Chapter 143: "happy" alive

What about my sister? Did she really fall in love with Shen Tianyang? Is she... really happy?
Ah, ah! ! ! !
Why is this happening? In this world, happiness comes so fast, and it always makes him feel dreamy. It turns out that this is not an illusion. Everything is false. His happiness comes from the sacrifice of his family.
He held his head and thought of the previous smugness, the infatuation with Mu Jingyuan, and he was so shy that he was so self-satisfied, especially those who often think of it when they think of it, but they feel extra sweet, and they are debauchery in bed. The initiative and obedience make his face burn like a fire. I really hope that God can give him a seam that will never come out and let him get in. I hope that time can go back again and return to the moment of rebirth. He must They will hide far away in the first place, even if they feel that they have died unexpectedly, after a short period of time, they can start a new life, and he can hide in the dark and try to change other regrets.
In fact, it is still okay now, Big Brother and Jiang Ge should be very good, the land in the south of the city is taken down, and Bai will be good. As long as the white family does not fall, there will be no more tragedies. Big sister... If she is true Falling in love with Shen Tianyang, that's very good, Shen Tianyang also loves her very much. If... their love is just a play, then without him, everything will be back on track.
He lifted his dry eyes and looked around the room, his eyes fixed on the glass on the table. This time, Mu Jingyuan was not there. Can he succeed?
He walked slowly toward the cup as if he was a demon. The obsessive look was like watching Mu Jingyuan, the cold fingertips touched the cup. He laughed at himself, no wonder his room didn’t know. When I can never find any weapon, the glassware is only left with a cup of water. It turned out that he was afraid of suicide.
I am afraid that he will commit suicide. Yes, everyone is doing this to fear that he will commit suicide. If he is dead now, is it not to waste all efforts and sacrifices?
He gently put down the cup, he can't die, he can't even hurt, he has to live, his family is doing this, he hopes that he can live, he can be happy, then he should be "happy" to live, think about it, His mother, his father, and his Jingyuan, they heard how gentle the tone was when Dr. Zhou said that he was going to be better. Now, are they happy? And you are just a rotten meat, what can you do with this body? What's more, with Mu Jingyuan acting, he still took advantage of the big sky...
Cherish this time, Bai Yihan, waiting for you to be "good", Jingyuan will return to the "normal" life. At that time, you should not make a ridiculous look that makes them feel embarrassed, you will laugh. Have you wished him happiness? You have delayed him for too long.
Sure enough, living is the greatest punishment for God.
He walked to the bed and slowly lay down on the bed and closed his eyes as if he had never been out.
Bai Yihan, in fact, what are you feeling? So many people love you, you are happy, I am... happy Mu Mumu, Mu Jingyuan sent away the doctor, and chatted with the white parents a few times before returning to the room, see Bai Yihan still asleep, I can't help but feel annoyed that I was too indulgent last night. I have to be too much, so that his baby is so tired.
He sat down at the bed, lovingly caressing the broken hair in front of Bai Yihan’s forehead, and got permission from the white parents. His mood was a little bit leaping. If Bai Yihan was awake, he really couldn’t wait to marry him. Get the certificate today, use that piece of marriage book to become his legal partner, and become a real family with him.
He gently clicked on the tip of the white han, the little voice said: "Little guy, sleep so heavy, tired?" Since it is so tired, I will spare you tonight.
Bai Yihan’s face is somewhat white.
Is it cold? Mu Jingyuan looked at the air conditioner and found that the remote control was raised two degrees. He helped him pull the quilt and sat at the bed for a while. He looked at the time and went to the company. Today, because of Bai Yihan’s return, I have been delaying for a long time, but Bai Yihan is asleep. I can’t bear to wake him up. If I take him on the bus, I will wake him up. What is the difference between this and wake-up? Do you want to go to work alone today? ! Oh, it’s so bad! Hey, who made me unable to control last night, tired of culvert?
Forget it, anyway, the doctor said that he can give him some private space. He is still young and loves to play. He is detained all day, he will be annoying?
Then... take him to the company tomorrow, oh, you have to say a word to Bai Ayi, let Han Han wake up and call him! Hey, poor self, going to work alone, it’s just a sad person, seeing tears...
He wanted to kiss Bai Yihan before he left, and he was afraid to wake him up. He had to lean over and breathe in the neck of Bai Yihan. How is my culvert so fragrant? It is clearly the same shower gel, and he never used perfume or something! Is this the legendary body fragrance (and not)? what! You are a little guy who specializes in temptation!
