Chapter 40:

When the two finally separated, the blizzard outside had stopped, and the air conditioner had entered the set sleep state.
It seems that the whole world has stopped all the noise because of their kiss.
In the dimly lit room, only the unsteady breathing of two people remained.
The cold and hard floor made Zhang Man feel stiff and uncomfortable even with a blanket. If he sleeps here one night, he will definitely get sick tomorrow.
"Now, Li Wei, will you sleep with me, okay?"
Zhang Man grabbed the boy's skirt, put his head on his chest, and asked softly. As soon as she spoke, even she herself was shocked.
Her voice is actually much softer than usual, with some intimate coquetry and close dependence.
The young man leaned lazily against the wall, hugged her, and shook his head, with a helpless smile in his voice: "Manman, sleep with you, I will open my eyes until dawn."
In fact, even if he sleeps on the ground, perhaps tonight, he will have to sleep all night to calm his fiery heartbeat.
"I won't disturb you, can't I be far away from you?"
Zhang Man was afraid that he would disagree, so he immediately added, "I will sleep with you anyway! If you don't sleep in bed, I will sleep with you on the ground."
I have to sleep with him...
After hearing her words, the boy laughed uncontrollably, and the slight vibration of his chest passed through her skin against him and spread to her body.
Zhang Man became angry and raised his hand to pinch his arm: "Don't be crooked, I mean sleeping together, nothing else."
The teenager coughed, with unspeakable joy in his voice: "Well, I didn't want to be crooked."
In the end, he couldn't bear her insistence and lay on the bed with her. They slept on both sides of the bed under the same quilt without disturbing each other. Zhang Man folded the blanket and placed it between the two of them, and set up a 38th line.
Prevent yourself from wanting to hug him to sleep.
"Good night, Manman."
The young man raised his hand and turned off the only light in the room, hearing her breathing gradually became regular and smooth.
He opened his eyes and gradually adjusted to the sudden darkness.
The darkness and silence that spread all over the body are still familiar, he is very used to it, because they are uninvited every night, day after day, year after year.
His eyes were clearly open, but he couldn't see anything, and the slight sense of powerlessness swept through again.
However, in the next second, a warm little hand stretched out from the end of the 38th line and fumbled and grasped his hand.
"Li Wei, I... I can't sleep, shall we have a chat?"
"Ok."
The young man curled his lips, closed his eyes, and gently squeezed the palm of her hand.
He thought, probably from now on, he has a way to resist the darkness.
"What did my mother say to you just now?"
Zhang Man turned over, facing him, still very curious.
The teenager was quiet for a while, and then calmly replied after a while: "She said that she knows many people in society... If I act on you, she will let someone break my leg."
Zhang Man took a breath of air, unexpectedly Zhang Huifang spoke really harshly, and then she couldn't help being a little funny. She was bragging about it, she didn't know anyone in society.
She thought about the kiss again.
"Then you still..."
The boy laughed playfully: "What...what?"
"……It's nothing."
The thin-skinned problem occurred again.
Zhang Man began to change the subject and asked cautiously: "Li Wei, has your mother contacted you recently?"
The boy gave an answer without hesitation this time, in a relaxed tone: "No, we haven't been in contact for a while. I've been very busy recently, and I guess Janet has a very fulfilling life."
"Then... what about your friend? The friend who discussed issues with you the last time I went to your house."
"You said Nick? He has his own business recently. He hasn't come to me for a long time. What's wrong?"
"It's nothing."
Zhang Man didn't dare to say more, fearing that he would notice something, but listening to his reply, those delusions hadn't happened for a long time.
Her restless heart relaxed slightly.
It seems that her previous inferences are valid. After he was with her, his life was fulfilled and the frequency of illnesses decreased a lot. She felt sweet in her heart. If this continues, maybe his frequency of illness will decrease until he doesn't get sick again.
When he no longer has delusional symptoms, she will choose whether to tell him or not.
By then, this incident should have a much smaller impact on him, right?
In thinking, Zhang Man gradually fell into a deep sleep.
...
The biological clock caused by self-study early in the morning made Zhang Man open his eyes early in the morning.
Because the curtains were closed last night and the winter night was very long, the room was still dim when she opened her eyes, making it difficult to tell when it was.
For a moment Zhang Man thought it was at home in N City. On her bed, she rolled over slowly, but in the next second, she met her eyes.
The owner of those eyes was only away from her, and he could breathe.
