Vol 3 Chapter 259: Go find the place (off-topic)

People's memory is subconscious, and even if it is forgotten by some external factors, there is a chance to find it back.
Just as some people can selectively lose their memory, some people lose their memory due to brain stimulation or injury, after treatment or self-recovery over time.
Si Huang’s situation is undoubtedly caused by hypnotic amnesia, and partly because of forgetting caused by self-avoidance psychology. However, as her physical fitness gets older, the better, and when she becomes more capable, she will encounter certain stimuli. Retrieve the memories of the past.
Si Huang knew how much his memory should have almost recovered, and the only thing left was his experience in creating gods that he had not recovered.
This is her self-analysis. The reason why this part has not been found is probably because she has not encountered the same experience yet, or perhaps this part is most hypnotically forgotten. Si Huang felt that the most likely thing was that she was still avoiding herself instinctively, and she had an instinctive fear that had not faded away from the memory being studied.
It was time for her to face her fears, and it was precisely because of this decision that she would find the sika deer.
What will a person look like after being hypnotized? Si Huang didn't know what the others were doing, but she felt that she was sober, and at first she was a little confused and timid. When she heard the sound of sika deer in her ears, she remembered her intention.
Therefore, she opened the door and saw pedestrians passing by, blurred faces and pictures.
At the beginning, her gaze was from bottom to top, as if she was lying on a push bed, walking through a passage pushed by people. It was this way that she saw people passing by and couldn't clearly see their looks.
Her breathing was heavy, as if something was being worn on her mouth, making her breathing difficult, but it also assisted her breathing at the same time.
Hu Hu Hu-
咚咚咚
The sound of breathing, heartbeat, and faint noise echoed in his ears, making Si Huang extremely irritable.
She vaguely sensed what she was about to face, and she had fear and resistance from the bottom of her heart. Despair and hatred were brewing. There was a ravioli in her mind. She told herself to be calm and calm to find a chance to escape, just as she was in the company. Zhihan and Si Hua had the same chance of winning under their control.
Wait, Si Jihan? Si Hua? Didn't they already...
What already?
Si Huang couldn't remember for the time being, and felt something was wrong.
When she was pushed into the laboratory and hit a familiar face in her sight, his name naturally popped up in her mind: Bai Guangxi.
Bai Guangxi lowered his head to meet her gaze, not knowing what kind of eyes he saw, making him smile pleasantly and softly, and comforted him: "Don't worry, it's okay, I believe brother, eh?"
Do not……
"Inject THB3 liquid." Bai Guangxi said to his assistant.
The needle was pointed at the blood vessel of her arm and plunged into her arm, and a chill spread all over her body, making her soul tremble with cold.
Si Huang slapped his spirits, and heard a voice in his ear that seemed to sound, "What are you doing?"
What am I doing?
What am I doing!
Si Huang's eyes turned white, his body convulsed due to the medicine, and his consciousness became more and more confused, but he unexpectedly felt that he was calm and numb again. Turning his head to look at Bai Guangxi, he found that he did not seem to be able to hear the sound.
The voice that Bai Guangxi couldn't hear was a voice she was familiar with.
Bai Guangxi was terrible, but she didn't need to be afraid, because the other party could no longer hurt herself easily.
Whether it is Si Zhihan or Si Hua, they are no longer scary, but they are their nightmare.
By the way, I am no longer the one to be slaughtered.
What am I doing? My purpose of coming here is just to retrieve the memories of the past and find more clues to the creation of gods.
Si Huang's spirit was already strong, and once she had figured out what happened, she would easily break away from it, but she did not choose to resist the end of the hypnosis, but looked at it from a different perspective.
Her gaze is no longer lying flat upwards, but like an invisible existence that is ignored by everyone in the line of sight, or is invisible, watching the scenes before her eyes.
She saw herself lying on the experimental table, after being injected with special drugs, she was recorded with various response data, she saw the flesh and blood being taken and injected with biological genes, she saw her body being thrown into the sink, surrounded by various fish There are harmless and cruel carnivorous species. Seeing big fish swallowing small fish, she is like their kind in it, either eating or being eaten.
The result of various drugs is gene breakdown. The feeling is repeated that every cell is crying despair and pain, and the brain is often in a state of chaos, even sometimes forgetting that you are an individual.
Si Huang saw that she was struggling on the ground like a dehydrated fish, opening her mouth to breathe the air, but the air seemed to bring more than vitality but like poison, making her face red and purple.
Bai Guangxi was always gentle with her. He said that he didn't want to hurt her body, so at most he would cut the meat and let the blood flow. He would never listen to the advice of his assistant to remove her limbs for grafting.
Because of his ‘gentle’ and ‘caring’, he uses various drug experiments, tests, and mental hypnosis most on her.
It's just that Bai Guangxi really doesn't know, is this kind of drug experiment more painful than cutting the body with a knife?
Si Huang thought to himself, Bai Guangxi knew it, otherwise he wouldn't be so happy. He would touch her head when he watched ‘she’ persisted over and over again, and praised her for her greatness. If he persisted, he would have a successful liberation day.
The result was no success, but liberation was real. Her genes have been completely destroyed, and her body has been rescued several times from a crash, just like a broken rag doll, constantly stitched with crappy needles and threads.
If it hadn't been for ‘she’ to keep alive, she would have long been unable to sleep.
