Chapter 1021: There is a kind of love called habit

[Love has always been fermented by green barley, or to the richness of flowers, or the fading of faded leaves.
When you fall in love with a person, after breaking up, you don’t forget, there is not necessarily love. It may be a habit of obsessing an inescapable.
As I am, chasing a person, not willing to let go, just want to wait for him.
—Gu Yuyan】
At the age of sixteen, it is the age at which the sinus begins to open and the heart of spring is sprouting.
At that time, the book was full of business and the heart was higher than the sky.
It was at that age that I met him.
One made me love for two years, I have been obsessed for three years, and finally I became a habit to forget.
How long has it been for two years, I tell you, it is short and short.
With the lover, every minute feels that it is competing, is racing against time.
Because sweetness and happiness always make people want to do everything they want to stay, and don't want it to slip away from their fingertips.
But after all, I forgot that happiness is like quicksand between the fingers. The faster I grip, the faster I lose.
But don't hold it tight, and when the wind blows, it will go with it.
I never thought that the love between me and him could not stand the test.
I admit that I am too nervous and will become so extreme.
Seeing other beautiful girls around him, I couldn’t help but groan and couldn’t help but ask questions.
This kind of behavior, after all, let me lose him.
Regret?
No, I don't regret it.
Even though I know that I am doing something wrong, I don't regret it, because I am just using my way to maintain my love.
It’s just that my method is wrong, so I chose to change.
Feifei always thought that my breakup with him was the intervention of others. No matter how I explained it, she felt that I was too kind.
Let us also once caused the friendship to crack because of the girl who was suspected to be involved.
At that time, I understood more clearly that even if there was no third person to do anything, the feelings between the two people would change slightly.
Good love, affection and friendship, all need a lot of factors to accumulate, and until the end is either firmly to no one.
Either, fragile to a blow.
At the moment I understood, I was very fortunate that I was glad that I did not get into the magic barrier and I was not confused.
In order to divert my attention, I created a sound with Fifi.
When I have not responded to myself, I ran to the ancient channel to do field control.
Just because that person likes to sing very much, I also like to sing ancient songs.
Once I said to him, listening to your song, my world can be illuminated.
He said, then just sing to me alone.
After all, it was just a casual joke.
I am stationed on the ancient channel every day, listening to the songs he once sang by different people.
Obviously the same good, the same people like it, but it makes me feel worse.
Until one day, a familiar voice sounded, and it shocked my ears, disturbing my uneasy heart.
For the next two years, I appeared on time every day when he was going to sing.
Gradually, I found that the heartbeat was gone at first, but when I think of that person, my heart is still hot.
I didn't quite understand what it was at the time, just knowing that I liked him all the time.
Up to now, it may have become a kind of obsessive.
When I was laughing on a channel and I was in the middle of it, I didn't hold back the voice and said: "Peach 夭夭 is not worthy of him."
I know that I am impulsive, but I can't help it.
Since then, I have found that as soon as I appear, he will leave after singing.
Or if you don’t sing at all, say something, leave.
I am silent, my heart is very uncomfortable.
He must have heard my voice and will avoid himself.
I don't want to make him embarrassed, I don't often appear, even if it appears, I will choose him when I am not there.
It can be faster than reason, and I opened a small trumpet, and I wore a glazed dream vest waiting in the sound.
The next thing, I really didn't think of it, it would be as dramatic.
The cousin found the person he loved, but it promoted my encounter with him again.
After five years, his eyebrows are still so gentle
It is even more dazzling and more attractive to me.
In recent years, no one has chased me, and there is no shortage of better and better than him.
Even some of them are similar to him, but they have not made me tempted.
Because I understand one thing clearly, they are not him.
And I only want him.
I don't know when I started, I am used to this kind of attention.
Accustomed to this kind of attachment, used to waiting for him, used to expecting that he can return to his day.
Habit is really a terrible thing.
Now that I can get close to him, it feels like I have been waiting for a long time.
But not so excited and excited, some are just a calm and calm and a warm feeling.
This is no longer a kind of love, it is a kind of deeper affection in the habit.
As usual, I hang on, and today he has his wheat order.
After everyone played together on the ancient channel on that day, although the relationship between me and him has not been clarified, both of them seem to have a kind of cognition.
When I first entered, I heard the sound of searching.
"The smoke is coming, I really hope that the stars will look forward to the moon."
Then Yu Yufei’s voice followed: "Yes, some people are expected to wear autumn water."
I am puzzled to listen, do not understand, they are taking the wrong medicine, or did not take medicine?
This sentence is the most favorite thing to look for, and she is familiar with her, and everyone has been affected more or less.
"Okay, don't make a noise, the rain is your birthday today, so we have a special program for you."
After looking for it, Yu Yufei will pick up: "Yes, right, don't thank us very much."
Then the inside of the headset came to the sound that she was familiar with in the bones, still so clear and elegant.
"I am always grieved. It is hard to compromise on loving me. I always love the past and leave no room for love."
"I always long for love, but I always cry to the dawn... I am always afraid of being too deep, but loving you so much."
...
"Rain smoke, maybe today's love has become a habit, but still want to tell you, I love you, future life, want to go with you."
Breaking the mirror and re-circulating the white, with a heavy hoarseness, mixed with tenderness and bitterness, instantly let my tears fall.
It turned out that it’s not just that I am used to being in your world alone?
Bi Yanbo, we have been entangled since the age of sixteen and now we are twenty-three years old, for seven years.
I finally waited for the words that could engrave my life, and the tears had already blurred my sight.
"Yanbo, I am more fortunate that I did not give up."
Fortunately, we all still have each other in our hearts.
Even if this is just a habit of entanglement with each other, it will not erase the mutual recognition.
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[Someone once asked me why there are many feelings that can break through the mirror?
The broken mirror, even if it is repaired, will always exist and will not be wiped out.
I replied: Because I have been together, I know each other and know each other.
When you lose, you will seek the other person's figure little by little in your life.
Nothing is more suitable, and slowly the person will become a kind of obsession.
It is normal to think of her/he, and it will naturally be on her/him when he meets him/her.
But it is because of a habit. 】