Looking at the lover who was trapped in the quilt, Mu Jingyuan really did not move, honed for a long time, seeing that Bai Yihan really did not have to wake up, and finally went out one step at a time.
The door lock "squeaked" and it was still a small sound. This is the gentleness of Mu Jingyuan.
Bai Yihan on the bed opened his eyes, his eyes were clear, there was no drowsiness, his face was full of no joy, no sorrow, very calm, he lay quietly, his eyes quietly looking at the chandelier on the roof, moving still, probably For an hour, he opened the bed with his quilt and went to the bathroom with no expression. After he took care of himself, he opened the door.
At the moment of opening the door, his face hangs a bright smile, and his footsteps are very brisk downstairs. The white mother is watching TV, seeing him down, happy to say: "Hanhan, are you awake? Come over mom. Here, you can sleep long, is it not sleeping last night? Hungry, not hungry?"
Bai Yihan walked up to her and sat down, holding her arm as usual: "I feel so sleepy, I don't feel hungry."
The white mother patted his hand and smiled and squinted: "It's all so big, it's still cozy with my mother, I have to have lunch. If you are not hungry, just wait for lunch at noon. You Yang took the soup and let her First Sheng _ bowl to give you a pad?"
Bai Yihan kept holding her arm and said: "No, I will wait to eat together at noon. Now I have a soup. I can't eat it after dinner."
The white mother nodded: "Well, you are right, right. Just now you fell asleep. Jingyuan couldn't bear to call you. He went to the company alone, and called him when he woke up."
Can't bear it? Yes, after all, he loves himself so much, and he is more dear than his younger brother, but isn’t that the case? More importantly, Dr. Zhou said that he is not allowed to stay with me. Jing Yuan, you can finally have a little space of your own, will you feel a lot easier?
You can rest assured that I will be "good" soon, and you will be patient.
After a lapse of half a month, the birthday of Bai’s father arrived, and the white family came to the western suburbs one day in advance. The family was very busy and the atmosphere was very pleasant.
Mu Jingyuan looked at Bai Yihan, who was smiling, and frowned slightly. He couldn’t sweep the strange feeling in his heart. For a while, he always thought that Bai Yihan seemed to be a bit uncomfortable, but he usually laughed or laughed. Hey, or spoiled, he is very close to him. It is no different from the past. At least it seems that everything is normal, but he always feels faintly, and his culvert has changed quietly.
For example, the relationship between them, their love and love has always been harmonious and beautiful, Bai Yihan in the bed always has unlimited connivance for him, as long as he wants, as long as he does not, he will comply, but recently, Bai Yihan always finds various reasons to refuse his enthusiasm. This kind of thing, of course, requires two people to long for it. It is the sublimation of love. He does not want to be arrogant and white, as long as he does not want to, he would rather endure. I will not go to force him. For half a month, they are only once together, and they are not very happy, because Bai Yihan can’t concentrate on it. He is not without emotion, but he seems to resist. He doesn’t even have a climax. Such a situation, in fact, do not pay attention to it.
Although it is good to just sleep together, Bai Yihan is by his side. Although he is more and more reluctant to accompany him to the company, his attitude towards himself is as usual and there is no dissatisfaction. He always is himself. Advise yourself to say that it may be that the culvert was too tight and suffocating some time ago. It is not surprising that his ambition would want some independent space of his own, and in the company, he has to work very rarely to accompany him. Play, he will be very boring, do not like to go normal.
However, the feeling of restlessness is always lingering. He can't help but send anonymous posts online. The results are very unsatisfactory. Almost everyone said that when the lover no longer longs for your body, no longer sticks to you. Then you are basically finished.
He is very dissatisfied with this result. His ambiguity is very good to him. He cares about him and depends on him. There is nothing wrong with getting along with him. But why is his heart more and more uneasy?
He thought of this, couldn't help but want to take the hand of a white han, Bai Yihan seems to wave inadvertently, he could not get it, think about it, the family is there, even if they know that they are lovers, always hold hands It was also not very suitable. His fingers were gently gripped, and he looked at the white han of his usual color. His heart was inexplicably flustered. His hands were tight and loose, loosened and clenched. After a few times, Still did not hold back, reached out again, gently grasped the wrist of Bai Yihan, as if only such physical contact, can ease the anxiety and anxiety in the heart.