Chapter 1439: Fanwai: As long as the world has you, I can live (1)

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I don't understand what is just right, I just don't want to live up to it and be disappointed. When I hug, I will never retreat. I will never cry when I laugh. - An Zhensheng
From small to big, I was a very rebellious person. Before my brother died for me, I hated him a bit.
Or can't say ‘some’, it should be said that it is hateful.
When he was born, he seemed to have his own aura of the protagonist. He caught a model of a house directly when he was arrested.
And I... caught a knife.
Probably from that day on, the gears of my brother's fate have different trajectories since then.
He is destined to become a man of radiance, and I am doomed to nothing.
There are a lot of people who give him a love letter in the school, although it gives me a lot.
But he is different from me. He is the perfect student in the eyes of the teacher and the perfect male in the eyes of the female classmate.
And I am simply handsome, and a little bit scorpion.
I like to hear the sound of scratching the skin with a knife, until the moment I enter the blood vessel, there is a kind of pleasure of ‘叮’.
In this world, no one can understand me. They all feel that I am rebellious, arrogant and uninhibited.
Only my brother knows me. He knows that I just want to get the attention of my parents.
Even if you don't pay attention, take a look at it... well.
But unfortunately, they have never seen me before.
They even let me stay for less than ten years old, and I didn’t send people to come to me.
I seem to be a shame to settle down, a bloodline that they are not willing to admit.
until--
The death of my brother allowed them to see my existence.
Although, what they said in the first few months is still that ugly.
E.g--
"Why not you die?"
"Why don't you replace your brother in hell!
"What is the meaning of living alive, you are going to die!"
"Go to and die, at least that your brother will not be alone."
......
These words with tears and sorrows are wrapped around my ears every night, and no one knows that I am more upset than each of them.
Because An Liangsheng is the only person in the world who loves me.
Those toys that I didn't get, didn't get the love.
He used the identity of a brother to make up for the vacancy in my life.
I am extremely good at everything, and I love everything about him.
And he died, proving that there is no one in the world who loves me.
I didn't even know what it meant to be alive at the time, but... I was impressed with the words he said to me before he died.
"Asheng, you have to live... live... for me... live."
The name 'Asheng' is the name he likes to call me.
At that time, his parents had always called my name with a name.
The word 'An Zhensheng' is almost the rhyme that I hate the most.
But even so, even if there is no hope in the world that I will live, I must live.
For my brother, for the other An Liangsheng to live in this world, I have to do my best to live.
Moreover, I still have to live very well.
In just half a year, I became gentle and sensible from the original violent arrogance, and my academic performance jumped directly from the original countdown to the first in the whole year.
I have to say that at least in this aspect, I have a certain genius.
This is like some people are suitable for running, some are suitable for swimming, and some are suitable for instruments.
And I, just right, is suitable for learning.