Chapter 46: Memories in Fanwai's two diseases

At the beginning of May, the general of the town, the third-class country, Shaoqing, returned to Luoyang's ancestral home, declined all friends and relatives to socialize, and lived alone in his father's concealed "causal zhai" to heal the wound. Luoyang is in the early summer of this year, and the big ginkgo tree in front of the "Instinct Zhai" has already heard the buzz.
Starting in the early hours of the morning, it is Shao Qing’s rules for many years. From the time of his teens, he read the light and read the military books at night. In the early morning, he heard the chicken dance under the tree. The weather was frosty and rainy, and he had never broken one day. Many of the same year's scorpions were walking around, fighting, sleeping, and sleeping, Shao Qing's youth time did not dare to waste.
Jianchuang has slowly closed his mouth, and the internal injuries have not been perfect. Shao Qing will run for 12 weeks in the infuriating atmosphere. He still feels a little vain, but it is much better than the previous days.
Putting on the robe and going out, the air in the early morning was moist and cool, and went under the ginkgo tree. When I heard the sound of some unknown birds on the tree, Shao Qing looked up and smiled slightly.
Holding the rough bark of the ginkgo tree, there are many old memories that suddenly come to my mind:
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The father is a gentle man. Learning is good, but he has never been embarrassed, he is not convinced of the world, and he does not care about business. Such people naturally cannot afford such a flourishing family. Shao Jia’s position as the largest family in Luoyang has gradually declined, and the faces of relatives have been arrogant year after year.
Shao Qing, who was seven or eight years old, saw Xiao Xiao’s carrying a box of things from her mother’s room. She curiously asked her mother what happened. Her mother was gloomy and she fell in tears. She stopped Shao Qing and said,
My son Shao Jia will rely on you in the future..."
My mother was born in the Jinling family. She is beautiful and arrogant. She was originally subjected to the indulgence of the cold and the cold.
A piece of paper floated out of the mother's pillow and swung in the air. At that time, Shao Qing could not understand what the ticket was.
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Every year, it is the most difficult time for Shao family. The annual banquet, the red envelope for hundreds of servants, the spending expenses of relatives, and the income of Zhuangzi that are never enough... The father who hides in "causal fast" has a very poor face. Mother...
Shao Qing, who was less than ten years old, was mad at her brother, and her brother accidentally broke an antique vase. As a result, the two were caught in front of their mother.
The older brother, who is two years older than himself, trembles. He has always feared his mother as a snake. My brother was born in the house before the marriage, and was sent to the mother's name. The mother called "Mother". When the girl met him, he asked him to call "Young Master."
Therefore, Shao Qing admitted that he had broken the vase worth a million dollars, but at the time of the New Year's Eve dinner, he was still a brother.
Xiao Shaoqing sneaked, smashed a packet of snacks into the black, wet and cold, gloomy ancestral hall, the brothers eat together, play together... The result is that Shao Qing has remembered one of the most authentic New Year's Eve.
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Because of all this, Shao Qing had an awareness early on, and he had no other way to go except for his efforts.
The hidden father, the unruly mother, the brother of status... There are many helplessness in the world, and he can persecute only himself.
From the birth of hundreds of people, from the birth, they are destined to be honored, and the ruins of the ancestors and the ancestors of the ancestors of the ancestors, all these things must be carried to the body, and then the scope will gradually expand: Subordinates, sergeants, the peace and honor of the country, the rise and fall of the imperial court...
Not fair?
Some people can rely on others when they are born, and some people are dependent on others.
Luck is very good. I was a good master when I was 11 or 2 years old. Master is a literary and versatile person who is shocked and brilliant. He is born into a royal family. His character and temper are also very weird. He can see Shaoqing, and naturally the parents and friends of Shao Qing are greatly surprised.
