Chapter 22: Escape the last time

Bai Yihan leaned back against the door and sat down on the floor with his hands on his head. At this moment, he did not understand whether his rebirth was God’s pity for him or punishment for him. Oh, it’s punishment, he is punished for this life. To sin before the redemption, punish him with a smile and treat his beloved as a brother-in-law, punish him for his feelings can not see the sky for a lifetime, but also to smile, to bless the pair of wall people, be a good Good son, good brother.
In his heart, there is a violent abuse and unwillingness. Why? Yes, he did something wrong, but isn’t it enough to be punished in his life?
Is the insult he suffered and the pain he suffered in his heart not a redemption? He died in such a disgusting and embarrassing manner. When he died, there was no relative, and only the bodies of the disgusting perpetrators who were killed by him personally accompanied him.
His last request to the police was to ask him not to disclose his identity and shame his family. He was not buried where he was buried. His afflicted body did not know how many people would watch the study. He died. I can't see the person I love again. When he dies, he can't even close his eyes!
Are these not atonement? why? Why can't he let him go, can't let him quietly sink into the eternal sleep, why should he let him come back, and once again bear the pain of love! ?
At this moment, he really wants nothing to ignore, everyone goes to together, but he can't, what is wrong with his family? They love themselves and embrace themselves. They don't do wrong things and shouldn't be hurt.
Bai Yihan’s low smile, just like this, the Buddha said: the evil cause, the evil.
He is a sinner, a dirty, disgusting, rotted and stinky person. He should bear the consequences of his own mistakes. This is the responsibility he should take, isn't it?
My brother said that he grew up and is sensible. Yes, he grew up and should be responsible for his actions. If God feels that he is not punished enough, he will continue to live and play his role. Everything about himself makes the family who loves him feel happy. Just like the half-month since he was born again, he is doing very well, isn't he?
However, it is a Mujingyuan. He does not belong to himself. What is painful for himself? I don’t have this qualification at all.
If this kind of disgusting and distorted love of the same sex, let him know, will he leave again without returning, and will never return?
If so, what should the sister do? Still like the last time, is a lonely person living?
No, can't do this, Bai Yihan! If you are fighting for strength, you must not show your feet. You can no longer use your disgusting feelings to hurt Mu Jingyuan and your sister!
He looked up, his eyes were red, his eyes were bloodshot, like a cub trapped in a desperate situation, full of pain, but the red eyes were dry, without a trace of tears.
He gasped a few breaths, slowed his breath, leaned his head on the door, closed his eyes in exhaustion, and let him finally escape this time. Next time, he will surely meet Mujing with the most perfect smile. Far, send him and his sister a blessing.