Chapter 5: concentric

He bit his lower lip, thinking of the second uncle's contemptuous eyes towards his father, thinking of the lonely figure of his father being locked up outside the family banquet after hiding behind a rock, and thinking of the scene where the scrawling servant pointed to himself and said this was a trash boy At that time, he was still a ignorant urchin, and he didn't know what the trash boy meant, so he rushed to ask his father...
　　 "Absolutely not!" Gu Hai said again, biting the blood mark on his lower lip.
"Brother, the three of us are together, wearing clothes made by ourselves, and eating what we earn. No matter how difficult the day is, we can straighten our backs in front of others. Why do we have to live by relying on others to see their faces?" Gu Shi Ba Niang took a deep breath.
　　 She remembered a sentence once said by an old servant of the Shen family. I don't know why, but at this time, this plain sentence was especially clear in her mind.
　　 "No one has as much as oneself..." She muttered.
　　 "Yes!" Gu Hai exclaimed, "Yes, we rely on ourselves! Don't rely on them! Don't ask them for charity!"
　　 "Brother, you study hard and win a fame." Gu Shiba Niang said, holding his arm.
　　 "Yes," Gu Hai nodded heavily, raised his fist and shook his head, "I want to get a fame and earn a madam for my mother. Who dares to look down on us and bully us at will!"
　　 As he said, he remembered that in the past six months, because of worrying about family affairs and absent-minded, he had already pulled down a lot of courses, and there was not much time before the autumn exam next year.
　　 "Sister, I went to school." Gu Hai dropped the hatchet and ran out.
　　 "Brother, I'm waiting for you on the mountain behind the school, you are off school, let's chop wood together!" Gu Shiba Niang shouted in tears behind her.
　　 Gu Hai waved his hand far away, and disappeared after turning the corner. Niang Gu Shiba stood in front of the door and stared blankly for a while, until the neighbor aunt greeted her, she woke up and closed the door in response.
　　 Looking at the simple but full of life in the small courtyard, Gu Shiba Niang clenched her fists, and took a step towards changing her destiny. It is not enough to protect her house from being under the fence.
She knows that she has no savings at home, she should have borrowed foreign debts for her medical treatment, and the three of them will have food and clothing living expenses. It is absolutely impossible to rely on her mother to do needlework, not to mention. Brother still has to study...
　　Money...Money...you must have money to survive, she needs money.
At this moment, she hates herself for being a daughter. She can’t hold her shoulders and can’t lift her hands. The female celebrity can’t do it. The only life experience that has been longer than ten years, that experience is just drifting freely like rootless duckweed. People of relatives follow her mother-in-law after getting married, and even in the drugstore obtained after the separation, as the hostess, she also follows those shopkeepers... She knows nothing except listening to others.
　　 Sad, resentful and melancholy emotions shocked in her heart, could she just watch what happened again?
　　 Then why should she be born again?
　　 Gu Shiba Niang knelt in the yard, buried her head in her knees and cried dumbly. Every night, she was tortured by the memories of her "previous life". She wanted to cry, but she couldn't because her mother was sleeping next to her.
　　 She was afraid that her mother and brother would die in front of her again, and she was afraid to hear the name Jiankang, but thinking that that person was living in Jiankang at this time, she wished to rush over, kill him, kill him...
　　 I cried happily for a while, and the emotions that had been vented slowly calmed down. Lady Gu Shiba looked at the blue sky and took a deep breath.
In her previous life, she was an ordinary woman. Although she had read many books, she had never seriously thought about the truths in the books, but now she thinks about those life experiences and the books she has read, especially when she is serious. Those who taught her, her mood gradually calmed down.
She can’t be anxious, can’t be anxious, she has to believe that God wants her to be reborn will not be playing with her. Moreover, in retrospect of the past, she asked herself not a wicked rapist, God would not let her Coming from suffering again.
　　 She straightened her clothes, knelt down under the pomegranate tree in the yard, bowed her head devoutly, prayed for prayers, gods and Buddhas, bless the eighteen mothers.
　　 The Cao family hurried back from selling needles and threads. He was in a hurry to cook for Gu Shiba Niang, but he saw that the food had been buckled on the stove, and the yard was clean and apparently cleaned.
　　 "Mother, eat quickly, I'll deliver food to my brother." Gu Shiba Niang said, carrying the small basket.
　　 Cao's tears couldn't help but fall out.
When the husband was there, the family situation was not good, but there was still money to support the son to eat the cheapest meal in the school, so they did not deliver the food, but since the husband died and the family situation plummeted, Gu Hai secretly stayed in the school. Hungry to save money, after she learned about it, she cried for a while and started delivering food.
It took only two times to give it away. First, Gu Hai would come back before noon every day, and then help her at home. Second, she really lacked the ability to do so, and she was worried about letting her daughter go. She naturally knew that this ruined her son’s homework. ,but…..
　　 She is really guilty as a mother. UU reading www.uukanshu.com
　　 It’s all right now. When my son asked me to send food, it meant that I started to study normally and regained my heart, and my daughter also took the initiative to take care of her brother. She put down a stone in her heart.
　　 "Mother, don't worry, I'm fine, I can do everything at home." Gu Shiba-niang looked up at the mother's face that was getting old and depressed because of her work, with the same sadness.
　　 "Okay." Cao nodded and gave his daughter a loving smile, "Be careful on the way."
　　 She did not express any concern about her daughter's body. If her daughter is so considerate of her, she must also consider her daughter's worries for her mother.
　　 Gu Shiba Niang nodded, carried the basket, and picked up the hatchet, "Mother, I'll be waiting for my brother after school and cutting wood with him. Don't worry."
　　 Cao also thought about her injury, his expression was a bit hesitant, but looking at her daughter's firm eyes, he nodded, "Okay, you... be careful, you have less strength, just pick firewood..."
　　 Gu Shiba Niang responded with a smile, and stepped out.
　　 "Hey, Lady Gu..." Aunt Liu came here leisurely, and saw Cao standing at the door busy smiling and saying, "How did you think about that matter?"
　　 Cao’s face showed a little hesitation, he hesitated for a moment, and then said: "Madam, I’m bothering you...I won’t buy this house for now..."
　　 "What?" Aunt Liu's smile froze on her face.
　　 Gu Shiba Niang who heard this turned her head and glanced slightly, a slight smile appeared on her mouth, but it disappeared quickly, and it was not time to laugh.