Shao Qing’s talents are not superior to the martial arts, and with the hard work, it is also very happy for Master. Such Shao Qing, from a very young age, people kept praise, saying that "Shaw family, Guangzong Yaozu, rely on this son", Shao Qing thus has a very detached position, speaking in the weak patriarchal home is very weighty, also Therefore, when the mother resolutely disagreed with the elder brother who was born out of the world, Shao Qing could stick to the end and stick to it.
I can go out and enter the phase, my brother does not inherit the ancestral title, there is nothing.
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At the age of sixteen or seven, he entered the army and emerged in a few short years. Of course, others will not know the fatigue of the marching in the snow. The hoes of the locusts are hungering for hunger and thirst. A knife that has been splashed with blood...
However, Shao Qing’s work became a school, and he became a general. He became a general.
Years passed.
The title is high, and the holy day is long.
There are more and more lives on these hands.
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The first time I saw Yao Jinxi, the younger brother, was ten years ago. The master who saw the dragon didn’t see the tail suddenly appeared. Shao Qing naturally rejoiced and hosted a banquet.
Master introduced a little boy of seven or eight years old. The handsome and unspeakable, the young age is cold and arrogant. Master said: "This is your younger brother, Yao Ganjin's son."
Originally, the beautiful children liked everyone, but when Master taught him a new set of swordsmanship, he never said that he had never learned it twice. Master called the younger brother to demonstrate and watched the little body move in the air. Jinghong, if you are a dragon, it is really shocking to say nothing.
The teacher who has always been cold to the weird, with such kindness, gratification, and proud eyes, looked at the younger brother and said, "This is the son of the priest."
I am not going to marry a child, but the world is really unfair.
It is the emergence of such a creature as a genius, making the wisdom of ordinary people a joke, and making the efforts of ordinary people become a farce...
Some people are born with everything, smart, beautiful, born noble, wherever they appear to cover the light of everyone, how others can not get what they can do, he came to hand.
In the past three or four years, the younger brother has already become famous.
But such a child, who thought he would encounter something like that later?
Shao Qing couldn't help thinking, obviously can stop Zhang Qinglian but did not stop it. Is it still related to the uncomfortable feeling in the moment?
Darkness that cannot be avoided.
Although I also said that I have many places better than him. But when I saw this radiant, the stars that broke through the sky fell into the mud, couldn't help but secretly happy?
When Shao Qing laughed at himself, he was suddenly interrupted by a scream. When he saw that his wife was holding a sip of a stew, the soup was sprinkled on the ground and he was looking at himself with water.
While fortunately, I didn’t have to drink that stuff, I couldn’t help but sigh in my heart and stepped forward to help the source of the dyke.
This wife is the most self-willed thing when she was young, and the most irrational decision that others think.
At that time, he was only 23 or 34 years old. He accidentally saw the daughter of this small cloth dealer, and lost his way to his own behavior. The first time I saw such a person, it was like the little boy who saw a puppy for the first time. When she saw her pouting, she wanted to hug, oh, oh, cute and make people want to take it. Have it.
So no matter how many people around, how to oppose it, or come back.
However, it gradually became more and more. Always want to marry her, comfort her, clean up her mess, and say a lot of words before she finds that she can't understand at all. Her behavior is to make her laugh in front of everyone... how cute it will be tired, will shake his head. Will be helpless.
But nowadays, she can't help but smile or feel pity when she sees her. She still thinks that many of her expressions are cute. If it doesn't happen in the palace that day, maybe it will be love for a lifetime...
But after that incident, all of his own eyes, all his thoughts, all his attention was gradually occupied by the man who had originally looked down. I finally realized that love is not a gentle smile, not a slight distress, but that the soul is torn apart, the will is deprived, and heaven and are only separated by a line...
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Now, what kind of things can only be invested in eternal...
A pigeon flew from afar, stopped on Shao Qing's shoulder, took off the short letter on the red claw, slightly indulged, rationally and habitually resumed operation, Shao Qing returned to the study to pick up the pen and tied the pigeon's leg.
When the pigeons disappeared into the sky, Shao Qing wrote another one and let go of the other pigeon.