The boy's face was not very clear in the dim room, but when those eyes were looking at her, it seemed as if thousands of lights were on. He gently leaned in and kissed the corner of her lips. .
"Manman, good morning."
The soft and warm touch made Zhang Man's whole body confused and awake in an instant, her face was flushed, and she was not daring to vent her breath.
He was so close to her, his breath flicked the pores on her face, making her itchy.
Zhang Man's memory began to recover, and his hand tightened on the quilt.
Last night, they slept together...
But she clearly remembered that she put a folded blanket in the middle as a three-eighth thread?
Zhang Man tried his best to recall, yes, there was such a blanket at first, but then she seemed to cross the blanket to hold his hand, and then...she looked at where she was lying now.
Well, it was the boundary she crossed, and she was already lying on the other side of the dividing line.
Annoyed, Zhang Man reached out and hugged the teenager beside him, and buried his head in his shoulders.
Now that they are all over the line, a hug in the morning is not a big deal.
Zhang Man began to regret again, knowing that she would cross the boundary when she fell asleep, so she hugged him to sleep last night.
The boy's body is very refreshing, without any sticky feeling, and his body is warm, and his chest is hot, much warmer than hers. In the cold winter morning, it is no different from a warm stove.
Zhang Man arched in his arms comfortably.
Her voice was still a little hoarse, her mouth closed all night, and she mumbled quietly.
"what time is it now?"
The boy trembled a little when she hugged him. He was quiet for a while before answering, his voice was strangely dry and dry, and it was not the same as usual: "It's very early, it's five o'clock in the morning, you can go to bed for a while. I just watched it. The snow stopped. I should be able to go back today. ."
Zhang Man was surprised, it was only after five o'clock, he actually got up so early.
"Li Wei, were you asleep last night?"
"Well, I slept well."
Actually, he didn't fall asleep at all. He was in the darkness, eyes open, and looked at her all night.
He felt that she was not in a good sleeping posture, and from time to time he stretched out the hand of the quilt, and he heard one or two dreams from her occasionally.
He simply didn't want to fall asleep, he wanted to hear her every breath, in the boundless darkness, to give him a real and incomparable feeling of being alive.
It’s not that I didn’t have insomnia until dawn. Most of the time, it was because some derivations were not clear, and I thought about it all night.
But it has never been like this.
My heart was so turbulent that I couldn't sleep, and I was worried that after I fell asleep, I opened my eyes and found that it was just a dream.
He thought, he was afraid that he loved this girl very much.
Perhaps the boy’s embrace is warmer than the bed, and Zhang Man’s sleepiness is rising again. She plans to go back to sleep: "I want to hold you to sleep for a while, OK?"
"Ok……"
The teenager kissed her heart restraintly, reached out his hand to pat her back, and said dumbly: "Go to sleep, I'll call you later."
The sixteen or seventeen-year-old is the most energetic.
In fact, lying on the bed and being held so tightly by her, especially in the morning, he is very uncomfortable, it is really restless and unbearable.
But this kind of suffering was completely defeated by the nightmare feet full of her.
...
When Zhang Man opened his eyes again, the sky was already bright. She was embarrassed to find that she was hung tightly on the boy like an octopus, with one leg still on his waist.
She quickly took off her messy thigh and raised her face to look at him.
The boy closed his eyes and breathed quietly, as if sleeping.
Chenguang passed through the tulle curtains embroidered with gaudy flowers, showing a kind of pink, and hitting half of his face unscrupulously. The light and shadow effects make his face look sharp, smooth brow bones, stopped nose bridge... Everyone who looks good has an excellent bone.
She looked attentively, but found that the boy suddenly opened his eyes.
"Wake up? I just checked. There are buses back to N City at noon and night, Manman, when do you want to go back?"
"It's noon, my mother should wait for me at home."
"Um... Manman, then we should get up, there are two and a half hours before the start."
...
They cleaned up briefly, then left the room and went downstairs to have breakfast. Before checking out, the old man made a special trip to the room last night, and specifically checked whether there was a box of things on the bedside table.
The heavy snow in the sky stopped last night, and at the moment there was a vast expanse of whiteness outside. After the blizzard, City Z is extremely quiet, like the city of ice and snow in the animation, with silver-white streets, thick snow caps on the roofs of old houses, and sections of electrical wires in the sky covered by ice and snow...
Everything greeted this gentle world peacefully.
The blizzard seems to have passed.
...
After a few hours' drive, they returned to N City.
