal bottle I gave you, there is a drop of sea water in the crystal bottle, that is our unfinished agreement, I promised you, I want to take you to see all over the world All the seas, let the seas from all over the world fill this crystal bottle of happiness. I haven't done it yet. Why did you leave me...
Xiaxia, don't let me find you, okay? please. Losing you is more scary and desperate than death, do you know?
Grandpa asked me to perform surgery. He hired the best oncologist in the world for me. If I die on the operating table, it will be regarded as unfavorable. I have a strong instinct. I think you must pay. To be alive, you must be alive, I must not die, otherwise, who else can look for you instead of me.
The operation was successful, Xia Xia, if I knew that the operation could be successful, I would never do such a stupid thing and let you leave me. where are you now? You couldn't get through the phone before, you seem to have evaporated from the world, the sea is so big, it is as difficult to find you as a needle in a haystack, but I will not give up looking for you.
Xia Xia, where are you now? How are you? Will you worry about life? I put some money in your card. If you have trouble, you will definitely use it.
Xiaxia, why, you never use a bank card. I have searched all over the world, I have searched all Li Shengxia, but none of them are you.
They all thought I was crazy, they all told me you were dead. They all made me give up looking for you and enter a new life. But only I know that you must be alive. If you are already dead, what is the continuation of my life? Xia Xia, will you come out, let everyone know, I am not crazy, you are not dead, we will have a future...
Ouyang introduced a lot of girls to me, but I don’t like any of them. I like only one person. I only like one person in my life, and that person is you. Apart from you, no one can walk into my heart. What about you, when will you be back?
Xia Xia, today I went back to the place where we lived a long time ago. At that time, you lived next door to me. I found a music box and a letter in your room. I saw the complete content of the letter that year. It turned out that it was not a letter of dismissal. It turned out that you liked me five years ago. I am stupid, how stupid I am, how self-righteous I am, do I still have a chance to apologize to you? I'm sorry, Xia Xia, I'm sorry, it was too late to find out that you have liked me for so many years. But I hurt you stubbornly for so long...
Xia Xia, the cafe we ​​used to go to is also closed today. And your favorite CD shop before. When will you come back? When you come back, are those memories that belong to us gone?
Xiaxia, months have passed, but there is still no news from you. But I know, you must be alive. Do you remember "Shilihongzhuang", the street I gave you. I started to renovate and rebuild here, I want to lock all our memories here. In this way, I will never worry about which store will close down, and no longer have to worry about it. Our common memories are diminishing a little bit.
It’s my birthday again, and I still haven’t received your birthday present this year. Will I receive it next year?
Another year has passed, I am in the CD shop, listening to your favorite song before. I think of you again.
It's my birthday again. I start to hate birthdays because I still can't receive your gifts. Have you forgotten me? Xia Xia, don't forget me, don't forget that there is someone in this world waiting for you, waiting for you to say happy birthday to him, okay?
Another half year has passed, Xia Xia, today is your birthday, "Shili Hongzhuang" has finally been renovated, I walked over and over again, and passed through those good memories we had once again, everything is so beautiful, only you are here by my side. Happy birthday, Xia Xia...
Five years, Xia Xia, you have been missing for five years, do you know? If you remember me, please, come back and see me, OK?
I saw you in MARY magazine! Li Shengxia, you are fine, you changed your name to Xia Shengli! I found you! I finally found you, and I knew, you didn’t die, how could you die!
The plane finally arrived in L city, at the other end of the world, I came to Xiaxia.
Why pretend not to know me! ? You clearly remember me, right? ? I know that I have done a lot of wrong things before. I know that you will not forgive me so easily, but I believe that I will get your forgiveness one day.