Chapter 42: Chapter 42

The car was driving in the dark, slowly turning into Yushui Nanyuan.
"Are you going home?" Jiang Ci was confused.
Wen Nian: "Well, go home."
"Aunt Ning is okay?" Jiang Ci got off the car and Wen Nian brought her here so late, she couldn't help worrying about Ning Shuyue.
Wen Nian opened the entrance guard downstairs: "I took time to come back to see her at noon. She ate more than a few days ago, and she has the strength to nag me."
Jiang Ci felt relieved: "Where does she nag you, she loves you the most."
The two entered the elevator room one after another, and Wen Nian pressed the fifth floor.
"So what's the matter? It's such an urgent need to come over now?" Jiang Ci still had no idea.
Wen Nian: "You'll find out later."
She left the party and brought her to Yushui Nanyuan from home, and kept selling Guanzi. Jiang Ci really didn't understand the medicine in Wennian gourd, but she didn't ask any more.
When the elevator reached the fifth floor, Jiang Ci went left to Ning Shuyue's house, but Wen Nian stood on the right and called her: "Aci, here."
Jiang Ci turned his head, Wen Nian slowly opened the door of the house that Jiang Ci had lived in for more than ten years and then sold.
Jiang Ci stayed in place: "Sold it here? It was sold to a professor named Lin..."
Wen Nian: "After I made money, I bought it from him."
Jiang Ci watched Wen Nian walk towards him, then took her hand and led her into the house.
"Professor Lin modified it, I have tried to restore it, but many of your graffiti, on the wall, on the furniture, can't be restored." Wen Nian opened Jiang Ci's palm and solemnly placed the door key in her palm: "I have bought it for a long time, but I can't speak,...I know I am not qualified and have no confidence."
Wen Nian had been holding the key before, and her body temperature had already covered it up. Jiang Ci's heart seemed to be severely grabbed. She realized what she could not believe.
Wen Nian: "I...Aci, we are the same kind of people. The label of'illegitimate daughter', the shadow it brings to you, and the harm it brings to me, run through my life from birth. I have never been asked not to Willful, can’t make my father unhappy. You have to learn a lot to please him, and you must be the best in every aspect, whether you can understand it or not, whether you can absorb these pressures. We are trapped in a shameless cage Here, but none of us can resent, we must be grateful to our father for giving life, and we must also be grateful to our mother for her hard work."
Wen Nian choked as she spoke, and Jiang Ci's eye sockets gradually moistened. What Wen Nian said was what she had experienced since childhood, and the two had too much resonance and similarity.
"When I was eight years old, you may not remember. My mother had a miscarriage and was hospitalized. She was in a critical condition at the time and she almost died." Wen Nian suppressed tears: "She was pushed down the stairs on purpose. I remembered that one. His face was so hideous in his dreams for five years. I wanted to find him out, and I wanted to ask him why he treated my mother so much, why he treated my unborn brother so much, and how much hatred he has towards us. !? Later, when I grew up a little bit, I realized that there is so much unprovoked hatred in this world, but it is only money that can make ghosts worse."
Why didn't Jiang Ci remember that that year Xiao Wen Nian, holding the same little girl tightly, kept crying, even sleeping.
Wen Nian: "Aci, you are very lucky. Your father is not so ruthless. Aunt Jiang married into Tong's family. When Hao Hao was born, I was sincerely happy for you... But my brother, isn't he innocent? The illegitimate daughter deserves to be a mouse in the gutter, should she hide when she sees people? Why? We are obviously no worse than anyone! — I will take back what should belong to me and should belong to my brother. "
"I have to do a lot of things at all costs. Aci, I, I can feel your heart for me, my heart for you is true, every response is true, but step by step forcing myself to stay away from you , Also true."
"No one understands you better than me, no one understands what you want better than me. I can give you loyal love, but I can't give you an upright identity until I have a firm foothold."
"I can't selfishly let you wait for me, let alone wronged you to repeat the mistakes of Aunt Jiang. You have always been so proud, and I can't make you fall into the mud."
Wen Nian looked up, and warm tears rolled down her cheeks: "I haven't dared to think about it until that day...on that day, the day I can say these things to you, is it possible for you? Will belong to me?"
Jiang Ci turned his back.
She spent her entire youth to love someone, so many years later, finally gave her a response.
Sorrow and heartache occupy all of the brain, and his thoughts are completely confused. The love that used to be year after year, day after day, and the pain that could not be desired, such as the sea submerged her.
Jiang Ci said dumbly: "You tell me this...you tell me this now."
"Aci", Wen Nian took Jiang Ci's hand and pulled her back, with a trembling voice: "Am I too greedy?... Am I still living in your heart?"
Quiet house, familiar furnishings, in front of me is the person who has loved for many years.
"I can't give you a reply now." Jiang Ci said with tears, "Give me some time."
As the night got darker, Jiang Ci was going back, and Wen Nian was about to send her off, but Jiang Ci refused.
She walked out of Yushui Nanyuan, wiping tears along the road. After walking for a long time, she realized that she wanted to take a taxi.
The taxi driver saw her crying all the time, but dared not say anything, and silently handed her a pack of tissues from under the barrier.
Jiang Ci was outside the house and opened the door when the tears were all gone.
Lu Xingxue was in the living room, and as soon as Jiang Ci appeared, she greeted her: "I'm going to buy an apple, do you want to eat it now?"
Jiang Ci's crying eyes were red and swollen. She avoided Lu Xingxue's gaze: "Thank you, I don't eat anymore, now I want to rest."