Unlike City Z, City N is still snowing at this moment. In the boundless snow, thick ice formed on the road, every step was slippery, but Zhang Man was not worried at all—because the teenager in front of her had been holding her hand.
There were very few pedestrians on the street, and the two walked from the station to the downstairs of the unit, only to meet a few people-among them was a gray-haired grandmother, holding a few years old child, while coaxing her to sleep, while crouching Cover her back from the wind and snow.
In the wind and snow, there is a different kind of warmth.
Zhang Man looked at them and sighed for a while, but at a certain moment she felt a little strange-these two people, she seemed to have a familiar feeling.
But after the two walked into the cell building next door, she still didn't think of it.
I probably saw it in the community before I felt familiar.
Zhang Man shook his head and stopped thinking about it. He took the young man's hand and babbled and exhorted: "Li Wei, I'm here, you go back, go back and remember to eat cake, I asked the cake shop to send it to your home today. ."
"What do you call me?"
The teenager was quite upset about her unconsciousness.
"--boyfriend."
Zhang Man lowered his head slightly, rubbed his forehead against his chest, jumping out word by word.
"Boyfriend, I'm going up."
"Well, Manman, go."
He released her and squeezed her face.
Zhang Man turned his head upstairs one step at a time. When he reached the second floor, his heart was still pounding. She was lying on the window on the second floor, leaning over and looking down, and found that the young man was still standing downstairs, looking up at her.
He stood beside the green belt under the unit door, behind him was a large swath of snowflakes. The evergreen shrubs in the community are all covered with gloomy snow at the moment. The boy is dressed in grey, wearing a black baseball cap, and his clean face has a warm smile that makes her heartbeat.
Snow fell on his body, she noticed, because he raised his head, a playful snowflake fell on the tip of his nose.
Zhang Man's heartbeat became more and more chaotic. She waved at him eagerly, then ran down the stairs quickly, ran to him, and pulled his sleeves.
The feeling of being in love is really wonderful.
Later in her previous life, Chen Feier took her to the cinema to watch a youth literary and artistic film. The heroine in it was standing at the corner of the stairs, and when she was about to leave the actor, she stepped back and said, "I One step away from you, I'm two steps away from you..."
She still remembered that when she saw this place, she couldn't help but complain to Chen Feier: "It's not that I'll never see it again, so why bother."
But when it was her turn, she realized that it was not because she missed her not to see, but because she had already missed it before separating.
People who fall in love are always so strange that they will see each other again until the next day, but they can't bear to leave each other.
She took the boy's arm, leaned forward gently, and kissed his left cheek.
After Zhang Man kissed him, he was a little embarrassed to look at him, and lowered his head: "This time... Am I really going up?"
With a cheerful smile in his voice, the boy turned sideways and hugged her, and responded in a low voice, "Well, go up now."
In the vast snow, a cool gray-black teenager stood in the snow, staring at a certain window on the floor, and had not left for a long time.
...
When Zhang Man returned home with a face full of spring, he realized that something was wrong.
Zhang Huifang was holding her arms, leaning against the corner of the dining table, looking at her in time.
"Tsk tusk tusk, Zhang Man, I just saw it on the window just now, your relationship is very hot."
She said, grinding her teeth a bit. Even if the kid is handsome, she looks good, but this feeling is still a bit subtle.
Anyway, she has raised a cabbage for 16 or 7 years.
What's more, a pig that looks pretty good is also a pig.
Zhang Man was embarrassed for a while.
She was blundered, as she should have expected, the unit door could be clearly seen under the living room window. She pretended to squat down to loosen the laces and ignored her.
Unexpectedly, Zhang Huifang continued to hit the nail on the head, without giving anyone a buffer of time: "Let's say, did you sleep last night? I let it go. If that kid really rushes to touch you, I will break his leg."
Zhang Man was speechless: "Mom, what are you talking about, he is still a minor."
She realized that she had missed her mouth: "You are too impure. We are still minors. How can we do that."
After she finished speaking confidently, she suddenly felt a little guilty about the lingering kisses one after another last night.
It's not that nothing is done.
She coughed to cover up: "Well, anyway, it's not...cough."
Looking at her like this, Zhang Huifang probably guessed it in her heart. Sitting on the sofa, she was a little earnest and thoughtful: "Zhang Man, I have always advocated that I have been in this village without this store. Don't miss it when you meet it. , I still have to remind you that girls must protect themselves. It’s okay to fall in love, but you must not break through the last line of defense before you become an adult and before you have judgment."