Even Bai Guangxi's assistants and other research institutes praised her for having strong willpower after they knew her, but it was a pity that they could not be saved.
Si Huang silently looked at the past. Even as a bystander, he would no longer experience the pain caused by the gene collapse, but this is her memory, not only the people and things experienced in the memory, but also the feelings. Residual, so she remembered what it felt like. Without her own awareness, her face changed instantly in reality.
At that moment, she heard the sound of the sika deer and seemed to rush, and remembered that besides the sika deer, there was another person here, and that was a very important person.
Before Si Huang remembered who it was, he instinctively said, "I know you are here, don't stop me." Then everything went quiet.
She looked at Bai Guangxi with a smile and said to her, do you want to change your mind and be a human again? Then he said to himself, it’s not her if you change your body, right? She looks terrible, it seems that she doesn't even know her brother, and she is useless if she doesn't know her brother.
As a useless experimental subject, it is also a waste that has not successfully awakened. It is a luxury to change her body, and she will not be implanted with biochips as cannon fodder.
Bai Guangxi said that he could still help her if he asked him.
At this time, Si Huang seemed to have all his memories back, together with the sober emotions that seemed to be back then.
For Bai Guangxi's request, she chose to refuse, changing her mind to her body? She doesn't believe in Bai Guangxi, and doesn't want to lose herself. If she loses even herself, then she might as well die, but she is unwilling, very unwilling.
Finally, Si Huang saw that he was dragging his mutilated body, slowly crawling out of the test bed, climbed to the window, and then continued to climb out. He fell from the window on the second floor. He didn't fall to death but he couldn't move.
Si Huang always thought that the memory of her death was discarded by others, but it turned out that she crawled out by herself.
At that time, there seemed to be a problem in her brain, and the memory in her brain was chaotic. With an inexplicable willpower, she crawled out of the room with the last strength.
Bai Guangxi looked at her without stopping. His eyes seemed to be watching the butterfly being torn off its wings, leaving only a useless body. It fell from a high altitude and landed on the rotten leaves outside. Sooner or later, he could not escape. One dead.
She just lay on the ground like this, no one to care about her and no one to collect the body, waiting for her body is rotting, maggots, bleeding, broken, cloudy eyes looking at the sky, can not see clearly.
"Do you want to live?"
When this voice sounded in my head.
What did she think at the time?
Si Huang was silent, watching himself answer without hesitation: "Yes."
Yes, she had forgotten the laboratory experience at that time, but she could not forget the instinct to survive.
She doesn't believe in Bai Guangxi, but believes in her subconscious.
She thought that voice was her subconscious mind for survival.

Si Huang opened his eyes.
The first thing he saw in his eyes was Qin Fan who rushed to her eyes, and the other party blocked the sika deer.
Si Huang's first sentence was: "The clues Morris gave are true." Based on the several locations and nouns that appeared in her memory, it can be determined that the clues Morris gave are true and correct.
Qin Fan's pupils tightened, squatted down and hugged Si Huang, gritted his teeth and asked, "What are you hiding from me!?"
The last time Si Huang told him about a lifetime memory, but said he and Duan Qizhou's possible fate, but she didn't say that she had been to create a god!
If you haven't been to creating a god, how can you be sure that the clue Morris gave is true? Just thinking about the several changes in Si Huang's expression, Qin Fan knew that memory was definitely not a good thing.
Si Huang stretched out his hand to hug Qin Fan's head and rubbed one hand on Qin Fan's face. The other person's temperature was higher than normal, warming Si Huang's cold heart.
"Last time you were bullied by the country, I helped you out." Si Huang said nonchalantly.
Qin Fan stared at her.
Si Huang went on to say: "This time I was bullied by the creator. You help me find a place."
Qin Fan didn't speak, don't think he couldn't tell that this was putting him on a condom.
He was going to deal with the creation of gods, but he was going alone.
Si Huang's finger paused, "Refused?"
Qin Fan stared at her firmly.
The two looked at each other for a few seconds, and finally Qin Fan was defeated, "Okay."
Special! He is sure that if he does not agree, Si Huang has the ability to go by himself! In this case, it is safest to put people under your nose!
Si Huang rubbed his dog's head and smiled, but his eyes were unpredictable.
If she hadn't seen Qin Fan for the first time, she had just awakened from that kind of memory, she wouldn't know what she would do to dispel the dark emotions that surged deep in her heart.
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Today officially began to ask for leave to write the ending, about a week, the last one time, no one has guessed my last brain hole so far, O (∩_∩) O haha~ The last is your Majesty group of people and gods, etc. The waiting stage for the final battle is also a testimony of the whole people. We will be there or be separated by then! To be honest, I also think it is very sudden. The plot after that is in my mind, no more, no less, and I don’t know if I can finish it in a week, but I believe it will give you an unexpected perfection, at least it has always been mine. The idea has not been shaken. I have come to the present with my feelings and everyone’s support. It can be said that the book of the male really did not deliberately delay the word count, so I think I wrote it wholeheartedly. It may not reach the highest but it is me. What can be done perfectly! (づ￣3￣) づ╭? ~ Dear little angels, see you then! Love you guys! Even if you leave temporarily, don’t forget that I’m forgetting the male god, ╭(╯^╰)╮Yes, I have to ask you for tickets at the last time, hahaha!