Lu Xingxue looked at her worriedly: "Jiang Ci?"
Jiang Ci: "Yeah."
Lu Xingxue: "Are you okay?"
Jiang Ci shook his head: "I'm going back to the room first."
Lu Xingxue watched her back disappear into the corner of the stairs.
Jiang Ci fell on the bed and fell asleep in a daze at dawn. Dreaming, returning to middle school in the dream, going to school with Wen Nian, sharing lunch on the playground, the temperature of the sun on the skin in the first summer, Wen Nian said that she frowned when she received the love letter... true Seems to happen again.
Jiang Ci woke up with tears on the pillowcase. My eyes were still so swollen, I had to wring a damp towel and apply cold.
She has to go to work this afternoon.
After cleaning up for a long time, his eyes were finally able to see people, Jiang Ci changed his clothes and went downstairs. She was not going to have lunch at home, but she smelled the scent of food floating in the air on the stairs.
The windows on the first floor are bright and clean. Today is a sunny winter day.
Lu Xingxue sat alone at the dining table. When Jiang Zi appeared, she stood up: "Jiang Zi."
Jiang Ci mobilized his emotions, pulled the corners of his lips, and smiled at her: "There are so many dishes, Aunt Zhuang is gone?"
Lu Xingxue: "Let's go. Are you going to work? Let's go after eating."
"Okay." Jiang Ci put down the toolbox, walked over to pull out the chair, and asked while sitting: "Why are you at home this time? Is the company busy?"
Lu Xingxue: "Today is the weekend."
Jiang Ci: "...I don't remember the time."
Lu Xingxue: "It doesn't matter, let's eat first."
There was no sound at the dinner table, Jiang Ci watched Lu Xingxue, Lu Xingxue ate quietly, but didn't eat much, didn't pick up many dishes, and the rice in the bowl was not scarce.
She looked very worried, and they were still talking and laughing last night... Jiang Ci felt a pain in her heart.
Soon, Lu Xingxue put down the tableware and wiped his lips.
"...You eat too little. The beef made by Aunt Zhuang is delicious today, so try it too." Jiang Ci used clean male chopsticks to pick up a chopstick of beef for Lu Xingxue and put it into her bowl.
Lu Xingxue looked at her and raised his chopsticks again.
"Eat some more." Jiang Ci picked up another chopstick for her.
"I'm enough. The beef is made for you. Eat more." Lu Xingxue whispered softly, slowly bringing the beef in the bowl into his mouth.
Lu Xingxue went straight upstairs without waiting for Jiang Ci after eating. Jiang Ci stopped eating soon after she left, simply disposed of the dirty bowl, and stuffed it into the dishwasher.
After wiping the dining table, Jiang Ci picked up his toolbox, walked to the door, and fell back.
"Lu Xingxue", Lu Xingxue's door was open, and Jiang Ci knocked on the door: "I'm going to work."
Without answering, Jiang Ci stood by the door and heard vomiting inside. She was taken aback, hurriedly walked through the room and pushed open the door of Luxingxue Neiwei.
Lu Xingxue held the washbasin, heard the movement, turned to look over.
Jiang Ci exclaimed: "Lu Xingxue! What's wrong with you!?"
Lu Xingxue's eyes were red, and her skin was full of red spots.
"...I'm okay." Her voice became hoarse, and Lu Xingxue vomited again. He turned on the faucet, washed his face, rinsed his mouth, picked up the medicine box at hand, and took a pill.
Jiang Ci stepped forward to see the name of the medicine: "Allergy medicine? What are you allergic to?"
Lu Xingxue avoided talking: "I'm fine, I vomited, and took medicine. Don't you still want to go to work? Go ahead."
Jiang Ci had never seen Lu Xingxue look like this before. She was a little frightened and held her hand tightly: "I will accompany you to the hospital!"
"No." Lu Xingxue comforted her: "It's really okay, I know my body."
"What did you eat?" Jiang Ci was still asking: "...Beef? Beef is it?"
Only then did I remember that after having known each other for so many years and had the same meal so many times, Lu Xingxue had never touched any beef dishes! Last time she ate at Ning Shuyue's house, she left all the beef that Ning Shuyue gave her.
Jiang Ci's chest rises and falls: "You are allergic to beef, then why do you still want to eat it?"
Lu Xingxue couldn't help it, "...I don't think you are happy, and I don't want to let you down again....I thought it would be fine to eat a small amount."
Jiang Ci couldn't help but raise the volume: "Lu Xingxue, can you stop joking with your body!"
Lu Xingxue: "Jiang Ci...I'm sorry, I'm sorry, but I think it's too simple to consider your feelings."
Lu Xingxue is allergic and uncomfortable, and it is Lu Xingxue who is careful to apologize. The feelings are so delicate, and her unsteadiness makes Lu Xingxue also affected and become so sensitive.
Jiang Ci's eyes were blurred, and the emotions that had been tense since last night were completely defeated at this moment: "What do you want me to do? What do you want me to do!? ... I will blame myself! I don't care about you, I even You don’t know what you are allergic to! What do you want me to do!?"
Lu Xingxue tried to hold the emotional Jiang Ci into her arms and patted her on the back: "I'm wrong, I should tell you in advance."
Jiang Ci knew that he was playing with the question, but his tears couldn't stop, "I blame myself, I'm too bad."
Lu Xingxue saw that the window in the room was open and the sunlight was just outside.
She coaxed in Jiang Ci's ear: "Don't cry."