"Don't be like your mother and me..."
Zhang Man's nerves jumped, and she actually mentioned her past events.
But Zhang Huifang apparently realized it too, and quickly changed the subject: "Man Man, yesterday, your Uncle Xu... proposed to me."
Zhang Man was a little surprised: "So fast?"
It was less than a month before the two of them were together again, and she thought they would have to run together for half a year.
"Well, Manman, I haven't... promised, I want to ask your opinion."
When it comes to her own affairs, Zhang Huifang is not so straightforward. She walks to the sofa and sits down, knitting a new scarf-style woolen fabric in her hand—it seems difficult to speak without touching something.
"Mom, you don't have to worry about me, you just feel right. Do you think, are you happy with Uncle Xu?"
Zhang Huifang started gagging again, pretending to wave his hand indifferently: "I'm at this age. Whatever happy or unhappy, I just think he can make do, can make do and live together."
Zhang Man didn't let her pass the test easily this time, and sat down beside her with a serious expression: "Don't say anything about it. If you can't say it, you can nod. I will ask again. You are with him. Together, are you happy?"
Zhang Huifang was startled, put down the tangled scarf in his hand, and nodded invisibly for a long while.
Zhang Man breathed a sigh of relief: "Then marry, Mom, I will be your bridesmaid then."
As long as she feels happy.
Zhang Man thought about half of what she had just said, and the past that she didn't say further, she thought, maybe it was related to her biological father.
She had wanted to ask a few more questions, but she swallowed the words.
If Zhang Huifang didn't want to say it, it would be useless for her to ask. It was like that in her previous life. She had been in her thirties without knowing who her biological father was.
Everyone has an unspeakable pain in the deepest part of my heart. There are many things in life that you don’t have to let go of. Maybe it’s not a good choice to bury it deeply in your heart and stop remembering.
...
The violent blizzard lasted until midnight.
That night, Zhang Man suddenly woke up from her dream. She knew where the familiar feeling came from when she saw that old grandma today.
In her previous life in her community, during this time, a very terrible event happened. A child from a family in the next unit was taken away by a trafficker.
It was the grandmother who took her granddaughter out to buy groceries, put the granddaughter in the stroller, and was taken away without paying attention.
Zhang Man couldn't remember the specific time and place, but only vaguely remembered, as if it was the winter of this year.
Why is it still impressive after so many years?
Because that old grandma was hit hard afterwards, she dangled at the gate of the community with pictures of her children every day, and asked if anyone had seen their nanny.
N City TV also reported this incident at that time.
Zhang Man remembers that after she transferred to H City, she heard Zhang Huifang mention this. I heard that the human trafficker gang fell behind, but the grandmother's granddaughter fell ill and died halfway through the trade for several years.
It is really a tragedy.
Zhang Man thought of this, and suddenly couldn't fall asleep. At least today she saw that grandma, the child she was holding in her arms, should be the child who was later abducted in her previous life.
...
Early the next morning, Zhang Man waited at the gate of the next door.
This incident happened this winter. She still remembers the heartbreaking cry downstairs on the day when the family lost their child, and the white background at that time.
It's winter, that is, not far from now, maybe it is today or tomorrow.
Zhang Man didn't know the house number of the grandmother's house, so he could only wait. Fortunately, the wind and snow had stopped outside and it was not too cold.
About an hour later, Zhang Man waited for a familiar figure.
The old grandma walked out crouching, holding an eco-friendly bag in her hand, probably going to the vegetable market outside the community to buy vegetables.
Zhang Man had already thought about her excuses, stopped her, and said with a smile: "Hello grandma, I am a student volunteer in our community. During this time, there have been several cases of missing children in N City. Traffickers are rampant. I hope everyone Families with children must pay attention, and must be optimistic about their own children!"
The grandmother froze for a while, and smiled for a while and replied, "Thank you, little classmate, I must be optimistic about my family. These kidnappers are not people, and they are hundreds of times worse than the worst evil spirit!"
Zhang Man was worried, and said: "Grandma, you must pay attention to this. This winter, you must be careful. Be careful not to put her in the stroller alone, as it is easy to be carried away."
"Well, I will, little classmate. It's such a cold day, hard work for you! I must look after my baby every moment, rest assured, there will be no mistakes."
Zhang Man was relieved.
She thought that she not only hopes that the people she loves will be safe forever, but since she knows that some tragedies will happen, she must also try to prevent it.
Children are unique to every family, and no family can withstand such a blow.